memory hole

He is willing to endure.

He wanted to make sure whether Deng Yi had really gone abroad, so he decided to go to Zhao Qi.

puppy love (old things)

107

A rain brings the breath of winter,

The petals of the poinciana begin to fall,

Zhong Xian found the bar opened by Zhao Qi based on his memory.There is a tall mango tree not far from the bar.Three years ago, when Zhong Xian met Zhao Qi for the first time, he was almost hit by a ripe mango there.

It was a bar with music and western food that was not loud.The first time Zhong Xian came here was to watch the band perform.Then he hooked up with the young and beautiful female boss Zhao Qi.They broke up after only three months together.

It's not that he doesn't like Zhao Qi, it's just that he doesn't have the ability to love anyone.He was able to catch them one by one, but couldn't go on.Falsehood never lasts long.But strip away the falsehood, and he's just a mass of air, unsupported by anything real and powerful.

Zhao Qi is perfect, rich and low-key, not as ostentatious and vain as most beautiful girls.Deng Yi's vision was correct.

Zhong Xian was ready to be scolded by Zhao Qi, and waited in the bar until late at night but Zhao Qi did not appear.As he was about to leave, he smoked a cigarette in front of the bar.The red Cayenne drove up and stopped by the side of the road. Zhao Qi got out of the car and walked quickly to a black Mercedes behind her. Her long curly red hair was swaying behind her, which was very eye-catching. She leaned down and met the people in the window. Say something, laugh again and again, and then kiss each other goodbye.The Mercedes-Benz starts to drive up the driveway.

Zhong Xian threw away the cigarette butt and rushed out from the sideways thrust. The black Mercedes was blocked and had to brake to a stop. The window was lowered, and Zhong Xian saw clearly that the man in the car was not Deng Yi.

"I'm sorry, I admitted the wrong person." Zhong Xian apologized repeatedly.Watching the Mercedes-Benz drive away.

Zhao Qi's voice came from behind.You're welcome. "Stop the car in the middle of the night, are you sick?"

Zhong Xian turned around and looked at Zhao Qi suspiciously. "who is he?"

Zhao Qi put his hands in the pockets of his long coat. "What are you doing here?"

Zhong Xian took out his cigarette, he started smoking after Deng Yi disappeared.After lighting one, he solemnly said to Zhao Qi: "I came here just for you. I think it is necessary to say sorry to you. Last time I saw you at Deng Yi's house, I kept thinking about you, even if you had forgotten that you were I'm sorry."

"Don't come here, just tell me what you have to say." Zhao Qi said bluntly.

"Just to apologize. Can I treat you to a late-night snack? I've been waiting in your store for a long time."

Zhao Qi thought for a while. "Come in." She led Zhong Xian into a VIP booth in the bar.Once seated, the waiter brought a bottle of wine and some nice glasses.Zhong Xian still has an impression, three years ago he often sat in this position to watch the band performance in the bar.

"You are more beautiful than before. I was stupid to give up on you. Deng Yi said you are a rare good girl." Zhong Xian was a little impatient.As soon as we met, I kept mentioning Deng Yi.He wished he could ask sooner.

"Deng Yi said?" Zhao Qi added ice cubes to the glass.

"I confessed our affairs to him. I hope you don't mind. He trusts you very much, and you really caught a treasure this time. But who was that Mercedes-Benz man just now?"

Zhao Qi didn't say a word, holding her wine glass and showing a smile, she had a strong aura, like a queen under the dim light of the bar.

"Let's talk." She handed a glass of wine to Zhong Xian.

"What?" Zhong Xian took the cup and shook it.

"Aren't you here to apologize?"

"Oh. Yes. I didn't appreciate you before. I regret it. Hope you know that."

"and then?"

"Hopefully we can be good friends."

"and then?"

"No more. That's all. I can't have you, but at least, I can still be friends around you."

"What does it mean."

"I just don't want to have nothing to do with you. It's nothing else. You have a better choice now. Deng Yi is much better than me. Don't misunderstand what's between me and him. Even if I have any thoughts, it's useless. He There is only you in my heart." Zhong Xian touched Zhao Qi's cup, no matter how the other party reacted, he drank it all in one gulp.

Zhao Qi drank the wine in the glass, then pointed to Zhong Xian's nose and said. "Do you admit you're an asshole? Of all the people I've dated, you're a clown. That's enough. Don't lie to me a second time."

"Don't dare to expect too much." Zhong Xian said honestly.He could tell that Zhao Qi was already drunk, and she and the Mercedes-Benz man had already had a drink. "I heard that you are going to get married next year. I am really happy for you. Deng Yi is such a perfect person."

Zhao Qi laughed dryly and poured wine into the cup.

"I won't tell Deng Yi about the man just now, but I remind you, don't make the mistake I made back then. If you miss it, you will only regret it."

"Thank you for your advice." Zhao Qi's tone was stiff.

"I heard that Deng Yi went to America. Where will your wedding be held next year?"

Zhao Qi didn't answer, just looked at Zhong Xian with his eyes.

Zhong Xian said calmly: "You want a Western-style wedding or a Chinese-style wedding. I heard that the locals in Guangdong still maintain the habit of Chinese-style weddings, wearing a lot of gold, silver and jewelry on the bride. It's hard to imagine your appearance, a Western-style wedding It suits you better."

The midnight band started playing a quiet guitar tune.

"Zhong Xian, don't take me for a fool. Did you come here because you heard that I was getting married? You came for Deng Yi, right?" Zhao Qi turned his gaze to the direction of the band and sighed.

"I heard that he has gone to the United States and will study there for a few years. I'm here for you. I'm afraid you will be sad."

"Are you afraid that I will be lonely?"

"How can you be lonely? You have the most perfect boyfriend, you are the darling of heaven."

"Why should I be lonely for any man?" Zhao Qi said with a sting.

Zhong Xian didn't make much progress with Zhao Qi.He felt that it should be over, but he wanted to know Deng Yi's situation so much that he could only persevere. "You still can't forgive me."

"I don't care about you, Zhong Xian, but you don't deserve my forgiveness." Zhao Qi showed that angry smile again. "I can accept our platonic way of getting along, but you finally let me see you with other women... I know that's not true. Now I finally know the reason."

"You misunderstood, I was..."

Zhao Qi raised his voice: "Do you really want to be friends with me now? There is only one way, which is to show sincerity! Stop trying to lie to me. Otherwise, get out of my sight."

Zhong Xian was speechless.

Zhao Qi poured wine into Zhong Xian's cup, and she was a little drunk: "Do you admit that you lied to women a lot?"

"This one……"

"Remember my warning just now, either tell the truth or get lost."

Zhong Xian's face felt hot for a while, but he felt that Zhao Qi was right. "I probably just want to avoid trouble. Telling the truth to women is always troublesome. Dealing with women, if you don't learn to tell beautiful lies, you can only run into walls everywhere. I spend time researching them. I probably feel that sooner or later I have to marry one. Go home. I have to teach myself how to get along with them first."

Zhao Qi laughed: "Okay. Not bad. Although it's hard to hear, it's a truth. I'm not the kind of woman who is stupid and only wants to listen to fairy tales, so if you tell me the truth, even if it's ugly, I won't be angry. Only when you plan to lie to me with sweet words, you have no chance of being friends at all. Like I said, I'm not angry when you tell the truth. I should have seen that you don't like women. Those three Yue, you and I have been dealing with each other for three months, and I won't be angry if you admit that you used me as a training object. You will kill whoever you marry. I hope you will stop in moderation. "

"It's not that I don't like women. It's just that I can't find anything in common..."

"This sentence is not true. You have never kissed me. I'm not so ugly that you can't speak... Have you ever kissed other women?"

"I don't kiss anyone. Never." Zhong Xian said.Seeing Zhao Qi's unbelievable expression, he added. "Really. I've never kissed anyone."

Zhao Qi's expression looked more wrong than when Deng Yi knew about it at the beginning. She stared at Zhong Xian in a daze for a moment, but her eyes gradually softened.

"How did you and Deng Yi meet?" she asked.

"Didn't he tell you?"

"He said he's known him for a long time."

"Half a year."

"Half a year, what should happen will happen."

"Nothing happened to us."

"Did you forget my warning? Get out if you don't tell the truth." Zhao Qi said with a smile. "You start from the beginning. How did you know each other in the first place?"

"Should we start talking about the first time we met? It was at the KFC next to SZ Book City. He pretended to be a policeman to investigate a disappearance case. We talked for more than ten minutes before saying goodbye. I thought we would never meet again, but then he Find me, the reason is to investigate the case..."

"Go on."

"Later, we started dating. There are too many details, and they are unremarkable, so there is no need to talk about them."

"What kind of person do you think he is? Describe it."

"How should I describe it? It's not that you don't know each other... You must listen to me... Well, in my opinion, he is very special. I was impressed at first glance. His eyes are very clear. When I look at him, There will be a dazzling feeling. He is tall and often plays tennis, but there seems to be something unspeakable... He always wears a faint and very nice perfume, which can be smelled clearly when leaning on him, probably Gucci. His The hair is soft and tidy, and the skin is white but healthy." Zhong Xian knew that he had talked too much, but it was like too much flood had accumulated in his heart, and it was difficult to control when he encountered a gap.

"Everyone says he is a handsome man." Zhao Qi added quietly on the side.

"I don't want to use this word to describe him, to me he is not only handsome, he is very strange to me... sorry, I shouldn't be like this