Ginger Soda

"Do not bother me."

"Xiao Yan..." Su Ji stretched out his hand weakly, hoping to save something.

"Don't call me that." Jiang Yan sat on the imperial concubine chair with his legs crossed. Su Ji could only see his cold white neck under the moonlight, stalked into a line, and the corners of his eyes and brows were covered with frost. He seemed to have seen Some threads floating in the air, if you don't hurry up, these threads will tightly entangle Jiang Yan, wrapping it impeccably, people outside can't get in, and people inside can't get out.

He walked up to Jiang Yan and squatted down, raised his head and softly coaxed Jiang Yan, who was a little drunk, trying to remove the wine bottle he was holding.It's okay not to pull, but Jiang Yan's reaction became more intense when he pulled. He swung his whole arm, and the entire bottle fell to the corner of the wall. The wine soaked the carpet, and the fragments flew everywhere.

"Hiss..." Su Ji took a breath, the mouth of the bottle hit the corner of his mouth just now, it should be broken now.Jiang Yan was also a little stunned, his eyes became clearer, and he wanted to touch the wound with trembling hands, but Su Ji grabbed his hand. "Let go!" Jiang Yan shouted in panic, "Don't touch me!"

Su Ji wanted to hug him, but Jiang Yan struggled fiercely, attacking everything he could touch, including Su Ji's body.Su Ji couldn't bear to hold onto Jiang Yan's stubble, squeezed his neck and pressed him down towards him, and his lips were naturally stuck together.

Jiang Yan felt that a string in his brain was broken.There was a brief silence in the room, and he began to resist even more frantically.Su Ji's tongue stuck in. It was supposed to be a lingering moment, but now it was full of blood and violence. I don't know whose blood dripped down the chin on the pure white bathrobe. Both of them were in pain. One wanted to One is trying to break free from the prison, and no one will give in to the stalemate.

Su Ji suddenly felt a dull pain in his mouth, and the wound that had just been opened was now being torn a little bigger.Panting, Jiang Yan turned his face away, his whole body was trembling with anger, and his voice was like a mosquito: "...Go away...Su Ji...I don't want to see you now..." Su Ji froze there, Jiang Yan never called his name, and now he is full of rejection and pain.

"I'm sorry..." Su Ji said with his head down, and wiped the blood from the corner of his lips with his sleeve.Suddenly he felt some hot liquid dripping onto his cheek.

"What are you sorry for..." Jiang Yan's always arrogant eyes were red at the moment. He sat on the sofa and looked down at the man, but he couldn't restrain the emotions that burst out of his eyes.It seems that because of this kiss, all the conflicts between them were bitten together, Fu Yu's matter, Zhou Fu's matter, Su Ji's gray past, Jiang Yan's self-loathing, one after another, it was revealed. , was evaporated by alcohol to emit an intuitive stench, which made it difficult to breathe.

"I think you are really nothing, Su Ji, just such a person, he didn't have the courage to be with you at the beginning! Is it that good?! I just feel angry, I just think he is not worth it, I just think He Zhou Fu! He is not good enough for you! You have been thinking about him for ten years!"

"At the same time, I feel that I have no right to scold you. I am the one who is not a thing. I am sorry for you first. I use you first. I hurt you first. I dragged you to make myself look less pitiful. Go to the mud, now you and I are the same thing, how can I turn around and say that you are not?"

"No...I've never felt that way...Xiao Yan, don't be like this, it's all over, I have nothing to do with him..." Su Ji knelt there helplessly, he didn't know what method to use Only then can I hug the hedgehog in front of me, "Didn't you say it yourself? I only have eyes for you, and I only love you..."

"Love..." Jiang Yan showed a broken smile on his tearful face, "Of course I think so, I think the person who is the most worthy of you in the whole world is me..." Su Ji nodded quickly, stretched out his hand to think He went to wipe Jiang Yan's tears, but was avoided again.

"But... don't touch me." Jiang Yan gently pushed Su Ji's hand away. For a second, he felt that his skin was a sin. He only felt that his whole body was dirty and his heart was cut into thousands A lot of dirty liquid flowed out of the hundred holes, which were possession, unwillingness, desire, anger, jealousy, resentment and exhaustion, all of which had a vicious stench, and blackness filled every inch of the pores on his body.Su Ji's hand was white and dazzling in his eyes. When he pulled him down, why didn't he think the white was so beautiful? If he touched it, it would be dirty again...

Jiang Yan seemed to have suddenly thought of a good solution. As long as Su Ji was sent out from the mud, Su Ji could become the same him before, the one he never met himself.God will not be as vulgar as the general public, he is not worthy of God, yes, that’s it, after doing this, he will not be a bad person, and he will no longer have to bear that kind of guilt...

He turned around abruptly, staring straight into Su Ji's eyes, his whole body was even a little excited: "Su Ji, otherwise we..."

Jiang Yan's hand was suddenly clenched with considerable strength, and it was a little twisted. The man in front of him seemed to be trying his best to hold him tightly. His legs were paralyzed without support, and his knees were slightly bent. Knocked on the back of his foot, and his whole body trembled in pain.Su Ji didn't give Jiang Yan any chance to take his hand away, he buried his face between those hands, and kissed the root of Jiang Yan's left ring finger fiercely.

"Please...don't say..."

"I don't want to be dumped again...I beg you..."

Something fragile and hot dripped from between his fingers. Jiang Yan wanted to grab it, but nothing remained.

No.60 Nine Acts

Jiang Yan still couldn't say that sentence.

Su Ji knelt on the carpet, buried his face between his tightly clenched hands.The man was crying fiercely, his whole body trembling like chaff.Jiang Yan has never seen Su Ji like this. In his memory, Su Ji is elegant, sexy, calm, and self-sufficient. Even at the end of the world, he will be the last person with meticulous clothes.

He is His Royal Highness who is closest to him, and the man who is so embarrassed that he can't cry, seems to be crying in the next second are two extremes.

Jiang Yan looked around blankly, it was a mess, he wanted to get something to wipe Su Ji's tears and he couldn't find it.If he was furious with jealousy just now, now he is completely distressed.He didn't know what Zhou Fu had done to make Su Ji so afraid of the word "breakup" after so many years like a PTSD patient, but combined with the stories he heard, it was almost inferred.

He suddenly wanted to laugh, people like Su Ji are probably well-known emotional killers in the circle, thinking about those beauties who are flying moths to the flame, he himself doesn't know how much sincerity he has ruined.When the mouth said those words, it didn't consider other people's feelings, but the ears refused to receive such information, and couldn't hear it at all. It was really self-willed. Why?

Su Ji slowly raised his face from Jiang Yan's hand, and slightly loosened his grip on Jiang Yan. "Xiao Yan..." "Get up, sit with me for a while." Jiang Yan wiped Su Ji's face, without any emotion in his tone.The neon lights outside the window are dazzling, and this city is full of Su Ji's most innocent and innocent emotions when he was young and loved someone wholeheartedly.

Jiang Yan would never ask the question of who do you love more now, that would be too naive and meaningless, there is no such thing as what comes first, and there is no one who is more or less.He silently lit a cigarette and exhaled the smoke ring, deliberately not looking at Su Ji's red eyes.

He wants to draw a clear line with Su Ji for any reason, and he doesn't want to see Su Ji lose control like today, he shouldn't be like this.On the other hand, you can't force others to live the same life as you because of your own desires and emotions.Now that he thinks back, whether Su Ji or Fu Yu, even Dong Siyang, they are not from the same world as him.The brand that is rooted in the bones and related to the growth of life will never be erased for a lifetime, and the air that is breathed is not of the same purity.

Su Ji should not have squatted down with himself, half of his body buried in the mud.

Jiang Yan dusted off the cigarette ash with his beautiful pale fingers. He was really serious and rational thinking about this issue without any personal emotions.If that encounter hadn't happened, Su Ji might still be lingering in the flowers without touching any leaves, living a chic and unrestrained life, living like the kind of person Jiang Yan yearned for and hated in his heart.And Jiang Yan may not be able to escape from Fu Yu's shadow for the rest of his life, yearning in the dark, pretending to know nothing and not being hurt in the bright place, he may still follow the established track to find someone who is not good. The poor man acts as a substitute, heals and heals himself, trying to find out the shining point of that man who is pitifully rare, and then makes a fuss with the family members of both parties, and finally gets together, or never sees each other again.

Without that encounter, their relationship would be like the office buildings of Shiguan and Epiphany, standing at both ends of the street, seemingly inseparable, entwined by ambiguous lights, but so straight that they would never meet.

If not for that encounter.

No if.

But it's not too late to make amends.Jiang Yan picked up Su Ji's hand and wiped it hard. It's really good. The silt is still white after wiping it off. Unlike himself, no matter what you do, it won't help. After all, he grew up in such an environment since he was a child. No matter how hard you try, it is impossible to break free from the shackles and become an eagle.

"Su Ji, I hope you will listen to me carefully...