Ginger Soda

He opened the package and took out one, twitching it anxiously with his fingertips, waiting for the boss to change the money so that he could go to the smoking room, "He doesn't want to see me now."

"Can't you smoke a few less?" Qi Shu also lost his temper. He had dreamed of Su Ji for so many years, starting from college, but lost to Jiang Yan, who appeared very dramatic, and he was still unconvinced. Now that he saw his former high-spirited crush smoking and drinking, he was even more annoyed at Jiang Yan, "You two had a fight? Was it really fierce?"

"...He wants to break up." Su Ji rubbed the filter of the cigarette at his fingertips, and threw it into the trash can.Glancing at the cotton ball on the bench played by Jiang Yan, he felt a strange softness sprouting in his heart. He wanted to look again but was pulled by Qi Shu's sleeve.

"What are you doing staring at others..." Qi Shu sighed, "Because of what?...Zhou Fu?" As Su Ji's college classmate, he also heard some stories about this colorful Bai Yueguang.Jiang Yan originally thought that he would not overreact so much after a month, but he still flinched in pain when he heard the name.

"Well, before Yuan Kai got married, the two of them met. Xiao Yan was in a bad mood..." Su Ji regretted that he shouldn't let Jiang Yan accompany him. This is his past, and there is no reason for him to Jiang Yan bears it together.

"In this case, it's better for you..." Qi Shu weighed it up, and felt that he would rather lose to Zhou Fu than to lose to Jiang Yan. Who knew that Su Ji's air pressure immediately dropped when he heard this, and there was a tinge of excitement in his voice. He said coldly: "Qi Shu, if Zhou Fu is just a cigarette to me, then quit it, no matter how difficult it is, I have survived until now..." He took out another cigarette and lit it, ruthlessly He took a deep breath and then extinguished it. When he spoke, the smoke escaped a little from his lips and teeth, reflecting his face a little misty and heartless, "But Jiang Yan, it's opium."

The poison named Jiang Yan permeated every inch of his flesh and blood, and even the cracks in his bones exuded an addictive cold fragrance. He didn't want to quit, and he couldn't quit.

"You want me to quit? How to quit?" Su Ji pinched the root of his ring finger, "I will die."

The boss of the newsstand has been listening to them chatting, clicked his lips with emotion, and lamented that the young people nowadays are the best cultural lovers. After they left, they saw the young man in the hoodie on the bench next to him. Pack paper towels over there.

No.70 scene

"Are you really not going?"

"I really don't want to go."

Miao Miao reluctantly pushed open the glass door and left, seeing her decadent boss lying on the sofa not long after he came to the company, and now turned over, swiping his phone boredly.He was not like this before, even if he didn't show up, he would always go to the event site, why did he have such a temper when he came to his press conference.

Jiang Yan only thought about praising work when he was broken in love and lost his memory.He has been spinning around for a few days. If he went to the venue for this press conference, he would definitely look at the layout of the venue, process settings, etc. to make himself unhappy, and he might really die young.

He looked at the soft text on his phone, blowing the propaganda department's really reliable guys one by one.The highlight of Jiang Yan this time is still the ring, Valentine’s Day and 520, the ring is always very attractive, the people from the publicity department put a part of the design of the ring at the end of the article, but this time the style does not have the “thorns” "With Roses" is so dramatic and design-intensive, and it is very different from his previous design style. Jiang Yan is not sure how many people will be interested in it, and how many people will buy it. Although it is limited, in case It's really embarrassing if no one wants it.

There is another very important reason, he is afraid that Su Ji will go to the scene...

Jiang Yan took his bag and left the studio. He glanced at Su Ji's office and saw that the man was listening to Secretary Wei's report with a serious face. Before the other party found out, he left the studio in three steps. There are several unfinished design drafts that need to be picked up from Su Ji's house.

Jiang Yan hailed a taxi and rushed to Su Ji's Na, which didn't even exceed the starting fare, which was much more convenient than the fact that he had to get up an hour earlier to go to work from Yunzhe District.After entering the door, he wanted to go straight to the study, but was entangled by Josephine.The sweet cat meowed, its tail wrapping around his ankles and rubbing around in a coquettish way.

"I know, I know, do you want to eat canned food?" Jiang Yan knelt down and stroked the cat, and picked it up, "How did your master raise you? He said several times that you can't just feed cat food. There's no food for a shriveled one..." Jiang Yan opened the cupboard, opened a can of tuna for Josephine, and then went into the study.

He couldn't stay any longer, any longer would be lingering Ling Chi.He can't be soft-hearted, once he shows weakness, he will drag the man into the mud again to soak in the dirty and pulpy with him.

Jiang Yan didn't know where this strong self-loathing came from, but it was like a gangrene entrenched in his mind.He longs for a man's touch, companionship and love, but he cannot enjoy this emotion peacefully.From childhood to adulthood, he has always been a role model for his teachers and a role model for his classmates. Flowers and applause accompanied him to grow up all the way, but everything was turned into ashes on the day he was forced to come out with his parents.

It seems that everything went wrong from that day on. His parents always thought he was a stain on his career, he changed jobs, his relationship with Fu Yu broke down, and he coincided with the kind of person Ji Qiong despised... Even if Su Ji put himself Holding him in the palm of his hand and pampering him, he wanted to hold his hand in the street, wishing to announce to the whole world that they were a perfect match. Jiang Yan also hoped for all this, but he always felt that this matter should be a secret. No sound, no sound.

Because homosexuality itself is disgraceful.

...It turns out that I have always thought so... No wonder... No wonder!

Jiang Yan sat on the chair and laughed softly for a few times, which gradually turned into maniacal laughter. At the end of the laughter, his voice became hoarse, and he coughed a few times before he recovered.He looked at Su Ji's high school graduation photo in the bookcase, and now he finally saw clearly the part covered by the man at that time.

At that time, Su Ji hadn't grown his long hair yet, and his refreshing short hair seemed to be a little sweat-stained. He was standing behind Zhou Fu, and the two men next to him had met at the wedding. They should also be good buddies who slept together. While dressing up Zhou Fu with rabbit ears, the male teacher looked helpless and doting, Su Ji wrapped his arms around Zhou Fu's neck, made a gesture with his longer hand, and rested his chin on the top of Zhou Fu's hair , The smile is as bright as the stars.

Jiang Yan couldn't bear this kind of openness.

He obviously desires love more than anyone else in the world, longs for the wholeheartedness in the eyes of the other party, and longs for physical contact with lips and tongues.Now that he has got it, he is more afraid of the exposure of his relationship than anyone else. He hopes that Su Ji belongs to him alone and falls into the muddy swamp with him. The possessiveness and hidden tyranny brought out by his mother almost torture him This kind of torture let him roughly know his own essence. Instead of being discovered by Su Ji and the world, he found that standing next to the man who was perfect like a god was full of rotten black mud after tearing his flesh and blood, He wanted to end it by himself.

So at this time, more than anyone else, he hoped that Su Ji would return to the sun.

He is aboveboard and loves what he loves.

What else do you want to hold hands, hug, kiss, agree with...

Look, he doesn't even bless himself.

Jiang Yan couldn't cry, this sharp self-confession made him more frightened than sad, and even blocked a normal channel of venting.He looked around the dusty study room, his desk was covered by a man with a translucent cloth, all the materials remained as he left them, Jiang Yan quickly found what he needed and left the study room , There is too much dust there, I always feel that I will suffocate in it in the next second.

He couldn't help but glanced at the bedroom with the door open again. Su Ji's sleeping appearance was dishonest, and she always liked to surround him, and she was so sticky in her dreams, so the pillow was always crooked, and it was still the same now, but his own pillow, It was placed squarely, and even the quilt tried its best to keep it without wrinkles, and a clear line was drawn on the same site as Su Ji's semi-bomb attack.

Jiang Yan, you should hold back.He said to himself, now he is gripping the door frame so hard that his palms are almost wounded.He took a deep breath for a few seconds, and fled from Su Ji's house again.

He fled to the vicinity of Liuxiang, and only then did he feel that he had left Su Ji's home.The sun was a bit bright, and there were many people on the street, but at this moment, no one was holding his wrist like that person, walking ahead of him to break through the crowds, being his sail and lighthouse, overcoming obstacles for him, and invincible.

"Xiao Jiang? It's been a long time since I saw you? What do you want to eat now?" The proprietress of Ma Xiaodian was very happy when she saw Jiang Yan.

"I'm busy with work these days, so I haven't been able to visit my aunt..." Jiang Yan turned his gaze back to the signboard in the store, and suddenly smiled slightly, "A serving of wontons with shrimps in clear soup, without coriander."

No.70 Act Two

"...The finale of the series theme of 'Heng Xing' is the pair of rings named 'Athanasy'. Everyone who is familiar with Epiphany knows the style of designer Jiang, but this time he challenged the minimalism. Excuse me Does it have any special meaning?"

Jiang Yan fitness returned home and turned on the TV, lying lazily on the sofa.It was [-]:[-] in the evening, which happened to be the end of the press conference. The reporters keenly captured the change in his style, and asked sharp and tricky questions one by one.

"The keynote of 'Heng Xing' is still gorgeous and treacherous, each work is the impact fusion of minerals and metals, but designer Jiang got inspiration from a wedding a few days ago