don't sacrifice

Finally, all the dust settled.

"Boom, boom, boom!"

It was already late at night, but someone knocked on the door of Shen Luli's house.The sound was amplified many times in the silence.Shen Luli sat up suddenly, and ran to open the door without even putting on his shoes.

The door was opened, and Zhou Qichen was seen standing outside staggeringly. He smelled strongly of alcohol, probably because he had drunk a lot.

"You...why did you come? I've been waiting for you for several days!" Seeing his appearance, Shen Luli was very surprised at first, and then hurriedly persuaded him to come in, "Come in first."

"I won't go in." Zhou Qichen raised his head. Although he had drunk a lot, his consciousness was still clear and he knew the purpose of his visit this time. "Give me the key, I want to go home!"

"Where have you been these few days? I didn't answer your calls. You drank so much tonight... why don't you sleep here." She didn't want to give him the keys, so she reached out to Zhou Qichen went to her house to help her.

Then a hand stopped her movement.

The man who appeared suddenly startled Shen Luli, she looked up and found that it was a rather charming man who had stood beside Zhou Qichen at some point.

It was the first time she used the word charming to describe a man, but it was indeed appropriate.The dim yellow light in the corridor added a background to that person, a pair of red phoenix eyes looked at her with a half-smile, and the corners of his mouth seemed to be raised randomly, but it seemed to have a deep meaning.

"He won't sleep with you tonight." The man seemed to have drunk too, but he was more sober than Zhou Qichen.

"Who are you!" Lu Li felt angry when he saw his expression, but also felt that he and Zhou Qichen seemed to have an unusual relationship.

"You don't have to ask who I am, just bring the key." Jiang Yuan still smiled, but there was contempt and hostility in this smile.Zhou Qichen was already a little drowsy, so Jiang Yuan took him into his arms.That scene hurt Lu Li's eyes.

"You..." She stretched out her fingers and pointed at them in surprise, her fingertips trembling slightly.

"You still haven't handed over the key?" Jiang Yuan frowned deliberately, "Could it be that you want to see your ex-boyfriend kiss another man in front of you?"

He deliberately emphasized the words "ex-boyfriend", as if he had already revealed his current identity to Shen Luli.

"You..." Lu Li opened his mouth but couldn't say anything. Looking at the two men outside the door, she felt an inexplicable anger in her heart.

"Get out, Zhou Qichen!" She yelled and threw the key at them, "You guys are disgusting, disgusting, disgusting!"

After shouting these words, she slammed the door with all her strength, and it seemed that the whole building was shaken.

With her back against the door, she slumped slowly, kneeling on the ground and crying heartbreakingly.She thought she could keep Zhou Qichen today, but how could she have imagined that he would come here with another man.Didn't he say that he fell in love with Bai Huaijin? Then who is this man today?He didn't come home without a key for so many days, where did he go?

In fact, she didn't hate homosexuality very much, but it was too incomprehensible for this kind of thing to happen to her boyfriend.When did Zhou Qichen start liking men?Since he likes men, why should he be with her?

Shen Luli cried a little out of breath, she still tried her best to convince herself that the person she fell in love with wasn't a scumbag, he just didn't love her anymore...

The night wind was cool, but the night in Beihai City was very bright.Once downstairs, Zhou Qichen broke free from Jiang Yuan's arms, his eyes were bright as usual, without a trace of drunkenness.

"Why did you get up so fast, I haven't hugged her enough yet!" Jiang Yuan scowled, seeing his serious expression, couldn't help laughing again, "You really hate her, she's really sad when she cries."

"Who asked you to say that kissing stimulated her in front of her?" Zhou Qichen frowned and gave Jiang Yuan a stare.

"Can she get the key so quickly without provoking her?" Jiang Yuan also rolled his eyes at him, Zhou Qichen's footsteps were a bit fast, he had to trot to keep up, "Besides, it was such a bad idea that you came up with first, You're still pretending to be drunk! You can't make it clear to other girls, you have to break up like this indiscriminately."

"I can't tell..." Zhou Qichen sighed, and a gust of night wind blew up, blowing the hair on his forehead, "I know her well, if it wasn't like this, she would still pester her endlessly."

Jiang Yuan was silent for a while, then slowly said, "You are too cruel."

The street lights in front of him flickered twice, Zhou Qichen looked up.I saw a group of moths around the lamp, flying around the light and heat as if fascinated.

He stopped and looked under the lamp for a long time.Jiang Yuan stood opposite him, and also raised his head to look around.

"That..." Finally, Jiang Yuan spoke first slowly.

"What?" Zhou Qichen didn't turn his head, his back was always facing him.

Jiang Yuan was silent for a while.He squatted down slowly and sat on the curb beside the street lamp.

"Actually, you suddenly called me to the hotel that day. I was quite happy. I thought you had figured it out..." He crossed his fingers and put them on his knees, and a few summer fireflies quietly flew past his eyes.

"But who knew that you drank half to death as soon as I entered, pulled my trouser legs and called other people's names, and you were about to cry! You really don't feel ashamed, that's the first time I saw a man cry This way..." He rolled Zhou Qichen's big eyes while talking, "If I hadn't been staying in the hotel to take care of you these few days, you would have died at some point!"

"...Thank you for the past two days."

When he said this, Zhou Qichen turned around slowly, walked to the side of the road and sat down beside him.

Jiang Yuan sighed and turned to look at him.The light cast a glow on Zhou Qichen.He was still silent. Although he was much better than the previous few days, he seemed to have lost his smile since then and became inarticulate.

"Why bother?" Jiang Yuan said slowly, "I really don't understand you this time, why do you take that boy so seriously. And since you care about him so much, go Looking for him, is it useful to lock yourself in a hotel and drink half to death!"

"Maybe it's useless." Zhou Qichen raised his head and looked at the waning moon in the sky.He recalled that Xiaobai moved step by step with his injured leg until he was out of his sight. His back was too decisive, and there was no room for Zhou Qichen to recover, "But I can't seem to do anything else. That happened. After that, I went to look for him several times, but he ignored me and avoided me when he saw me. At that time, I really experienced what despair is... Maybe I was wrong about this matter, from the very beginning gone."

"It's all me..." His eyes suddenly dimmed, and the stars in the sky seemed to be covered by dark clouds, "He lost his family and made him so sad, I really deserve to die."

He has been like this for the past few days, and Jiang Yuan doesn't know what to say.He sighed again, with a look of resentment, "It's not your fault, isn't the driver who hit his sister already caught? He's the culprit. Take it all on yourself!"

Zhou Qichen was silent for a long time again, he looked at those moths that seemed to be tirelessly pounced towards the light, with a desolate smile on the corner of his mouth,

"Anyway, I really appreciate that you have been with me these past few days and enlightened me so much."

"I've made up my mind. No matter what, I still have to settle the matter of Qingshan first, so that I will have an explanation for you and him." He turned his head, looked at Jiang Yuan and said, "... Well, you have Don't go back to him again, break off with him quickly. Then you can leave him and find someone better."

"Yeah." Jiang Yuan responded wholeheartedly, but immediately confided his thoughts, "But there is something I want to tell you, I still like you."

"What..." Zhou Qichen paused and turned to look at him.

"If I didn't like you, why would I take care of you for so long?" Jiang Yuan shrugged at him, "Do you remember what I said that day? It was not only for you at that time, but also for you now Said."

"But I... really can't let him go, and I don't want to fall in love anymore." Zhou Qichen sighed deeply to him, and said earnestly, "It's not fair to you, you really deserve someone better .”

Jiang Yuan looked at him, and Yunzi sighed, "It's not worth it, I know it myself."

"Do you know why I'm with Qingshan?" He seemed to be talking to Zhou Qichen about the blood in his heart for many years, and about his unbearable past. "When I was in junior high school, my father sent me I was sent to live with an uncle. On the surface, it was said that the uncle would help me with my homework, but on the first night I went there, the uncle put me to sleep."

Looking at Zhou Qichen's surprised gaze, he continued on with a nonchalant expression, "I found out later that that uncle is the son of a company boss, and he likes this one. My dad was in debt at the time, so it's just like this." He easily decided to use his own son to pay off the debt. I don't think he even hesitated."

"Then..." Zhou Qichen asked.

"Later, the uncle's wife found out about this and kicked me out." Jiang Yuan continued, but his tone was unbelievably calm, "I don't want to go home, I don't want to go to school anymore, I just hang out with a group of people. Goofing around on the street. At that time, I was often beaten, and it was Qingshan who helped me again. After he knew what happened to me, he was very angry for me, so he asked someone to beat up the uncle, and finally got himself into trouble."

"He was locked up for a month and I was very sorry. As soon as he came out I said 'how about me and you.' He was shy at first and kept saying no. He ended up having sex with me within a few days. .” Jiang Yuan spread his hands, with a helpless expression.

Zhou Qichen didn't expect that he would have such a life experience, but he himself looked calm, and he didn't know what expression to show for a while.He had no choice but to ask a question lightly, "Isn't Qingshan very kind to you? Why do you still want to..."

Jiang Yuan raised his head and thought for a while, and said, "He is good to me, but when I see him, I will think of my past...I feel that I have always been that piece of mud in the gutter...I am really Like getting out of this environment."

Speaking of this, he finally showed a desolate expression on his face.Zhou Qichen hadn't figured out how to persuade him, but he suddenly laughed again,

"I think he and I like you for the same reason. You have something in you that you can't even notice, just like hope, which can make me grow up. I don't want to force you now, but I just hope you don't dump me. Leave me because I really want to be with you."

At that moment, Jiang Yuan looked like a doll covered in scars, as if the wounds on his body were still showing cotton.But the baby is still smiling, looking at him with a pair of bright and clear eyes, full of expectation.

But Zhou Qichen knew that he couldn't give him anything, his heart was already full, and he couldn't allow anyone to intervene.

"I can't give you an answer." He didn't dare to look into Jiang Yuan's eyes, afraid that his own words would extinguish the light of expectation, "I just want to solve the Qingshan matter first, as for those, it may take a long time to start again. "