look back again

Chapter No.17

He, he, will he teleport instantly or will he always follow behind Lin Chen?This is a real great god who condescends to follow behind Lin Chen. This profound meaning is really meaningful.

"Who made him drink so much?" Lu Yuanhang didn't go up immediately, but turned his head and stared at Gu Weiren.

"This, um, no, it's our party, and Xiao Lin can't drink too much." Gu Weiren's scalp was numb, and he almost wanted to hit his head to death.

Lu Yuanhang, Lu Yuanhang, what do you mean by the way you look at me? If I hadn’t called you over, how could you have such an opportunity? I, I, I are kind, maybe you have reconciled because of my matchmaking this time. , you, you, what are you doing looking at me so coldly!

Gu Weiren also wanted to cry a little.

"Go out, don't have a next time."

Lu Yuanhang no longer looked at Gu Weiren, but the threat in his tone was still clear.Gu Weiren didn't dare to speak again, he dragged Xiao Liu out in disgrace, and closed the door for them by the way, he decided that he would never do such a good thing.

After hearing the sound of closing the door, Lu Yuanhang slowly squatted down in front of Lin Chen, as if he wanted to touch his frown that was frowning because of discomfort, but stopped above his brow.

He saw the tear stains in the corner of Lin Chen's eyes, did he cry?What are you sad for?Lu Yuanhang still remembered that when he was in school, Xu Li once joked that Lin Chen had to drink, but Lin Chen had no choice but to drink a can intermittently, and then became drunk.

The drunken Lin Chen's face was flushed red and he was extremely cute. He held on to the hem of his clothes without letting go, and kept looking at him with a smile, his eyes full of starlight.

"Lu Yuanhang, Lu Yuanhang."

Lin Chen doesn't usually call himself that. It seems that he rarely calls himself by his name. Only when he is really angry, he will call him bitterly, instead of calling himself by his name softly like now, with an expression on his face. He looked at himself contentedly.

"Hey, I'm here." Lu Yuanhang really liked it, and Xu Li and the others kept joking, but Lu Yuanhang couldn't control so much anymore, all he had in his eyes was the coquettish girl in front of him. Lin Chen, who softly called his name, couldn't put it down.

"Lu Yuan~hang~~~ caught it."

After speaking, he shook the sleeves he had been holding on, with a satisfied expression on his face.

"Yes, yes, I was caught by you, my little ancestor."

Lu Yuanhang also looked at him dotingly, and he couldn't get tired of looking at it.

How happy and happy they were at that time, not like now, you are lying alone crying, and I don't even have the courage to help you smooth your brows.

"Lin Chen..." Finally, his hand covered Lin Chen's forehead, and then he stroked his hair to his temples. It was still wet there, how many tears were shed?How much sadness should you have to shed tears like this.

In memory, Lin Chen really seldom sheds tears. No matter how painful it is, he can endure silently, lick the wound silently, and let him recover by himself. What kind of pain can make you cry like this? !

Lu Yuanhang held Lin Chen's face in his hands, almost wanting to wake him up, and ask him who it is!However, he couldn't bear to ask.

It's such a precious opportunity to get close to Lin Chen at such a close distance, touch his face, his brows, his hair, everything about him so unscrupulously. It's been more than five years. Only dare to do this in a dream, but Lin Chen in the dream is always cold, not as warm and real as it is now.

Lu Yuanhang couldn't control himself anymore, and hugged Lin Chen tightly into his arms.

It's Lin Chen, mine, Lin Chen!

Lin Chen, who never wanted to let go after grasping it...

Lu Yuanhang did not send Lin Chen home, but carried him back to his apartment. After putting Lin Chen on his bed, Lu Yuanhang breathed a sigh of relief.

On this day, his mood was ups and downs. From sending Lin Chen to work in the morning, to seeing him getting close to other men in the afternoon, to seeing him go out with others carefree, everything made him feel sad. I was burning with anger, there were countless reasons to get angry, there were countless outlets to vent, and there were countless opportunities to seize Lin Chen, but I didn't move until I received Gu Weiren's unclear phone call, all forbearance was gone. It became the past tense, and it became empty talk. He almost immediately dropped the phone and rushed out, rushing into their lounge. The fire at that moment could burn through his chest. He wanted to beat Gu Weiren angrily. a meal.But in the end, he held back again.

Lu Yuanhang found that he seemed to have gotten out of the habit of enduring it. No matter how angry he was or how much he wanted to get angry, he could use all his strength to suppress him. This is probably the biggest gain of growing up.

Lu Yuanhang wanted to back out to get some water, but he took a step back and found that the corner of his clothes was held by Lin Chen at some point.Lu Yuanhang was stunned by the bending posture, no matter how much anger and unwillingness he had just now, it all disappeared after he saw Lin Chen's action clearly.

"Lu Yuan~hang~~~ caught it."

Those coquettish words seemed to still be lingering in his ears. Lu Yuanhang looked at the sleeping Lin Chen obsessively, as if shaking him awake and asking, in the dream, were you still the one pulling me? Sleeves, shook his arms and said Lin Chen who caught me?In your dream, will there still be me?

Lu Yuanhang sighed, and felt that he seemed a little ridiculous. What were he thinking? After all these years, Lin Chen had probably started on a new path long ago. In his heart, he probably didn't remember the old Because a can of beer is the only person who is holding on to him, and only himself can be immersed in such a long dream, and he has never been able to wake up.

Lu Yuanhang's hand slowly touched Lin Chen's, his hand was still cold, and then with a light force, he pulled him off his clothes.

Then, he got up and walked out. He didn't know that because of his action, Lin Chen, who was sleeping well, suddenly struggled lightly.

Lu Yuanhang went out and gave himself a glass of warm water to drink, then found a thermos, filled it with warm water, and walked back.Lin Chen, who was sleeping peacefully at first, couldn't sleep well, as if he was entangled in some nightmare, he frowned tightly, the corners of his eyes slowly became moist again, and then, a tear flowed down unexpectedly.

In a hurry, Lu Yuanhang only remembered to throw the water glass in his hand on the table casually, and walked up to Lin Chen, but stopped again.

In front of him was Lin Chen who was in pain and was tormented by something, but Lu Yuanhang didn't know how to comfort him, didn't know what he was in pain, didn't know how to make him stop the tears in his dream, In front of Lin Chen, there is still a gap of more than five years.

Can I get closer to you again?Lin Chen, can I still approach you unscrupulously?Do I still have the courage?Lu Yuanhang unconsciously moved a little closer to Lin Chen.

Lu Yuanhang, why is it gone?In the dream, Lin Chen was anxiously looking around, looking for the person he was familiar with, who was still in front of him just now, but disappeared all of a sudden, all of the world's voices, people, everything seemed to disappear Now, in the whole world, only myself is left.

Then, there seemed to be another person's breath around, with a strange and familiar breath.Who is touching the corners of his eyes and wiping the tears from the corners of his eyes.

yes is that you

Lu Yuanhang felt that every drop of tear was scorching and hot, but no matter how much he wiped it off, he couldn't wipe it off. One side was always wiped clean, and the other side flowed out again.

The tears seemed to be endless, Lin Chen didn't make any sound, just shed tears so quietly, why did he cry?Because for so many years, this is the first time that Lu Yuanhang in the dream actually exists by his side. Even in the dream, his palms are warm, his breathing is warm, and his movements are also warm. of……

So real, like it's real.

"Please, Lin Chen, don't cry, don't cry." Lu Yuanhang's hands trembled. He didn't know that people could have so many tears. He came to Lin Chen's side, took his hand, surrounded all of Lin Chen's pain with his body, and he felt all the sadness, which directly drowned him in Lin Chen's tears, and his heart Cut like a knife.

After a long, long time, under Lu Yuanhang's constant comfort and appeasement, Lin Chen finally calmed down, and he fell into a deep sleep again.

Although Lu Yuanhang just simply wiped his tears the whole time, it seemed to consume all his strength. Seeing that Lin Chen was stable, he didn't dare to make any more movements. After hesitating for a moment, he looked carefully at the corner of Lin Chen's eyes. After a kiss, she lay down beside Lin Chen, held his hand, and fell asleep together.

At that moment, Lu Yuanhang was also at peace. After so many years, he had been haunted by nightmares, and he finally found a way to be at peace, that is to be beside this person, even if he just lay down like this, his heart would be at peace.Finally, he had to admit that no matter how stubborn he was, it was useless. Even after Lin Chen hurt him so much, he still couldn't say a single harsh word to Lin Chen, couldn't do a single wrong thing, and still wanted to keep him in the By my side, I never want to let go.

What are you still insisting on, Lu Yuanhang said to himself before going to sleep, in front of Lin Chen, you will lose.

Go to sleep, no matter what, let's talk about it tomorrow.

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