look back again

Chapter 32

Lin Chen finally stretched out his hand slowly, and the moment he was about to touch the wallet, he took it back tremblingly, how much he hated and how desperate he was at the beginning, but now he has so much fear, so much hatred, so much fear What should he do if all this is true, what face should he use to face Lu Yuanhang.How much I hated my weak self, who didn't even dare to reveal the truth in front of my eyes. How could such a self have the face to face Lu Yuanhang!

Such a good Lu Yuanhang is still at home doing what he can't do for himself, a big man, nestled in a kitchen full of oily smoke, Lin Chen can almost imagine his clumsy appearance, but Lin Chen I also know that Lu Yuanhang is like this. When he wants to, he will hold all of himself and put it in front of him. The clumsy, domineering, and unreasonable things will all be given to him. That is the most real Lu Yuanhang. A fiery heart burns itself and also warms others.Lu Yuanhang, Lu Yuanhang, you love me so much, what do you want me to give you in exchange?

There was no way to stay for a moment, Lin Chen finally didn't go to get the wallet, but turned around and ran back, he must see Lu Yuanhang immediately, immediately, immediately, immediately!

Lu Qingfeng chased them subconsciously for a few steps, but stopped immediately, it's better to give them some private space.

Lin Chen had never run like this before, he was running harder than ever before, even the waiting time for the elevator couldn't stop his pace, he turned around and ran towards the stairwell, every step seemed to be stepping on his feet On the top of his heart, what weighed heavily was his guilt towards Lu Yuanhang, and what he hated was his weakness towards himself. He didn't dare to take a breath, for fear that after letting out this breath, he would no longer have the courage to move forward. Like countless times before, to go against his own heart and bury his feelings with weakness, he needs to work hard.

The tearing pain in his chest almost numb his heart, the feeling of being pinched fiercely was too uncomfortable, Lin Chen thought, if there were really thousands of arrows piercing through the heart, wouldn't that be the same feeling?Lu Yuanhang, is it true that everything I gave you is like this, that I have been letting you down and avoiding you all the time, are you also like me, heartbroken and unable to be yourself?But you can come to me again and again, I told you so many "fuck off", I didn't scold you away, and I didn't shake me even a little bit, you still want to be with me I'm with you right?Even if I misunderstand you, let you down and push you away, you still love me, right?

Lu Yuanhang, Lu Yuanhang!

Lin Chen finally ran to the door of Lu Yuanhang's house relying on the support of his heart, where is the house?This is the home that Lu Yuanhang has always kept for himself, and it has never changed, even if it is any decoration or anything inside, it is like Lu Yuanhang, staying here, waiting for him.

Lin Chen slammed the door open and went in, ignoring other things. Lu Yuanhang was busy with his back turned to him. He still didn't know how to make a mess of the kitchen, but the smell that the kitchen should have had already disappeared. It came out, in the current feeling of Lin Chen, it was simply delicious.His Lu Yuanhang is still in place, how lucky he is, he is still there.

Lin Chen finally came to Lu Yuanhang's back. It was this back that made him miss him for more than five years. Now, he finally will never admit his mistake again. Lin Chen vowed, never again!

Lin Chen opened his hands, hugged Lu Yuanhang's waist tightly, and buried his head deeply on his shoulders. Throughout the journey, he did not shed any tears, as if he had finally found his belonging. I can't stop anymore, tick tock, tick tock, one after another.

"What's wrong? Lin Chen?" Lu Yuanhang was scrambling to chop vegetables when he was suddenly taken aback by someone hugging him from behind like this. After finding out that it was Lin Chen, he asked in surprise and fright.

"Don't move, don't move." Lu Yuanhang wanted to turn around to see what was going on with Lin Chen, but Lin Chen hugged his body tightly as he wanted to turn around, and he finally realized what Lin Chen couldn't control cries.

Lin Chen tried so hard to hold back his crying, but at this time, how could he hold it back? Since he was a child, he never cried, no matter what happened to him. Tears are unnecessary for him, because He knew from a very young age that no matter what happened, crying was the most useless.But now, he can't find any other way to vent other than crying. He is really depressed. His emotions have been suppressed for too long. If he doesn't vent it, he will lose control .

"Lin Chen, what's wrong with you!" Now Lu Yuanhang was in a hurry, what happened to Lin Chen, did he suffer some kind of grievance without his knowledge?Lu Yuanhang didn't care about Lin Chen's resistance. In his eyes, Lin Chen was a person who rarely cried. He only met him once, and that was when he was drunk. How out of control he had to make him do this how to cry?

Lu Yuanhang turned around forcefully, and then let Lin Chen lean on his chest. He also hugged Lin Chen and coaxed him gently.

"What's the matter, tell me, okay?" How long has it been since you got so close to Lin Chen?How long has it been since I was able to hug him like this? How long has it been since Lin Chen leaned against his chest so willingly? If Lin Chen hadn't wet his chest with tears in an instant, Lu Yuanhang would have been excited. It's like in a dream, no, it's not so good in the dream, Lin Chen is real, warm and vivid.

It's just that he kept crying, without saying anything, just kept crying, which made Lu Yuanhang happy while at the same time bewildered like an ant on a hot pot. These two feelings were pulled back and forth, and Lu Yuanhang felt that he was about to go crazy. separated.

"Cry again, I, I, I can kiss you." Lu Yuanhang really had no choice but to say such a sentence. He was almost shocked by his own stupidity. It's time, Lin Chen was crying so hard that he was out of breath, he was still making such silly jokes here, Lu Yuanhang, Lu Yuanhang, so many years have passed, has time gone to the dog?

But just when he was extremely remorseful, Lin Chen's crying really slowly died down.

Lu Yuanhang still likes to use this threat, no matter when the two of them just started, or when they were fighting each other, he always likes to make jokes like this, telling Lin Chen not to be nervous and letting him relax.

Lu Yuanhang, I am really ashamed of you. I only dare to bury you in your chest like this, and I don't even dare to look up at you.

"I'm sorry..." Finally, Lin Chen said these three words.

"I'm sorry..." I'm really sorry, I let you go and you misunderstood you and pushed you away.

But Lu Yuanhang was surprised when he heard these three words, "I'm sorry, where did he come from, shouldn't he be the one who said these three words?"It was I who hurt Lin Chen's father on impulse. Lin Chen saw all of this with his own eyes. Isn't there more to the cause and effect?

"Lin Chen, why are you sorry for me?"

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