half paper youth

The atmosphere froze for a moment, Yi Yuanxin didn't look up to observe his uncle's expression, he already had the answer in his heart, and he just wanted to know more things when he asked this question.Uncle originally wanted to cover up the truth, but when he saw Yi Yuanxin curled up in front of him, he could only sigh silently, blaming his father and himself at the same time!

"If, I mean, if your parents divorced, who would you choose to marry?"

When he asked this question, his voice trembled, and he felt like a sinner who forcibly stuck a knife in his nephew's heart!Yi Yuanxin buried his head under his knees, and suddenly a few drops of water splashed on the rock underneath, maybe it was still quiet, maybe it was just the stream covering up the sadness underneath.

He prefers his mother, but if he has to choose, he can't do it, really can't do it!He wants a complete family. For his family, he only has such a small request. He can even give up everything his parents gave him, but he can't abandon this family.But now, he is extremely passive. Even if he is the one to make the choice, does he really have the initiative?

Seeing Yi Yuanxin's slightly trembling body, the uncle still couldn't tell him all the facts.He once wavered and persuaded Yi Yuanxin to follow his sister, but in this way, he also became a villain.The image of his father still remains in Yi Yuanxin's heart, he doesn't need to deliberately destroy it, Yi Yuanxin is an adult and should have his own judgment.

What annoyed him the most was that he hadn't noticed Yi Yuanxin's father's anomaly in time, and by the time he found out, it was already too late.

Uncle got up and left, he was not fit to stay any longer, if Yi Yuanxin got over his nerve and asked him everything, whether he answered or not, it would be a double injury.Uncle Yi climbed up the hillside and didn't dare to go far. Sitting on a high place and looking at Yi Yuanxin huddled below, blowing the cold wind alone, it was a kind of repentance.He was also afraid that Yi Yuanxin would do stupid things if he didn't think about it. Yi Yuanxin would be dangerous even if he stayed by a river one meter deep.

Facts have proved that Yi Yuanxin didn't spare his life so much. Although the world completely collapsed, he looked up again half an hour later, except for his face covered with tears, his state was still normal.He stared blankly at the aquatic plants by the stream, swaying with the stream, although the roots were there, he was still adrift, wasn't he just like himself?

Sitting until mother came out to urge them to eat, the uncle and nephew moved back to their hometown step by step, separated by several meters, and the atmosphere at the dining table was particularly dull.The elders should only be clear and respectful to the dead.

On the day of Qingming, the sky was clear and clear. In Yi Yuanxin's impression, Qingming is always accompanied by rain, but this year, he is not used to it.

According to tradition, they get up at five o'clock in the morning to get ready, and before other relatives arrive, they have to make snacks for those family members who have returned from running around.Yi Yuanxin is in charge of watching the fire, which is the only housework he knows.My hometown still uses an earthen stove.

He likes to stay in front of the earth stove, it is the warmest place regardless of autumn and winter.Then it was, and it is now.In addition, it was also my grandfather who taught him how to make a fire. The reason for making a fire is very simple. Don’t just throw firewood into it all at once, but build a structure for the fire so that there is a place for ventilation, so that the fire can burn vigorously.

There was another muffled sound from the earthen stove, and the Martian seedlings jumped for a while and then fell silent. Yi Yuanxin came to his senses, and the elders were ready to go out to sweep the first tomb—the one where grandpa took him by the hand and took him there before. place.

Because it was Qingming, Yi Yuanxin's listless appearance would not attract everyone's attention, so he followed behind alone, walking the familiar old roads, and seeing the newly grown wild flowers.

Tomb-sweeping within three generations, Yi Yuanxin only knows that they sweep his grandfather’s grandfather every morning. No one knows what his name is, but he is called ancestor. He looked at the blurred tombstone and bowed reverently twice, saluting instead of his grandfather. .

Tomb-sweeping is a big event, the four generations live under the same roof, and almost all the relatives who are free are present. After sweeping the tomb of the ancestors, they knocked and knocked, and then went back the same way. After eating a feast at noon, they went to other mountains in the afternoon to sweep their own tomb.At the banquet, Yi Yuanxin accidentally became the focus of this year. The whole family knew that Yi Yuanxin was taking the college entrance examination this year, so they asked questions of concern and sent blessings over and over.

Yi Yuanxin couldn't handle this, so his mother still sat next to him and helped him answer. The kind and kind smile shook Yi Yuanxin's face for a moment. In front of outsiders, his mother never resigned himself to being outdone.He really wanted to remember this smile until he went back to school. It made sense for his mother to hide the situation at home.Knowing the truth, how vulnerable it is.

After the banquet, grandma took them away. Grandpa's tomb was relatively remote, separated by two hills. Although grandma was old, she still didn't let anyone help her, and climbed up the hill step by step.I heard that there will be no chance to go across the mountains to see my grandfather in the future, and the private graves will be moved to the public cemetery. At first, my grandmother refused to agree, and then she became silent.

In fact, Yi Yuanxin felt that placing the cemetery among mountains and fields was the best arrangement for the dead.People who live in nature must return to the mountains.

When I turned over another mountain and looked into the distance, I could see the new grass growing from the grave of my grandfather, Yi Yuanxin's eyes became hot, and he turned to look at his grandmother. Although she stopped for a moment, the precipitation of years made her A calm demeanor.After standing calmly on the hillside for a while, he walked towards the opposite hill again.

For the relationship between grandpa and grandma, Yi Yuanxin is sincerely envious, even though they are separated at this moment, the affection in grandma's eyes still exists.

Tomb-sweeping is actually very simple. Uncle took him to pull out the weeds next to him, and then mother took a few stones and pressed a few pieces of yellow paper on the edge of the grave.So far, it is nearing the end.

"Xiaoxin, come here and kowtow to grandpa, and pray to grandpa to bless you for getting the gold list in the college entrance examination this year."

Grandma knelt there and turned to look at her grandson. Yi Yuanxin obediently stepped forward and knelt beside her. He seldom did this kind of thing. Their family didn't have such traditions, and he never bowed down to ancestors.Grandma's request today is considered to have fulfilled one of Yi Yuanxin's wishes. Grandpa himself never kowtowed to him before he was alive.

His forehead touched the ground, and the tip of his nose smelled of mud. In an instant, Yi Yuanxin seemed to hear a cry from his grandfather. He lowered his head and felt it. Whether it was a hallucination or not, this trip was worth it.At that moment, he seemed to have thought about many things clearly, and when he looked up again, his eyes were filled with tears, but his eyes were more determined.

On the way back, all the things that everyone brought with them were used to go to the grave, so Yi Yuanxin walked beside his mother, and when no one was paying attention, he said softly: "Mom, do as you want ,I am okay."

This sentence seemed to be swallowed by the wind. Mother Yi's eyes were full of fear and disbelief. Looking at her son, she was very suspicious of the news she had just heard!

They stopped for a moment to distance themselves from the others, and then slowly walked behind, the two of them were silent, each having their own concerns.

"What are you talking about? Mom has nothing to do."

"Mom, don't lie to me. When I went home that day, I actually heard everything."

For the first time, Yi Yuanxin plucked up the courage to tell his mother these secrets, his heart was pierced, but he still couldn't turn his head.

"So, you don't have to worry about me, I'm eighteen, and I know the seriousness."

The sentence "Eighteen" is like an arrow piercing into Yi's mother. There is no mother in the world who does not love her child. She has been fighting Yi Ce to death, but it is because of Yi Yuanxin.Now that the child said eighteen, she was very moved, but also distressed.That's not what a mother wants to hear.

"Son, it's okay, mom, I..."

Yi's mother finally lost control, her eyes were red and she looked at Yi Yuanxin. At that moment, she felt like a lump in her throat and could no longer speak... Even though she is a strong woman in life, she is still a woman and a son Put mothers first.She couldn't bear it after all!

In order not to let his son see his fragility, he simply turned his head and walked forward in the next second. His pace was very fast. Yi Yuanxin was afraid that his mother would not pay attention to the mountain road and fall, so he still kept up with him.The two were like running a race, until finally Mama Yi slowed down and lowered her head.It's an admission of defeat.

Yi Yuanxin couldn't say anything else, but Yi's mother also understood.The two went down the mountain against the light one after the other. The scenery was beautiful and the people were peaceful. The calmness inherited from the whole family quickly calmed her down. She turned her back to Yi Yuanxin and said, "I'm sorry, my child, for making you worry. Mom understands what you mean Yes, thank you."

Yi's mother didn't say what she would do in the end, but both of them knew the answer. Yi Yuanxin knew that he had succeeded, but he couldn't be happy. He walked behind everyone so that he could cry freely.Drop by drop mixed with dust and left on the mountain of his hometown, it can be regarded as the trace of this year, the trajectory of his growth step by step.

Back at grandma's house, Yi Yuanxin silently packed his luggage, greeted grandma, and asked his uncle to send him away first.Everyone didn't say anything, Yi Yuanxin had already done his filial piety by taking the time to visit the grave, and at this time the most important thing was to study.

The uncle in the car knew the reason for Yi Yuanxin's early departure, but he didn't ask a word on the way. The nephew had really grown up, and they were no longer able to run and play in the countryside like when they were young. As you get older, it will only get bigger.

"You really don't need me to take you in?"

"No need, uncle, goodbye."

At the school gate, Yi Yuanxin carried his luggage and waved goodbye. After his uncle drove away, Yi Yuanxin stood by the side of the road for a while, then slowly took out his mobile phone and made a call.

"Hey, where are you now? I'm at school, are you free to come over now? I want to see the catkins in West Lake, is that okay?"

Yi Yuanxin hung up the phone, put away his phone and walked slowly back to school, walking with his head down became his habit, he just wanted to watch every step in front of him, the front was too far away from him, he couldn't see clearly.So sometimes when he reaches a dead end, he realizes that there is no way forward, and he doesn't know how to find another way out. He will always stand in place for a long time before he learns to make a detour.

Shan Ren sometimes acts not only as his lover or friend, but also as his guide when needed, so every time he goes out to play, Yi Yuanxin can bow his head with confidence and is not afraid of bumping into others.

In fact, when they arrived at the West Lake, it was already in the evening. After watching the catkins for a few minutes, as night fell, they could only watch the night view of the West Lake, sit by the music fountain, enjoy a performance, and then go back to school directly.

On the bus back to school, Yi Yuanxin finally couldn't bear it after being tired all day, and fell asleep directly.Shan Ren still supported him on his shoulder as usual, helped him gently wipe away the tears from the corners of his eyes, and touched his head very distressedly. From now on, he must never make him sad again...

That night, the two slept together on the same bed. Yi Yuanxin curled himself up in a corner, and Shan Ren took great pains to confine him in his arms. In the dark, he let him rest assured that his back was handed over to him. His pillow also made Yi Yuanxin cry enough.He didn't say anything, only when Yi Yuanxin was tired from crying, he turned to him gently, and kissed him deeply on the corner of his lips, letting him know that as long as he was there, he could let go of all his defenses and be an innocent girl. Keep to yourself.

In Shan Ren's arms, Yi Yuanxin fell asleep without any pressure and had no dreams all night.When he woke up in the morning, he was still a little dazed about where he was, but when he saw Shan Ren who was still sleeping, the corners of his mouth finally lifted.He has never seen Shan Ren's appearance in the morning. Shan Ren sleeps very well and seems to wake up at any time. In fact, no matter how loud the movement is, it may not wake him up.

The most beautiful part of Shan Ren is his nose. The bridge of the nose is very high, and the nose is in the center of the whole face, which makes his face look very three-dimensional. Sharp edges and corners are one of his major characteristics. It seems that only characters in comics have him. Almost perfect face shape.Such a person belonged to me, and I felt a little bit happier when I thought about it. With the morning sun, I fell asleep beside him again.People all influence each other, and when he wakes up from bed, it is already noon.

"No, Bian Yifeng and Cheng Shiling have been quiet for so long, why did you start arguing?"

"I don't want to either! Girls want to lose their temper, can they find a reason?"

"No, you are a bit machismo..."

Zhou Tai and Yuan Hao came in from the outside, Zhou Tai cut off the conversation immediately when he saw Yi Yuanxin on the monitor's bed, the three stared at each other, making Yi Yuanxin a little embarrassed.

"Oh, I thought the squad leader was there too, I'm scared!"

Yuan Hao still walked in directly, Yi Yuanxin got up and folded Shan Ren's quilt, then put on his clothes calmly and then chatted with them.

"What about the squad leader?"

"I just woke up, I don't know, I should go buy lunch."

Yi Yuanxin touched his still-awake forehead, it was true that he had a headache after sleeping for a long time.In order not to be embarrassed, he asked Yuan Hao again: "What happened to you and Sang Yu?"

"What else! I took her to visit the grave, and when I met Han Yingzi, she suddenly lost her temper. It's not that I can't see that Han Yingzi and I are only cousins. I don't know what she's messing around with. I don't want to be with her. Say more, and that's it!"

It turned out that Yuan Hao and Han Yingzi had such a relationship. Yi Yuanxin also understood their previous interaction, but what he was more concerned about was that Yuan Hao actually took Sang Yu home to visit the grave, which meant that they had already got family members. The common recognition is enviable.

"She's a girl, you'd better coax her more."

"Why! To put it another way, if the squad leader is messing around like this, will you coax him?"

Suddenly mentioning himself, Yi Yuanxin blushed, not because of anything else, but because the situation Yuan Hao said was almost untenable... He and Shan Ren have always been Shan Ren accommodating himself, what should this be?

Yuan Hao didn't want to say any more, he hurriedly packed his things and left the dormitory.Yi Yuanxin and Zhou Tai looked at each other, smiled helplessly, and each went about their own business.Qingming has passed, and the weather has suddenly turned warm. Can he relax a bit after taking off his heavy clothes?This can only be asked, the later self.