half paper youth

Saturday, August 2011, 4, sunny

Although some things can be expressed indifferently, the buried emotions cannot be deceived.In the past few days, I have actually suffered from insomnia every night. The reason is that all my thoughts are piled up together.Busy with schoolwork during the day and not distracted, at night, obviously dragging his tired body, but still unable to fall asleep.The double torture of mental and physical strength, I think, is really tiring...

In the past few days, not only Yi Yuanxin has become increasingly haggard, but even Shan Ren can't feel at ease. Before, Shan Ren was confident that he could make Yi Yuanxin happy, but now, he can't do anything.

Yi Yuanxin used to stand in the corridor in a daze before, but his depressed back and melancholy temperament have also changed for all to see.At this time, Yi Yuanxin was standing outside, and Shan Ren would lean on the back door to watch him, fearing that he would have a brain spasm and jump directly from the fifth floor!

And in order not to add pressure to Yi Yuanxin, Shan Ren would rush back to his seat the moment Yi Yuanxin turned around, and the people in the back row would see the squad leader like this, and would not reveal it, and sighed in their hearts, the relationship between them So pure and solid.Yi Yuanxin never knew that during the few days when he stood in the corridor, there was always someone silently accompanying him.

After the lunch break in the afternoon, Yi Yuanxin went to the classroom without waiting for Shan Ren to get up. When there was no one else, he lingered at the door of the office, and waited until his classmates approached the teaching building one after another before Yi Yuanxin made up his mind to sneak into the office.He didn't want too many people to know that he was looking for Lao Ban.

Lao Ban naturally came to the office early, and when he opened the door and saw Yi Yuanxin standing inside, he was really shocked.Then he asked calmly, "What's the matter? What can I do with the teacher?"

This child is a bit weird recently, he was a little worried, but he didn't expect that Yi Yuanxin would take the initiative to find him, which made him feel relieved, so he went to see what was on the child's mind.

Yi Yuanxin followed the old class and moved to his desk, still not sure whether he should reveal his heart, but he no longer knew how to deal with it.After Jin Mugao left, although he was able to talk to Shan Ren, he couldn't talk to him because he didn't want to distract Shan Ren too much.Then, Yang Fangxian became the best candidate.

But his opening is also a different way.

"Teacher, I would like to take a week off."

"Give me a reason, a week off, no matter what time it is."

Yang Fangxian continued according to his topic, Yi Yuanxin still had some consideration, Yang Fangxian had this patience, and slowly untied his knot.

"I... have recently started to suffer from insomnia. It seems that I can only fall asleep at two or three o'clock. I feel that my body can't take it anymore."

This can also be seen from Yi Yuanxin's facial spirit. Originally a delicate and clean face, because of the two thick eye bags and symmetrical dark circles, the whole person looks very tired.Yang Fangxian also felt sorry for him in this state, but he didn't agree directly, and asked instead: "Do you think you can adjust your state after you go home?"

Yi Yuanxin couldn't answer. He didn't say that he went home just to see the current situation at home. In fact, it didn't help him at all.Seeing Yi Yuanxin lower his head and remain silent, Yang Fangxian could understand that the things hidden in Yi Yuan's confidence were not small, and he still couldn't mention them to outsiders.

"You must be aware that there is no time for you to adjust your emotions at this stage. It can be said that you can only choose to throw away all emotions and learn like a robot." Yang Fangxian confided with him, first talk to him about this truth, " In fact, we have no way to change this situation. The teacher also wants you to combine work and rest every day to cope with the college entrance examination easily, but the domestic education system does not allow it. Under such circumstances, you should not let other things Interfering with you, if it has already disturbed you, you have to find a way to solve it as soon as possible, and it is not on your mind to say it out."

Yang Fangxian's inducement was very effective, Yi Yuanxin raised his head slightly, Yang Fangxian knew that he was shaken, and continued: "You don't have to be too impatient, your situation is quite common in the third year of high school. Not long ago, Cai Tingting came to me, Said teacher, I can't read anymore. Let me ask a digression first, what kind of girl do you think she is?"

"Very hardworking, a person who can calm down and study."

"Look, you define her in this way, but in fact, she also has her own troubles." Yang Fangxian is not in a hurry to talk about Yi Yuanxin, he has already attended class, so let's spend this class like this, which can solve his worries , it is not a waste, "Cai Tingting, as you all know, is a repeat student, and her pressure is greater than any of you. You can't understand that a person who has gone through the college entrance examination to go through it again, it is physically and psychologically difficult. To be crushed by a stone mill again."

Yang Fangxian was very serious when he said this, and the students' problems emerged endlessly. Although he was solving Yi Yuanxin's problems, on the other hand, he was rethinking the problems from the perspective of the students to see if he could find a new solution.He also needs someone to talk to.

"Actually, it's all a matter of blinking and gnashing of teeth."

Yang Fangxian ended this way, there are only two months left, and if he can spend it with a stable mentality, he will be the winner.Yi Yuanxin has now been brought into Yang Fangxian's circle. Facing his teacher, Yi Yuanxin can temporarily forget those trivial things. His problem is actually very simple: family factors.

But on a bigger scale, there are many other problems, such as his studies, which he has been worrying about before. His grades have improved this semester, but there is still a certain gap from his own assumptions.

Yang Fangxian waited for a while, but Yi Yuanxin still didn't tell his problem, which made him a little frustrated, so he had to ask directly: "So, can you talk to the teacher about your problem now? It's not that you want to ask the teacher. Did you say that?"

Whether Yi Yuanxin says it or not is the key, Yang Fangxian can't keep talking about it, because he doesn't know the root of Yi Yuanxin's faith, he is not a god, and he can't do anything.

"Actually... just some trivial matters at home. Thinking about it again, there is no need to talk about it with the teacher, but teacher, I really need this week, and one week is enough."

Yi Yuanxin lowered his head again, very humble, as if lowered into the dust, so Yang Fangxian had to let go.If it is his family affairs, it is not within the scope of his control.

"I can give you a week off, but you have to promise the teacher that after a week, I will see a brand new you."

Yi Yuanxin slowly raised his head and looked at the teacher. He could feel the teacher's attention. Even now, the teacher still would not give up on him, and still believed in him to give him a week.He is very grateful to have met such a mentor in high school.

Yi Yuanxin got up and bowed to leave, and before leaving, he said to the teacher: "Teacher, can I ask you to do me another favor?" Yi Yuanxin looked carefully at the old class, and he listened attentively, "Don't tell my family that I'm going home s reason."

Although Lao Ban didn't say anything, his parents could roughly guess the root cause of his return, but he would rather continue to nest in his protective shell and quietly wait for their results if he could not tear up these disguises head-on.

Yang Fangxian can also guess some reasons, Yi Yuanxin has always been a good boy, he is so considerate of his family, he has no reason not to be fulfilled.He nodded, indicating that Yi Yuanxin can leave at ease, the vacation will start tomorrow, let Yi Yuanxin think about it.

In the middle of the history class, Yi Yuanxin yelled a report, exchanged glances with Mr. Hao You, lowered his head to lower his sense of presence, and walked back to his seat from the side.

"Why did you go?"

"Nothing, just listen to the class carefully."

Shan Ren was naturally concerned about Yi Yuanxin's whereabouts, and Shan Ren opened his mouth as soon as he took his seat, but Yi Yuanxin couldn't confess to Shan Ren for the time being, and if he was given some more time, he would not leave without saying goodbye.

At night, Yi Yuanxin couldn't fall asleep after the lights were turned off. When he was tossing and turning, he looked in the direction of Shan Ren in the dark. He wondered if Shan Ren was also looking at him?

He will be leaving tomorrow, and he will not be able to see Shan Ren for the next week. When he thinks of this, he feels very sad.He looked at Yuan Hao who was opposite him again, and after confirming that he would not pay attention to him, Yi Yuanxin quietly moved from one side to under the bed, and looked at the resting students around him from time to time, feeling a little nervous.

Thank you for the dim environment, basically you can't see your fingers, Zhongsun on the upper bunk is just playing with his phone, and Bian Yifeng is almost snoring, so Yi Yuanxin can feel a little relieved.When he reached the edge of Shan Ren's bed, just as he put his hands on it, a pair of warm hands wrapped him around him at the other end - it turned out that Shan Ren had been keeping an eye on his movements.

Shan Ren was afraid that Yi Yuanxin would be cold on the ground, so he sat up directly, and was not afraid of waking up the others, so he pulled Yi Yuanxin to his bed and covered him with a quilt.This is the second time that they slept together "above and aboveboard" in the dormitory.

Shan Ren didn't ask Yi Yuanxin why he came to him suddenly, but quietly helped Yi Yuanxin cover the quilt, hugged him in his arms, gently stroked his back, and gave him a reassuring embrace for him to fall asleep.

The bed was small, they were stuck close together, and Yi Yuanxin's slender eyelashes could scrape Shan Ren's neck.He gasped softly, put his hand close to Shan Ren's heart, feeling his heartbeat.

After an unknown amount of time in the darkness, Yi Yuanxin was still awake, and he felt a little lost.Although it is very warm in Shan Ren's place, but still can't save his insomnia, moreover, he seems to have affected Shan Ren...

He pushed gently, and Shan Ren really didn't sleep, and asked softly against his forehead: "What's wrong?"

Yi Yuanxin moved up, and whispered into Shan Ren's ear, "I'd better go back to sleep." Shan Ren heard it clearly, shook his head without thinking, and hugged him even tighter.The tip of Yi Yuanxin's nose touched his chest, and his whole body was close to him without any gap.He is very greedy for such a hug, but he can no longer affect Shan Ren's sleep!

Yi Yuanxin raised his head slightly and kissed Shan Ren's chin, while he lowered his head, their lips met unexpectedly.Yi Yuanxin held Shan Ren's lower lip, as if tasting delicious food, and sucked it seriously for a moment, and Shan Ren responded enthusiastically, teasing Yi Yuanxin with the tip of his tongue.The kissing skills of the two are much more mature than those at the beginning.

Yi Yuanxin slowly separated from him, pursed his lips, and there was still the smell of Shan Ren on it, he turned around to leave, but Shan Ren stuck to him like chewing gum again, Yi Yuanxin still insisted, the two argued, and Shan Ren was still defeated down.

Shan Ren finally grabbed Yi Yuanxin's hand and let him go. Although it's already April, it's still very cold at night, so don't catch a cold.

Yi Yuanxin groped back to his own bed, and when he lay down, the cold touch dispelled his drowsiness again. His body was cold, and the quilt might not be warm in the middle of the night.He simply didn't sleep, stared at the bed board above his head in a daze, planning what to do for the next week, the vacation he finally invited, he couldn't waste it...

During the day, Yi Yuanxin waited until the fourth quarter was over, and during the half-day rest for everyone, he went back to the dormitory alone to pack his things and prepare to leave.Shan Ren naturally followed him all the time.

The two were silent, Shan Ren didn't take the initiative to ask him why he packed his luggage, but stood quietly aside, like a background.Yi Yuanxin waited for the things to be packed, then adjusted his clothes again, and took a few glances at the other party.He had planned to say goodbye to Shan Ren head-on, so as not to make him worry for no reason, but he couldn't say it out of his mouth, afraid that he would investigate the reason.

After thinking about it again and again, he didn't speak first, but chose to walk to the door, gently close the door, and lock it.Walked to the window again, drew the green curtains, and was immediately in darkness.

Slowly approaching Shan Ren, pulling him to the side of her bed, and letting him sit down, she knelt beside Shan Ren's legs, stretched out her hand to help him untie his trouser belt naturally, and said at the same time: "I beg you again, give me I'll just let myself handle it, don't ask anything, okay?"

Yi Yuanxin paused and looked up at Shan Ren. He knew that what he did was pushing Shan Ren out of his own world. Shan Ren would be disappointed and blame himself, but he really didn't want to disturb his world with his own affairs!Each other considers each other, and conflicts are still inevitable.

Shan Ren was disappointed, he felt that Yi Yuanxin still didn't want him to participate in his troubles and his space, and he was indeed like an outsider sometimes.But, so what?

The moment Shan Ren closed his eyes and opened his eyes, he still chose to agree to Yi Yuanxin. He gently rubbed Yi Yuanxin's head. There were a lot of worries in it, how much did he take up?

Yi Yuanxin smiled sincerely, and then continued his actions, Shan Ren's face gradually turned red.

"Can you tell me, what are you going to do now?"

"Do what you've been looking forward to."