Lost Dreams

It snowed heavily in Shanghai at the beginning of the year, and Manqing took Yi Hai out to enjoy the snow.It's more about enjoying the snow than attending a party organized by Ms. Yi's family. The snow fell suddenly today. Ms. Yi immediately booked a small open-air teahouse and invited people to watch the snow.As her beautiful second sister-in-law, Man Qing naturally received the invitation.Although it was not mentioned that the second brother must be brought with him, Manqing still brought him out.The coachman carried Yi Hai off the bed and carried him to the car. When he reached the small teahouse, he sent someone to carry him upstairs. After a lot of tossing, Man Qing wiped the sweat off Yi Hai's forehead himself, like a The appearance of a fairy couple.Some people see it and turn their backs to tell small stories-what an interesting illusion.

After Yi Hai was settled, Man Qing went to talk to Ms. Yi, a gust of wind flew in from the open window, and rolled up the half curtain hanging at the door.Man Qing tightened the fox fur on her body, and looked at Yi Hai.He was sitting alone in a corner drinking tea, and the servant forgot to add charcoal for him, so he shivered from the cold.But it's not easy to get angry at this kind of party. Miss Yi has a strange temper and is also favored by her brothers and sisters. Naturally, Yi Hai will not let her lose face.Man Qing had no choice but to ask the maid to bring her a thick blanket, walk up to Yi Hai and put it on him, and asked the maid to add a pot of charcoal to warm Yi Hai up.

For Yi Hai, Manqing already treats him as a friend.Although they slept in the same bed day and night, they never did their best as husband and wife, but occasionally chatted.When Man Qing was reading a book by the window, he often shared with Yi Hai, and he was a good person to chat with, so the estrangement naturally decreased.

Man Qing stood beside Yi Hai, put his hands on his bony shoulders, and exhaled warm white air.Yi Hai leaned on the wooden chair, looking at the vast white snow in the distance, a man appeared on the street, with black and bright curly hair, blue and white cheongsam, wrapped in a large plain jacket.Yi Hai stared at her fascinated for a long time, and stretched out his hand to hold Man Qing's finger on her shoulder.

"I fell in love with someone." He said abruptly.

"Of course it's not me." Man Qing didn't seem surprised.She held Yi Hai's cold hand, and stared at the girl under the window with him, and she saw her past, present, and future in that girl.

"Naturally." Yi Haidun paused, "It's a teacher from the school—we met when we were watching a play."

"Is she interested in you?" Man Qing sat on the handle of the chair and stared at Yi Hai's pale face.

"It can be regarded as a hit-and-miss." Yi Hai looked at her.

"Then go and love." Man Qing said, "But be careful, first you have to cheat like an underground party, don't be found out, it's not good for you and me."

"nature."

"Second, be careful, don't get hurt."

Yi Hai seemed startled by these words, but found that Man Qing's eyes were no longer on him.He replied slowly but positively, "Okay." He urged Manqing to go over and talk to others, and hid himself in a large robe, creating a quiet little world, becoming the only snow watcher among the noisy crowd.

Man Qing was distracted when she was talking with Yi Hai, she first thought of herself, she loved Yunzhu like that, but she never showed the courage to show her sincerity, her heart was crippled, and she couldn't control her actions.In the next second, she quickly thought of Ruan Yu, who was originally such a proud person, but forcibly smoothed the edges and corners for her, became smooth, and tried hard to get her love.She introspected that she didn't have such magical power, and she just felt that Ruan Yu was being stupid—to fall in love with someone like her who wasn't worth loving!

She suddenly saw Ruan Yu in the blurred crowd—at first she thought it was an illusion, but the eyes staring at her were so cold that Man Qing felt cold sweat on her back.Ruan Yu's eyes were three points angry and seven points sad, and she was rigidly pinned in place, unable to move.When Ruan Yu finally got angry and went out of the small teahouse stiffly, she recovered from the piercing sound of high heels—probably because she saw her getting close to Yi Hai.she thinks.

But what's the fuss about?Although she doesn't love Yi Hai, it doesn't mean that she can't even be a friend?Man Qing sneered in her heart, she felt more and more that Ruan Yu was too stingy, and she couldn't see her being nice to other people.But what right did Ruan Yu have to be angry?She was supposed to be a mistress, so she shouldn't have emotions other than joy.What's the point of cheating if you don't like it?Man Qing has always been a happy person.

When the party was over, Man Qing went to find Ruan Yu.Yi Hai had an appointment with the female teacher of that school, and the two quietly hid in the side courtyard.After seeing the teacher, Man Qing said hello and left. She believed that Yi Hai would naturally explain their relationship to the teacher.

Ruan Yu was sitting in the empty living room. The maids and cooks were all driven to the backyard. When Man Qing came in, there was no one to help her hang up her coat and serve tea.She went straight to the sofa in front of Ruan Yu and sat down, crossing her legs and loosening her high heels, without any preparation to speak.

She didn't intend to coax Ruan Yu. When she was still in love, she often lost her temper over some trivial matters. At that time, she still had the temper to coax Ruan Yu with sweet words.But now that time has passed, after all, it was Ruan Yu who proposed this humble agreement, she naturally wanted to let Ruan Yu understand what should be done and what should not be done - such as losing her temper with her.She didn't think it was an emotion that a mistress should have.Make her feel bored and tired.

In the end, Ruan Yu softened her body and spoke, naturally apologizing, and only said that she couldn't understand their intimacy. In her heart, she hoped that Man Qing and Yi Hai would not even talk, which would make her have the illusion that Man Qing The object of Qing's love is still her, and Yi Hai is the one who should be guarded against.But how can it be so good?She is the initiator of this humble love war. She has been the loser from the beginning, and she is not even qualified to sit on the main seat and draw a card.It is inevitable for Ruan Yu to concede defeat - she even discards her hole cards, whether she can win or not depends on Man Qing's will.

Man Qing squinted at her leaning on the sofa, the leather cushions were cold and pressed against her skin.She knew that she could have told Ruan Yu about her relationship with Yi Hai, so as to coax her.But she didn't want to, thinking it was troublesome—in fact, it was just a matter of one sentence.Ruan Yu just wanted peace of mind, but she refused to even give it. She thought too noble of herself, thinking that Ruan Yu would continue to love her no matter what, so she was presumptuous.

So it ended with joy again, and the moment of physical contact seemed to forget everything.Ruan Yu shed tears heartily as she called Manqing's name.She wished she was in a dream she couldn't wake up from.It's a pity that time waits for no one, and it was dawn in a blink of an eye. Man Qing dressed and left without even saying hello. Ruan Yu felt that her heart was numb now, she didn't feel hurt at all, she was already riddled with wounds Hole, dying.

When Manqing got home, she saw Yuqing sitting in the lobby, knocking sunflower seeds and waiting for her.Yi Hai was upstairs, and seemed to be sleeping again. As for the teacher, he had left long ago.Man Qing walked up, hugged Yu Qing affectionately first, and then chatted.

Yuqing came this time to find Manqing to do business. Half of her family's property in Yanliu Lane was assigned to her, so she came to find Manqing as a partner.But I have to move to Chongqing, so I can bring my family with me, and a small mansion has been prepared for Manqing, and even the servants are carefully selected, just waiting for her to move in.

Manqing laughed, and said that Yuqing came to force her to move in, and everything was arranged, so there was nothing to say.So we quickly settled down.When the property she owns in Shanghai finds a trustworthy person as a guarantee and helps manage it, she is ready to go to Chongqing.Yi Hai didn't intend to follow, and Manqing also said he understood.Staying in Shanghai can also help her take care of the shop.So in the end, the only ones who went to Chongqing were her close maids who brought a few, and a mother who cooked rice—Mrs.Guanlin originally wanted to go to Chongqing with him, but the teacher at home had already contacted a university in Beiping for a place and told him to go quickly, so he had to give up.

Manqing only thought of saying hello to Ruan Yu one month before going to Chongqing. During this time, she was busy handing over shops and packing her luggage. She hadn't seen her for a long time, so she called to make an appointment for dinner. Restaurant to eat food.Before the date, Man Qing went to see Jun Zhu, she was going to study in Hong Kong, Ruan Yu's school, Man Qing recalled her college time while bidding farewell to her, when she had love .

Yunzhu obviously felt her distraction, but she didn't say anything, she didn't care too much.Manqing's marriage has let her guard down a little, but after all, she can't achieve love.So we exchanged addresses and made an appointment to write letters, and then we greeted each other and left.When Man Qing arrived at the restaurant, Ruan Yu had already been waiting for a long time.

Man Qing didn't seem to intend to go around in circles, and said at the beginning that he was going to Chongqing, which made Ruan Yu's chopsticks stop in midair in shock.The waiter came over and poured wine for the two of them, and Ruan Yu calmed down a little, but his words were trembling.

"When... when did you decide?" She asked unwillingly—a little bit of hope.

"A few months ago. The day after enjoying the snow." Zhao Manqing replied to her.

Throwing her heart into the freezing world, Ruan Yu finally understood that Manqing no longer loves her.As soon as she lost her temper, Man Qing directly discussed going to Chongqing, and it took so long to tell her - she just didn't take her to heart!She felt so cold now, she understood everything, but she still refused to give up.

"Then... us?" Ruan Yu asked her cautiously.

"Of course we won't have anything." Manqing replied simply, "I'll give you the initiative, if you don't want to end, just go ahead, and I will come back to Shanghai from time to time, if you want to come to Chongqing, just find me. "

Ruan Yu nodded, knowing that this was the most favorable policy Man Qing gave her.So he finished the meal silently, and when he got home at night, he would naturally dedicate his body and try his best to please her—it was right to repay Man Qing for not saying that he abandoned her.

On the day Manqing left, Ruan Yu didn't go to see her off.When the wine sent by Young Master Wang arrived, she locked herself in her room and drank wildly, singing the Legend of the White Snake with tears in her eyes.She was determined to leave Manqing slowly, and she suffered too much harm after falling in love with her, it shouldn't have been like this!She is not a person who does not love herself, but she breaks her own rules time and time again for Man Qing, becoming shameless.Man Qing's flaws emerged one after another, and now she felt that Man Qing was like a snake, even his blood was cold!No matter what she does, there is no way to warm her up!She dropped the wine bottle and cursed in the room, now she clearly understood Man Qing's indifference and ruthlessness, and knew that Man Qing believed too much in her humble loyalty, so she was often presumptuous!It was she who abused herself!Putting himself in a low position, he thought that Manqing would pity her for a while, but he didn't expect that she was such a ruthless person, and he insisted on making her suffer.

But she still loves her, it is a thorn in my heart that cannot be pulled out or softened.Every time I think about it, it hurts. She loves her, even if she hurts herself thousands of times in a way that doesn't ask for anything in return.But it was different now, and she vowed to end this love, at least to restore her dignity.