Lost Dreams

I often hear people say that opera actors are ruthless and ruthless.But what about reality?There are countless ruthless people, are they just actors?I'm afraid not at all.Ruan Yu often thought later that Man Qing was a character that did not belong to either of the two, but it was still chilling.But in fact, how can you tell clearly about lovers?Once you fall in love, even if it is painful, you have to bear it. After all, one is willing to fight and the other is willing to suffer, just ask for trouble.

When Man Qing's hand slid onto her face, Ruan Yu was taken aback: It was really cool, making one wonder if the cup of hot tea she touched just now existed.Man Qing's fingers slipped under her eyes, and she smiled slightly: "Hey, why do you think you're crying?"

It was only then that Ruan Yu realized that two lines of tears had already shed on her face. Fortunately, she didn't rub much powder, otherwise she didn't know how embarrassing she would be.She wiped the corners of her eyes and said something nonsense to fool her.She is too sentimental, but listening to the opera singer sing "Which one will go to Nanjing and pass the letter to my Saburo. It is said that Su San will die, and I will pay it back when I become a dog in the next life—" Deeply sad, unconsciously shed tears.

Man Qing looked at her and smiled, but she felt a little embarrassed, wiped the tears off her face indiscriminately, took the small mirror and powder that Man Qing handed her, grabbed her body and wiped them off.Man Qing turned to drink tea, stared at the stage, glanced at the audience from the corner of the eye, and frowned in disgust.They were sitting in a box on the second floor, and someone was looking up from the hall.

Before the play was over, Man Qing offered to leave, and Ruan Yu followed her, although she didn't know the reason.On the long road, Man Qing didn't even say to call a car, but was ready to walk back. The white high heels crushed the fallen dead leaves, and the sound of the broken leaves echoed in Ruan Yu's head amplified.

Man Qing didn't speak, and Ruan Yu didn't know what to say or write. During this time together, it was the first time that they had nothing to talk about like this.Ruan Yu looked up at the sky, and there was a white dove skimming over the clouds, flying over and staying on the blue roof.There was a crisp sound of a cat stepping on the corrugated boards.It seemed that it had rained last night, and the dampness in the air could still be vaguely smelled. They walked in silence for a long time.

"Hey, Ruan Yu." Manqing called her suddenly, and in the silent air, they walked alone on the trail—a place suitable for talking about secrets.

"What? I thought you were going to stop talking to me." Ruan Yu smiled.

"Ruan Yu, I have to admit something to you." Man Qing just said the words, but paused again. "If you get angry after hearing this, stop treating me as a friend."

"So serious?" Ruan Yu was shocked, "Could it be that you are really that snake demon, and you are going to confess to me today?"

"Hey, are you still kidding me?" Man Qing pretended to be a little angry, and leaned into her ear.

"Actually, I like girls—as love objects."

Ruan Yu was really startled now, Manqing's soft breath just now seemed to be still in her ears, it was very hot, like a gust of crisp and numb wind.After Manqing finished speaking, she turned her head and continued to walk forward. Ruan Yu was secretly startled, wondering what she meant by saying this now—could she have noticed what she was thinking yesterday?

But it doesn't look like it.Man Qing walked straight forward with his back straight, without even looking back.Ruan Yu now guessed that Manqing chose this path because he wanted to tell her about it?But in the end why, but do not know.They kept moving forward in silence until they reached the urban area and saw a shop selling cloth, Man Qing said that he wanted to go in for a stroll.

Ruan Yu naturally followed in. It happened that it was close to the meal time and there were not so many people there.She saw a piece of pink cloth decorated with peach blossoms, and immediately felt that it was suitable for Man Qing, so she called her unconsciously: "Hey, Man Qing, can I make you clothes with that cloth?"

She was startled when the words came out. She didn't feel much about the secret Man Qing just told her, at least not disgusting.But I really didn't know what to say for a while, but just because I saw the cloth that fit her, I naturally communicated with her again.Man Qing was taken aback for a moment, then raised her eyebrows and smiled, and followed her gaze to look at the piece of cloth, also admiring it.

"Hey, it's pretty good." Man Qing smiled with crooked eyes, "I happen to want to make a new cheongsam. The pink one I saw you wearing last time was made of cherry blossoms. I like peach blossoms more."

Man Qing naturally called the clerk to fetch the cloth, there was a tailor shop next door, and he expected to go out to make a dress soon after buying the cloth.She was still visiting, but suddenly stopped, and patted Ruan Yu's hand: "Hey, that white one, can I make you a cheongsam?"

Ruan Yu also looked along, the white jade-colored cloth looked very plain, but there was a blue flower growing from the bottom, which immediately looked noble and elegant.Ruan Yu accepted it with a smile, and called the assistant to take it off.

After buying the cloth, I will naturally go to the tailor shop next to it. The size is measured by the master, and it is agreed to pick it up next week.Manqing was hungry, and took Ruan Yu to the teahouse next door for dinner.

"Hey, are we reconciled?" Man Qing asked her after she sat down.

Ruan Yu was stunned for a moment before she understood what Man Qing meant, so she smiled crookedly: "There is no conflict."

Hearing her reply like this, Man Qing laughed naturally, and the tense atmosphere between the two disappeared in an instant, vanishing into thin air.

I was still free in the afternoon, and had nothing to do after dinner, so I made an appointment to go boating in the lake.It happened to be the season of lotus blooming, a large piece of pink, lined with green lotus leaves, a whole fresh smell.Ruan Yu looked at Man Qing from the bow of the boat, her dark blue clothes were hidden in a field of flowers, but she had a special beauty.She felt more and more beautiful about Man Qing, and she couldn't figure out what she was thinking.

"Hey, are you going back to Shanghai for vacation?" Man Qing asked her.

"Probably won't go back. My father bought a small mansion here. I don't like the new concubine he married, so I won't go back and be angry. Anyway, there will be two servants here during the holidays. "

"Hey, where's your mother?"

"Mother's gone to England—they parted early. I'm too far away to find her, trouble."

"Hey, I'm sorry." Man Qing was taken aback for a moment, and then suddenly said sorry.

"What are you sorry for?" Ruan Yu was surprised.

"I always feel that I mentioned your sadness." Man Qing looked a little embarrassed.

"Where is it sad?" Ruan Yu smiled. "I wasn't hurt, and my father was very kind to me—I just didn't like his new aunt myself very much."

"Are you planning to go back?" Ruan Yu asked her after a while of silence.

"Not necessarily, I'm thinking about it." Man Qing said, "I always feel that there is nothing to do when I go back, but drink tea and watch a play."

"Hey! Why don't you stay with me? It's a big house—it's scary for me to live alone." Ruan Yu said suddenly.

"Hey—so timid? Are you afraid that I will be a snake spirit appearing in human form and hurt you?" Man Qing laughed at her.

"Hmph, I just happened to use your snake spirit to avoid mice!" Ruan Yu also followed her words, and the two talked and laughed, and they actually settled the matter.

After returning to the dormitory, Manqing began to write a letter, and the content of the letter sent back to Shanghai was actually simple, but it was just a brief account of his not going home.One for the family, one for the two younger brothers, and Yunzhu naturally didn't forget to write a copy.It took two days to get a reply, and there was no big reaction, but Manqing was still a little silent-she hoped that Yunzhu would give a regretful reply in her heart.

There is still some time before the holiday, and the big exam almost occupies her whole life, so she has no time to think about other things.She still met Ruan Yu, and Ruan Yu could give her a little help in foreign languages—it seemed like extracurricular tutoring.

The municipal library in Hong Kong has become a place where they often date, and they choose a cooler corner. Sometimes on cloudy days after rain, there are still raindrops hanging on the leaves of camphor trees outside the window, and they can look at the leaves and chant a few words Poetry is all for entertainment.The self-contained kettle is filled with scented tea, and sometimes I buy two bottles of soda—often bought by Ruan Yu, who has a sweet tooth.

Since Man Qing confessed to Ruan Yu that day, she hasn't talked about love affairs again. She is waiting, waiting for Ruan Yu to come to her.It was just planting a seed before, and whether it germinates or not depends on good luck. This holiday may be an opportunity, and she is not in a hurry.Ruan Yu is an ideal love object, but she cannot propose it on her own.It's less fun that way.

Manqing sometimes reflects on whether he is too smooth or too much in this respect.She often treats love as a game, and she always wins.Maybe I will feel sorry for the loser for a while, but I am still happy to win.

As for Ruan Yu.She herself felt a little tempted, but she didn't know how to take the first step.Man Qing had already confessed in front of her eyes, but she didn't say that she loved her—she didn't dare to easily think that confessing meant loving her.Ruan Yu has never been in a serious relationship. She is a novice in this area, but she doesn't know what kind of role Man Qing is.

The two had their own thoughts, but they didn't tell the truth, they went their own way, and soon the end of the semester came.

"Hey! Manqing! Have you reviewed it?" Yuqing stayed up all night yesterday, fearing that she would fail the Chinese language again.That professor is the old mother in her mouth, surnamed Zhu, who is about 40 years old.It just looks more old-fashioned, with a serious face, always holding a pointer, looking like a strict class teacher in junior high school, it is intimidating.

"It's not bad, it should be no problem to pass." Man Qing went to get his fountain pen and checked it.

"You always say that!" Yuqing ran over to take her hand, and went downstairs with her, "Which time did you not get a high score in Chinese? What kind of skills do you have?"

"Where are the skills?" Man Qing smiled, "It's just that Professor Zhu loves free essays, probably because she likes the articles I wrote. It should be thanks to my love to read novels—unlike you! I don't read anything other than textbooks book."

"Who said that!" Yuqing puffed up her cheeks angrily, "I'll still watch it!"

"Are you looking at comic books or erotic pictures?" Man Qing lowered her voice and smiled at her quietly.

"Hey! You're bad!" Yuqing blushed now, squeezed her fist and slapped her lightly, still moaning: "Who would say such nonsense in broad daylight!"

Man Qing laughed, and arguing with her suppressed the nervousness of preparing for the exam for a few minutes, and continued walking to the exam room.

After the exam was over, Young Master Wang asked Yuqing to go fishing, and Yuqing simply took Manqing with him.Naturally, Manqing called Ruan Yu, and when the four gathered by the fish pond, they spontaneously formed two teams.

"Hey, you can do it, Ruan Yu. You didn't come even if I told you, but you came out when Miss Zhao asked you?" Young Master Wang pulled Yuqing and spoke to Ruan Yu with dissatisfaction.

"I can't help it! Miss Zhao looks better than you!" Yu Qing answered with a smile, and went to fight with Young Master Wang.

"Didn't I think of the two of you, would I be a disturber?" Ruan Yu went over to hold Manqing, and replied with a smile: "And indeed, the words of beauties are more effective."

"Hey! You are all laughing at me!" Man Qing held up a parasol and covered Ruan Yu inside.She is wearing trousers today, made of blue cloth, it doesn't look rustic.Ruan Yu was wearing black overalls, very playful, both of them had their hair tied up high, Man Qing was still laughing at her for finally combing her hair the first time she saw Ruan Yu.

So they divided into two teams and went fishing separately. Man Qing and Ruan Yu sat together, which was naturally very attractive.This is a good time, everyone came to see them and not the fish, they caught a lot of them, and finally took two back to Master Wang's house, let the cooking lady cook a bowl of fish soup, and steamed the other to eat.

"Hey, I think I should bring you guys with me when I go fishing in the future, so as to attract others' attention and give me all the fish." Young Master Wang teased and said at the dinner table, and Man Qing answered him with a smile: "Hey , then you mean our Yuqing is not so beautiful anymore?"

Everyone roared with laughter, and the night of talking and laughing passed away.Young Master Wang asked them to sleep overnight, so Ruan Yu and Man Qing shared the same room.

Ruan Yu had stayed at Wang's house before, so she naturally had leftover clothes.She turned out two pieces and used them as pajamas for Man Qing.When the two of them got out of the shower and went to bed, there would naturally be endless topics to talk about.From novels to current affairs, there are also some casual and mundane things, and the chat seems to be endless, and finally we talk about love.

The night was already very dark at this time, and a golden moon hung in the dark sky.They didn't close the windows, the moonlight came in and fell on the small table made of mahogany, and there was a small pot of warm flower wine, which was specially prepared by Master Wang for Ruan Yu - I knew she would like this kind of wine.

Ruan Yu took the wine to the bedside table and shared a drink with Man Qing.There are still some snacks on the table, I can't eat any more at this time, and I'm afraid of gaining weight.Women always worry about these things, let alone two beautiful people.

"Raise your glass to invite the bright moon, and we will form three people in front of each other." Ruan Yu raised his glass once outside the window, then withdrew his hand and drank.Man Qing smiled and respected Mingyue like her.

Ruan Yu has already confided a lot to her, including the fact that she has never been in a serious relationship.Man Qing didn't look too surprised, after several drinks, Ruan Yu was a little drunk.Young Master Wang estimated that he should have given her the newly brewed flower wine from the Wang family. The masters of the Wang family always make wine with a stronger taste.

"Hey, Manqing, have you ever kissed someone?" Ruan Yu asked her suddenly, putting the cup on the table.When Man Qing saw her, he knew she must be drunk.

"Kissed, both men and women." Man Qing also put down the cup, and leaned in front of her to answer her: "Why? Miss Ding, want to try?"

As soon as he finished speaking, Ruan Yu leaned forward, warm lips, attached to Man Qing's lips, and the smell of wine, intoxicating.