jealous tail

It seems that Jin Yeyu came this time, many things changed, and I felt much more at ease. I thought about it for a long time on the balcony, and finally understood.

It turned out that I couldn't forget those people, I just wanted to hear them say sorry, I couldn't forget a lot of things, but I didn't get a goodbye from them.

It turns out that life is so simple.

The sponge in my heart has absorbed enough water, there is no need to wring it out, it will absorb it again after wringing it out, and let it be saturated, so nothing will be sucked in.

Du Tingwei still failed my application, and I even wondered if he also cut off the Internet and isolated the world, so that after three days, I changed the background to a puzzle of sunflowers and paper airplanes, and he still turned a blind eye to my invitation.

If you want to make a call but dare not make one, it is better to wait for a message than to hear that the phone you dialed has been turned off.

At the beginning of the day, I was very anxious. I looked at my phone all the time. I was afraid that I would fall asleep and miss it in the middle of the night. I set an alarm clock and watched it every half an hour. The next day was much more normal. And hesitated for a few seconds, it was during these few seconds that I thought clearly.

If he doesn't answer me, it means that he is hesitating. He hesitates when he sees candles, hesitant when he sees cuckoo birds, hesitant when he sees sunflowers and paper airplanes, which means he is still thinking about it.

He's just scared, I have a chance, I have a chance, I just have to wait, I have to give him a chance to react.

The three places I interviewed that day were all waiting for notifications. I felt that my hopes were high, so I gave up looking for a new job for the time being, and waited for the news in a small hotel with peace of mind, both jobs and Du Tingwei.

There are only Zhen Huan’s Legend and Making Money on TV, and there is nothing to do on my mobile phone except watch movies. I am so shadowed by Weibo now, I don’t want to load this software at all. In the past, I only had WeChat for entertainment.

I changed all my passwords, and set it to 1234567 first. I wanted to wait for Du Tingwei to promise me someday, so I changed the date of that day into the password.

I had nothing to do, time passed too slowly while I was waiting, I temporarily switched the account back to the original one, and then clicked on Du Tingwei’s circle of friends, sure enough, there was nothing, he never posted this stuff, he Better than I can isolate the network.

I was dangling my legs on the bed and thinking, if I can resist not having sex, it would be great if Du Tingwei and I went to the mountains to be a couple of monks.

I'm happy just thinking about it, I can be brothers with Du Tingwei, as long as he comes back to me, I can be my father.

Du Tingwei's WeChat interface is too simple, with a white background. He took a picture of him facing his bed sheet, and his profile picture is the candied haws pendant I gave him.

When I first saw this thing in the store, I wanted to buy it for Du Tingwei at first sight, not the golden leaf elm that once gave me candied haws. Now that I think about it, I have been reminded by myself.

I tapped on my skull, "Forget about being stupid."

After doing this, I had nothing else to do, so I just downloaded a comedy movie to watch. I didn’t dare to watch that movie, because I would cry when I saw it, so I could only watch comedy. The rating of the show was quite high, but I watched it Drowsy to death, wondering in a daze, if Du Tingwei saw this, would he giggle and start laughing again.

After thinking about it, I felt happy again. I wrote down the screenshots of the film, found several comedies and added them to my favorites, and then I fell asleep after watching them. When I woke up, it was already four o'clock in the afternoon.

I didn’t want to get up after waking up, so I lay on my side and looked at the violin. Suddenly, I turned on the music software’s Listening to Songs, and hummed the song I heard in my dream that day. After going over and over again, I finally found it.

"Forest Hymn", by Bill Douglas, coincidentally, I still don't recognize it.

I don't understand classical music, so I can only read the comments, and I can rely on netizens to know what the song is about. When I clicked on the comments, I saw a poem, Brecht's "Reminiscence of Mary Ann".

"As for the kiss, I've long since forgotten But the cloud that floated in the sky I still remember, never forget It was white and moved high in the air Those plum trees might still be blooming That woman might have given birth to a seventh But that cloud was only there for a few minutes and when I looked up, it was gone."

I read it several times and listened to the sad piano sound. I thought it was warm music before, but now it is full of parting tunes.

I turned off the comment, cut it, I didn’t see it, this is An Shenqu, it’s not a sad song, the cello and the violin are not saying goodbye, they are clearly lingering, netizens don’t know anything and just talk nonsense, one two Do you know classical music?

I don't want to listen to it anymore, the scene of Du Tingwei saying goodbye to me will always appear in my mind, I clicked the next song casually, and as a result, it started playing "The Sad Third Movement of Beethoven Piano Sonata No. 8".

fuck you.

I turned off the music and put my phone under my pillow trying to shut it up when it was already suffocating.

I swung my legs up and down again, crossing my legs to observe my calves. I remember that once I attended a wedding ceremony in a hotel, and there was some trouble in the middle of the ceremony. As a result, I stood for a whole day. When I went back at night, my calf was swollen badly. Du Ting squeezed my leg with a slightly sullen face.

Applying and soaking, without saying a word, I teased him and he ignored me. In the end, I hugged his arm and acted like a baby. I said brother, don't be angry with me, and he calmed down a little.

He touched the essential oil in his palm, warmed it up and kneaded my tendons. While rubbing, he said that I should, but he was still breathing for me. Maybe it was because he was used to exhaling when he was a child, and he felt that this trick was useful for me. He is 1.8 meters seven His little wife is so cute, I didn't throw him down.

I sighed, I really answered that sentence.

At that time, I was young and frivolous, I didn't see your eyes and heart, and I was full of pity, but now I am in a state of desolation, and no one sheds a drop of tears for me.

I squeezed my calf by myself and imagined that it was Du Tingwei's palm with my eyes closed. Unfortunately, my palm was deformed and it was too slippery to learn.

Well, Du Tingwei, I will not give up on you. In the past, you were the one who kept walking towards me and chasing after me, but I never looked back at you. I was an asshole. Now let me go and I will go find you. I'm going to chase you.

I can walk this road alone, fifty steps, one hundred steps, one thousand steps, ten thousand steps, there will always be an end, you just have to wait for me at the end.

It may take a little longer, after all, I don't have a motorcycle, but you must not leave too early, give me a chance, wait a little longer, I will try my best to run, I run very fast.

Also, it would be great if you could open your arms and hug me at that time.

I looked at the ceiling. The lights in the hotel were very old and dim. They were the kind of incandescent bulbs that cost a few dollars each. Little matches.

I took out my phone again, and looked at the second-hand market when I had nothing to do. I downloaded it when I downloaded the recruitment information software. A lot of money to ask for a child.

I brushed and brushed, and suddenly I came across a bunk bed, which was exactly the same as that of me and Du Tingwei, even the mattress on the top bunk was exactly the same. I felt a little uncomfortable and went in to have a look.

"The old things of the deceased will be given away free of charge, and they will be picked up by themselves. If no one picks them up within an hour, they will be taken directly to the house and burned."

Contact, Mr. Kim.

I jumped up and grabbed the key on the table and ran.

Jin Yeyu, if you dare to mess around, I will take your skin off.

Du Tingwei is fine, what Jin Yeyu said about the relics of the deceased is that he has given up on those two people, and those two people are equivalent to dead in his heart, so he is out of sight and out of mind