jealous tail

I ignited all my hopes, and I would not be so happy if I won [-] billion.

Du Tingwei really came here, brought me back from the park, and guarded me. He didn't want to see me, did he, didn't he particularly dislike me, did he?

He has been here, he really came last night, there are traces of people lying on my pillow, there are also footprints a few yards larger on the ground, and the black crystal surface of the violin is also stained with fingerprints that do not belong to me. The music played, the music in the dream, he performed for me, he was coaxing me to sleep.

I sat up excitedly and hammered the wall. The rooms on the left and right were empty. No one scolded me. I felt that it was not enough, so I happily jumped on the bed until I heard a slight crackling sound. Sit down, the bed is not enough.

After the joy, I felt a little melancholy, so who was that person I met in Bar Street, Jin Yeyu?It doesn't seem to be the case. According to Du Tingwei, last night he said a lot of stupid things himself, and he seems to dislike my touch. Is he really out of pity for me?But what is that line?Is it just a coincidence?Ah, dizzy, I hid my face and was depressed for a long time, and finally convinced myself that I don't care, just pretend that he still likes me, anyway, he doesn't know.

Although I deleted my call records, the other person is still there. He has been here, which means that he still has unrequited love for me.

Yes, that's it. My logic is very good, and I have always been very good. I even got 99 in the university test, so my analysis is completely fine.

Anyway, as long as he is here, he has not completely given up on me, I can beg him, I can wait for him, it doesn’t matter how long I wait, he can treat me whatever I want, I will wait for him to heal my heartache, wait for him Forgive, beg him to like again, like him even more.

Anyway, I have plenty of time, anyway, we are still young.

I hesitated for a long time, and finally registered WeChat with a new account, and then named it Xiaozhu, and added him. My profile picture is a rhododendron.

The meaning of this is too clear, I lowered my head, and sent the application to add friends, I was covered in the quilt and blushed to death, just like a blind date with a yellow flower girl.

After I sent it, I waited and looked at the phone once every 2 minutes, then 1 minute, then 30 seconds, then [-] seconds, then [-] seconds, and finally turned the screen to always on, and kept watching it.

But my eyes were sore from staring, and he still didn't pass.

I was at a loss in my heart, is he really pitying me, or, he didn't come at all last night, just someone just sent me back, or, it was just me doing it while drunk Dream.

I patrolled the house and cheered myself up. Maybe he didn’t recognize me, so that’s a good thing, because he ignored those who hooked up with him casually, and he was a good boy who kept himself clean.

Then should I use the previous number to board, but that number is too unsightly, I always feel uncomfortable, like a return journey, but what I want now is not to return, but to start again.

I was lying on my stomach hesitatingly, when the door was knocked suddenly, dreaming back to the hotel, I couldn’t even put on my shoes, so I ran to open the door, so pleasantly surprised that I had won a 3000 billion jackpot.

I suddenly opened the door and shouted, "Brother!" The smile on my face slowly froze, I touched my lips lightly, and the smile fell off, and I asked, "Why are you here?" Jin Yeyu stood outside the door , like ten years older, those beautiful eyes like Du Tingwei's have become lifeless, no longer similar to Du Tingwei, but I am a little afraid, whether Du Tingwei's eyes were like this for a moment.

His eyes are covered with bruises, his bright black eyeballs have turned into a cloudy brown, and even the whites of his eyes are also turning yellow, which are covered with bloodshot eyes and small black spots. His face is pale and thin, with high cheekbones and lips. Blood scabs all over.

I don't know how he got himself into such a state that I was startled when I first opened the door.

"Xiao Shen, can I go in and sit down?" He asked, but his voice was hoarse and horrible, like a ghost in a horror movie.

His appearance softened my heart, and I suddenly felt that I was a good, bad-tempered person, but we were not bitter and bitter enemies. We also took care of each other and treated each other as family members.

How is it now? In the past, it was just a knee-jerk.

"come in."

I let the door open, let him in, and closed the door.

It was still such a hot day, but he was wearing a leather jacket with a long-sleeved shirt underneath. I remember that he was not afraid of the cold before.

No disposable cups, I poured water for him in my lunch box.

He sat on the bed, touched the sheets, and asked me, "Is it Du Tingwei's?" I paused, nodded, and he could distinguish the pure white thing, it seems that he really liked Du Tingwei, Our awkward triangle.

"You really like him."

I didn't expect to be robbed of the lines, I was noncommittal, because I thought it was unnecessary, I wanted to pass him water but felt that there was no place to put it, so I just carried it like that, in a nondescript embarrassment.

He looked at me and thought it was funny, and said with a smile, "Let it go, I'm not thirsty."

I poured the water into the washbasin, you didn't say it earlier, it's just now, it's a waste of water, and it's tiring to boil a pot.

I stood there after pouring, and he patted the empty space beside me to let me sit down, as if he was the master of the room.

I was holding my butt on the corner of the bed, and he pulled me over with familiar discomfort. Just as I was about to shout, he said, "Are you so afraid of me?" There is nothing to be afraid of, I just I think it would be ridiculous for the two of them to sit together now.

I sat there wringing my fingers boredly, and he was silent for a while before calling me, "Xiao Shen."

I haven't heard this name for a long time, so I couldn't answer it in the first time.

"You, do you hate me?" It seems a bit fake to say that you don't hate me lightly, but I really don't want to hate him. I'm not that miserable, and in my eyes, some of the things he has done are what I deserve. Some of it I paid him back.

"No need."

I thought about it for a long time, and I can only say that it is unnecessary.

He listened and laughed, covering his face and not speaking, his body trembling slightly.

"How did we get to this point?" He asked me, but I don't know, I still don't know, how much is his fault, and how much is my fault.

"How's your novel going?" When he mentioned his hard work, his reaction remained the same, and he couldn't stop being lifeless.

"It's rotten. Youfeng in the South Courtyard, and all his works, are all rotten."

I didn't pay attention to the Internet anymore. Hearing what he said, probably he exposed me and didn't get any benefits.

"Everyone believes that I wrote it, but they have already cast aside me as a person, so even if it is my original work, they would rather read a plagiarized article than support me, a person who cleans himself by betraying his friends."

betray a friend?Is this friend me?I was dragged into it again, and I don't know what kind of role I will be in the eyes of the public this time.

I have nothing to say, I usually have sharp teeth, these days I seem to have forgotten all language skills, I can't say a word that sounds comforting, and I am not good at it.

"Xiaoshen, does this count as retribution?" Probably the ending of both of us belongs to the cycle of cause and effect.

I didn't answer him, he sat for a while, got up, and I also stood up.

"You, live in another place. I'll find you a house. Your place has been exposed by several netizens. They have followed you since you left home."

I was really shocked. I don't understand how someone like me, an ordinary person, would be so interested in me. What's the use of finding me? What do you want to ask me? What can you get? "No, no one has blocked me these few days, and it doesn't matter if they block me. I don't have much value to tap anymore."

He looked a little sad. I don't know which sentence hit his sore spot, but I didn't think it was inappropriate. Isn't this normal? "Let me find you a house, don't live here."

He looked around again and saw the violin on the wall, "The environment here is too bad, it's not suitable for you to live in."

I'm a little angry, it's my own fate that I'm at this point, I don't blame him, but he shouldn't have told me this.

"Then what suits me?" He didn't speak again, and I suddenly felt aggrieved and angry.

"Promiscuous sex, drug abuse, breaking the law, and dying at the bottom of Beidaihe, is this suitable for me?" He rushed over to hug me, but I avoided it, but I was not as strong as him, so I still let him hug me after turning around I raised my elbow and wanted to hit him, but he cried.

Tears dripped down my neck and he cried sorry.

"I don't have a team, and no one teaches me how to do it. For a writer, a work is like a family member. I can't watch them insult it. I can't help it, Xiaoshen."

"So you chose to insult me."

He was speechless, wanted to argue but couldn't say anything, he could only keep crying, which made me upset, because I remembered the time when he came to pick me up after I parted with Du Tingwei, he cried and said the same sorry.

I feel credible once, but feel tired twice.

I don't want to argue with him about right and wrong, I've come here, what's the point of talking about cause and effect, the south courtyard can't be cleaned, and I can't do anything about it.

"Xiao Shen, can you forgive me?" I now feel that Jin Yeyu is a bit aggressive. In this sentence, if you say you don't hate me, please, I can give him a "yes", but he has no reason to let me Forgive him, that is my own business, not caring and forgiving, are not the same.

When a person makes a mistake, he can ask others not to hold grudges, but he should not ask others to forgive, because if he doesn’t hold grudges, he may be thinking of others, but forgiveness is purely for his own peace of mind.

"I have nightmares every day. I dream that you are attacked by the Internet, exposed by netizens constantly, hide in the rented house and dare not go out, and start to be depressed. Finally...finally..." He choked up and couldn't speak, I You can probably guess my ending.

"Finally died."

He suddenly tightened my grip, "Don't say such things, Xiao Shen, don't say that."

Is it true that people are so capricious? He is the one who arranged for me to be turned into bones at the bottom of the river tomorrow morning.

"So, you begged me to forgive you for having a good dream."

His Adam's apple rolled, and he swallowed hard, unable to speak eloquently, he could only shout weakly, "No, that's not the case."

I really don't want to play football back and forth with him like this, I still have other things to do, I'm in a hurry to date online.

"You go back, we, that's it."

"What's this like?" "I don't hate you, so I can't talk about forgiveness or not."

"What's this like?" I ran out of patience, "It's like clearing up the two."

He suddenly gave a weird smile, "Two cleans, two clears, good one and two clears, okay..." He hugged me hard, like hugging a dead body, and finally let me go, wiped away his tears and turned his head Just left, opened the door, didn't look back at me, just choked up and said something, and disappeared.

He said, "Xiao Shen, I have regrets."

In fact, Jin Yeyu’s character design is very, very realistic, because I know his ending, and it’s not painful or painful to scold him. I wrote this article after thinking about his ending. The image of Jin Yeyu was formed first , so I probably have a deeper feeling for him than the protagonist. This article is actually quite strange. It is really an entanglement between three people, not a double male lead and a second male lead. I like to be so stupid.