find i love you

In the late pregnancy, Bao Xiaoxiao added another symptom of insomnia in addition to night sweats, cramps, low back pain, edema and other discomforts.

After 32 weeks of pregnancy, Bao Xiaoxiao couldn't sleep well every night, and it was difficult to fall asleep and sleep well. suffer from insomnia.

Before going to bed every night, soaking feet in warm water and adding milk with meals are essential things, but they can only be relieved slightly, and the effect is not significant.

In the past, when things were calm and calm, he could not sleep well, not to mention that he just learned the mystery of his life experience like a bolt from the blue. On the surface, Bao Xiaoxiao was indifferent, but his heart was turbulent. I don't know how to react for a while, and my brain thinking is temporarily frozen.

Bao Xiaoxiao couldn't believe the fact that Bai Xuanhai was his biological father. To be precise, he couldn't accept the sudden truth about his life experience. I'm afraid it would be difficult for anyone to absorb and digest such shocking information in a short time.

The father and son who have not met for more than thirty years are like strangers.At this moment, Bao Xiaoxiao has mixed feelings, mixed tastes of sour, sweet, bitter, spicy and salty.

joy?In his lifetime, he could still meet his biological father, recognize his ancestors and return to his clan, and his identity can be verified. Isn't it the mercy and gift from heaven to him?

sorrow?Will the lack of fatherly love and family affection for more than 30 years be made up for by the reappearance of the person concerned?

anger?As a father, he ruthlessly abandons his own flesh and blood, regardless of the reason, isn't it worthy of anger to act so devoid of conscience and humanity?

curious?What kind of predicament and difficulty is it that has to abandon the child who was born through labor and labor in October?

Bao Xiaoxiao couldn't figure out his feelings for Bai Xuanhai either. He seemed to have all the above-mentioned emotions that should appear, and he didn't seem to have them. Next, he, who knew the facts, would continue to pretend to be ignorant of the inside story, and come face to face with him as before. What about Bai Xuanhai?Or should we simply clarify the truth, black is black, black is white, and the two of them should find a suitable time to have a good talk?But what should we talk about?

Bao Xiaoxiao was full of thoughts, worrying and restless, her stomach was overwhelmed, and she wanted to vomit, so she pushed Yu Hui back: "Old Yu, I want to vomit."

"Ah?" Yu Hui was sleeping lightly, jumped up, half of his body leaned in front of Bao Xiaoxiao. "Can you bear it? If you can't bear it, you vomit. I'll clean it up. It's okay."

Bao Xiaoxiao frowned, covered her chest with her hands, and said through her teeth: "I can bear it, go to the toilet."

In the bathroom, Yu Hui hugged Bao Xiaoxiao by the waist, and Bao Xiaoxiao lowered his head slightly to vomit. He didn't drink milk before going to bed tonight, and his dinner had already been digested. only to stop.

"Baozi, are you standing still? If you are standing still, stand by yourself for a while, and I'll get you a glass of water and rinse your mouth." After Yu Hui finished speaking, he felt that something was wrong, and helped him onto the toilet Sit down firmly, then went to the kitchen to pour a glass of warm water, hurried away and returned.

After rinsing his mouth, Bao Xiaoxiao stood up awkwardly, and Yu Hui helped him lie back on the bed.

Vomiting in the late pregnancy is not a good thing, and Yu Hui also knows that it must be a physiological abnormality caused by Bao Xiaoxiao's excessive mood swings, so clean up the bathroom, bring warm water and orange juice, and keep them by the bed.

"Hiss..." Bao Xiaoxiao, who was lying on his side, gasped suddenly, resting his hands on the bottom of his abdomen, the pain was fleeting.

"What's the matter? What's the matter? What's the matter?" Seeing this, Yu Hui hurriedly crawled to Bao Xiaoxiao's side with all hands and feet, feeling out the hardened belly, and said in surprise. "Baozi, are you okay? Are you going to give birth?"

"No." Bao Xiaoxiao weakly shook his head. "It's fake, it's always like this these two days."

Yu Hui was worried, and kept touching the stiff part: "Is it fake? Twins are prone to premature birth, why don't we go to the hospital?"

"Hoo..." While Yu Hui was speaking, the pain came again, Bao Xiaoxiao followed the guidance of the Daquan of Pregnancy Knowledge, inhaled and exhaled, Yu Hui's fuss made him irritable, and his tone was bad. "Where is it going to give birth? I haven't seen red again!"

"Didn't the book say that you don't have to meet Hong to give birth! Baozi, look at you, it hurts again, doesn't it? Your stomach feels so hard, we'd better go to the hospital for insurance." Yu Hui insisted on his own opinion, busy chattering The ground is about to dress and pack things.

Bao Xiaoxiao was too lazy to talk nonsense with him, she turned over with her belly in her arms, her back was facing Yu Hui, and stared in a dazed way.

In the second half of the night, Bao Xiaoxiao got up twice at night, the fetus pressed the bladder, and the symptoms of frequent urination worsened.

Yu Hui drooped his head, struggling tenaciously with the heavy drowsiness, running his hands up and down the cramped calves, and then kneading the stiff muscles with moderate strength with five fingers.

Bao Xiaoxiao, who was so sleepy, held Yu Hui's hand and murmured softly: "Old Yu, what do you think I should do? Bai Xuanhai is my father, and I have never thought about it. Tell me, should I admit it?" He? Lao Yu, do you know? I told you that I used to always think about my biological parents or my biological father and dad. What kind of people are they? But what I think about most is why they Are you going to abandon me? Do you know? I heard from the aunt of the orphanage that I was thrown at the gate of the orphanage just a few days after I was born. There was a note with my date of birth in my baby, and nothing was left. Welfare There are not many children like me in the hospital, and most of those who were abandoned at birth were born with disabilities or were seriously ill. I often think, I am healthy and mentally normal, why would my parents not want me? I After thinking and thinking, I finally figured it out one day, because they don’t love me at all! If he loved me, how could he be willing to abandon me? Even if there were difficulties at the time, why didn’t he come to me after the difficulties?

"Old Yu, do you know how it feels to have no parents? In the orphanage, everything belongs to everyone. Aunts, toys, meals, even quilts and clothes are shared by everyone. There is nothing to share with others. It belongs to me completely. Only my parents and the person who gave birth to me belong to me completely. But where are they? I also want my father to take me to the park to fly a kite, and I also want my father to pick me up When I go to and from school, I also want my father to cook for me, even if he beats me and scolds me, like in TV dramas or in novels, but I don’t have it!

"Old Yu, do you understand the loneliness and solitude of an orphan? Any festival that accompanies me is lonely and lonely. What others pay for me can't replace my parents. My adoptive parents didn't adopt me because they loved me. Not because of sympathy for me, but because the fortune teller told them that □□ would help their business, and my horoscope was in line with their family, so they adopted me. My adoptive parents treated me very well and supported me I am very grateful to them for food, clothing, reading, and raising me up. But, I know, they don’t love me. They have feelings for me, like kittens and puppies, but they are not family affection.

"Old Yu, I thought that no one would love me in this world, nor would I fall in love with anyone. I didn't realize until you appeared that I would love, and I fell in love with you. Heh...you know what? ?At the beginning you teased me to show that you didn’t love me. At that time, I felt like the whole sky was falling apart. I lay down without eating, drinking, or sleeping. I couldn’t figure out why everyone didn’t love me. When I think about dying, I want to understand that I can’t control whether others love me or not, but I want to love myself. Live well, and then I love myself. Old Yu, why? Why do I want to meet him? What? How should I face him? Old Yu, I didn't realize until now that I have no hatred, no love, no anger, and no sadness for him. Why is this happening? Old Yu, I...I What should I do? Old Yu... woo woo woo..."

Bao Xiaoxiao confided as if talking to herself, the more she spoke, the lower her voice became, and at the end, she couldn't help but plunged into Yu Hui's arms, sobbing endlessly, venting the grievances she had endured over the years.

Yu Hui hugged Bao Xiaoxiao's back, fondled his head, kissed his hair, and mentioned the absurd thing before, Yu Hui's heart ached like needles again, as he was protected by his parents and accompanied by his elder brother. He who grew up in the middle of the world could not deeply understand the desolation and desolation of Bao Xiaoxiao, who had no support in his childhood.

It was only now that Yu Hui finally understood why Bao Xiaoxiao was so domineering, domineering, arrogant, and tough when he first met Bao Xiaoxiao, because he wanted to protect himself.

Yes, when Bao Xiaoxiao was growing up, he received too little love. He needed love and longed for someone to love him wholeheartedly.However, it is not easy for him to get love, and there are very few people around him who love him sincerely.

Therefore, Bao Xiaoxiao forged a character like an iron wall. He didn't want to get close to others, and he didn't like others to get close to him. He was afraid of getting love, because he was even more afraid of losing love. He became more and more indifferent and withdrawn. , more and more self.

Baozi, don't be afraid, I was absent in your past, I will be with you in your future, and I am by your side now.Anything, I will face and bear with you.

Yu Hui looked at his sleeping lover, thinking silently in his heart.

In the early morning of early summer, the sky and the earth are shrouded in a thin mist, like the mood of the afterglow standing silently by the window.Hidden behind the morning mist, the sun shines in faintly, sprinkled sparsely on Yu Hui's body, dappled and fragmented.

Yu Hui, who hadn't slept all night, lowered the curtains, turned around and saw that Bao Xiaoxiao, who fell asleep at dawn, was sleeping soundly, her towering belly rose and fell rhythmically with her breathing, and her heart that had been carried all night was slightly relaxed.

In the kitchen, Yu Hui took over Ma Qianli to prepare breakfast for the three brothers. The three brothers went to bed early and woke up early. They woke up at around five o'clock every day, drank milk, changed their diapers, played wiggling games for a while, and then continued sleep until eight o'clock on time to get up.

Ma Qianli saw that the whites of Yu Hui's eyes were bloodshot, and there were big bags under his eyes, and he was listless. He asked with concern, "Hui Hui, what's the matter? Didn't sleep well? The child is making a fuss?"

Hearing the sound, Yu Qiufeng leaned closer: "Why don't you stay in the hospital and wait for delivery today or tomorrow? Staying at home is always worrying."

"It's okay." Yu Hui stirred the oatmeal prepared with milk evenly, and divided the sliced ​​bananas into three portions. They brought them to the dining table of the three brothers' dining chairs in order, and then pulled the small stool to sit face to face with the three brothers, helping Dining with the supervisor and the three little guys.

After eating and drinking, the three brothers chased and fought in the living room, exhausting their excess energy. After Yu Qiufeng sent Yu Yueer out and got on the school bus, it was the turn of the three adults to have breakfast, to deal with the children's leftover food, including A small breakfast has to be made when he wakes up.

During the meal, Yu Hui briefed Yu Qiufeng and Ma Qianli on the father-son relationship between Bao Xiaoxiao and Bai Xuanhai and the development process of the whole incident. Passed by.

Yu Qiufeng and Ma Qianli were overwhelmed by the mist, and roughly understood what Yu Hui said, they looked at each other in shock, their minds went blank for a moment, not knowing what to do.

Ma Qianli took the slice of bread that Yu Qiufeng held in mid-air, wiped some of Yu Yueer's leftover peanut butter, lamented the ruthless fate of Bai Xuanhai and Bao Xiaoxiao's father and son, and then thought of Bao Xiaoxiao's current body Situation, I can't help complaining to Yu Hui: "Hui Hui, you are so serious, why are you so careless? Xiaobao is about to give birth, how can his current body withstand the big emotional fluctuations? Did he suffer a lot last night? Why don't you go to the hospital today? It's also possible to have an early onset."

Yu Qiufeng echoed: "That's right, that's right! You are usually steady, kid, but every time you lose the chain at a critical moment!"

Ma Qianli lost his appetite, put down the bread, put his elbows on the side of the table: "Huihui, what's the attitude of Xiaobao? Do you agree or not?"

"No." Yu Hui unconsciously stirred the porridge in the bowl, shaking his head. "He is very confused now, and his feelings for Bai Xuanhai are also very complicated. It is not such a simple love and hate, and there is not even a relationship."

"This is understandable." Ma Qianli nodded clearly. "Although they are father and son, they haven't met each other in the past thirty years. The relationship between people is all out of place. Hey, Xiaobao is also pitiful. Huihui, you have to persuade him to be angry. Whether it’s okay or sad, don’t hold it in your heart, your body is the most important thing at this time, cry when you want to cry, make trouble when you want to, and wait until the baby is born.”

Yu Qiufeng sat next to Yu Hui, showing a particularly curious look, and asked, "Oh, Hui Hui, did Doctor Bai say who is Xiaobao's other father? Such a thing can't be slapped together! Wrong It must have been committed by two people."

Yu Hui looked sideways at Yu Qiufeng, who was extremely serious, not knowing that his serious and serious father had such a gossip side, couldn't help but smile wryly, curled his lips, and replied: "I don't know either, I haven't asked Doctor Bai, and neither has he." told me."

"I see." Yu Qiufeng folded his arms in disappointment. "It seems that he really has something to hide. No one will be bored to identify his son, not to mention the DNA test report. Then, why didn't he tell you who Xiaobao's father is?"

"Hey! Look at you the strength of the old and un respects." Ma Qianli interrupted Yu Qiufeng's imagination and turned to Yu Hui. "Huihui, tell me, your father and I, are we pretending we don't know? Or..."

Yu Hui thought for a while and said, "You and my father will just pretend not to know for the time being. Anyway, sooner or later everyone will know. You, don't take the initiative to ask Baozi, when Baozi told you, you and father will Only then will you know."

"Alright." Ma Qianli cleared the dining table. "For this kind of thing, outsiders can't help, and words of comfort are futile."

Yu Qiufeng grabbed the bread bag, immersed in doubts: "If you say that Bai Xuanhai is a famous doctor, he should be a good boy with good character and learning since he was a child. He is not yet fifty this year, and Xiao Bao is in his early thirties, which means that he Pregnant underage, which belongs to out-of-wedlock children! How could such an excellent child become a delinquent boy? Could it be a childhood sweetheart who secretly tasted the forbidden fruit? In that case, the big deal is to wait until the legal age to get a marriage certificate Well, why did you abandon the child? Could it be that he was abducted and raped by evil people? If it is a dark knot in the fetus, he should call the police and kill the child? Suspicious, suspicious, really suspicious!"

Bao Xiao took a nap until mid-morning and got enough sleep, but his complexion didn't look good. He ate some lotus seed, lily and red bean porridge sickly, and leaned against the back of the bed listlessly watching the three brothers run and dance in circles.

"Yes, I found out yesterday... Yes, I saw our chat records... No, I didn't say anything else... I don't know... I just want to tell you... Okay, I know ...the baby is fine...he is fine...no...still a pseudo contraction...yes..."

Yu Hui's voice could be faintly heard from the bathroom in the living room.

"Old Yu!"

The sudden voice from behind frightened Yu Hui, and turned around instinctively, seeing Bao Xiaoxiao standing at the door with one hand on his back and the other on the door frame, his expression and movements stopped abruptly, the voice from the mobile phone attached to his ear changed to Distant and ethereal.

"Ah, I'll tell you later, that's it, goodbye." Yu Hui hung up the phone quickly with a guilty conscience, his hands and feet were cold, and he forced a smile. "Why did you come out? Isn't there a toilet in the bedroom?"

"Old Yu, you don't need to call him behind my back, you can contact him openly. Me and him, you and him, us and him, the relationship between us is aboveboard, there is no need to hide it." Bao Xiao Xiao said sincerely.

"Ahem..." Yu Hui coughed embarrassingly. "I just... I just think he should know that you already know the truth. It was wrong to hide it from you before. If he is kept in the dark now, I'm afraid, I'm afraid that more conflicts and misunderstandings will arise."

"I know, Lao Yu, I don't blame you, really! I believe that what you do is for my own good." Bao Xiaoxiao took Yu Hui's hand and held it in his palm. His Yu Hui did nothing wrong Nothing, let alone being sorry for him, it was just a good-faith concealment.

Yu Hui immediately kissed Bao Xiaoli's lips emotionally, and the four bright red lips rubbed|rubbed unrequitedly, the kiss with utmost restraint did not arouse any more inappropriate thoughts, and ended the fiery deep kiss in a timely manner.

"Baozi, do you want to change to another doctor for the examination tomorrow?" Yu Hui finished sorting out the inspection report on Tuesday, put it in his satchel, and asked this sentence that he had been struggling with for a whole day.

"No need." Bao Xiaoxiao said frankly. "Sooner or later, I have to face what I have to face. Besides, since I was pregnant, I have always... been examined by Doctor Bai. It is not safe to change doctors after giving birth."

Late at night, Yu Hui hugged Bao Xiaoxiao and asked, "Have you thought about how to face him?"

"No." Bao Xiaoxiao took a deep breath, and the two fetuses in her abdomen moved restlessly, asking nonchalantly. "Old Yu, will you always be by my side?"

"Of course!" Yu Hui put his hand on the round belly in front of Bao Xiaoxiao, with a rare doting tone. "I will always be by your side, you hate me, you hate me, I will not leave! People say, a lifetime is a pair, we are, three lives, three lives, one pair!"

"Heh..." Yu Hui seldom uttered such sweet words, but he was already a blockbuster when he didn't say anything, Bao Xiaoxiao laughed with tears in his eyes. "Slick tongue!"

Until Bao Xiaoxiao fell into a deep sleep, Yu Hui was still full of energy, looking at his lover's sleeping face, his long eyelashes trembled slightly, his cherry mouth pouted slightly, he lacked the heroic spirit that a man should have, but more childish , slowly lowered his head and kissed this baby face that didn't match his age.

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