June Ansheng

From that day on, I entered a long and complicated dream.

In the dream, I saw me playing and playing with my mother when I was a child, being held tightly in her arms when I fell asleep, and when others laughed at me for not having a father, I waved my childish fists with them, and when I returned home, there was Mother's warm concern and careful care.After waking up from the dream, I kept crying. Such warm memories will only remind me of that night when I was seven years old, that sudden nightmare.

—Your tenderness is cruelty.

Came to streamer again after two weeks.He had just bid farewell to Cheng Meijia who was returning to Korea at the airport, and rushed to Liuguang immediately.For some reason, the longer time passed, the more eager I was to stay in this place that had nothing to do with me.

"Quan Shizhe!" I pushed open Liu Guang's store door suddenly, and called Quan Shizhe's name without thinking too much.The store manager raised his head from the counter and looked at me calmly, made a quiet gesture, and beckoned me to come in.

That's why I realized that the heating was turned on in the store. I must have let in the cold air from the outside by making such a fuss.The sporadic customers in the store were all staring at me. Their gazes made my scalp tingle. I closed the door a little stiffly. My fingers grazed the frosted glass and felt pain. I didn't pay much attention to it.

"Sit." Quan Shizhe pointed to the chair in front of the counter, and then started busy in front of the computer again. "The new employee has prepared a new drink, and the customers who tried it all have good reviews. I have to finish the launch of the new product first, so if you want something to drink, wait a little longer, or if you want a new drink, I will make it to you later .”

"You take your time, I'm not in a hurry." I sat down in front of the counter slowly, blinked my eyes and began to look around the environment, my intuition told me that Liu Guang was a little different from before, but I couldn't remember what was different.It just feels like Liu Guang is more comfortable than before, making people want to stay here even more.

"How is it? I don't feel anything." Quan Shizhe looked up at me, and chuckled: "New essential oils have been placed in the streamer to evaporate, and the decoration is not the same as before... It's the newly recruited waiter He's really talented, and he's also good-looking."

"Well... not bad, just a little bit worse than me." I joked, picked up the essential oil bottle in front of the counter, put it under my nose and smelled it, and a strong aroma came out, as if VIPs suffocate. "Ah... such a thick rose essential oil, that person likes it."

"Well, don't young people like it very much. Just a few days ago, some girls from a nearby school came to the store and asked about him. I told them that he picked this essential oil, and they all praised it." Quan Shizhe Biting his lower lip lightly, he looked depressed: "Yeah, my popularity has been taken away by him, but he is indeed still young, less than 24 years old. The only shortcoming is that he is not I can speak Chinese, otherwise those girls would definitely go directly to harass him instead of me."

"How come, Mr. Store Manager, you still have charm..." I couldn't help laughing in the middle of my sentence, and Quan Shizhe raised his head and gave me a hard look.

I was about to say something more to support my point.

Maybe Quan Shizhe will argue with me.

But time stood still at that moment.

"The store manager."

There was a deep bass sound in the store, speaking in Korean, I was startled and turned my head away.

His eyes just touched the big boy who just came out of the room.

He was wearing a plain white shirt over a black hoodie, dark black slacks, and a pair of high-top loafers.They are all the simplest collocations, but when worn on his body, the ordinary look is completely obliterated.He is like light.

What should I do, my dearest love.

It should be because he didn't rest well, his big beautiful eyes are squinting at this moment, and the aura of not getting close to strangers is permeating his whole body.There is no smile on his face, I just feel that he is strange to me at the moment.

He had changed, he was no longer the big boy I knew.But I can't help but love him.

"Rencan, this is my friend, Nangong Xiayun, he often comes to the store, but you didn't know it when you came here a while ago." Quan Shizhe should have sensed that something was wrong with me, and decided to act as Mr. Hao Hao. The new clerk introduced to me: "Nangong, this is the newly recruited employee, An Rencan, I told you that he is Korean, it's a pity that he can't speak Chinese."

"The store manager, my mother asked me to call her tonight. It's getting late now. Can I leave early?" The boy walked to the back of the counter and counted the dates with his fingers on the desk calendar on the counter.He didn't even look at me as he walked right past me.

"Ah, yes, no problem." Quan Shizhe also seemed to realize the boy's indifference to me, stood up and patted him on the shoulder: "Finally, you can leave after taking out the milk tea that was cooked in the studio, you go After that, I can't do these jobs."

The boy stretched out his hand and gently brushed off the plaster on Quan Shizhe's head who didn't know when. He watched Quan Shizhe lower his head in embarrassment to straighten his hair, and then quietly bent his eyes.

He still looks so good-looking when he smiles, but the two rows of big white teeth are gone.

"I'm going to the bathroom." Seeing him walking into the working room, I hurriedly stood up and slipped in the direction where he walked away.

"Hey, the bathroom isn't there."

Quan Shizhe's voice became smaller and smaller, I ignored it, and stepped up to keep up with the pace of my predecessors.

"An Rencan!"

When he caught up with him, he had already reached the door of the studio.I called to him and he stopped.

I rushed forward and grabbed his arm, forcing him to turn around.He struggled a few times, but couldn't break free from my restraint, so he had no choice but to turn around and look at me.I pulled him into my arms with all my strength, and was about to bite his lips in a hurry. I really haven't touched him for a long time. At this moment, the unbearable desire of hunger and thirst is about to burn me.

He lowered his head slightly to avoid my kiss, and looked up at me when I was stunned, his beautiful eyes were still half-closed as before, I couldn't read any emotion from his dark pupils.

Maybe he's just tired and needs a rest.I comfort myself like this.

But just for a moment, he broke away from me with his backhand, and his arms passed around my waist nimbly and neatly, pulling me into each other's arms even more.Rubbing his fingers into my hair, he raised his head and kissed me. We hugged each other and stumbled open the door of the studio, as if our bodies couldn't leave for a moment.

Maybe he doesn't need me anymore, but all I know is that I need him and really want to kiss him.

I cornered him and pushed him hard against the wall, and we slid down the edge to the floor.He turned over and rode on me, leaned down to kiss me back, I straightened up and tried my best to respond to him, and when I was tired, I simply pulled him down, deepening this long-awaited reunion ceremony.

Suddenly there was a blunt sound beside the door, and I was so startled that I immediately turned my head to look outside the door, but there was nothing inside.An Rencan sat up from me, still maintaining the straddle posture, straightened his back, and looked down at me.I looked at him and saw that his eyes were clouded with water.I think I love him badly.

We looked at each other for a long time, he finally turned over and stood up, and I sat up following his movements, still reminiscing the touch of the tip of his tongue.He looked down at me for a few moments, then turned his back.

"Go and tell Xiao Zhe, I'll take out the milk tea later, some of it is not cooked yet, I'll pour it into the main pot together after it boils."

I nodded in a daze, and the corners of my mouth couldn't help but curl up.When I ran to the door, I turned my head subconsciously, but saw the big boy with the backlight taking out a cigarette and lighting it.

I rushed to his side almost like crazy, ignoring the burning of the cigarette butt, I reached out and snatched his cigarette.The still-burning cigarette burnt my palm, and I clenched it tightly, and couldn't help but growl in a low voice because of the pain.At that moment, his brows were tightly wrinkled, but only for a moment, he returned to that indifferent posture.

"What are you doing? You never smoked before!" I threw the cigarette butt on the ground, then stomped it out, and looked up at him angrily, but he just looked indifferent, which undoubtedly made me even more angry: "Who taught you this?!"

Maybe I was still too naive at the time, I thought I still had enough ground to prevent him from getting these bad habits, I thought I still had a legitimate identity to stay by his side, I thought...we are still together.

"None of your business." He interrupted me coldly, waved his hand and walked to the window of the work room, looking at the pot of milk tea that had begun to cool under the sunlight.I am still familiar with his eyes, but I can't read them.

"An Rencan, do you think it's none of my business? Huh?" I looked at his back dully, and felt an indescribable loneliness surrounding him. "I don't want my lover to be a smoker!"

"Your lover is not a smoker, but I am." He chuckled.It’s an illusion, I can only read contempt and disdain from his smile: “Not only do I smoke, I also drink, go to nightclubs, pick up girls, and sometimes even find men, because I’m not your lover, so what do I do? It's not restricted, it has nothing to do with you."

"What nonsense are you talking about, I even..."

"I want to say that you don't understand a word, do you? Don't pretend, you understand everything I'm talking about." An Rencan turned around, and I hugged him impulsively, but he just brushed me lightly. Opened my hand: "Don't do this, it's very disgusting."

"Why did it suddenly happen? When I left Korea, I told you that I would wait for you. Now that I have waited for you, you have come to find me, but you want to push me away again. Why?" I asked He retracted his hand like an electric shock, forcing himself not to do what he thought was disgusting. "Obviously it's been agreed before, why do you want to let me go again?"

"you have not."

"What?" I watched him utter a few syllables with unknown meanings, then I stopped talking to me, squatted down on my own, and put my hands on the handle of the milk tea pot.I couldn't bear it anymore, I stepped forward and hugged him in my arms, we all fell to the ground due to inertia, and the milk tea was spilled all over the floor.I tightly locked him between my hands, and couldn't say anything, so I could only hug him more deeply, rest my head on the back of his head, and sniff his body greedily.He didn't struggle, he just let me go crazy. After I calmed down a little, I only felt a suffocating pain from the left arm around his neck.

He bit me, with all his strength, and more than one bite.

I still maintained the embarrassed appearance of sitting on the ground, helplessly looking at a large piece of blood on my arm.The blood gushed out happily from my body, flowed down my arm, and then fell drop by drop into a large piece of light brown milk tea, blurring a large dark red pattern.An Rencan stood silently looking at me, and finally stretched out his tongue to lick the red blood streak left on the upper teeth.

I must be crazy, God knows how much I want to kiss him when he is acting like this.

"Mr. Nangong, Liu Guang don't look for me in the future. If Xiao Zhe is here, I don't want him to misunderstand." He picked up the paper and pen on the workbench, wrote something and threw it to me: "This is my mobile phone Number. If you want to find me, wait until I get off work, and if you want to go to bed, tell me in advance..."

"Get the fuck out of me!" Regardless of the injury on my left arm, I suddenly grabbed the paper he threw at me and threw it back at him.Surprised by my action, he turned and walked out of the studio.Almost after he took the first step to go out, I rushed forward frantically to hold the note tightly in my palm, and then put my fist closest to my chest.There is my freshest blood and my most sincere love. I only hope he can understand.

"Why can't we be together?" I gritted my teeth to keep myself from crying, and suddenly An Rencan's sneer came from my ear, and I looked up in shock, with tears still on my face.

But the door was already empty.

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Let's think about what Inchan is thinking.

i thought a lot

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