June Ansheng

With a high fever of 40 degrees Celsius, I don't even know how I survived the afternoon classes.

I didn’t eat any grain of rice at noon, not because I didn’t want to eat it, but after taking the medicine, I started to feel a little acid in my stomach.But I still can't eat, so I can only reduce the amount of exercise to preserve my energy-but in fact, I don't really want to move my body now.

Han Junhao turned back and forth, I knew he was also very anxious, but his throat was stiff and he couldn't utter a clear word to comfort him, so I just watched in a daze.Watching him pace back and forth, watching his face wrinkle every time he was in pain for some reason—as if it was him who was sick and not me.But I think I should be lucky, at least in such a huge company, there can still be such a person who will feel uneasy because of my health.

He's my brother, I guess I'm lucky.

There was only one vocal session in the afternoon, and that fellow Han Junhao deliberately rescheduled his dance class to the day after tomorrow, and transferred his vocal music class originally scheduled for the day after tomorrow to today to accompany me.I wasn't sick enough to need someone to take care of me, but I still didn't refuse his offer.

After a class, I can hardly listen to anything, except for the sentence "get out of class is over" that the teacher said.But in a trance, it seemed that I heard a piano piece that the teacher asked us to practice, and then several trainees played the piece again, with uneven levels.I almost fell asleep in the second half of the class, and there was a rare awakening in the middle of the class. It was Han Junhao who woke me up, and it was when it was Nangong Xiayun's turn to play.A few trainees played around on their own because of disdain, and they stopped after being reprimanded by the teacher, so I sat quietly and listened to his performance, and then immediately lay back in Han Junhao's arms Fall asleep.

As for what happened next, I have absolutely no idea what happened.So that until the end, until a long, long time later, when I recalled it again, I still couldn't clearly outline the outline of that day.

"Are you enough? What's yours? Can't you even take care of it?" There seemed to be a faint voice, and it was getting louder and louder.I felt like I was awake, but I couldn't keep my eyes open. "Aren't you all Koreans?"

"Do you think you, the Chinese, are the only ones we discriminate against?"

Someone said something, and then the audience fell silent.With difficulty, I raised my hand and rubbed my eyes, turned over and buried my head in Han Junhao's chest, trying to fall asleep again.

But the silence was only maintained for a short time, and soon the noise sounded again.I only felt a buzzing sound in my ears, which disturbed me, so I raised my hand and patted my face again, opening my eyes as best I could.In the blur of colors, I saw a person arguing with several people. I guess I will never forget that person in my life.

It was Nangong Xiayun.

Honestly, I fell asleep again when everyone was about to leave after class. At this time, there were only a small number of people left in the practice room.It's just a pain for Han Junhao, he was afraid that I would burn out because of a high fever, so he kept pressing a cold water bag to my forehead, and he didn't even change his posture for an unknown amount of time.

"Isn't he your friend? Are you embarrassed to say such things in front of him?" Nangong Xiayun shouted at the top of his voice, and I couldn't help but look at him.For some reason, he, who had always been keeping a low profile, was arguing with others, his face flushed red: "Don't make me look down on you too much!"

"Look down? What right do you have to look down on others? The company never accepts Chinese trainees, so you probably got in through some special way? Hmm... You have a pretty face, so that's probably why you got it?" One of the trainees looked Nangong Xiayun up and down, and suddenly laughed maliciously: "Tell me, are you selling your face or your body? If you can do it, don't be afraid to say it!"

Some of the trainees watching the excitement couldn't help covering their mouths and laughing out loud at this moment. I saw some people started to look at Nangong Xiayun with strange colors.Nangong Xiayun must be very angry. I squinted my eyes and saw him clenched his fists and cursed in English, then pointed at others and began to say something in Chinese.I couldn't understand, I could only watch, and I couldn't exert any strength in my body.But I knew he was in a hurry, and the unfamiliar Korean couldn't express all his anger.

"What are you talking nonsense over there? Speak Korean!" The trainee must have been anxious, and his words began to become less clean: "Is that what you are capable of? If you can't say it, others will use Chinese to suppress it." Me? Stop insulting your mother tongue!"

Oh, it seems wrong, his words are not very clean.

Suddenly, my hand tightened, and I looked down, and found that Han Junhao's hand holding me was constantly tightening, as if he wanted to crush my bones.Although most parts of my body had been burned by the unbearable heat, I could still feel Han Junhao's strength. I pumped my hands with all my strength to resist the pain that went through my bones.Only then did Han Junhao feel that something was wrong with him, he let go and put my palm on the wooden floor.The sudden coldness from my fingertips made me sober up a lot, so I subconsciously looked at Nangong Xiayun who was already furious not far away.

His whole body was shrouded in a strong hostility.That's when I felt something was wrong.

"It's rare that someone is willing to be your friend. Rencan is just too kind...Ah, no, you are the same kind of people, right? You obviously don't have any achievements, and you can become a popular debut by relying on unspoken rules..."

"Aren't you all the same? The same is so cheap."

I heard the ignorant trainee mention me, and seemed to scold me as well.But I ignored it, just stared at the big boy in front of me, watching him close his eyes forcefully, open them again, and raise his head.

His eyes looking into the light were full of stars.

"Just scold me, don't talk to him."

I stared blankly, until he rushed to the trainee who insulted me and his fist landed on that person, then I came back to my senses.The war is imminent, and the trainee who was beaten naturally couldn't swallow this breath. He would definitely have no chance of winning in a one-on-one duel. Nangong Xiayun is nearly 1.9 meters tall, and the trainee is thin and weak body.But from the beginning of this fight, I was only worried about Nangong Xiayun, because obviously, this fight was a group fight.

Either way, he's not going to win.

I struggled to get up, but before I exerted any strength, I felt that there was nothing behind me, and I almost fell to the floor.Han Junhao held my shoulders and gently leaned against the wall beside me.

"You'd better not move, you want to help him, right? You will only be a disservice to him with your appearance. In this way, if I come, it doesn't matter if you treat it as a favor or anything else. In short, the current situation , I can't just watch you rush up."

I nodded, so slightly that I almost didn't feel it myself.Han Junhao took one last look at me, turned his head and ran to Nangong Xiayun's side.I don't know if it's because I was confused, but I felt that the last look he looked at me was so serious.

Han Junhao ran up and pulled Nangong Xiayun away at once, protecting him behind him, and at the same time he was able to restrain his murderous aura.I watched quietly, and suddenly felt that if I had rushed up just now, even if I was healthy at the moment, all I could do was help Nangong Xiayun fight together, and in the end I would end up being punished by the company instead.

The group of trainees did not give up because of Han Junhao's intervention, but surrounded them together.There are so many tall ones blocking the periphery, I can't see clearly what's going on inside.Worried about the safety of the two brothers, I raised my hand and punched myself on the forehead, trying to keep myself awake, then stood up while leaning on the wall, and planned to rush into the encirclement after a brief dizziness.

Suddenly a person was pushed down and his head hit the floor with a loud bang.So the crowd slowly dispersed, and I saw clearly that Han Junhao had already been dragged aside by several people, and the one lying on the ground was Nangong Xiayun.

He curled up, as if in pain, how much pain does it have, huh?

The trainee who took the lead in provoking Nangong Xiayun just now came out from the side, raised his foot and hung in the air, I knew he was accumulating energy, the last point of his toes should be on Nangong Xiayun's chest.

It must be very painful, right?

I don't know where I got the strength to rush up, but there is only one thought in my mind, that is Nangong Xiayun.These four words seem to be everything to me.

The people around didn't notice me, I ran all the way to the innermost place and they didn't respond.My strength was completely lost one meter away, and my whole body rushed forward due to inertia, and fell straight in front of the trainee.His feet had already started to move, kicking forward quickly inch by inch.I closed my eyes, and suddenly began to rejoice that I fell between Nangong Xiayun and the danger, and that I still had the ability to help him resist all the injuries.

There was a muffled sound in my chest, and then tearing pain spread to my whole body.I couldn't help shrinking back, and my brows were tightly wrinkled.

It's good that I finally feel your pain.

The head was lifted up with a very gentle force.I opened my eyes with difficulty, and the last scene before coma was Han Junhao's concerned eyes, and the figure of Nangong Xiayun rushing forward desperately.

So tired.

When I woke up again, I had already returned to the dormitory. There was no one else in the room, but I knew that Han Junhao must be there, so I raised my voice and called him.Before I could make a sound, there was a burning pain in my chest, I felt a fishy sweetness in my throat, I gritted my teeth and swallowed it back.

that's terrible.

"Don't get up if you're not well!" Han Junhao must have heard the commotion in the room, pushed open the door and walked in, holding a tablet of capsules in his hand: "There is only half a tablet of medicine left at home that hasn't expired yet. Hurry up and drink it with water, and I’ll go outside later to buy something else.”

I looked at the glass of water that was still steaming on the table beside the bed. I was about to speak, but my throat seemed to be stuck, so I could only lower my head and shake it.

"It's impossible not to take medicine. No matter what, you have to take care of your body first. I just took your temperature, and it's still a high fever, 40.7 degrees Celsius." Han Junhao curled his lips, not taking my little resistance into his heart.He walked over slowly, took out two capsules, picked up the water glass on the table with the other hand, took a sip to test the water temperature, and then handed it to me: "The body is the main premise, no matter what."

I heard him accentuate the last few words, so I could only raise my head, wanting to take the water and medicine.Han Junhao shrank back, and when I put down my hand in confusion, he stretched out the medicine again.

"Don't move, I'm afraid that if you come to take it, the cup will be broken." Han Junhao glanced at me, and then stuffed the medicine in his hand into my mouth. Before I could react and swallowed it, the water was gone into my mouth.I swallowed the medicine right away, but was forced by Han Junhao's slightly rude actions to choke several times and coughed repeatedly.

Han Junhao was watching from the side, stroking my back.

After coughing for a long time before it stopped, I looked up at Han Junhao again, seeing that he was about to say something, when the phone rang so abruptly at this moment.I was stunned for a moment, then realized that I reached for the phone on the table, but Han Junhao got it first.He stared at the phone screen for a moment, and I saw him hang up.

"Who is it..." I asked in a muffled voice, but I didn't question Han Junhao's actions in my heart.We haven't lived together for a long time, but I still know him well. "Is it a promotion?"

"No." He looked at me, the corners of his mouth tightly clenched and then loosened, as if he was engaged in some psychological struggle.Finally, one side should have won, and he decided to say something.I don't know whether the winner is an angel or a devil, but I know that what can make him hesitate is an angel to him, and a devil to me.

"It's... Nangong Xiayun."

I can't describe how I felt the moment I heard those words.Is it the feeling of being betrayed by those closest to you, the feeling of being protected, or the feeling of remorse.Every emotion has a reason, but for the first time I couldn't feel what I was really thinking.

"Since they are all hung up, forget it, he will call again if there is something urgent." I rubbed my head, and after weighing it, I still said words that would not embarrass him, even though my heart is full of torment now. "By the way, did you just... He got into a fight, right? How long has it been? How is he doing? Does the company know?... Is there any punishment?"

I feel like I can't even sort out my thoughts, let alone ask a complete sentence.Han Junhao looked at me for a long time before finally putting down the phone and gently pushing it towards me.Is he compromising?Compromise something.

"You care about him, huh?" Han Junhao took a step back, as if he wanted to avoid something unbearable, his eyes were full of emotions and thoughts that I couldn't understand: "Be careful to wipe the gun."

"What are you talking about, tell me how he is now." His words made me feel as if cold water was pouring over my head, and my originally hot brain instantly woke up: "As for other things, you really understand I don't have to say more, if you need an explanation, I will tell you everything after the incident."

"Rencan, we are friends." He said so dumbly. "No matter what, I will protect you. I always treat you as a younger brother, the kind of kiss, really."

I suddenly didn't know whether I should apologize or thank him, I just looked back at him with the same gaze, I think I haven't understood the true meaning of "protection" in his words.

"I will protect you well. This time you are in the black water, then I will be responsible for cleaning you up."

Han Junhao silently picked up the water glass, walked to the door, and closed the door behind him.So I heard the words from his mouth for the first time, which made me almost desperate.

"Don't see him again."

The moment the door was about to close, I almost exhausted all my strength and rushed to the door. I should have exhausted all my luck, and I caught up.Stretching out my hand to clamp the door, I felt Han Junhao's strength relax a little bit. He was afraid of hurting me after all, so I stretched my head towards the door again, and finally felt that he fixed the door at one point, without any hesitation. Going to close it again.

It's unbelievable, I can't imagine what would have happened to me and him if I hadn't been able to prevent the door from closing, if nothing had happened.

"Rencan, be obedient, go back." Han Junhao freed his hand to stroke my hair, as if he was comforting a beloved object, and twirled my hair.But I can feel that he is trying hard to push me back into the room, but he is not willing to use heavy hands after all. "I'm really doing it for your own good. I entered the company earlier than you, and after all I have experienced more than you. What you don't understand, I actually understand better than you."

I gritted my teeth and pressed the weight of my whole body on the door, trying to push the door open.I just feel that I am so sober at this moment, but I want to commit crimes so much, and with him, even hell will not hesitate.

"Rencan, stop doing this...Calm down first, and ask yourself if you really want to be with him, if it's true, you can give up everything for him." Han Junhao looked at me, his eyes sparkling Yes, I don't know whether it is hope or despair, "Maybe you will make bad choices because of impulsiveness. Cool down first, and you will get better answers. You still have your life and your dreams."

I felt a little tired because of the long-term exertion, and I leaned on the door weakly. I wanted to take a break first, but I was reluctant to let the door close. smiled.

"Look, in fact, you yourself..."

I didn't tolerate him finishing the rest of the sentence, and took advantage of the moment when he was dazed, I pushed the door open with all my strength.There was no need to answer his question, I believe my actions have given him the answer.

Han Junhao stayed where he was, as if he didn't expect me to make such a move.I didn't look at him again, but pressed the handle of the door and walked out of the dormitory.

"Ren Chan!"

I stopped, but didn't look back.I felt Han Junhao's hasty footsteps rushing to my side. He no longer had the chilly aura just now, but no matter what, he still compromised with me.

Together for so long, he has never been as stubborn as me.

Something was put in my pocket, I looked down and found it was my mobile phone.Han Junhao patted my shoulder silently, put his head on my back, and sighed softly without comment.

"He's by the Han River."

The warmth on my back slowly moved away. I turned around and found that Han Junhao was facing me. I stretched out my hand, but I couldn't reach him.

"I don't know why I suddenly woke up, but all I know is that there must be a reason, and there must be something waiting for me to do. If I missed it... I can't imagine, so, just this time, I'm sorry .”

Han Junhao's figure still didn't move, I locked my eyes firmly on his back, as if I wanted to integrate him into my sight.After an unknown amount of time, I turned around again and rushed downstairs as fast as I could.

Late at night, by the Han River.

I got out of the car with heavy steps, and after paying the money, I finally raised my eyes to look at the usually bustling river full of people.It was already past midnight, there were no people on the road, and a cold wind occasionally blew from the flowing water.

It was almost immediately apparent that there was a man standing on the edge of the river, separated by some steps.He was wearing a long windbreaker, and the deep black made his aura completely cool down.He looked at the Han River, probably in a daze, motionless, staring directly at the occasional waves of waves on the river.

I rolled my eyes and opened my mouth to call his name.But he suddenly turned around, his eyes were shining brightly as if he wanted to collect all the stars in the sky.

"Rencan."

I saw him move his lips, but I couldn't hear his words clearly because of the distance, but I knew that he was calling me, waiting for me to come to him.

I shook my hand vigorously at him, raised my feet and ran across the steps. When I just stepped on the last step, I only felt his hands stretch out and pull me straight to his side.My body couldn't exert too much strength, and I threw myself into his arms directly due to inertia.But at the same time, I felt a whistling cold wind behind me, turned my head and saw a speeding car driving far away.

"Why are you so careless? What if... what should I do?" He rubbed my hair and rested his chin on the top of my head, so I realized that I was actually not tall, at least in Nangongxia In front of Yun, my height is not worth mentioning. "You haven't recovered from the fever yet, why did you run out, isn't Han Junhao looking at you?"

"Nan Sheng." I shook my head, whispered his name, and felt his body stiffen instantly as expected.

"My surname is not Nan." He finally let go of me angrily, and turned his head to look at the Han River.I followed his movements and took a step forward, standing shoulder to shoulder with him.The Han River in the middle of the night has an indescribable beauty, it is cleaner than the elements during the day, and it is easier for people to approach.

"Han Junhao hung up on the phone you called me, it's not because I didn't answer it on purpose." I hesitated for a while, but decided to explain clearly first, even though I'm not sure if he took this matter to heart, "But... ...It was he who told me you were here, I don't remember anything after I passed out, and I slept for a long time before waking up."

"Ah."

He responded lightly, just like usual.I was suddenly irritable, and I lowered my head a little uneasy.He quickly discovered what was wrong with me, and looked over with questioning eyes, but I didn't know how to respond.

"Nansheng, I didn't want to talk to you about this, but...you have always been very cold to others, even to me. Originally, this is very good, but...I don't think it's enough, and others Same, doesn't it mean that I am just an ordinary friend to you. In that case, I am not reconciled..." I felt my voice getting smaller and smaller, and my brain was a little hot, and I knew that I had said these things , it may never come back.However, if you keep hiding the truth, you will still regret it in the future, so why not confess everything, and then ask for a result, "Don't get me wrong... It's just that if you are an ordinary friend, I will always give to you, and then I will get your cold love." Responding, it seems to be dispensable...I will be tired too..."

"Rencan, stop talking..."

"No, wait until I finish."

I raised my eyes to look at him, only feeling that my eyes seemed to be blurred by the water light, and I could hardly see his face clearly, but the desire to express my true feelings became stronger and stronger.

"I really don't know why this happened. Every time I have paid, as long as I get a little even a cold response from you, I will be very happy... But Nansheng, I really, really don't want to Go on like this. Give me an answer, treat me as a friend, and I will stay; but if you think I am dispensable, then I will disappear immediately, and I will never appear in front of you again, and will not bother you again. "

"An Rencan, I told you to stop talking, can't you hear me?"

I was stunned, staring at him blankly, and my eyes gradually became clear again.His slightly serious tone was just like his eyes at the moment, as if it made people despair.

I think I've waited for the answer I want, and it's not too late to separate.At least as long as I'm not stuck in the mud.

"If I hurt you, then I apologize. Rencan, I'm sorry." His tone softened again, I stopped looking at him, looked down at my toes, "I really don't regard you as a friend, my indifference may I'll push you away too, but..."

I closed my eyes, waiting for the final answer.

"You've never been optional, really."

Opening my eyes slightly, I felt the liquid in my eyes dripping to the ground no longer unbearable.It was too heavy for it to bear, and neither did I.

"I'm sorry, I always ask you to approach first. Then this time, can I do it instead? You are tired and don't want to do things, I will do it for you." I felt my shoulders being held by his hands , forcing me to turn around, but I still couldn't raise my head, "Do you think I'm unbearable? If so..."

If I think you are unbearable, are you going to force me away again?

"If yes, please, don't leave me again. I beg you, I can put away those dirty thoughts, I can completely pretend to be a friend, I can be your brother, like... Han Junhao." He His words were beyond my expectation, I looked up in surprise, only to find that his face was full of sadness, and the wind brought a deep chill on his face, "As long as you, don't go, don't leave me."

I looked at him, and suddenly stood up straight and kissed the corner of his mouth.Tired because of the height difference, I stretched out my hand and pulled his head down, biting his lower lip wantonly.He must be surprised, but how can I see his eyes full of warmth.

"If it's unbearable, let's be together, that way it won't look unbearable. As long as we don't dislike each other." I let go of his lips, and looked at him with the corners of my mouth: "I've always been afraid of being rejected by you, but Today, just now, I got the same answer from your mouth as I did from my heart."

He looked at me as firmly as I did him.

"Be together."

I don't know who said hello, and then the breeze brought by the river drowned out all voices.

——If it is not for death, never for life.

The author has something to say:

together

I really feel that Nangong Xiayun doesn't love him as much as An Rencan

Originally, when they were still in Korea, they wanted to write something sweeter, but I don’t know why they couldn’t write Xia Yun freely.

The second volume will start to focus on what Xia Yun has experienced. It may be because of those dark memories, so I have no way to write him a little brighter.

But his indifference will do great harm to Rin Chan

Maybe they've been together since they were wrong

!Highlight!I feel sorry for An Rencan the whole time