June Ansheng

This world is a fantasy where reality and dreams are intertwined, so why take it too seriously.

The game has the rules of the game, we have never had a choice, and we have no power to change it.I thought I had protected the things I cared about very well, and I could put them down with peace of mind, but no matter how far we go, no matter how high we fly, when we look back, those things that we have neglected have already changed beyond recognition .

So, cherish what we have, because no matter what it is, it will leave us one day.

Whether it's things, things, people, or even the memories we hold dear.

The daily life of the company has become more and more boring, and the life of day after day and year after year is really boring.The company recruits new trainees every year. As far as I am concerned, the trainees have been selected five times. Every year, some people come in with dreams, some people leave with despair, and some people wait for their dream. The stars are shining, but some people can only slowly consume their youth in the shadows behind the stage.

Everyone is the same, thinks they are smart, and lives a life of stupidity.

Just now, when I was telling Han Junhao how much I understand life and see through the world of mortals, he gave me a disdainful look without hesitation, and then knocked on my empty lunch box to give me the last warning.

"You really don't want to eat?" He frowned and looked at me. I don't think I can understand where the joke in his eyes came from. "Let me explain first, if you are starving, don't look for me."

"Come on, I know it myself." Han Junhao also reached out to touch my forehead, but I slapped it away: "Eat yours, you are almost as good as the two people at the next table, just help me Eat my portion too."

"Hmm..." Han Junhao stuffed his mouth full of food and answered vaguely.I looked at him and suddenly found it funny for no reason.This person, um... can be called a senior of my brother for the time being. He has always behaved maturely and steadily in front of others, but for some reason, a broken heart hidden under his god-like communication always always It was expressed vividly in front of me.

But that's okay, at least it can shorten the distance between each other a little bit.

"Hey, that... Brother, don't worry, eat slowly. Then, just listen to me while eating." I looked at him eating like he was just released from prison, and after thinking about it, I found that There were no classes in the afternoon, so he began to worry about his not too strong digestive function. "To be honest, how did brother want to be friends with me? Mingming has so many better and better people around him."

"Didn't you tell me to listen to what you said while eating? I...cough cough, I don't want to chat with you." Han Junhao just swallowed his mouth full, and hurriedly answered my words, but he was choked and coughed again and again , "Brother, I...cough cough, I'm really hungry. If you have anything to say, please don't say it carelessly. I'm listening, but forgive me, I really can't say anything."

"Okay, bro, eat slowly, I'm just talking casually." I stood up and wanted to run along Han Junhao's back, but he waved his hand to signal that I don't need it, so I had no choice but to sit down again : "Brother, do you still remember the first time you met me? It was about five years ago. When I first entered GIF, the first person I saw was Brother, and I was lucky enough to share a room with him. In the dormitory."

"Huh? Well, probably." Han Junhao looked at the food left in the lunch box, closed his eyes and swallowed the food in his mouth, and then looked at me seriously with wide eyes: "Ren Chan, Why do you always remember it? If you don’t mention it, I will almost forget it.”

"Maybe it's because I think about it every time I see my brother. In the end, I have been writing it down for five years, and I probably won't forget it in the future." I grinned at him, watching him hear "should" After the speech, he decisively gave up chatting and continued to attack food. "Brother is really nice. I thought I was so stupid at the time, but I was still willing to help me."

Han Junhao didn't talk anymore, but I know he must be listening.

"Actually, why was I afraid of the dark when I first joined the company? I thought it was unbelievable." I put away my smile and slowly began to recall the previous things: "But thank you brother, I will be scared at night. Stay with me, stay with me... Oh yes, brother will still be afraid that I will wake up in the middle of the night after having a nightmare, and will stay by my bedside all night."

"Pfft... An Rencan, don't come here, I won't break my back with you, make me look so vulgar." Han Junhao finally couldn't help but spit out all the food in his mouth, and I had planned to hide to the side I tried to hide, but the soup didn't touch me, "But you will be like that, just because you have no one to rely on when you first came here, so you will be afraid and questioned, but after a while, you will know that you are not in danger Only then will you feel relieved about the surrounding environment. Because you have someone you can trust and rely on."

I glanced at him and didn't speak.I know that my face must be very bad now.

"Ren Chan, you should know that I'm only doing it for your own good." Han Junhao also seemed to realize that he was wrong, he quickly waved his hand at me and then changed his tone: "The person I'm talking about...of course I'm referring to myself , haven’t you always relied on me, brother? Although I’m only a few months older than you, I’m considered a peer, but I can give you correct guidance on many things. After all, I joined the company earlier than you. Those years Li, brother has learned far more than you."

"Okay, brother, I know everything."

My eyes moved back and forth between Han Junhao and his lunch box, signaling him to finish eating quickly and go back to the company: "Hurry up, brother, although there is no class in the afternoon, we can't delay the lunch time for too long. A little while Go back for a walk, bro, you ate so much."

"Yeah, we can go." Seeing that I didn't want to continue the conversation, Han Junhao quickly took two mouthfuls of rice, cleared the lunch box, and dragged me outside in a hurry. "Then hurry up, the air conditioner in this place is too high."

"Hey, hey, didn't my brother say that he wanted to come to this restaurant to eat?" I was about to tease him, but before I could say anything, I found that someone grabbed my other hand.Turning around, he saw a well-dressed young man, not very old, but with an extremely dangerous aura.

In fact, I have always regretted it in my memories afterwards. Why did I laugh out loud in front of this person at that time? His hair was just covered with some soup, which was not that funny.But no matter what, I did laugh out loud, and it led to the consequence that I wished I could die.

If I hadn't laughed then, what would our future look like.

"Hey, what's so funny. Who of you sprayed food on me, how to solve it." The young man narrowed his eyes and looked at me with cold hostility.I didn't know what to say, but when I met the young man's long and narrow eyes, I saw the gloomy light inside, as if a bucket of cold water had completely drenched a person from head to toe. "Don't make such an expression, I won't ask you to lick it clean for me."

I frowned, and found that I was afraid of this person in my heart.

"Hey, isn't this senior?" The young man should have seen Han Junhao behind me, and there was a slight smile on his face, but it was a joking smile: "Then you are the legendary Park Incheon, right? Oh no, It should be called Anren... Cancai, right? Sorry, I remember wrong."

The sound at the end of the young man was deliberately dragged on for a long time. I shook off his hand vigorously and took a few steps back, for fear that I would say some impulsive words.In the end, I still can't bear this tone, no matter where the fear in my heart comes from, I can't bow my head in front of it.

"I haven't seen you before. Are you a new trainee? You must practice hard in the future. Senior, I wish you an early debut."

I hope that Han Junhao can save the game by saying something like this at this time, just like what he said before.But he didn't, and I vaguely felt that something was going to happen.

But no matter what, whether Han Junhao is unwilling to show weakness this time, I still hope that nothing too big will happen.

I can't take it, and he can't take it either.

"Oh that, I'm really sorry, it's our fault." I rummaged up and down, and finally found a pack of tissues in my pocket.I took out one from inside, and I reached out and handed it over: "Just apologize, let's calm down."

Well, it's good to calm down before something strange happens that I have a premonition about.

"But you laughed at me, so what should I do about this." The young man didn't take the paper I handed over, and never left his eyes from the person behind me: "Ha, now I have changed my mind. You, help me lick the paper." clean."

I saw him finally looking at me, suddenly a little weak.He is as well informed as Han Junhao, I stay by his side all day, how could I not hear the news.Among the new trainees, there is a group that almost walks sideways in the company. When they first came in, they broke some trainees and made them quit voluntarily. They almost had to dodge when they saw it.It must have been heard from Cheng Meijia. The boss of that group has connections in the company's senior management and joined the company without passing the assessment.Although it is not yet possible to agree to let this kind of people debut, but they are no one in the company, and they can't be provoked at all.

"What's the matter, Senior Incheon, don't you dare? Don't you take responsibility for what you do yourself? Isn't it the foundation of a man? Why can't Senior even do this?" The young man curled up his mouth and looked at me from head to toe Looked it over again: "But it doesn't seem like you sprayed it, right? It's another senior. But, if you are willing to lick it for him, Senior An, I don't mind."

"Okay, have you said enough!" I was about to say something, but Han Junhao suddenly grabbed my head.I was a little surprised by his attitude, after all, saying such things at this moment is not the best choice.

"Don't go too far."

"Senior finally spoke, can't help but continue to be a turtle?" The young man looked at him, his eyes became fierce, I don't know if anything happened to them, and it is difficult to block the connection between them I have a strong smell of sex, but I also understand that the situation is about to lose my control.The young man continued: "Is that necessary, senior Han Junhao, come and help me lick it clean?"

"We've given you enough face, and we're going to settle things down." Han Junhao suddenly pushed me away, walked a few steps forward, and stood in front of the young man, "Then don't blame me, your slender frame looks It's not very bearable."

"Ha, what did you say..."

Before the young man finished speaking, I saw Han Junhao swinging his fist towards his face under the eyes of everyone. The force must have been great. The young man looked in pain.

"You dare to hit me! I..."

"Why don't you dare?! If you have the ability to report on me, you are only capable of this."

As Han Junhao said, his clenched fist was about to fall on the young man's face again. I hurried forward and grabbed him, locked him tightly in my arms, grabbed his fist hard, and forced him to put it down. .The young man was very scared, the fist was just a little bit close to hitting him again, he looked at Han Junhao in horror, looked at me holding him in my arms, like looking at a pair of lunatics, shook his head , went outside the restaurant.

Everything fell silent, the surroundings, Han Junhao too.

He looked up at me helplessly, and I saw him smile, so relieved.

"Isn't it just delisting? I'm not afraid."

Just as I guessed, that trendy young man is actually the nephew of the company president, and no one in the company would dare to mess with him.At that time, he was stained with dirt for no reason, and it was natural to have a bad breath. It was only a prank on the spur of the moment when I asked me to lick it clean for him with a half-joking nature.My attitude at that time was right, maybe as long as I persisted for a second, he would leave with a contemptuous smile.But when things developed to the end, he was beaten by Han Junhao.So in the end, the company inevitably knew about it.

Originally, it was just a trivial matter, and it would be fine to make a big mistake, but because the incident happened outside the company, it is difficult to restore the company's trainee image in private, and Han Junhao's punch was indeed heavy handed, so the company discussed After a long time, the delisting was unanimously passed.

I don't know how long I waited at the door of the meeting room. I only know that after the meeting was over, everyone left, and Han Junhao came out after the president.The fat middle-aged man looked at Han Junhao with complicated eyes, and in the end he just reached out and stroked his hair, then shook his head and left.

"Removal is... the final result." I heard him say that, but it seemed like I didn't hear anything.He raised his head slightly to meet my gaze, blinked, and smiled.

"Brother..." I wanted to say something, but after I opened my mouth, I realized that I couldn't say anything.Even if it was consolation, he didn't know if he would think it was ridicule at the moment.

He didn't say anything, he lowered his head and walked towards the stairs.After a while, I realized that I hadn't followed, so I turned around and tugged on my sleeve to signal me to go together.

I was in a daze along the way, and my mind went blank.But he kept the corner of his mouth hooked.His bangs were hanging down, covering half of his eyes, so I couldn't see clearly.However, it's not so much that I can't see his eyes clearly, it's better to say that I'm afraid to see, afraid to see clearly.

Those eyes, his heart, are full of despair that I am ashamed of.That was his dream, seven years of emotions, seven years of youth, seven years of tears and sweat, all gone, how could I be willing to understand.

But no matter how much we miss it, it’s all over.And, never come back.

"Rencan, brother, I'm leaving, remember to take care of yourself." After taking him downstairs, I saw his father's car parked by the side of the road.The old man should be very angry. How did Han Junhao come to this company from home at that time, and how did he face the opposition from his family? How painful is his heart? After so many years of facing each other day and night, I know everything Chu.

It's all because of these things that Han Junhao hasn't been home once in the past seven years. During holidays and holidays, I sometimes stay with him when I have time, but more often, he faces the empty dormitory alone.The slight hope of his desire to debut allowed him to persevere for seven years, until the pain became a habit in the end.

"Why don't you talk, Rencan, I don't blame you. Seven years is a hurdle. I haven't been able to pass it, and it will end sooner or later. I might as well help you and end my self-inflicted suffering as soon as possible. "Han Junhao looked at his father's car not far away, and then looked at me with deep, deep eyes, as if he wanted to suck me in.I was suddenly at a loss for words, so I just nodded to him.Looking at his concerned expression, I knew I had no face to face. "Look, the conflict between me and my father has been resolved, and I have finally come out of this big prison. It's just that you, Rincan, still want to stay in this company. If you are unhappy, just call Tell my brother, anyway, I have escaped now, so I don’t have to... worry about it anymore. If there is anything wrong, my brother will help you out. "

I still didn't speak, I gritted my teeth and turned my head away.I have been taught since childhood that tears are the weakest sign for a man, but why do I want to cry so much now.

"Rencan, it's okay. Anyway, my brother... is getting married soon." Han Junhao's smile deepened, he reached out to reach my head, patted my head vigorously, and then rubbed my hair, looking at me because of surprise And looked at him again. "Look, my brother's life is such a tragedy. As soon as he got out of the cage of the company, he was about to enter the cage of marriage again."

"How could it be... Brother Mingming is so young." I didn't pat his hand and let him rub my hair. I was actually very scared. I was afraid that I would never have such an opportunity in the future, even if it was just such an ordinary little action. , I can't even see it again, "Isn't brother... 24? How could it be so soon..."

"Yeah, I thought there were still a few more years to play. But..." The corners of Han Junhao's mouth softened a bit, and he looked at the car waiting for him not far away: "Because the old man, he Suffering from a very serious illness, I may not live for a few years. I have been unfilial for seven years, now let him do what he wants. He still wants to see me get married in his lifetime, and then... hold a grandson."

"Brother, I..." I wanted to say some words of blessing, or make a joke with him like a brother, and then watched him leave.

But I find that I can't seem to do anything.

"Okay, it's getting late, I should go." Han Junhao reluctantly removed his hand from my hair, but hung in the air and didn't let it go.A car not far away suddenly honked its horn, Han Junhao's panic flashed across his eyes, and then he slowly put his hands down.My heart tightened, and I grabbed his weakened and drooping hand recklessly, and then I saw the helplessness in his eyes looking at me.

He has never been as relaxed as he told me. He has been in the company for seven years, and he will be the same in the future.

"Brother, take care." I held his hand, but I only felt the cold in my palm.He has been with me for such a long time, he has witnessed everything I grew from a boy to a man, and now it is all gone.

How willing.

"Don't be like this, it's not like I won't see you in the future. My home is on the side of Gangwon-do, and it's a short drive from Seoul. Next time I want to see you, just tell me, I'll pick you up." Han Junhao finally said deeply Glancing at me, he pulled his hand away.

"I really have to go, take care."

So he left just like that, leaving me a shadow, but no longer giving me a chance to tell.

So desperate, this is the second time, I really can't stand it.

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I suddenly remembered that Jin Jiang was forgiving Green (laughs)