June Ansheng

There is news that another boy group in the company is about to debut.

In fact, it wasn’t all because of the news that Han Junhao told me. Recently, many trainees around me have started to step up their practice. Some people from the company also worked harder when they came down to inspect. I can feel it. The people and people around me There was a growing hostility between them.

I don't see Nan Sheng very often. Many people told me that he is one of the candidates for his debut. His face is too sharp.

Well, his surname is Nangong, but I just can't change it.

When I told Han Junhao about this, he clearly expressed his disbelief.I still remember that he answered me like this at that time——

"Nangong Xiayun? I remember I met him. Didn't he come in for less than a year? If he made his debut so early, there would be many uncertain factors, and the top management wouldn't be all a bunch of idiots... But , His face can indeed bring him more opportunities, but at the same time, it will also destroy him."

I don't quite understand the real meaning of the sentence "it will destroy him", but there is a deep and frightening feeling just from the words.Just when I wanted to go deeper, Han Junhao suddenly refused to say more.

And, no matter what, we are already together, debut or not, I will be happy for him.

"Senior...Senior? Senior, who are you looking for?" A small girl stretched out her hand and shook it in front of me. Only then did I notice her who had been standing beside me for a long time, so I had to smile shyly and turn my gaze from Remove from practice room.

"I'm not looking for anyone, I'll just take a look." There was no one I wanted to see in the practice room, I was a little disappointed, but I still answered her with a smile, "Come and see how you practice."

"Senior, please take your time, I'll go back first." The girl bent slightly towards me and walked into the practice room.The atmosphere relaxed, but I felt my breathing became more dignified.

The debut boy group members should have been finalized, and I haven't seen Nansheng for about a week, and everyone else said they haven't seen him much.It has long been heard that those who are about to debut will be arranged by the company to prepare for their debut together in an independent practice room, and the amount of training will be increased several times, but no matter what, I think I should go see him.

You should always make plans for the future, me and him, the future of two people.

The mobile phone in my pocket suddenly vibrated violently, I took it out impatiently, only to find that it was Nan Sheng calling.Hastily pressed to answer, and there was a deafening music sound.

"Nan Sheng." I slightly increased the volume and walked towards the emergency exit.It's relatively quiet inside, and I don't want anyone to overhear my conversation with him.

"Ren Can, how many times have I told you that my surname is Nangong." The tone of the person on the other end of the phone was a little helpless, but also pampering.I smiled happily and answered him loudly.

"Well, I know."

"Rencan, I heard that you are looking for me?" Suddenly the voice over there quieted down, as if it had moved to another place. "What's the matter? Since you are looking for me, why don't you call me."

"Ah... I forgot." I patted my head and laughed again: "Han Junhao always said that falling in love will make people stupid, it seems to be true."

There was silence on the other end of the phone for a while, and finally asked again:

"...So, what do you want from me?"

"It's nothing serious, Nan Sheng, are you... about to make your debut?" I subconsciously put my finger to my mouth and started to bite it lightly: "I want...to congratulate you."

Why is this so, what I want to talk about is not this.What I want to do is not just to congratulate you, I want to see you, obviously already thinking so hard.

But why can't I say it.

"Debut...?" Nan Sheng's voice didn't sound that good, at least it was much lower than I expected. "Rencan, are you in the company now? Let's meet and talk. You go to the rooftop first, I'll tell them, and I'll go find you later."

"Okay, see you on the rooftop!" I felt a little dazed until Nan Sheng hung up the phone, and I couldn't recover from his voice.

Isn't it about to realize the dream? How come, unhappy.

The way to the rooftop was smoother than I imagined.The building has eighteen floors, and the practice room where I usually practice is on the No.11 floor, so I just walked up through the safety stairs.Didn't Nan Sheng say that he would be late, so I don't have to wait for him in a hurry.

Although there were no other people on the stairs, it still took some time to reach the top floor.At the end of the [-]th floor, I faintly felt someone on the roof, so I quickened my pace to catch up.

Nan Sheng was already there, with his hands in his pockets and his head bowed, wondering what he was thinking.

"Nan Sheng!"

I greeted him cheerfully, and he raised his head, facing

I smiled.I ran to his side, and he stretched out his hand to help me straighten my hair that was blown a little messy by the wind.Everything is so natural, because there are vows and fetters between each other, and it becomes logical.

"Why is it so late, didn't you come up first?" Nan Sheng narrowed his eyes slightly to look at me, his eyes were full of warmth. "I've been dawdling below for a long time, how could I be earlier than you."

"I climbed the stairs. I always feel like taking the elevator is too much. It seems that I have endless energy all over my body. I have to do something to consume it." I took his hand off and wrapped it in myself hands.The weather was still a little cold, and his palms were a little too cold. "Why don't you put on more clothes, your hands are so cold."

"I'm in good health, don't worry." He said, but he didn't take out his hand and let me hold it. "The cold weather has passed, maybe it's because I haven't been in South Korea for a long time, and I can't adapt to the weather here. The temperature in Guangzhou is very high, and it won't be particularly cold even in winter."

"It's okay, don't you have to stay here for a long time? There is still a long time for you to adapt to the weather in Korea." I put his hand to my mouth, breathing to warm him up, but As soon as he didn't want to speak, his face turned cold instantly.Even with the smile on his face, I could clearly see that his jawline was stiff. "What's wrong? You are already a trainee of GIF now, and if you debut, you will have to stay in Korea for a few years. I think I didn't say anything wrong, right?"

"No...Rencan, I think I'll get used to the weather here." The smile on Nan Sheng's face faded, he turned around to face outside the rooftop, and moved his hands from me calmly. His hand came out naturally: "If it were you, you should be able to adapt to the weather in Guangzhou quickly."

"It's possible, but...it's not necessary." I watched his hand separate from mine, and my tone unconsciously became lower: "However, if I'm free, I will definitely go If you are traveling in Guangzhou, I have to see it after all, the city that has witnessed your growth."

Nan Sheng didn't speak any more, and looked fixedly at the road downstairs. Vehicles passed by from time to time, just like the day I really walked into his heart.There is no room for anyone in his eyes, but in fact, there is no room for other people around him, so how lucky I am to be able to live in his heart.

The atmosphere has always been very peaceful, and I began to be secretly surprised that I can actually keep silent for a long time, as long as the person around me is him.

Nangong Xiayun, the man I love.

"Rencan." After being silent for a long time, Nansheng suddenly called my name.I looked at him, waiting for his follow-up words, "Would you...wait for me?"

"Nansheng, you have been walking in front of me. I am the one who is chasing your footsteps. How can I...wait for you." I said lightly, not quite understanding what he meant.

"Then what if I plan to turn around and walk in your direction? Are you willing to turn back with me?" His eyes were dull and lifeless, completely different from what I usually see him.After the words came out, I didn't answer him immediately, so after a while, he lowered his eyes and smiled self-deprecatingly, then shook his head, "Forget it, just pretend I didn't say it, it was just a joke."

"Nansheng, what's the matter." I looked at him worriedly, and reached out to touch his back.Halfway through the movement, the hand suddenly froze in the air, unable to move forward, and finally could only hang down powerlessly. "What happened, you can tell me."

"Rencan, are you free tonight? Let's go together after practice." Nan Sheng's figure moved, and he turned to look at me: "I think I have something to tell you."

I nodded and smiled at him.He reached out and patted my head, and then walked into the stairs again.

evening.

In fact, it is rare to leave so early. Under normal circumstances, the practice time will generally last until xx o'clock.Because the dinner time had just passed, most of the trainees had returned to the practice room, and there was no one in the aisle.I only greeted Han Junhao and left the company in a hurry.

Just now Nansheng called me and told me that he was out of the company and asked me if I could leave.Even though it was still early, I agreed immediately and rushed to the agreed place.

Nan Sheng's figure is very conspicuous, and his height of nearly 1.9 meters made me spot him quickly.There are people coming and going on the street, which is different from the situation in the company. During this period of time, the number of people on the street has only increased.Nan Sheng wore a mask on his face, leaned against the lamppost with his head down, and was dressed in dark black.Passers-by on the road stopped from time to time to look at him, but they didn't dare to approach him, probably guessing which young popular actor this was again.

However, there is no mistake, he will definitely be the most dazzling star in the entertainment industry in the future.

I must have sensed something, Nan Sheng raised his head, I waved at him, and ran towards him across the road.I can't suppress my emotions anymore. Every time I see him, it's like a surprise reunion after a long absence. All my original plans can be defeated in an instant, and it's all because of him.

"Let's go." Running to his side, my breathing was still a little short.Before he could speak, he grabbed my wrist and walked forward.I calmed down a little bit the breath that was still fluctuating, looked at the hands that were connected to each other, and followed him with a smile.

The journey was long, and there was no destination. Nan Sheng didn't say a word along the way, and I didn't ask him where we were going, but just followed his footsteps.As long as it is him, no matter where the front will be, it will be heaven in my opinion.

Traveling through the busy city, the two men's hands intertwined more or less attracted the attention of others.It's not that I didn't notice his deliberately low-key attire. I knew that he was preparing for his debut soon, so I planned to change his position and hold his arm, thinking whether it would look normal or not pull the two of them apart. distance.Just as I was thinking, Nan Sheng, who had been holding my wrist, suddenly stopped in his tracks.His hand went further down, I was startled, I looked down subconsciously, and then reacted and looked around.The cold eyes of the people around me made me flustered.

interlocking fingers.

"Nansheng, will you..."

I turned around to look at him, and was interrupted by his shaking his head halfway through the conversation.Did I read it wrong? In the eyes above his mask, there is only exhaustion.He turned around and looked at me. After a long time, he raised our tightly intertwined hands and took off the mask with the other hand.

It has already crossed the downtown area, and the surroundings are quiet.I just felt that someone behind me was looking at me all the time, and was about to turn around, but Nan Sheng held the back of his head and leaned forward to kiss him.

I felt his intrusion, so I relaxed the guards to greet him. The breath between my lips and teeth was lingering and intertwined, and my mouth was full of his taste.It's his unique tenderness. Everything he never shows to outsiders is just a long and deep kiss between lovers.

It must have been a long time, until our breath gradually became messy, he let go of me, and cast his eyes far behind me.I turned around in surprise, already having a bad premonition in my heart.

A man was holding a camera not far away, and the shadow behind the street lamp could not hide him well.I have seen him, probably, the GIF guy.

Before I had time to think about it, Nan Sheng had already pulled me away.After walking a long distance and turning into a corner, the man was no longer in sight, so I flung his hand away belatedly and took a few steps back numbly.

He had an expected expression on his face, not surprised by my reaction at all.I backed up to the wall and kept some distance from him before I stopped backing.

What have we done, Nan Sheng, why don't you speak?I know that I will believe whatever you say, but I just want your explanation.But with you like this now, I can no longer deceive myself and others.

I confronted him for a long time without speaking to each other. Finally, I heard him lower his head and sigh softly, and then walked towards me.His pace is very slow, as if I can't wait for his arrival even if I go through a century.

"Nansheng, you are about to debut, we shouldn't be like this." I couldn't stand his speechlessness, so I let go and lowered my posture first.Even if he doesn't tell me, I can't allow myself to speculate for no reason. If I don't get his answer, I think I will go crazy.

"Rencan, I won't make my debut, not now, and never in the future." He finally gave up while approaching me, and looked at me from a closer distance than before, with the same pampering eyes in his eyes as always At this moment, it seemed so ironic: "The opportunity to debut is indeed mine, but I withdrew. I applied to the company to be removed from the company, and the procedures have been completed, so I can leave tomorrow."

It's hard for me to believe what I've heard, but they are all from Nan Sheng's mouth. The skinny reality and the sharpness that can sting the heart are all because of him. His words, I never There will be no doubts.

The sky was getting dark, and the evening wind was blowing, and I felt my bangs blowing away from my forehead.And he, Nangong Xiayun, stood there, and the world was completely eclipsed because of him.

"let's go together."

He walked towards me again, but I backed away blankly, only feeling that the person in front of me was no longer familiar to me.

No, probably never familiar with it.

"No, I won't go." I quickly rejected him, but my mind went blank.Everything is the most instinctive reaction of the body. There is such a person who wants me to give up the dream I have held on for so long. How can I agree: "Why do you want to go? Stay together, isn't it good?"

"A relationship will affect our debut, as well as our future..."

He continued to walk towards me, and I backed away from the wall, with no room to go any further, so I let him walk.The distance quickly shortened, and I saw him reach out to me.

I know that it is the most tender protection and his most sincere love, but at the moment, I just feel that it is a thorn full of venom, which is hurtful and disgusting.

"Then it's better not to be together. Why do you give up the dream you've held on to for so long?"

His outstretched hand froze, and I realized what I had just said.

It's not "then don't debut", nor "then don't care about everything", it's not an answer that I believed I would say for at least a second.

It's "then it's better not to be together".

"Dreams? What is it to give up dreams? Why don't you know... The things we have insisted on for a long time are not only dreams, but also the relationship between us! Is it completely rejected by saying 'not together'?"

His tone didn't sound very good, I didn't dare to look at him, I lowered my head, speechless.

"I'll wait for you." After he finished speaking, he turned around and was about to leave. I looked up hurriedly, and it was his generous back that came into my sight in astonishment.Leaving alone, waiting alone, lonely alone, sad alone.

How could he do all these things by himself?

"Don't wait for me!" I quickly called to him, but I didn't even have the courage to reach out and hold him: "I will not give up my dream, your waiting will not bear fruit. I am a man, and so are you. We It's just for fun, why take it seriously? Give up on me..."

"I'll wait for you." He repeated, without looking back, but walking on. "goodbye."

I didn't say anything more, just watched him leave.

The street lamp was broken, and the light flickered on him.I felt a pain in my chest, and I could hardly straighten my waist, but he never looked back at me, not even a single glance.

Perhaps, I am also afraid that he will really not wait for me.Even though I know the waiting doesn't make any sense to him.

I'm selfish after all, and I probably don't love him.

It's just that I love it too much.

"That's right, you turned around, and you did come towards me. But it was just a wrong body, and we ran in the opposite direction, and we will never see each other again.

Sure enough, our lives shouldn't have any intersection at all. "

The author has something to say:

Separated

No more than two chapters together :-(

Most of what happened in the first volume is the past, so it's all fragmented memories

The second volume will start to talk about their later things in succession

After finishing that sentence, you can start reading from the second volume first.

I originally wanted to write a short story, but the combined word count of these two volumes has exceeded the length of the short story, but it has not yet reached the length of the long story.