double struggle

The temperature inside the car was warmer than outside, one cold and one hot, Xu Qingzhou sneezed a little, and his eyes drifted around dizzily.Chu Wendao opened the window for ventilation, then leaned over to Xu Qingzhou.

Xu Qingzhou seemed to be startled, and leaned against the car door uncomfortably, but seemed to sense the impoliteness, moved a little and then became quiet.

Chu Wendao saw all these little moves and couldn't help but find it funny.He opened the cabinet in front of the passenger seat and took out two tissues.

"Why are you so afraid of me?" He folded two layers of tissues and gently pressed Xu Qingzhou's nose.

Xu Qingzhou was really frightened this time, his limbs froze and he dared not move.Too intimate, so that the heart is too messy.

Chu Wendao raised his chin: "Don't be dazed, take it and wipe it yourself."

"Ah... oh." Xu Qingzhou lowered his eyelids, and pressed the two corners of the tissue with both hands.

Chu Wendao withdrew his hand and didn't speak again.For a moment, only the sound of wheels rolling and rain hitting the glass can be heard in my ears.

It wasn't until the car drove out of the school that he said slowly: "My uncle has invited me to G University many times before, but I didn't go. In fact, it will be a matter of time. It just happens to be the end of this semester. It's almost the same."

Xu Qingzhou's hand holding the tissue did not move, his mouth opened and closed, hesitant to speak.A pair of eyes looked watery due to the cold, making people feel soft-hearted just looking at them.

"Don't think about it, it's just over 100 kilometers. If you miss me, you can find me." Chu Wendao still didn't harden his heart after all. He reached out and rubbed the top of Xu Qingzhou's head, "I won't go back until the Spring Festival. city."

Xu Qingzhou sniffed, folded and folded the tissues, and held them in her palm.He nodded obediently, probably listening to Chu Wendao's words.

Chu Wendao looked at Xu Qingzhou thoughtfully, and sighed secretly.He knew what Xu Qingzhou actually wanted to know, but he couldn't even tell him clearly.Since he didn't have that plan, he didn't intend to leave any extra hope.

In fact, Chu Wendao has always felt that he is quite selfish, enjoying the intimacy of others while rejecting them at the same time.The boy has been with him for a long time. He really treats the boy well, and he doesn't want to see Xu Qingzhou being wronged.But in the end, the culprit came from himself, so he could only push people away again.

When he was still entangled with Zhang Zhiyuan, he could only do this.Now, that's all he can do.Chu Wendao could see and think through this matter better than anyone else.

The hospital arrived soon, Chu Wendao asked Xu Qingzhou to sit first, and went to queue for registration by himself.There are quite a lot of people who come to see the doctor, especially children and the elderly. This kind of hot and cold weather is the most likely to make people catch a cold and have a fever.

Although Chu Wendao is essentially a rich second generation, after so many years of hard work, he has already integrated into the petty bourgeoisie, and he handles everything very well.

He went back to look for Xu Qingzhou, and saw Xu Qingzhou standing by the pillar, smiling quietly at him.

Over the years, Chu Wendao has brought Xu Qingzhou to the hospital dozens of times that his fingers can't count, and there has been a certain tacit understanding between the two.

There were still a few people in front of Xu Qingzhou. Chu Wendao looked at the time and asked Xu Qingzhou to sit beside him while he went to buy water.Xu Qingzhou pinched a corner of the medical record, trying to stop him from being so troublesome, but the words slipped away from his mouth.

There are self-service vending machines on every floor of the hospital. It stands to reason that Chu Wendao should come back soon, but Xu Qingzhou sat there watching the patients coming in and out of the door, but he still did not see Chu Wendao.

"Number 56!"

Xu Qingzhou glanced at the number paper in his hand, and then at the display on the big screen. He hesitated for a few seconds before walking into the door.In the past, Chu Wendao was by his side, so he was inevitably a little uncomfortable at this time.

The female doctor flipped through the medical records, glanced at Xu Qingzhou, and sighed: "It's you again."

Xu Qingzhou has to come to the hospital several times a year, and it's the same doctor every time, so he gradually gets to know each other.

"Doctor Chen, I'm so sorry to trouble you again." Xu Qingzhou said weakly.

Dr. Chen held a flashlight and asked Xu Qingzhou to open his mouth. After watching for a while, he asked him to unbutton his coat for auscultation.

"With a constitution like yours, you will get sick at every turn, and no matter how many times you come to the hospital, the root cause will not be cured." Dr. Chen typed on the keyboard cracklingly, and picked out several medicines for Xu Qingzhou in one go, "Although I am studying Western medicine , But, I think you'd better go to a Chinese medicine doctor to adjust your body."

Xu Qingzhou covered her mouth and coughed, laughing intermittently between her fingers. It is rare for Dr. Chen to tear down his own signboard like Dr. Chen.Suddenly, a hand rested on his coughing and trembling back, smoothing his air up and down.

Xu Qingzhou froze for a moment, then looked back at Chu Wendao who didn't know when to appear.

Dr. Chen took out the printed medicine list, wrote a note on it smartly, and signed it.Chu Wendao was about to take the medical records, but when Dr. Chen raised his hand, the thin notebook was slammed into his palm.

Just as Chu Wendao was about to speak, Dr. Chen said first, "You are a brother, your brother has a fever, and you only came here now. You have no conscience."

Chu Wendao and Xu Qingzhou have never explained their relationship to Dr. Chen, so Dr. Chen has seen them so close in recent years, so he naturally believes that they are cousins.

At first Xu Qingzhou wanted to explain, but Chu Wendao thought there was nothing wrong with it.It would be even more embarrassing if it was really explained that the relationship between them is a master-student relationship.As for the embarrassment, only Chu Wendao would understand.

Xu Qingzhou hurriedly opened his mouth to explain for Chu Wendao: "No, actually he..."

Chu Wendao patted him on the shoulder and interrupted him: "My fault, my fault, I won't do it next time."

Dr. Chen snorted and instructed: "After taking the medicine, go for an injection. It's not a big deal. If you have a lot of colds and fevers today, I'm so annoying. Next time." After finishing speaking, she waved her hand and said goodbye. Patiently drive people away.

Chu Wendao held Xu Qingzhou's wrist and led people all the way to the second floor to check out and get medicine.

"The self-service vending machines in the whole building are under maintenance. I have no choice but to go to the 7-11 outside the hospital to buy water." Entering the elevator, Chu Wendao turned his head to explore Xu Qingzhou's expression, "Angry? "

Xu Qingzhou didn't take this matter to heart at all, and he didn't react for a while, feeling dizzy and at a loss.

After a long time, he shook his head: "No."

This answer was also expected, Chu Wendao smiled and said nothing.

The elevator stopped, and more and more people crowded in at the door.Xu Qingzhou felt the strength on his wrist tighten, and then he was pulled to the side, staggered two steps and got close to Chu Wendao's arms.

He wanted to go back, but the space of the elevator wasn't that wide, there was no room for it no matter if it was front, back, left, or right.He only needs to raise his head slightly, and he can touch the face that has been in his mind for a long time.

Xu Qingzhou covered his nose and mouth. He suddenly felt that he couldn't even breathe. His head seemed to be short of oxygen, and his vision was full of spots.

Just when he thought he was about to faint, the elevator finally reached the second floor, Chu Wendao squeezed his arm tightly and squeezed out from the crowd.

The closed space suddenly became spacious, and the bright light covered the original darkness.Xu Qingzhou's whole mind was wandering, in a trance, leaning against Chu Wendao's arm and breathing urgently and shortly.

Chu Wendao gently pulled down the hand that was still covering Xu Qingzhou's face, vainly wrapped around the person's belt, and sat on the empty seat on the side.

"How do you feel? Is it hard?" He looked at Xu Qingzhou's pale face worriedly.

When he was in the elevator just now, he was so scared that he wanted to take Xu Qingzhou out directly.

Xu Qingzhou shook his head, gradually feeling a lot more comfortable.He glanced out of the corner of his eye and noticed that his hand was being held by Chu Wendao. He panicked and struggled to get out.

Only then did Chu Wendao notice what he had done unconsciously just now, and felt embarrassed, so he took the medical records and stood up embarrassingly.

Xu Qingzhou cast a puzzled look.

"I'm going to check out and get the medicine. You sit here. I'll bring the nurse over to give you an injection later." After speaking, Chu Wendao turned around and hurried away.

People have many unconscious actions, but most of them come from a habit.Chu Wendao didn't want this habit to continue, so he could only run away, even if it wasn't from his sincere thoughts.

When Chu Wendao came back, he saw Xu Qingzhou leaning on the back of the chair from a distance, dozing off with his head slightly tilted.Every time Xu Qingzhou has a fever and a cold, the corners of his eyes will swell with a small piece of faint redness. Coupled with the rubbed red nose, he looks a little pitiful.

Chu Wendao was not willing to wake up the person, and whispered to the nurse: "Beauty, can you be gentle later?"

The nurse felt that this little brother really loved her little brother, so she nodded and said, "No problem."

"You are so kind, beauty." Chu Wendao praised him sincerely.

The nurse was a girl in her early twenties, and she immediately smiled after being praised by the handsome guy.

Xu Qingzhou was probably tired, until the nurse pushed the things away, he still didn't want to wake up.

Chu Wendao sat aside and observed for a while, thought for a while, took off his coat and put it on Xu Qingzhou's shoulder.He took out his mobile phone from his pocket and turned it on. After all, he didn't look at his mobile phone much all afternoon. Now that his colleagues know about his resignation, they will probably come to him.

Sure enough, there were several reminder boxes on the WeChat chat list, and he patiently replied one by one, each sentence not exceeding ten characters.

He looked at each item one by one, until he saw a friend message without a note, he hung his index finger in mid-air and hesitated to click in.

Chu Wendao is used to adding notes to new friends, because people nowadays change their names and avatars from time to time, and he can't remember it himself, so he always adds a note to prevent accidental deletion in the future.

Only Zhang Zhiyuan did not.

It may be his own little selfishness, just want to prove that no matter how this person changes, he can recognize it.Just like now, when he stared at those few words, he could imagine Zhang Zhiyuan's expression and movements when he typed these words.

——I heard that you are going to be transferred to G University, why?

Chu Wendao glanced at the time when the news was sent out. It was around three o'clock in the afternoon. He should have left the gymnasium not long ago.They seem to have missed the last chance to give each other, as if they were in the dark.

He blanked his head for a long time, and then quickly typed a sentence in the input box.

——Change the environment and improve yourself.

Chu Wendao didn't care whether Zhang Zhiyuan saw the reply or not, he directly deleted the chat and quit WeChat.

If Zhang Zhiyuan could have seen him at that time and chased him out to ask him in person, he might not have answered like this.

why?

Because I don't know how to face life without you.