double struggle

Xu Qingzhou didn't know when he fell asleep, and subconsciously wanted to raise his hand to rub his eyes in a daze.

"Don't move, the needle is still inserted."

A hand gently pressed his shoulder, and he looked blankly in the direction of the sound source. The moment he saw Chu Wendao, he thought he was dreaming.

Chu Wendao put the bottle of water on his face in a funny way, and said with a smile, "Are you awake?"

Xu Qingzhou shivered and shrank his neck.The jacket on his shoulders also slipped off, and he glanced in surprise.

Chu Wendao looked up at the eye drops bottle, unscrewed the lid of the water bottle and handed it over: "Drink some water first, it seems to be almost done, I'll call the nurse."

Xu Qingzhou took it, and the temperature of Chu Wendao still remained on the plastic bottle.It was warm, as if it had been covered for a long time.He watched Chu Wendao's receding figure, picked up the water bottle and pressed the hooked corner of his lips.

It was past nine o'clock in the evening when they came out of the hospital, and neither of them had eaten yet.At first, Chu Wendao wanted to go around without taking Xu Qingzhou to see what to eat, but then he vetoed this idea. He didn't care, but it would be bad if Xu Qingzhou broke his stomach again.

On the way back to the school teacher's apartment, Xu Qingzhou fell asleep again in a daze, and didn't wake up until the car stopped.

Chu Wendao took off his seat belt, opened the car door lightly and went out.He leaned against the front of the car, lit a cigarette, and stared at the thousands of lights in a daze.

There was a sound of knocking on the glass behind him, and Chu Wendao looked at it with a cigarette between his fingers.

Most of Xu Qingzhou's face was lit up by the lights of the stars, and the worry in his expression, and possibly more complicated feelings, made him feel nervous.

He walked to the trash can not far away to grind out his cigarette, and then walked back into the car.

"Can you handle it yourself when you go back?" Chu Wendao leaned over to get the medicine on the back seat, counted the number and gave it to Xu Qingzhou.

Although Xu Qingzhou's fever has subsided, he is still a little worried about whether Xu Qingzhou can take good care of himself in such a daze.

Xu Qingzhou hugged a bag of medicine tightly and nodded.After a while, he opened his mouth again, wanting to say something.

Chu Wendao waited patiently for a long time, but Xu Qingzhou still didn't say anything.He sighed secretly, brought his coat and asked Xu Qingzhou to put it on.

"Teacher?" Xu Qingzhou didn't reach out, not knowing why.

Chu Wendao said: "It's cold outside, you wear it first, and it won't be too late to return it to me in two days."

"But..." Xu Qingzhou was still hesitating.He recognized this coat, the one that Chu Wendao put on his shoulders in the hospital earlier.

"No, but your hesitant character is very much like your grand teacher's wife." Chu Wendao didn't bother to dwell on this problem, so he directly unfolded his coat to wrap him around.

Xu Qingzhou was not as tough as Chu Wendao, and hurriedly grabbed the corner of the sleeve, expressing that he wanted to wear it by himself.

He put on his sleeves and glanced cautiously, only to see Chu Wendao raised his chin towards him.He was stunned for a while, then lowered his head to fasten the button, only to see Chu Wendao nodding in satisfaction.

Xu Qingzhou turned her face away, and rubbed her hot ears in a dark corner that Chu Wendao couldn't see.

"Okay, go home quickly." Chu Wendao urged, "Go back and eat something first, and then take medicine. Put aside everything tonight and have a good rest."

After a pause, he asked again, "Do you have class tomorrow?"

Xu Qingzhou shook his head: "There is a section."

Chu Wendao tapped his index finger on the steering wheel, and said, "You can ask for leave tomorrow and let Xiao Li take care of you. You won't be well in two or three days, so you should rest at home."

Chu Wendao naturally arranged the next schedule for Xu Qingzhou, and Xu Qingzhou did not object.For several years, they have maintained this relationship.

Before Xu Qingzhou got out of the car, she suddenly turned her head and stared at Chu Wendao quietly.

"Teacher, will we have a chance to meet again in the future?" He asked softly.

Chu Wendao was startled, usually eloquent, but now he was speechless.The question seemed to contain many meanings, and he didn't know how to answer it properly.

Xu Qingzhou held the door handle and stood in the night wind until the tip of her nose was flushed with cold.

Chu Wendao felt really distressed when he saw it, so he put on a smiling face and said relaxedly: "I have two months left before leaving, we can see you anytime."

Xu Qingzhou shook her head, her voice was hoarse, and she didn't know if it was because of a cold or other factors.

He said in a voice like a mosquito, "Teacher, I can't bear you."

Chu Wendao turned his eyes away, and quietly withdrew the hand that he wanted to stretch out to comfort him.

There are so many reluctances in the world, how many are fulfilled?Chu Wendao knew this truth better than anyone else, and he was unwilling to let go of it.

"Now that the traffic is so convenient, you can come to play with me anytime." He looked straight ahead, no longer stingy to give Xu Qingzhou a look, "Go back quickly, don't think about it."

Xu Qingzhou stood for a while, and gently closed the door.He didn't seem to have any nostalgia either, he turned around and shrank his neck and walked towards the apartment.

Through the rearview mirror, Chu Wendao watched the figure getting smaller and smaller until it disappeared into another piece of light.

The child will probably have to blame himself later, he closed his eyes and thought.

The teachers' apartment is not only rented out to the faculty and staff of the school, but some postgraduates also rent here for convenience.

Xu Qingzhou's neighbor is a court student in the second year of graduate school. When he went back, he happened to meet the graduate student who opened the door and came out.

"Mr. Xu, you are back." The court student locked the door and looked like he was about to go out.

Xu Qingzhou just wanted to open his mouth, but his throat was itchy. He covered his mouth and nose and coughed muffledly.

"Teacher, do you have a cold?" the court student turned around and asked worriedly.

Xu Qingzhou waved his hand to show that he was fine.

He didn't ask until he was calm, "Haoyu, are you going out so late?"

Xu Qingzhou is not a nosy person, but after all, as a school teacher, it is inevitable to care about the safety of the students.

Haoyu scratched his head and smiled: "It's okay, it's only ten o'clock. The main reason is that my mother said that she is here, and I have to pick it up."

Xu Qingzhou nodded: "Go quickly, it's freezing cold, don't let your mother wait too long."

Haoyu sighed, turned his head and hurried away.Xu Qingzhou shook the key in his hand, envious for no reason.

Deja vu scene, but time has changed, people are different.

It seems that he hasn't seen his parents for a long time, maybe it's not long, maybe the last time we met was the Spring Festival at the beginning of the year, and it will be another New Year's Eve in a blink of an eye.

Xu Qingzhou opened the door and went in. The teacher's apartment is not very spacious, a typical single person's apartment, with one living room and one bedroom.The furnishings in the house are simple, and the originally narrow space forcibly creates an empty atmosphere.

He didn't turn on the light, he put the things on the table casually and walked straight to the small balcony.

Before Chu Wendao left, the dark brown car was looming under the shadow of the trees.Xu Qingzhou leaned on the railing and looked down high.

Sometimes he really hates Chu Wendao's thoughtfulness, and also hates his own selfishness.He coveted the tenderness that never belonged to him, tried to deceive the other party in a hypocritical way, and also tried to satisfy himself.

On a night like this, Xu Qingzhou understood Chu Wendao's character, and took advantage of his thoughtfulness to keep him waiting in the darkness for a short time.

He's always been selfish, always has been.

Maybe 10 minutes later, Xu Qingzhou stood up straight and walked back to the living room.

With a snap, the light came on.At the same time, the dark brown car will be completely hidden in the night, where he can't see it.