double struggle

Before Xu Qingzhou got off the car, Chu Wendao stopped him.

"Stretch out your hand." Chu Wendao said.

Xu Qingzhou didn't know why, but he opened his palm obediently.The street lamps in the school are far away from each other, and the light can only illuminate a small part. He can't see clearly what Wen Dao is carrying in his hand.

Just as he was breathing and thinking, the palm of his hand suddenly felt cold, like the touch of metal.He subconsciously curled his fingers inward, and the pulp of his fingers clearly touched the uneven lines.

It was two keys—the key ring held them together.

Xu Qingzhou's eyes seemed to light up at that moment, and Chu Wendao couldn't help being infected by his joy.

"Take it away, I will rely on you for that house in the future." He said teasingly, "When I come back someday, I can only rely on you to take it in."

Xu Qingzhou's mouth moved, and then raised upwards: "I will take good care of it."

"Well, let's go back." Chu Wendao waved at people.

Xu Qingzhou grabbed the doorknob with his finger, as if he was waiting for something.Just when Chu Wendao was confused about what else was wrong with him, he leaned into his upper body, leaning on the chair handle, and gently pressed his lips to the corner of Chu Wendao's mouth.

Chu Wendao opened his eyes blankly, and then saw Xu Qingzhou closing the door and trotting towards the dormitory.

No matter how you look at it, it feels very light.

The corners of his eyes twitched, and the corners of his mouth were reflected in the rearview mirror.He raised his hand to cover up and pressed, then pulled again.He stared at his funny movements for a long time, and laughed to himself.

How come he is also infected?

However, this little joy did not last long.Chu Wendao thought a lot, but he never expected to see Zhang Zhiyuan downstairs at home who seemed to have not seen him for a long time.

If the time goes back a few days, maybe he will still feel the surprise.Now he just finds it extremely ridiculous, laughing at his own wishful thinking and laughing at the other party's inexplicable.

Zhang Zhiyuan had very good eyesight, so he saw Chu Wendao approaching from a distance.His gaze slowly followed Chu Wendao until it stopped one meter away.

When did they start to have a strange distance between them?Zhang Zhiyuan thought in confusion.

Chu Wendao raised his chin and said, "Go up and sit down?"

Zhang Zhiyuan stared intently at the man who used to share the same bed, and shook his head slightly.Zhang Zhiyuan's refusal was expected by Chu Wendao, he smiled inexplicably, took out a cigarette from his trouser pocket, and held out the end of the cigarette.

Zhang Zhiyuan looked at the cigarette he carried between his slender fingers, hesitated for a while, then lowered his head to suck the end of the cigarette.

Chu Wendao took another cigarette in his mouth, picked up the lighter and lit it.Maybe it was a habit over the years, he took a step closer, cigarette butts stuck to cigarette butts, a few wisps of smoke blurred each other's expressions.

"Then let's go." Chu Wendao spit out a mouthful of white mist, and tilted his head to look at Zhang Zhiyuan.If Zhang Zhiyuan had something to say to himself, he would let it take its course and cooperate.

Take it as a final farewell.

It was already ten o'clock in the evening, and there were very few people hanging out in the community garden.On a small road, only the two of them walked slowly.Chu Wendao found it unbelievable, even before, they had never tried to wander around in silence together like this.

The lights of every household light up the long road ahead, and there is a small lake in front of it, which looks like a moon when viewed from a height.If the weather is fine, the lake at night is like an unpolished mirror, clearly illuminating the shadows of trees by the lake and the bright moon in the sky.It's a pity that Chu Wendao lived on a low floor, and he could barely get a corner of the scenery from the balcony.

He felt sorry countless times before because he couldn't share this beauty with Zhang Zhiyuan.

The recent weather has not been good. When they approached the lake, they could only see the dark water surface.A few wisps of white mist spewed out from his nostrils, and instantly merged into the bottomless darkness.

Chu Wendao walked slowly ahead, and Zhang Zhiyuan fell three steps behind him.In fact, this distance was just a wild guess, at least it sounded so far from the sound of footsteps.

A cigarette soon came to an end, Chu Wendao frowned, thinking whether the manufacturer was lazy and made the cigarette shorter than before.He walked two steps faster, approached the trash can, crushed the cigarette and threw it into it.

When he turned around, he found that Zhang Zhiyuan had finished smoking at some point.

Zhang Zhi's distance from him is getting closer, only one step away.Chu Wendao rubbed his finger bones. He wore less clothes when he went out at night, but now he felt cold.

Zhang Zhiyuan looked at him for a while, and said, "I called you, but you didn't answer."

Chu Wendao blinked in a daze, and reached into his trouser pockets. There was nothing but a pack of cigarettes and a few keys.

"I left my phone at home," he smiled apologetically, "tell me what you need to do now."

Zhang Zhiyuan looked away hesitantly, pursed his lips and remained silent.

Chu Wendao saw that the person was silent, turned around and continued to walk forward.Zhang Zhiyuan usually speaks directly and quickly, but it is rare for him to hesitate like this. He is afraid that he wants to ask something but doesn't know how to ask it.

The people behind did not follow, Chu Wendao sighed secretly and stopped in place.He turned his head, but couldn't see Zhang Zhiyuan's expression clearly.It was too dark around, he had to consult with the property management when he had time, he thought ecstatically.

It seemed that the voice came from a very far away place. At first Chu Wendao couldn't hear it clearly, and tilted his head in confusion.

"When are you leaving?" Zhang Zhiyuan took a few steps forward and raised his voice.

Now, Chu Wendao heard it clearly, but he didn't want to answer the truth.

He tried to perfunctory: "I'll go back after packing up."

"The specific time." Zhang Zhiyuan said.

Chu Wendao looked at him, turned his face away and said, "I don't know."

Zhang Zhiyuan called his name word by word, as if his emotions had reached a critical point: "Chu Wendao."

Chu Wendao found it extremely ridiculous, and the corners of his mouth couldn't help curling up.Apart from being ridiculous, I also felt a ton of sleepiness under pressure.People grow up suddenly in one moment, and then suddenly vicissitudes in another moment.Chu Wendao knew he was the latter.

"What does this have to do with you?" He raised the back of his cold hand and wiped his face, unable to suppress his inappropriate smile, "Since we don't plan to get involved again, what does it matter?"

"Zhiyuan, I really loved you very much in the past, maybe I still do now. But I also know what kind of life you want to have, so I haven't forced you for so many years, even if we separate at the end, I still respect you Choice. I always feel that I am sorry for you. Without me, you probably would not have walked on this path." He lowered his eyelashes and said softly, "Just let me leave your life quietly, no good ?"

Zhang Zhiyuan stretched out his arm, froze in mid-air for a while, and then put it on Chu Wendao's shoulder.Chu Wendao did not refuse, as if he was still in his own world.

Zhang Zhiyuan raised his other arm again, and slowly wrapped it around Chu Wendao's shoulders that seemed to have become thinner.He pressed against Chu Wendao's neck tightly, and the same cold lips touched Chu Wendao's ears tremblingly.

"Can't we be like before?" Zhang Zhiyuan said with difficulty, "Play basketball together, eat together, be happy together like before...isn't it possible?"

They started as friends, and Zhang Zhiyuan hoped that they could return to their original relationship.

Chu Wendao didn't speak, but patted Zhang Zhiyuan on the back.Then, he took a step back and broke away from the uncomfortable embrace.

"Zhiyuan, I always envy your inherent optimism and innocence. No one can go back to the past, neither you nor me." He rubbed Zhang Zhiyuan's frown and said softly, "If you In the future, if you have difficulties or unhappy things, you can come to me, and I will try my best to help you." It's just that the happy ones no longer belong to me.

"Let's get together and break up, Zhang Zhiyuan."

This was the last sentence he left for Zhang Zhiyuan, other than that, he couldn't give anything else.

Chu Wendao didn't care about Zhang Zhiyuan who was left where he was, and he didn't care when the other party left or where he would leave.From the moment he turned and left, the relationship between them was considered to have come to an end.Those carefree teenage years, together with those feelings that have been tied down for nine years, have also been left in place.

No one can go back to the past, Zhang Zhiyuan will have a better future, and he will have a different life.