double struggle

After Xu Qingzhou came out, he went around half a circle before finding Sun Hai's car.The weather was getting colder and colder. He was outside for a while, and there were still a few drops of water hanging from the tip of his nose.He went to the door and knocked twice. Sun Hai, who was sitting in the driver's seat, came to his senses and hurriedly beckoned people to get in the car.

The temperature inside the car was warmer than outside, so Xu Qingzhou shrank in quickly, and held his stiff fingers between his thighs to keep warm.Although he is a southerner, he is physically weak. Since he was a child, he has not been able to withstand the wet and cold weather in the south. He usually wears more clothes than others.It's just that I was in a hurry to go out today, and I forgot to add a few more layers of clothes.

Sun Hai looked back at Xu Qingzhou, reached out and turned up the temperature of the air conditioner: "Where are you going?"

Xu Qingzhou licked his dry lips and said, "School dormitory." At the end, he added with a smile, "Thank you."

"Why are you being polite?" Sun Hai waved his hand cheerfully, started the car and got out of the parking space, "We will be friends from now on, if you need help, just ask."

Xu Qingzhou has followed Chu Wendao for so many years, and has heard a little about Sun Hai's character.It wasn't until Wu Xia and Sun Hai got closer that he slowly began to get to know this close friend of Chu Wendao for many years.Cheerful, bold, informal, and enthusiastic are all his impressions of Sun Hai.

He is a very easy to get along with, he thought, Wu Xia is very lucky this time.

The car walked for a while, then gradually slowed down, and there were more and more cars around, and finally they were all crowded together.

This is not the time for traffic jams, Sun Hai picked up his mobile phone and searched the traffic conditions.Xu Qingzhou was absent-mindedly looking at the slowly moving vehicles beside him, and heard Sun Hai cursing.

"It's a fucking traffic accident." Sun Hai threw away the phone, regretting not paying attention to the traffic situation earlier, "Are you in a hurry? This may take more than half an hour."

In fact, more than half an hour is the minimum time. This is the section of the road leading to the high-speed rail station with the largest traffic volume. It is possible that you cannot get out for an hour.

Xu Qingzhou said: "Don't worry, just take your time." From just now, he felt that his life had slowed down.There was nothing to want to do, nothing to require him to do.

"Fortunately, I took a day off. When I got back, I was invited to dinner by Keng Chu Wendao."

Xu Qingzhou heard Sun Hai yelling there, and remembered the way the two of them got along, and couldn't help laughing softly.

Sun Hai heard it, and was about to say something when he saw the car in front of him moving. He closed his mouth, held the steering wheel, and lightly stepped on the accelerator and brake.This stop-and-go mode does not know how many times it will be maintained, which makes people feel bored.

After the car stopped again, Sun Hai cleared his throat, and Xu Qingzhou looked forward.

"Actually, I don't want to be nosy, but I really can't hold back." Sun Hai rolled his eyes, met Xu Qingzhou's gaze in the rearview mirror, and then looked back, "Chu Wendao, that brat was actually not In this way, I am very decisive in whatever I think about and do, and I will definitely not drag my feet when I do it.”

Xu Qingzhou blinked, he knew it.Even when it comes to work now, Chu Wendao still keeps his word.But Sun Hai naturally didn't just refer to this aspect, perhaps pointing to more places he didn't understand.

"That's what..." Sun Hai struggled to choose his words, and explained in a way that he thought was most understandable and more graceful, "You also know about his things. After all, it's been so many years, and it's definitely not clear if you want to break it. Don't look at it." He looks like a fool who doesn't take anything seriously, but he is actually more cautious than anyone else. So what... If you really want to marry that kid, can you give me a little more time?"

After saying this, he felt a little regretful, because he felt that this kind of statement was too difficult.

"Forget it, just pretend I didn't say it." Sun Hai scratched his hair and began to tear down his friend's signboard, "Anyway, that kid is nothing good, isn't he just a 1? I'll find you another one later." Even better!"

Xu Qingzhou didn't talk to him, and he felt even more uneasy, silently spurning Chu Wendao who was far away.

After a long time, just when Sun Hai thought he had offended Xu Qingzhou, he suddenly heard vague laughter.

Xu Qingzhou put down his hand covering his mouth, and was caught snickering, but instead looked back generously.Originally, he still shuddered when he heard the first half of Sun Hai's words, but he couldn't help laughing when he heard the last part.

From time to time, Wu Xia still cared about his affairs, and now that Sun Hai also came to join in, the two couples didn't know what they were arguing about.

"Thank you, I understand all of this." Xu Qingzhou raised his right hand and touched his ear temples, smiled, his face was a little hot, "As for the last...I like him first, and I don't care about those problems. "

Sun Hai couldn't turn his head fast enough, he didn't understand what it meant for a while.When the car finally got out of the congested traffic section, he suddenly realized.

After a strange silence, he wrinkled his face complicatedly.This must be true love. For a pure 0 like him, the up and down posture is the most important prerequisite for him to pick someone.Thinking about what Chu Wendao would look like if it was 0, he immediately shocked himself enough.Unthinkable, unthinkable, that is an impossible miracle.

"There are so few pure 1s, you have to be careful." Finally, Sun Hai choked out such a sentence.

The corner of Xu Qingzhou's mouth curled up, and when he turned his head to look at the trees passing by outside the window, the smile on his face gradually faded.

There has never been a question of whether he and Chu Wendao are sure.If it was before, Luo Hua was the only one who was intentional and ruthless; but now that the opportunity came by chance, he was just so lucky to meet it.If the person Chu Wendao once liked could be more persistent and brave, then he would always be just a bystander.

Xu Qingzhou has been thinking these days, maybe his whole life's luck has been saved in this.

Except for the short-term traffic jam at the beginning, the road conditions were smooth afterwards.Sun Hai's driving was not as stable as Chu Wendao's, and his speed was also faster than Chu Wendao's. When the car stopped downstairs in the teachers' dormitory, Xu Qingzhou couldn't help feeling a little dizzy.

"Thank you, I'll treat you to a drink when you're free." Xu Qingzhou said to Sun Hai before getting out of the car.

Sun Hai laughed loudly and replied: "Why do you ask, Chu Wendao is rich and powerful, so it's not bad for him to invite us."

"Maybe you can talk to the teacher." Xu Qingzhou knew that Sun Hai was joking, so he said goodbye and got out of the car.

The teachers and students of the school have almost left. Compared with the campus where people came and went a few days ago, the shadows of the trees and the buildings seem to be much more spacious.Xu Qingzhou walked from the school road to the stairs of the dormitory, and the echo from the stepping went in from the left ear and came from the right ear.

Walking through the third floor, Xu Qingzhou heard intermittent knocking sounds. He stood still and looked up, and a familiar figure appeared around the corner.

"Mr. Xu, you're back." Haoyu walked up to Xu Qingzhou with the suitcase in two or three steps, "I have to go, my parents are urging me to go home."

Xu Qingzhou glanced at the suitcase behind Haoyu, and leaned over to make way.

"Safe on the road." He smiled friendly.

Haoyu picked up the suitcase and took two steps down, turned around and asked as if he remembered something: "Teacher, are you still going home?"

Xu Qingzhou lowered his eyelids, and his eyes seemed to slide slowly inadvertently.

"I still have something to do at school, so I'll be back later." His tone sounded calm.

Haoyu froze for a moment, opened and closed his mouth.After a long while, he waved vigorously at Xu Qingzhou: "Then I'm leaving, Happy Spring Festival in advance!"

Xu Qingzhou didn't answer, and looked thoughtfully at the back of the young man bouncing around with his suitcase.The shadow stretched very long, and finally became a point.

He lowered his head and raised his feet, stepping on the steps with his toes, black shadows were included in his dark blue shoes.As he moved his body to the side, the blackness on the soles of his feet expanded and gradually turned into a pitch-black silence, engulfing his whole body in it.

"Happy Chinese New Year..." Xu Qingzhou muttered these four words, and he was very familiar with them, but he was not familiar with the taste of them.

I have been alone for a long time, and I have forgotten the memories of a long time ago.

Pushing open the heavy door, there was a creaking sound, which made my heart tremble.Xu Qingzhou walked a few steps in and then stopped. The room was too damp and cold, and Xixi got into her skin coldly.After pestering for a long time, he gritted his teeth and went straight to the bedroom.

Xu Qingzhou is going to Chu Wendao's room tonight.

No matter how you are alone, it is better to stay in a place with that person's breath.

There are not many things he needs to bring, Chu Wendao has already prepared what he should have, and he only needs to bring his clothes.

Xu Qingzhou squatted there, counting things with his fingers up.After checking it repeatedly three times, he suddenly remembered what he had forgotten.He stood up in a hurry, trotted to the bedside and opened the drawer of the cabinet next to him.

There were a few books inside, and he dug them out, and then held up a photo album at the lowest end as a treasure.The cover is the simplest plain color, not too thick, about a dozen pages or so.

It's been a long time since I took out this photo album, and Xu Qingzhou probably felt a little strange, sitting on the edge of the bed staring at the cover of the photo album in a daze.Suddenly, a crisp sound frightened him back to his senses, and he looked in the direction of the sound source. It turned out that the books had been carelessly piled on the edge of the table just now, and they wobbled a little and fell off.

Xu Qingzhou breathed a sigh of relief, stroked the sharp edge of the photo album with her thumb a few times, and opened it carefully.

The photos contained in it were well preserved. From the time of graduate student to the time when I was a teacher later, just a few years passed in a blink of an eye.It's just that the person loaded here is not himself, nor anyone else. From the beginning to the end, the focus is only on one person.

Xu Qingzhou's gaze stayed on a photo, and he clearly remembered that it was probably a basketball game during his first year of research.Every semester's basketball game teachers will have a friendly match. At that time, Chu Wendao led Xu Qingzhou's graduate class, and naturally they also played.Because the girls who were tentatively scheduled to be videotaped for the class were temporarily busy, Xu Qingzhou took charge of the videotape for the day as a substitute.

Probably a lot of things are settled at a glance.

Xu Qingzhou didn't know that Chu Wendao was so good at playing basketball before. Seeing his teacher's vigorous figure, he couldn't help being dumbfounded.The goal was scored, and as the students cheered and shouted, he saw another teacher from the same team running over, wrapping around Chu Wendao's neck with one hand, and ruffling his hair with the other.

Chu Wendao let the man toss, smiling beautifully, his eyes seemed to be wet with sweat, sparkling.

Later, Xu Qingzhou found out that the man was called Zhang Zhiyuan, and he was Chu Wendao's very, very good friend, so good that he put all his heart on his heart.

He couldn't forget Chu Wendao at that time, and at the same time, he knew that that smile didn't belong to him.

Xu Qingzhou took a picture of that moment, perhaps out of selfishness, he did not share this photo, but secretly hid it in the album for so many years.It is Tibetan, the kind of buried that is never taken out for viewing.

His toes moved, he was not wearing slippers, and his feet were bloodless from the cold.He simply crossed his legs and sat next to the head of the bed.The photo album lay quietly in his arms and had never been opened again.