[Net King] Daily life of snake essence disease

After returning from the bar, I started to dream all night, dreaming of a girl named Mashiro.Because of the sudden drop in sleep quality, not only was I unable to concentrate on my work, I was even nearly hit by a car on my way home.This situation lasted for about a week, and I finally couldn't bear it anymore.

After work this day, I came to Osaka University Hospital.

Walking into the psychiatric office, I immediately saw Yuji Ninata sitting at his desk writing a book.He was wearing a white coat, with the flat mirror on the bridge of his nose and his right hand holding a pen tightly, he looked like a well-known doctor.

"Senior Shinozu, excuse me."

He put down the pen in his hand, raised his head and saw me, raised his eyebrows subconsciously, as if he was a little surprised by my appearance.

"Zhenhong, why are you here?"

"Well, I've been having a bit of insomnia lately."

I have to admit that I have an instinctive prejudice against the "psychiatric department", so from the moment I stepped here, I felt uncomfortable and hesitated even when describing my illness.

Shinobi Yushi saw through my little thoughts, he smiled gently, asked me to sit down on the chair, and then poured me a glass of pure water.

"Since when did you have insomnia?"

"It started last week when I got home from the bar."

Renzu heard my answer, and immediately showed a look of apology or understanding on his face. Before I could take a closer look, I heard a rush of footsteps by my ears, and a breeze brushed my cheek.

"Yushi---you agreed to go to dinner, let's go, let's go."

The sudden female voice is like a jumping note, with a strong sense of coquettishness.

When I came back to my senses, I saw Ren Zuzu being tightly hugged by a girl who looked like a high school student. After roughly looking at the girl's appearance, my attention was completely attracted by the hospital gown she was wearing. up.

"I'm sorry, Sayako. A... patient came to me suddenly. You go to the cafeteria and wait for me, okay?"

I lowered my head as if I hadn't heard of it, and saw a flower in the stripes on the little girl's hospital gown.

"Okay, but you have to come down quickly, or I will be angry!"

The little girl left behind these words and left reluctantly.Even with my head down, I can still feel the murderous aura that cannot be ignored when she passes by me...

In this regard, I can only lament silently, I was shot while lying down.

After a few minutes, I looked up, and Yushi Ninzu was staring at the door in a daze. I immediately gloated and asked him with a playful smile:

"Girlfriend? Looks so young."

Shinobi Yuuji turned his eyes back to my face, shook his head, and asked me solemnly:

"Do you know positive transfer?"

Now, it's my turn to shake my head at the rattle.

"Positive transfer is a way to treat depression. When a patient suffers from depression due to a broken relationship, the attending physician should try every means to make her fall in love with him, let her get out of the shadow of failure in the previous relationship, and then gradually alienate the patient to achieve The effect of curing the patient. The little girl was abandoned by her boyfriend last month, attempted suicide and suffered from depression, so she came to me.”

"...how could this be?"

It was as if my tongue had been bitten by a cat, and it took me a long time to speak.

"There's also a strong backlash against this approach in the medical ethics community. But it does have some utility."

I clicked my tongue and couldn't help feeling sorry for the little girl who left a few minutes ago.In a blink of an eye, he couldn't help but gossip, and asked Renzu again:

"Did the senior never really like the patient?"

"There is one."

"and then?"

"And then... I killed someone for her."

Ninja Yuuji said, his eyes became deep.

I was stared at by him blankly, and suddenly I felt a chill creep up my body from the soles of my feet along my spine, and I couldn't help shivering.

Just when I was thinking about whether to run away, run away, or run away, the man in front of me suddenly smiled, and his tense facial lines stretched out, turning back into the Ninja Yushi I was familiar with.

"I lied to you."

Shinobu admitted his prank lightly like this. He stood up and stroked my hair like soothing a cat with fur, his eyes were full of smiles.

"Okay, let's get back to the topic. What is the specific situation of your insomnia?"

Ninata Yuuji tidied up his white coat, and when he sat back in the chair again, he seemed to have switched to the mode of a famous doctor.

I glared at him angrily, and then said with some frustration:

"These days, I keep dreaming."

"Do you remember the content of the dream?"

"I only remember a few fragmentary scenes, such as when I changed into the torn school uniform skirt in the toilet, and ran to find... Chotaro and the like."

When I said Chotaro's name, I was a little embarrassed, for fear that Ninzu would think I was missing spring.But I raised my head secretly, and what caught my eyes was Yushi Ninzu's serious expression with his lips pursed.I secretly breathed a sigh of relief.

"Change? That means you have another good school uniform?"

I nodded slowly, subconsciously thinking that this should be the case.

"Then why change?"

"I can't tell, I just feel that if I don't change, Chotaro won't recognize me."

When I said this, I felt that my emotions became a little abnormal. Although I stated it in a flat tone, my heart ached uncontrollably, just like when I questioned Chotaro, I was very sad.

Afterwards, I fell into silence for about 5 minutes with Ninaku Yuji.During this period, his eyes wandered over my face, and I forced myself not to avoid his eyes.The moment our eyes met, I suddenly felt that Ninzuzu's eyes were somewhat similar to Sakaki Taro's, and they both gave me a strong oppressive force, making me breathless.

Watched by those eyes, I couldn't help but confess everything to him.

"Chotaro seems to have said that he would confuse me with someone else, and that person's name is..."

"Well, I'll prescribe you some sedatives first, and come to me again if your insomnia doesn't improve."

I opened my mouth, but before I could say the name of "Mashiro", Yushi Ninzu interrupted me and wrote the prescription on his own.Just like when I came, he was scribbling at the desk, his face hidden in the red light of the setting sun, like a fascination that frightened me.

When the night fell, I was walking home alone in a daze.I still think back to what happened in the hospital before.I don't know if it's an illusion, but I always feel that when I interrupt my words, my expression is a little unnatural, and my tone is also very impatient, as if I want to stop me from speaking.

After thinking about it for a while, I realized that I was paranoid.

Could it be that after going to the psychiatrist, I really want to become a mental patient?Thinking of this, I quickly shook my head and put the question behind me.

"Ah---how did I come here?"

I actually walked to the place where I lived before in a trance.This is the first time I've been back here since the fire.Although a period of time has passed, I am daunted by the ruined walls and the scorched and sticky land under my feet.I can't forget that the scorching flames not only burned down the garden with flowers and plants in front of the apartment, but also took my mother's life.

Thinking of this, my tears are almost uncontrollable.

I staggered and continued to walk a few steps forward, the memory of home in my mind was damaged beyond recognition by the scene in front of me.Suddenly, I heard a weak dog barking.

I stopped and looked ahead warily.Then, I saw a golden retriever and a person walking out of the night.

"Ms. Sakaki, why are you?"

I looked at Sakakitaro in surprise.It wasn't until the warm tongue licked my calf that I realized that the golden hair had rubbed against me at some point.

I took a closer look and found that the golden retriever at my feet was the one that Sakakitaro had raised for more than ten years, no wonder the sound was so feeble.A teenage dog should be considered an old man among humans, right?

I withdrew my gaze from looking at the golden retriever, and I asked Sakaki Taro again:

"Why are you here?"

Sakaki Taro answered concisely:

"Take it out for a walk."

I frowned. I had the impression that Sakaki Taro's house was far away from here, and it was really a toss for an elderly dog ​​to go for a walk here.Sakaki Taro ignored my reaction, but just looked down at the golden hair that was still crooked at my feet.He looked at it for a long time, then suddenly raised his head again, smiled at me gently, and asked cautiously:

"Can you stay with me for a while?"

"Ah, I can."

Then, Sakakitaro laughed again.The sudden gleam in his eyes even reminded me of Sakaki Taro.

I think my brain must be broken, otherwise how can I compare the cold-faced supervisor with the innocent Chotaro.

However, I have no way or the guts to go back on what I said.I had no choice but to honestly look at the ruins of my own house side by side with Sakaki Taro, and occasionally answer some of his innocuous questions.

As for the golden retriever, it seemed that Sakaki Taro had forgotten about it, and it had already squatted in the corner digging the soil on its own.

After standing for a long time, when my legs were shaking with soreness, Sakaki Taro also moved.Seeing that I was about to be relieved, the golden retriever squatting in the corner suddenly screamed sharply and shrillly.

The voice of the old golden retriever was like a sharp arrow piercing the night sky. When it sounded at first, it was a little weird, which made my body tremble unconsciously.Sakakitaro next to him rushed towards the old golden retriever. I wailed in my heart and followed Sakakitaro's pace.Before I got close to the old golden retriever, there was already an unbearable stench attacking my nose.Covering my nose and mouth with my hands, I approached Sakakitaro hesitantly.

Just when I was glad that I finally dawdled to Sakakitaro's side, my foot suddenly stepped on the ground, and I was about to fall down.Sakakitaro quickly reached out and hugged me.

"Be careful—"

While telling me to be careful, he took out a silver lighter from his pocket and lit it.

The weak flame became our only tool for lighting at night, and I saw Sakakitaro bent down, holding a lighter hand close to the scorched land under his feet.

I saw the old golden retriever squatting in the corner shivering.

I saw it, the dirt pit that almost caused me to fall.

I saw that the soft soil on the edge of the pit was sunken inward.

"what---"

I screamed because I finally saw the highly decomposed corpse in the pit. When the fire illuminated the corpse, countless insects and flies came straight to my face.

I closed my eyes reflexively, and my stomach was overwhelmed with pain.

What scares me the most is that even with a very short glimpse, I can still see clearly the man lying in the pit and letting the bugs eat his face...

It is my stepfather who has been missing for many days.

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