Give a bellflower to the drowning ghost

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Bodyguard Chen dug out more candies from his pocket after doing a "good deed". While letting the sweetness spread on his tongue, he looked at Wang Ze and let out some inexplicable hums.As time passed, the colorful candy wrappers fell to the ground.

The rolling door of the warehouse was raised, and the wind and rain blew away the candy wrappers.The man who had left came back with four fast food boxes in his hands. Bodyguard Chen got up to take the food and drinking water from him.The man glanced at Wang Ze, who was still under the effect of hallucinogens, and looked at the two drug addicts lying on the rotten sofa with a bit of annoyance. The noise of hitting the eaves covered it.

The ranger saw that he and Wang Ze were not involved, probably because the kidnappers believed that the dead did not need to eat.

The man and Chen's bodyguard gathered around a small folding table and picked up the lunch box bit by bit, while the forest ranger quietly looked at the man's appearance in the dark.The kidnapper had a dark complexion, and his brows had light marks left by frequent frowning, but he seemed to be about the same age as Bodyguard Chen.Unlike Bodyguard Chen's unbelievable calmness, this man was fidgeting all the time, constantly looking at Wang Ze, and always stroking the weapon hidden in his clothes with one hand, causing rice grains and vegetables to fall to the ground.The rain was getting heavier and heavier, and the wind slapped the gate and windows with the rain, as if someone was about to break in at any time, and the man became even more nervous because of this.

Bodyguard Chen saw everything, but did not try to comfort him.

The man spotted the ranger peeking at them, cursed and drew a knife and tried to walk towards him.The ranger saw the bright blade through the dim light, and felt his scalp go numb, and he couldn't even feel his body for a while.However, bodyguard Chen stopped the man and let him live for a few more hours.Since then, the forest rangers dare not look around.

After a while, the man kicked his partner off the sofa, then lay down on the sofa and fell asleep.

Bodyguard Chen sat back beside the ranger.

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The ranger whispered, "...can I talk now."

Bodyguard Chen said: "Tell me, anyway, I don't have much time to tell you."

The ranger said: "I have a guess, no matter if the guess is right or wrong, I hope you don't let that buddy come up and stab me to death."

Bodyguard Chen nodded.

The ranger said: "First of all, I don't think you and those two addicts were familiar with each other beforehand."

Bodyguard Chen said, "10 points."

The ranger said: "You are familiar with the man in charge, that is, the guy who brought the food, but that guy is also a drug addict."

Bodyguard Chen raised his eyebrows: "30 points, you think he's pretty good?"

The forest ranger moved his fingers: "Then you got involved in this matter because you wanted to take care of your buddy, because you like that buddy."

Bodyguard Chen's face remained unchanged: "Is there any more?"

The ranger said: "And the reason you are nice to me is that I look a little like that buddy, the shape of eyes and nose."

"Hmm..." Bodyguard Chen changed his sitting position, "I'll give you 60 points to pass. The deduction item is the third question. These three people were my neighbors when I was young. Since I signed a contract with the boss, I haven't seen much. In other words, Brother Hong will keep in touch during the New Year and holidays. Besides, he helped me a lot with my mother’s affairs before. I'm going to be transferred, and there's only one chance left."

The ranger couldn't believe it: "You will commit a crime with a group of drug addicts just because you want to return favors?"

Bodyguard Chen was also very surprised: "I thought you were also a professional with no distinction."

The ranger said: "It's not a matter of professional gap." Wang Ze's mother didn't seem like a person who was too reckless. Bodyguard Chen gave up his original job and future to do something that was destined to go to jail. Coming here is already an act of ruining your life.

Bodyguard Chen leaned on the folding table, tapping his fingertips on the table unconsciously: "It's not entirely for favors, I also thought about Brother Hong's flying a few times, I don't have any deeper thoughts, but in my life I will Didn't say anything about the others...so, a passing grade?"

The ranger said, "Not sure about your emotions?"

Bodyguard Chen smiled: "Yeah, I can't tell the difference between this type of thing, but at least I know that I don't like it to that extent, and I haven't liked anyone at this age."

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Bodyguard Chen said, "What do you think you are?"

The ranger hesitated: "...mammals."

Bodyguard Chen said, "Hey, I feel like a vacuum flask, the broken one."

"There is a sentence that I can never forget. I have forgotten where I saw it. It said, 'Even if you are gone one day, I can live on the memories you left behind'. I can understand this sentence It makes sense, but I don’t seem to be able to do this. Good things happened in my life, such as my dad being nice to me before, and the whole family celebrated my birthday together, but I’m I can't squeeze the joy and warmth out of it."

Bodyguard Chen stared at the ranger, his expression was so blank: "I haven't forgotten those happy things, and I can laugh when I see funny jokes, but only bad memories leave the most vivid feeling. For example, my father Pictures of me, such as my mother saying something nasty... I can't keep the warm feeling, I can't keep warm, and I can't live with good memories."

Bodyguard Chen muttered to himself: "It's really amazing. There is sex but no emotional needs, empathy but can't keep the feeling of happiness. I, I can never forget my grandma. When she was in her 50s I got cancer, and the original price of the medicine for treatment was more than 2 yuan. After approval, I can buy it for more than 800 yuan, which is barely affordable. In order to treat her, I signed a contract with Wang Ze’s family behind my back to do those disgusting things. In the end, I found out that my grandma secretly sold the medicines that I had so hard to get in order to save some money for my mother. She was the only one who cared about me and my mother, but she gave up very early because of poverty, and then I My father beat my mother even harder."

The ranger originally wanted to comfort and say that this was a sign of her love for you, but to Bodyguard Chen, love is probably a very mysterious thing.

Bodyguard Chen said: "I can't forget the feeling when my grandma died, I can't forget that day. I looked at Wang Ze at the time, and I thought his family was also very complicated, and maybe he was very unsatisfied, but he definitely didn't need to feel this kind of feeling." The experience of having no choice because of being poor. I worked hard and made money from then on, and then at this age, I found that no matter how hard I tried, it was too late. My family, my IQ, and my destiny doomed me to be impossible Ze is richer."

He said: "I envy him. He is not smarter than me, not better than me, but he has more choices than me, but he doesn't cherish the opportunity of this choice at all. As long as I see his face, I will have a lot of negative emotions. Much of society accepts this unfairness, but I can't seem to accept it."

The ranger said: "Your thinking will make it impossible for you to return to society."

Bodyguard Chen said: "I can't go back anymore. I'm mentally prepared for what will happen if I get caught. I'm somewhat self-aware. I know it's not normal, so I said, I must be broken somewhere. "

Bodyguard Chen drew a circle in the air: "...It's like I'm holding a leaky lifebuoy in my hand, and sadness is like the sea. Drowning is only a matter of time."

He described it vividly: "The waves came up in bursts, and I drank mouthfuls of salty and bitter seawater, breathing very hard."

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The ranger said, "I can probably guess why the writer didn't write back to you."

Bodyguard Chen recovered from the thoughts of the waves.

"He hates himself, and you're like him in some parts," says the Ranger. The difference is that the writer presumably didn't intend to hurt anyone else.

Chen's bodyguard rested his chin and said, "Really? But I won't commit suicide."

The Ranger thought, In my opinion, you are already killing yourself.

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Thank you to the readers who paid for me...I really feel guilty for updating so slowly orz

But the end will probably be within this month, I hope the ending can be liked by you.