Give a bellflower to the drowning ghost

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Humidity after a storm.

The ensemble sound of rustling branches and leaves.

The smell of blood mixed with sweat.

Flashing headlights.

And the warmth brought by others.

……

Wang Ze struggled out of the dream.

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When Wang Ze opened his eyes, the first thing he saw was the white ceiling.

The ranger sat beside him: "You're finally awake."

Wang Ze was lying on the hospital bed, wearing a soft striped hospital gown, and the sun warmed his body.His first movement was to grab the ranger's hand.

The ranger held his hand instead: "Is there any discomfort? I'll call the doctor."

Wang Ze buried his face in the pillow.He said in a muffled voice, "I'm fine, don't let go yet."

The state of Wang Ze's waking up was discovered by the nurse who came to make rounds.

In an instant, many people poured into the ward, including the doctor who came for the examination, several people in suits and uniforms, and Wang Ze's mother.

Mrs. Wang was wearing a work skirt with a company logo brooch pinned to her chest.She stood in the corner of the ward, a little far away from the crowd, just watching Wang Ze grab the ranger's hand.

After the doctor and nurse finished the examination, Mrs. Wang said to the ranger, "Can I trouble you to take a rest first? We have prepared some drinks and snacks. I want to talk to my son alone."

The ranger didn't answer right away, he waited for Wang Ze's reaction.

Looking at Mrs. Wang's brooch, Wang Ze knew that she came directly from the company to the hospital, and didn't even have time to change her clothes.

Thinking of this, Wang Ze said to the ranger: "Go and rest for a while, I'm fine."

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The conversation between mother and son lasted half an hour.Mrs. Wang left the hospital without even saying a polite word to the ranger.

The ranger poked his head out from the door of the ward and looked at Wang Ze.

Wang Ze smiled: "What are you doing?"

The ranger said, "We're seeing if we should wait until you finish crying before coming in."

Wang Ze said, "Fart."

The ranger sat directly on Wang Ze's hospital bed and peeled an apple: "Do you want to eat it?"

Wang Ze shook his head, watching the red peel peel off with the ranger's movements, revealing the white flesh.Wang Ze said: "My mother just apologized to me, saying that her management was negligent. She told me that Xiao Chen killed...his father. So the dog jumped the wall, and so on."

The ranger said, "Is your mother here to review your work?"

Wang Ze said: "I talked about the next arrangements and what happened in the past few days. After we disappeared, she went to find her uncle immediately, probably because she was said some embarrassing things. She asked me why I wanted to Go see him. I just said it because I wanted to know why my father and my uncle hated me so much."

The ranger took a bite of the apple and said, "You've become more courageous."

He lowered his head and looked at the gauze on his arm: "She said it was because she was too greedy."

Wang Ze said: "She never thought that I would care about my parents' attitude. Because my grandparents are not more responsible than her. Compared with them, at least she can guarantee my safety and financial resources. Hearing her say this , I really... don't know what to say. Do you say she is weak? Or sympathize with her?"

The missing family relationship continues like this.

Wang Ze looked at his palm: "She thinks she treats me very well. I don't understand why she is so smart, why doesn't she even understand basic common sense?"

The ranger thought for a while: "I've heard of an inhumane animal experiment. The result of the experiment is that monkeys that have not been raised by normal mothers will be very numb to emotional expression, and will treat their own animals with an aggressive attitude when they grow up. Children."①

Wang Ze smiled bitterly: "It sounds a bit disgusting."

The ranger said: "You are not like her, your child will have a happy childhood."

Wang Ze turned his head: "Where did the child come from?"

The ranger said, "Like, we adopted it."

① refers to the primate experiments of psychologist Harry Harlow

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Wang Ze remembered.

His previous memories are still a little hazy, and he can't tell which are real and which are his imagination, but now he is sure that at least one memory is real.

Wang Ze said: "My God."

The ranger gnawed at the apple leisurely: "That's right, according to the process, we are already a couple."

"No, no, wait a minute, let me take it easy," Wang Ze hugged his head, "I just woke up."

The ranger said, "Any questions?"

Wang Ze's ears were red: "I was unconscious at that time."

The ranger said: "It's okay, you have been tied up all the time, there is nothing too rude."

Wang Ze thought to himself, there are many cases of gaffes.He gripped his pants tightly under the quilt, only to realize that his palms were sweaty.

Wang Ze heard himself saying: "I made a very excessive request at the time, and I know you are trying to save me..."

"Stop," the ranger made a pause gesture, "I'm not going to lie to save you, I'm serious, if you keep talking, I'll be angry because I was dumped for the first time in my life."

Wang Ze's lips were trembling: "Is it really good to choose me? You see, my family background is very complicated, and I have also taken LSD. I don't know what will happen in the future..."

The ranger said: "I don't have a degree, and I decided to resign. I will be unemployed immediately. The conditions are not good in all aspects. If it is a blind date, I will definitely be banned. However, I think what you told me that day was not I have the confidence to go to the doctor for an emergency, and you want to choose me."

Wang Ze wanted to speak with his tongue, but only felt a stone in his mouth.

The forest guard held Wang Ze in his arms: "What are you afraid of?"

Wang Ze stretched out his hand and hugged the ranger's back. He felt his firm and warm body under his palm and smelled the familiar smell of the ranger.

He's alive, they're all alive.

Wang Ze opened his mouth and tasted the tears: "I was thinking, what should I do if you get tired of me in the future."

The ranger whispered behind his ear, "I'll help you get better, so good that I can't live without you."

Wang Ze laughed through his tears: "It's amazing."

"I love you."

"I love you too."

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A few days later, the forest ranger confirmed that Wang Ze's health was fine, so he proposed to go back and resign.He needed to pack his luggage, move out of the ranger's hut, live with Wang Ze, and fulfill the promise he had made to Chen's bodyguard.

Wang Ze said, "I'll give you a ride."

The ranger said: "Your mother arranged a car for me, and she mentioned to me that your upcoming schedule will be very busy."

Wang Ze looked at the ranger in horror.

The ranger shrugged: "After all, my mother-in-law is omnipotent and knows everything."

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Wang Ze bought two new mobile phones for himself and the ranger. His mobile phone was thrown by the roadside by the kidnappers early in the morning.

Wang Ze said: "Since you are going to change your career, you can't write forest rangers in your phone's address book, right?"

The ranger said, "Then write about boyfriend."

Wang Ze glared at him, then stuffed his mobile phone into his hand: "Enter your name."

Names are things that only human society needs to use.

The world of rangers used to be so simple that you and I could call each other.

But Wang Ze pulled him out, giving him the opportunity to use his name again and establish connections with more people.

He typed it into his phone while reading: "Lin Shuxin."

He returned to human society.

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Lin Shuxin packed the last box of luggage in the ranger hut.He squeezed through the room full of cardboard boxes, opened the door and walked out.

He was wearing brand-new sneakers, humming an out-of-key song, and walked along the familiar path. The wet soil deformed with his steps, leaving footprints that were not deep or shallow.

He walked to the lake and put down a box of cakes.

Lin Shuxin said, "I'm leaving."

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Wang Ze returned to the dormitory of the university, packed his personal belongings, and prepared to live with Lin Shuxin.

His roommate was playing games. When he saw him coming back, he quickly took off his headphones and asked a lot of questions, many of which made Wang Ze very embarrassed.It is estimated that these embarrassing scenes will be repeated again and again when meeting with classmates and teachers.

But it's no longer a problem.

Wang Ze's mobile phone received a text message from Lin Shuxin: "Are you there?"

Wang Ze wrote back: "Here, my roommate put his unwashed underpants on my desk."

"Are you moved?"

"Very."

It is not a substitute for the existence of a writer.

They will support each other and move forward together.

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When things settled down, they went to the cemetery where the writer was buried.

Wang Ze and Lin Shuxin showed off the "ingenious" sacrificial offerings brought by each other.

In addition to the usual drinks, food and luxury cars made of paper villas, Wang Ze also prepared uninspiring cakes: edible fruit cakes, hand-sewn non-woven cakes, and ingot cakes made of ingot paper.

Lin Shuxin was once again impressed by his ingenuity: "What are you going to do with so many kinds?"

Wang Ze said: "I don't know the mailing mechanism in this regard, so I have to prepare in every possible way."

What Lin Shuxin prepared was a box of colorful hair clips, with polka dot patterns and bow decorations, all in pink and tender colors."He loves this, I can guarantee it," he said.

They bow before the writer's tablet, offer incense, and burn their offerings in barrels.The tongue of fire licked those items, turning the thoughts of the world into a wisp of green smoke.

Lin Shuxin said, "I thought you would write a letter or something."

Wang Ze thought for a while, and said honestly, "Actually, I wrote it."

Lin Shuxin was surprised: "Why didn't I see it at all?"

Wang Ze said: "I burned it when you were not paying attention. After all, the content is still... quite embarrassing."

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Wang Ze's letter to the writer, neatly folded in an envelope, hidden in a bouquet of flowers, surrounded by flames.

I have always wanted to imitate once—to you who have never met before:

I'm actually an atheist, but I hope you read this letter.If I ask the ranger for his opinion, he will definitely say that this is just my self-comfort.

Correction, it was the former forest ranger, now Lin Shuxin can't say such things.

He was pulled down from the altar by me. Now he will consider the mood of the other party before speaking, and he will no longer have the taste of the outsider talking about it. He will struggle with his clothes and match others like ordinary people, and care about other people's eyes. Losing sleep over the stress of exams.I really liked the man who was out of this world in the past, but I like him even more now, because he became what he is now because of me, and I will try my best to help him reduce the troubles from the "worldly world".

Thank you so much for bringing him to me.But Lin Shuxin felt that you brought me to him, and he obviously wouldn't bother with such details before.

There is one more thing I really want to tell you.

A little over a month ago, I was kidnapped again and given hallucinogens, a very euphoric feeling at first, but was quickly dragged down to hell with hallucinations of a vicious experience.

It was an amazing experience, but I don't want to go through it again at all.

I have been following you during this time, restoring your life, collecting what you left behind, so as to fill the pain of losing you.But in the hallucination, I discovered that the root cause was my dissatisfaction with my family.I depend on them, but I despise them, and I am despised by more people because of it.

So even though I have learned from Lin Shuxin what happened to you, I can't get rid of the pain.

Of course it doesn't mean that you are not important, without you I would probably go astray, just like my friend.

During my stay in the hospital, I talked a lot with my mother, and I thought it was impossible for me to get an apology from my own parents at the moment.Even though all I wanted was their apology, a "sorry".Whenever I think of this, I feel that my soul aches with hunger and thirst.

Their union is distorted, so we cannot understand each other.

My mother expects my thanks, and I expect my mother's apology, and neither party can get what they want.

I can't choose my parents, no one can choose their birth, this is the past that cannot be changed.

I wasn't raised by the right people, but I'm going to start learning to live with that.

Or rather accept it.

Reconcile with it, and reconcile with yourself like this.

When I met my father a few days ago, I felt that this is not an easy thing to do, but one day I will do it, because Lin Shuxin is willing to be by my side.

thank you.

(I have doubted your motives and had all kinds of ugly thoughts that I hope will not be known to you.

But I don't know where the confidence comes from, so I feel that even if you know it, you will just laugh it off. )

Thank you for everything you have done for me, thank you for everything you left behind, thank you for the fact that you once existed in this world, and thank you for the fate that connects you.

After making new friends with Lin Shu, I think of the warmth and comfort you once brought me. My heart has been beating because of you for the past ten years, and I have the opportunity to find another person who is willing to love me.What you leave and the memories you bring will support me to keep going and face all kinds of possibilities with me.

One day, I will be able to say to you, to him, to myself:

"It was great to choose to try harder at the time."

Dedicate this letter to you together with your favorite Kikyo.

I hope that I can convey the heart that cannot be expressed in this text to your side.

thank you.

——End of text——

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[-]. About the next plan:

I will update the ten-thousand-year pit of "Endless Death", but because of the long distance between time and the discovery of some common sense bugs, I will make more revisions to the old articles. Please wait patiently for new readers who are interested in entering the pit.

The main text of the article "Piankycodon" is over. During the serialization period, a friend is interested in adapting this article into comics or picture books. I will inform you if there is any progress in this matter, but if your friend is not interested, then everyone is free happened (laughs)

As for the side story of "Pukyo", there was originally a side story by a writer, but the tone is rather heavy so I don't plan to release it anymore. If readers are interested, I will consider it again.

[-]. Selfish homework:

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And thanks again for being here.

Looking forward to seeing you in the next story.