A scheming first love dressed as a school grass

Why, why are all good things Qi Yao's?He is also a child of the Qi family, but because of his birth, he is born a head lower than him?The family business belongs to him, and the people he likes are also looking towards him, so Qi Yao deserves to die!

Qi Huan's eyes became gloomy and cold, gasping for breath from the pain, he forced himself to speak: "Qi Yao, you don't know, Mimi said that you don't cherish him, ignore him, and he wants to take revenge on you, hahahaha."

Knowing that Qi Huan was talking nonsense, Qi Yao still felt his heart twitch, and he paused for a moment. He pinched Qi Huan's neck and said harshly, "Shut up! Wait for me if you want to die!" He won't get his hands dirty with this trash, the rest of his life belongs to Ah Mi.

Even if Ah Mi doesn't need him, he will persist.

"Why, flustered? I'm right, hahaha." Qi Huan gasped, blushed, and smiled ugly.

"How much Mimi liked you before, and how much he hates you now, do you think he is sincerely coming back to you now, willing to continue to be used by you?"

"Qi Yao, why didn't I find you so naive before?"

Qi Huan took advantage of Qi Yao's daze, and pulled his hand away suddenly, gulping and breathing rapidly.

Qi Yao looked at him coldly, and then at Xu Mi who was weak on the bed.

If Ah Mi really hated him as Qi Huan said, and wanted to take revenge on him, at least he would feel better.The softer Ah Mi is, the more despicable he is.

"Mimi, see, Qi Yao is a lunatic who only cares about his own feelings."

Qi Huan smiled and looked at Xu Mi.

"Look, you're uncomfortable on the bed, and he didn't ask a word, he just got angry and beat me up. Do you think he cares about you, or the dignity of a man? Does he like you, or is he possessive?"

Qi Huan spoke slowly, and looked at Qi Yao provocatively after speaking.

What is he afraid of now, anyway, it's in Qi Yao's hands, he can't suffer alone.He Qi Huan is not smart enough, but he is not stupid either.It is impossible for him to admit defeat easily, or to Qi Yao!

The body that was originally hot and dry suddenly seemed to be covered with frost and snow, and the memories reappeared in my mind.

"For me, did you kneel all night? Is this what you call a friend? You are so dedicated and dedicated to every friend and collaborator? Xu Mi, you are so kind."

His questioning was colder than ice and snow, making his whole body ache from the inside out.Full of anticipation, the joy of the rest of the life after the catastrophe, were all extinguished by indifference and suspicion.

The past and the present overlap, and Xu Mi feels that his heart is so cold, intertwined with the heat of his body, making him feel as uncomfortable as being in hell.His rationality was burned by desire and desire, and he was unable to think about truth and falsehood, and fell into a nightmare of memories.

As if in slow motion, Qi Yao met Xu Mi's painful eyes, which contained expectations, joy, and love, which finally turned into deep disappointment.

His anger was frozen, and Qi Yao felt that he was back on the snowy ground, saw the scars on Xu Mi's body again, and saw his indifferent face again.

The lips moved subconsciously, but no sound came out, explain?Can explanations change harm?

He beat Qi Yao first because he knew about Xu Mi's situation, not because he didn't care about him.However, from Ah Mi's point of view, he just didn't care about him in the first place.Qi Yao wanted to go up and hug Xu Mi, but he was too timid to dare.

Seeing the sudden changes in the faces of the two of them, Qi Huan smiled even more happily, as if he just hit their sore spot?Instantly, the wound on my body no longer felt pain.

Afraid that it would not be enough, Qi Huan said slowly: "Qi Yao, I really envy you, you can get such meticulous care from Mimi, it's a pity that some people are born unworthy and don't belong to him, and he will lose it if he gets it."

"Mimi, don't be stupid, it's not worth it for Qi Yao, even his mother doesn't want him, he is so pathetic and disgusting."

Qi Huan smiled happily, if he could really let Qi Yao do something to him, he would be happier.

Qi Yao froze on the spot, his heart felt as if countless holes had been pierced by needles.The pain buried deep in the memory was brought out again.

That was the darkest day of his life, and suddenly his home was gone, leaving only the blood that stained the sheets red, and a pale, thin and lifeless woman.

Mingming promised to take him to the amusement park the day before.Probably, he is really not a child worthy of being loved.

All the misfortunes in life started from that day.Kidnapping, grandfather died in prison, grandmother died of illness, mistress and illegitimate child entered the house, car accident...

The once lively and laughing boy has grown into the silent and irritable appearance he is now, and he even drives out the light in his life.

"Master, Master."

Zheng Gang couldn't help reminding him that he didn't know much about what happened back then, he only knew that it was tragic enough for a five-year-old child, and probably for anyone.

"Master, send Mr. Xu to the hospital quickly, and leave the rest to us."

When Zheng Gang said that, the people under him immediately suppressed Qi Huan and gagged him by the way.

Only then did Qi Yao wake up, let go of his quietly clenched fist, and quickly went to the bed to pick up Xu Mi who had lost consciousness.

"Ami, hold on, don't be afraid."

He lowered his head and kissed Xu Mi's forehead, his voice trembling.

Look carefully, his hands are shaking, but his feet are walking very steadily.

"Ami, I'm sorry."

It was a very weak sentence, and it wouldn't change anything even if he said it. He still wanted to say it very much.

"Ami, I love you, I'm sorry."

Sitting in the back seat of the car with him in his arms, Qi Yao awkwardly helped him wipe off the sweat from his forehead, panicked in his heart.

He overestimated his ability to bear, he couldn't see Ah Mi feeling a little bit uncomfortable.

Xu Mi half-opened his eyes, looked at his blurred face, stretched out his hand to push him, "Don't, don't touch me."

Since you don't believe him, if you want him to go, don't look back.Without Qi Yao, his life would be better without such pain.Qi Yao is really, really bad.

But what to do, no matter how bad it is, he still stays in his heart, bastard.

"asshole……"

Xu Mi panted, with a light voice, he grabbed his struggling hand and kicked him.

Caught off guard and being kicked hard on the head, Qi Yao gave a wry smile, and stretched out a hand to hold down his wobbling leg.This is the real Ah Mi, so I have so much dissatisfaction with him.

"Yes, I'm an asshole. So you have to get better, and then you will have the strength to hit me. Now it doesn't hurt at all."

How can it hurt?The deepest and heaviest pain is all in my heart.

Qi Huan said that he didn't deserve Ah Mi's care, and he didn't deserve to be loved by his mother, but the more he didn't have something, the more he wanted to keep it when he touched it.

"Not Qi Yao, scoundrel..."

Xu Mi was immersed in his own world, muttering to himself, unaware of his subconscious words, like a knife piercing straight into Qi Yao's heart.

"Don't like him, never again."

……

Qi Yao lowered his head and kissed his forehead, his eyes were moist and hot.

"Ami, can I like you instead? Don't hate me."

He whispered, knowing that Xu Mi couldn't hear anything.

Xu Mi walked barefoot in the vast expanse of whiteness, very cold, and the people he passed by all had the same faces, smiling, angry, frowning, indifferent...all were Qi Yao .

They rubbed shoulders again and again, but no one spoke, and no one asked to stay.Qi Yao always looks forward, unable to see his existence, cold, pain, or fear.

He watched helplessly as Qi Yao walked further and further away, turning into black spots in a vast expanse of whiteness.

No matter how many of them there are, the ending is the same.He and Qi Yao are just a wrong cross, meeting by chance, and gradually drifting apart.

Suddenly a voice asked him, "Do you love him?"

Xu Mi hesitated for a while, "So what about love?"

Yeah, so what about love?No matter how many times, it is "×".

"I don't want to love Qi Yao anymore, he is too bad."

It always makes me soft-hearted, makes me feel distressed, and makes me unable to resist being a gambler.If you don't love, it won't hurt, right?

The feet were suddenly wet and cold, Xu Mi lowered his head and found himself standing in a shallow stream, the deep tears on his face were reflected on the water surface.Squatting down to grab a handful of stream water to wash it off, why is the stream water salty?

Isn't it painless?why cry?Xu Mi heard a sound and sighed deeply.

Qi Yao stood guard by the bed, looking at the tears that kept pouring out of his face, and panicked.No matter how much he wiped it off, he couldn't clean it. It seemed that there were springs hidden in his eyes.

"A Mi, is it hard? Don't cry, okay?"

With a hoarse voice, Qi Yao leaned over and kissed his slightly swollen eye sockets.

I have never seen Ah Mi cry so hard, is it all because of him?

If he leaves Ah Mi's world, will Ah Mi feel better?But he really doesn't want to let go, as Qi Huan said, he only cares about his own feelings and is a selfish person.

If he made a mistake, he should be responsible and let Ah Mi punish him.

On the opposite side of the creek, Xu Mi saw the crying Qi Yao, who knelt by the creek and confessed.

Next to him appeared another him, sitting in a wheelchair with a sarcastic and indifferent face, looking at him kneeling with disdain.

Which one is he?It's all him.

Xu Mi subconsciously waded into the water, trying to see more clearly, but stepped on a sharp, clear stream that was red.

Looking down, it was a skeleton, the ribs were broken and deeply pierced into the soles of the feet, and the bones of the hands were gathered, tightly holding a few herbs.

It seemed that it was not the feet that were pricked, but the heart.

Looking up again, there was nothing on the other side of the creek.

Then, the cold and pain disappeared, and the world returned to whiteness, emptiness and silence.

"Ami, Ami?"

He finally opened his eyes, Qi Yao grabbed his hand and shouted excitedly.

It turned out to be in the ward, the dream just now was too real, Xu Mi waited for a while before fully waking up, looking at Qi Yao calmly: "I'm fine."

His eyes were like a peaceful lake, Qi Yao looked at him with deeper panic in his heart, Ah Mi seemed to be far away from him again.

"Thank you for sending me to the hospital, you go and rest."

Xu Mi said lightly.If the road to him is cold and painful, if it ends up breaking up, then it's better not to start again.

Qi Yao froze for a moment, and tightened his grip on his hand, "A Mi, I'm not tired, not at all."

Xu Mi glanced at him lightly, "You are not in good shape today, go and rest, and we will discuss the information obtained from Qi Huan later."

With a very formulaic tone, Qi Yao panicked when he heard it, "Ami, let me stay with you, okay?"

Xu Mi smiled, "Please be considerate of me, I'm a little tired, and I don't really want you to accompany me."

Qi Yao's black eyes were dim, and he was silent for a while, then let go of his hand, and forced his lips together: "I'm right outside, call me if you need something."

Qi Yao got up slowly, with his always straight back slightly bent, walked out of the ward slowly, and sat down on the bench in the corridor.

Head down, silent.

"Master, let's eat something."

Zheng Gang came back from buying food, he hesitated and stepped forward.

"Send it to Ah Mi, I'm not hungry."

Qi Yao said in a low voice.

"Master, it's not a matter of time to solve the problem, take care of yourself."

Zheng Gang is not very good at talking, so he could only squeeze out this sentence when he tried his best.

Qi Yao paused, that's right, a little tired: "Give it to me."

Zheng Gang took out a copy and handed it to him, then went to the ward again.

Not long after, An Yu came over and was obviously surprised to see Qi Yao sitting in the corridor.

"Go in and have a look at Ah Mi."

Qi Yao looked up at him and said calmly.Perhaps Ah Mi needs the company of friends more.

An Yu froze for a moment, nodded, and opened the door to enter.

"Mimi, what's the matter with you? What's the matter with you and Qi Yao?"

An Yu asked, he now has a question mark on his forehead.

"Just did something, it's fine."

Xu Mi directly ignored the second half of the sentence, put down his chopsticks and took a tissue to wipe his mouth.

"Mimi, let's eat some more."

An Yu frowned and said in a gentle voice.The meal didn't move much at all.

"I have no appetite." Xu Mi said lightly.

After hesitating for a while, he continued: "I asked you to come here to ask you for a favor. I don't think I should entangle with Qi Yao any longer. You can act as my boyfriend and make him give up, okay?"

An Yu's eyes widened in shock, and he didn't speak for a long time.

"Mimi, are you sure you want to do this? You like him, don't you?"

An Yu looked at him disapprovingly, although he was moved when he heard the word boyfriend.

Xu Mi was silent for a few seconds, and lowered his eyes: "Yes, I'm sure." The voice was very clear and powerful, and he didn't know who he was speaking to.

After speaking, she looked up at An Yu, with a calm face: "An Yu, is it okay?"

An Yu looked at him for a while, he could never refuse Xu Mi, he hesitated for a moment, then nodded.

"Mimi, I'm helping you only because we are brothers, not because I agree with you."

An Yu said seriously, I don't know what the two of them are awkward about, they couldn't pull each other apart before, and now they can't be persuaded to be together, obviously they like it more than before.

"Well, thank you An Yu."

Xu Mi stretched out her hand to hold his, and pressed her face gently against it.

Qi Yao stood outside the door with a tense face, the hands hanging by his side were tightened, and the knuckles were turning white.

So, it's not that you're tired, it's not that you don't need someone to accompany you, it's just that you don't need him, right?

An Yu understood, put her hand on Xu Mi's back, patted it lightly, and lowered her head, as if kissing Xu Mi's cheek.

Qi Yao stared at them like masochistically, his heart was already numb with pain.

"Mimi, let him watch from outside, do you really have the heart?"

An Yu asked in a low voice, maintaining that posture.

"Pain for a while is better than pain all the time."

Xu Mi said lightly.

An Yu sighed, Mimi is too persistent, doing everything, shrinking herself when hurt, it is difficult to take another step.I hope he can figure it out sooner.

The two were talking and then changed their movements. Xu Mi leaned in An Yu's arms and was fed fruit by him.No one seemed to notice Qi Yao standing outside the door.

"Master, go back and rest."

Zheng Gang also saw it, and he really didn't understand how to implement a plan, and it became like this.He is very worried about Qi Yao's state now.

Qi Yao didn't speak, and stood stubbornly in place.

As time passed, Qi Yao's legs were numb, but he still stood there persistently watching.He was sure that Xu Mi had seen him.

He didn't believe that Xu Mi would suddenly be with An Yu.It is precisely because I know it is false that I am even more angry and sad.

In order to make him give up, Xu Mi came up with such a way.How much does he hate him?I also feel how stupid and insincere he is, and how easily he can be deceived.

As night fell, An Yu got up to bid farewell. The two hugged for a while, and then parted reluctantly.

Even Qi Yao has to admit that Xu Mi and An Yu have a very good aura and get along very well. When the three of them are together, he will always be like an outsider.

An Yu opened the door and was a little surprised to see Qi Yao behind the door, as if he had just discovered him.

His face was hot, and he said embarrassingly, "Mimi and I were just together, and I couldn't control it. I didn't expect you to be here. I'm sorry."

Qi Yao pursed his lips, his eyes were dark and deep.

"You don't look very well, don't you mind?" An Yu asked tentatively, and then reminded him, "It's normal for couples to separate, so take it with a normal mind, Mi Mi has let go."

"Is that right?"

Qi Yao didn't look at him, but stared straight at Xu Mi who was half lying on the hospital bed.

Xu Mi looked at him calmly, without hesitation: "Yes."

"An Yu is my boyfriend now, we are in the past, you put it down, you will meet someone more suitable for you."

Looking at Qi Yao's eyes that were gradually dimming, Xu Mi tried his best to control himself so that he could not dodge.

He knew that Qi Yao wouldn't believe it easily, and he couldn't show any flaws for him to see through.

"Is that right?"

Qi Yao didn't seem to hear what he said, walked inside, repeated the topic just now, and his voice became hoarse.

An Yu stayed for a while, helped them close the door, and left quietly.It is better to solve their affairs by themselves. No matter how much other people say or do, it is useless.

Xu Mi looked straight into his eyes and said calmly, "Yes, I have a new relationship, I hope you can bless me."

"is that so?"

Walking to the bedside, Qi Yao repeated again, his voice choked with sobs.

Xu Mi watched him coming, looked at the tears in his eyes, suppressed tears, his heart seemed to be tightly clenched, and his mouth seemed to be stuck with glue.

The current Qi Yao, Qi Yao who is weak and pretends to be strong, made him seem to see himself before.

Qi Yao looked at him persistently, resisting the soreness in his eyes, his voice trembling: "A Mi, is that so?"

Xu Mi stared at him blankly, recalling that dream, recalling the past, calmed himself down, and said coldly: "Yes, just like what An Yu said, I fell in love with him, and it happened that he also liked me. Yao, do you feel sad when you see me happy? Do you feel sad that what once belonged to you has been taken away?" He said this deliberately, trying to repel Qi Yao with words, so let's stop here. The relationship with Qi Yao is too tiring.

Qi Yao stared straight at him and listened to his heartbreaking words. The once gentle and soft voice turned into a sharp blade and pierced into his heart. It hurts a lot more than what others gave him. times.

Tears finally got out of control, slipped from his eyes, and hit the ground hard, he choked up: "Yes, I'm very sad, I'm so sorry that I wasn't good enough for you and didn't protect you well."

His tears, his words, and his gesture of showing weakness were like huge waves hitting Xu Mi's heart, and the tip of his nose was sore. He endured the tears, not wanting Qi Yao to see his fragility and bluff.

Sneered, "Is this uncomfortable? I was much more uncomfortable than this at the time. I came here too, why can't you?"

Qi Yao's tears were like dropped beads, falling one by one, out of control like his heart.

Crying is such a childish and hypocritical thing, which has disappeared since he was five years old, but now it has become an outlet for his emotions.Not crying is not because you are strong enough, but because you can't get what you want by crying, and because you are not really sad.

In front of the person he likes, he showed his softest belly and was severely hurt.

In fact, Ah Mi said nothing wrong, I really didn't love him enough before, and hurt him deeply.

He sniffed and choked up: "Ah Mi, I'm sorry, I really knew I was wrong. After you left, I realized how much I couldn't live without you and how much I loved you."

Xu Mi looked at him calmly, listening to what he said.

"I miss you every day when you leave, because I want to see you soon, I work hard on my rehabilitation and deal with Qi's affairs, no matter how sad or difficult it is, I will persevere."

Qi Yao paused and adjusted his breathing, "I'm glad to see you again and see you doing well, but I also saw Noah, you have a very good relationship with him, very close, and he even confessed to you. You and His relationship made me panic, I thought I was really going to lose you, I followed you guys quietly, and saw that you rejected him and said you liked me, I felt that my world was bright again."

"From that moment on, I knew that I was very wrong. I misunderstood you, and I was very guilty. I apologize to you. You said you didn't care, but I knew you did. But I think, as long as you still If you like me, if I work harder, I will be able to get you back."

Qi Yao looked straight at Xu Mi, letting the tears flow down his face, Xu Mi's face was blurred in front of him.

"You may not want to hear it, but I beg you to give me a chance to finish it?"

Xu Mi looked at him silently.

Qi Yao continued with a hoarse voice: "In country M, you were very indifferent to me, and you didn't agree to my request, but you went to the airport to see me off. I'm very happy. Really, I have confidence again, because you have always been soft-hearted to me. .”

"Later when I returned to China, you also came to City S. In order to investigate the matter of the night, we cooperated and got along very well. I thought I was going to succeed, and I was very happy. But you rejected me again indifferently, reminding me, We are just a cooperative relationship, and we are getting closer and closer to An Yu, I would rather ask him for help than bother me..."

Qi Yao was so choked up that he couldn't speak, he paused for a while before continuing: "You and An Yu really have a tacit understanding, you understand each other and grew up together, I'm like an outsider, I can't get in , like a clown. I'm really devastated, as if no matter how much you pay to make it up, you won't come back, even if you still like me. You use actions to draw a line with me, you deliberately ignore my feelings, avoid my feelings .”

He stretched out his hand to hold Xu Mi's, and pressed it against his face, making him feel the hot tears.

"Ami, you are really cruel to me."

Qi Yao's voice was hoarse, revealing extreme sadness.

"Is this cruel? It's just indifference and neglect. I've experienced them all before."

Xu Mi withdrew his hand, and said coldly, seeing Qi Yao's red eyes from crying, and the hot tears still remaining on his hands, his heart twitched.

Qi Yao, you have never been kind to me. Do you think that if you cry and let me know your grievance and your pain, I will soften my heart?Will you forget the pain?You are really a bad person.

So, was he this bad before?Worse than he thought.He is already in pain, very uncomfortable, Ah Mi has experienced more than him, so how much pain should it be?

Trembling, Qi Yao stretched out his hand again, trying to grab Xu Mi, but was dodged.

Xu Mi looked at him coldly with complicated eyes.

Qi Yao leaned close to Xu Mi, put his lips on his forehead and kissed him lightly, choked up and said in a hoarse voice, "Ami, I'm sorry, I'm such a jerk. I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I don't know what to say All I know is that I can't be seen by anyone except you, Ah Mi, can you give me a chance to be punished? A bastard like me shouldn't be easily let go."

Qi Yao red-eyed, looking at Xu Mi seriously and intently, his black eyes clearly reflected his appearance.

Xu Mi looked into his eyes, seeing that he was the only one in his eyes.I understand that Qi Yao is really repenting, he really knows that he was wrong, and he really wants to... love him well.

The way he was crying made Xu Mi feel uncontrollably distressed, and the sincere look in his eyes also made his heart tremble.

Xu Mi, you and Qi Yao are both beginners on the road of love, and you are both staggering and groping forward.

He was immature and cruel before, hurt you, made you hurt, and scared you.

Now, he has grown up and knows how to respect, trust, and reform.

Is he like you worth giving him another chance?If you go down with him, will you still be afraid?

Xu Mi looked at Qi Yao seriously, and moved his eyes from his forehead to his eyebrows, his nose bridge, his lips...and finally fell back to his sincere eyes that were washed by tears and shone like black gems.

There was distress, guilt, and more fiery love in his eyes.Qi Yao's feelings are always fiery, is he warmed by him, or burned to ashes by him?

Xu Mi, are you still afraid?Qi Yao has already made a change, do you want to continue shrinking in your shell, or pursue it bravely like him, even if the road ahead is full of thorns?

Do you choose an empty and silent world filled with whiteness?Or choose a colorful world with colors, sounds, joys, sorrows and joys?

Looking at each other silently, Xu Mi listened to the voice of his heart, "I can do it, trust you?"

The voice trembled slightly, under the fluttering eyelashes, there was anxiety and hope in the clear eyes, like a newborn lamb, with curious eyes, looking at this unknown world for the first time.

The author has something to say: Huh, this chapter is so difficult to write, I want to hug~

感谢在2020-04-1120:59:05~2020-04-1222:56:58期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦~

Thanks to the little angel of the irrigation nutrient solution: 20 bottles of Ali's broken thoughts;

Thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!