The Brightness of Disqualification in the World

Foreword:

I fell in love with a person deeply, he made me full of sunshine and hope for the future, and it was he who destroyed my future with his own hands.He was the whole meaning of my life, and then there is no meaning. ——Ming Jiang

Have you ever heard a saying?

Because you like someone too much, you will be afraid to approach him, and you will be reluctant to leave him.

——Ling Shaocho

"Ah Jiang?"

Ling Shaoze couldn't help approaching him, Ming Jiang straightened up slowly, her pair of phoenix eyes changed from wavering at first to now indifferent, Ling Shaoze suddenly felt extremely heartbroken.

He has never said that he likes the starlight in the boy's eyes when he looks at him very much, just like the sea of ​​stars in the Malvinas Islands, shining brightly, seemingly within reach, yet seemingly never to be touched.To him, Ming Jiang is like a drug, not fatal but makes people want to stop, life is worse than death.

But now, his Xinghai doesn't want him anymore.

When the boy looked at him, the starlight in his eyes disappeared.

"Why do you keep looking into my eyes?" Ling Shaoze couldn't help thinking of the days when the boy just woke up during the months of living with him.What the young man likes most is leaning against him and staring quietly into his eyes. The obsidian-like phoenix eyes stare at him unblinkingly, as if they want to melt his heart into the young man's eyes.

"Because Shao Cho's eyes are like the amber sea at dusk." At that time, the boy felt that his eyes were like the sea, but he felt that the boy's eyes were like starlight, shining brightly in his endless dark world, It is the lighthouse for him to move forward, the direction of his future, and the brightest pointer in his barren, hopeless and confused life.

"Mr. Ling, let's call it a day." The boy said slowly.Every word he spoke with his familiar voice was soft and clear, and it was full of sharp blades, piercing straight into his body from all directions, making people bleed out of pain. "Thank you, Mr. Ling, for taking care of me during this time. These days are the most relaxing time in my Ming Jiang's life."

lie!He obviously didn't even want to call him by his name.

"You're lying." Ling Shaoze gritted his teeth and spit out a few words with his amber eyes scarlet.

Ming Jiang paused slightly. "So what if I'm lying?" The young man slowly raised the corners of his lips, so evil that people wished to tear up that beautiful face to see if there was another face underneath, another heartbroken face. Face.

"Then what does Mr. Ling want to hear? Listen to me, this period of time is not very happy. Instead, I will be awakened by nightmares every day and night. I always dream of those faces I don't know screaming for me. I pay my life but I don’t know whose panic it is? Or is it that I can’t hear the voice in Mr. Ling’s heart when I hug him clearly? Or, every time I hesitate to say I love you but I can’t say it, I always think Shouldn't I be hesitant like this?" The corners of his mouth seemed to be fixed, hanging up and down like that, mocking Ling Shaocho's stupidity, he didn't notice all those entanglements and hesitation, or he pretended not to see them.

"Or you want to hear more, how scared and worried I was when I couldn't find you today, and how disappointed I am standing in front of you now."

"Enough!" Ling Shaoze shouted in amazement, "Shut up!"

Those voices of question fell on Ling Shaoze's ears like voices of questioning, asking him that he mistook the joke for his sincerity and his sincerity for a joke.

In the end, who is sincere and who is joking?

I'm afraid the two people in the game can't tell the difference.

"Mr. Ling, this is just a wrong event caused by a wrong encounter. Just treat it as a game. When the game is over, let everything end. I believe Mr. Ling thinks so too, right?"

Ming Jiang put away her smile, and looked indifferently at the hesitant look of the man standing at the top of the European pyramid, letting the heart-piercing pain in her heart, without showing anything on her face.

Ming Jiang had to sigh, the camouflage technique taught to him by Xi Zhimu was really useful.

Ruthless, really ruthless.Yan Bai had no choice but to sigh.It is said that the NO.1 killer Ming Jiang is the most ruthless person, and she is right.She is the cutest when she still has amnesia.

"You think that's what I think?" Ling Shaoze stared at the young man he loved and hated in front of him, his heart ached and he was about to die.

Ming Jiang looked at the pair of amber eyes that he was obsessed with, opened her mouth, but couldn't utter a word.

Those pair of eyes looked like the incomparably bright ocean in the dusk. It seemed that the embankment was about to burst at this moment, and in the next second it would turn into ocean currents and smash down the barriers he had built with great difficulty, as well as all his bluff and pretending to be strong.

He wanted to ask more, if he was sincere during those days, who was joking and who was sincere?But he can't.He also wanted to throw himself into that person's arms and cry, and talk about how hard he had been during the time he was away from him, but he couldn't.I want to tell him how much he misses him, and I hope day and night that he can come and take him away, and take him to live their favorite life, but he can't.

He can't.As early as he knew that Shao Ze was watching him running around looking for him, he knew that he couldn't do it.What's more, he has recovered his memory now.He is Ming Jiang, the sharp sword in the hands of the Patriarch of the Xi family, and he is no longer the carefree young master next to Shao Ze.

It's just that those eyes that he was redeemed for were about to shed tears, which made him feel overwhelmed with heartache, wishing to bear the suffering for him that he shouldn't have to bear.

That is, the sunshine in his life.Even if it's just the sun after dusk.

.........

"If it wasn't like this, what else could it be? Mr. Ling." Ming Jiang suppressed the turbulent thoughts in her heart, looked at the collapsed face of the man in front of her, her heart was numb as if it wasn't her own.

After saying that, Ming Jiang raised her legs and walked slowly towards the door, walking past the man's decadent body, as if they had passed through the good time they had spent together, he turned the man's back behind him, and abandoned everything with this man. The past that has been experienced has also abandoned this person.

"A Jiang..." Ling Shaoze reached out to grab the wrist of the person who passed by, but failed.

That was probably the most gentle rejection in the world. There was not a single no no, no vicious criticism, but every word revealed no, and they were all saying goodbye to me.

"Ah Jiang" the man called out again, his once wonderful cello-like voice was hoarse and hoarse, Ming Jiang couldn't help but stop, but didn't dare to look back at the man's appearance.

"I, Ling Shaoxuan, have lived a life full of iron and blood. Feelings are never necessary for me. I admit that I used to treat you as a joke. I was born like this. No one has ever told me what it feels like to love someone. Loving someone What kind of method should be used. Ah Jiang, tell me, what is love? No one told me this. Since I was born, I have held an invisible knife in my hand. If someone hurts me, I will return it to him Very. But why, when you stand in front of me and say these words, what I want is to hold you in my arms, to soothe the hesitation and anxiety you said. Tell me, is this a joke, or is it true?"

Ling Shaoze turned around slowly, looking at the young man's slender and straight back, he raised his hand to wrap his arms around the body he was obsessed with, but he lost his strength.

Before Ming Jiang could figure out the answer, she saw a tall figure approaching against the light from the gate. She couldn't see the man's face clearly, but she felt a poisonous snake-like gaze cast on her.Under the blue sky and white sun, I broke out in a cold sweat.

"It turns out that my A-Jiang stayed by Patriarch Ling's side for so long because of amnesia."

The man's cold voice also followed.