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Li Tian recently discovered that Qiu Cen gets tired easily.

He didn't know when it started, it seemed that he suddenly noticed the faint black and blue under Qiu Cen's eyes, saw his increasingly thin cheeks, and the rare red blood in his eyes.

For example, when they were lying together before, just as Li Tian finished his previous sentence, Qiu Cen's even breathing came from behind him.

Another example is now, when the two are not together, they are lying on the bed and chatting on video, he sees that Qiu Cen's eyelids are already fighting, and he is drowsy.

It should be the end of the term again, and I have been staying up all night lately, and I am tired.

Li Tian slipped into the quilt and said in a low voice, "That's all, hang up, I'm sleepy too."

Qiu Cen had an exam today, and he was too lazy to come back after the exam, so he lived in the dormitory.

For the past few days, the two had been sleeping at Li Tian's house. At first, Qiu Cen was not used to sleeping separately, so he went to bed early and had a video chat with Li Tian without hearing anything outside the window.

Hearing the deep voice from the earphone, he didn't hesitate anymore, and hung up the phone after saying good night.

Li Tian also turned off the line, and Qiu Cen looked drowsy in front of his eyes, like a primary school student who wanted to sleep in class but dared not sleep, stiffened for fear of being discovered by the teacher, somehow, he felt a little cute.

He bent his mouth and put the phone back.

Lying alone on the double bed, I didn't feel empty before, maybe I slept with Qiu Cen for a few days, but now I feel uncomfortable.

His subconscious dependence on Qiu Cen was something he never dared to show in front of others before, but now he doesn't know whether it is good or bad.

He has already felt the change in his mood, and everything seems to be developing for the better.

But in the days when he couldn't see Qiu Cen, his uneasiness and anxiety would be even greater, and he had to see his figure before he could feel at ease.

That doesn't seem like a good sign either.

It seems that he needs to be more active in receiving treatment.

In this way, he can be with Qiu Cen without distractions as soon as possible.

Just as he was thinking about it, a figure from a long journey suddenly flashed in his mind.

Li Tian frowned, and it took him a long time to clear this figure out of his mind.

Qiu Cen said that he was just a friend, but unexpectedly he felt weird because he was too sensitive.

Although... there is indeed a strange feeling, somewhere.

But that can be ignored.

It's just a little thing.

The next day Li Tian had no class, so Qiu Cen had to ask him to accompany him to class, Li Tian felt that he was as naive as a little girl in love and at the same time came to the gate of Xiang gate early and called him to pick him up.

Qiu Cen looked very happy. He put on a fat man's long down jacket over his pajamas, and he wore it like a dwarf in a nondescript big skirt, which looked very funny.

Li Tian was helpless with this person's inattentive appearance and carelessness, thinking that another word should be "straightforward" or even "informal", and he was relieved, forgetting that he hated other people's slovenliness the most, so he went up to greet him.

Qiu Cen was wrapped in a big padded jacket, with messy hair on his head, and yawned unsteadily, with tears hanging from the corners of his eyes.

"Why did brother Li Tian come so early?"

Li Tian followed him in, raised his chin to indicate that there were several bags of breakfast in his hand, "Don't you say you want to eat Liaoji pancakes, you have to queue for a long time, but I went too early, so I bought it without much queue , and then I came over."

Qiu Cen said "ah", his voice was still a little hoarse after waking up from the bed, "Brother is so kind, I even bought breakfast for my boyfriend's roommate."

"Brother has better things."

Li Tian tilted his head and took out a palm-sized iron box from his pocket.

Qiu Cen was quite pleasantly surprised, he knew this iron box, and Li Tian used it to put orange peel biscuits in it.

He was overjoyed, like a little girl who just found out that her parents had bought a doll for him. Regardless of her sloppy appearance, she took the small tin box, opened it, and it turned out to be a biscuit, so she stuffed it into her mouth regardless.

"Hey, have you brushed your teeth yet?" Li Tian didn't stop him, dumbfounding, "Why do I think I'm coaxing the child?"

They bring food and accompany them to class, and they have to chat with each other.

"Cen Cen was three years old."

After eating two, Qiu Cen felt that his exposed hands and face were cold, so he put the tin box in his pocket, continued to arm himself, and walked back faster.

Li Tian squinted at him, "You give me enough time."

When Qiu Cen received Li Tian's call, he was in a hurry, and the people in the dormitory were still asleep. When he brought Li Tian in, everyone in the room woke up, and they were still washing in the bathroom and did not come back.

Their dormitory is too loosely controlled. At the beginning, they had to swipe their cards to pass through the gates. Later, the students thought it was troublesome to get in and out, so they secretly demolished it. The school was repaired several times and then it was broken. But in the end, it is not uncommon to dismantle the gates, so I don't bother to take care of it, and it has always been broken like this.

Therefore, as long as the little girl is not brought in, the dormitory auntie is too lazy to take care of it.

Therefore, the students of Li Tianyi School can walk into the dormitory without being known.

Qiu Cen let him sit on the edge of his table, went to bed and folded the quilt to get dressed.

Li Tian put the breakfast on the shared long table in the dormitory, then pulled Qiu Cen's chair away, and chatted with him while looking at the things on his table.

Qiu Cen's desk was not particularly messy, everything was piled up in two corners, and a large area in the middle was empty.

He looked at the tables of the other three, and felt that Qiu Cen really liked to be clean.

"Be quiet, I'm afraid you'll fall off."

Hearing the movement of Qiu Cen cleaning up above, he had no choice but to remind him.

Their wooden canopy bed is also strong enough, if it fell into the hands of the animals in the physical education school, it would have collapsed by jumping.

Just as he was talking, he paused his gaze and saw a small corner of a piece of paper inside Qiu Cen's storage bag hanging on the wall.

What kind of case file.

The front was blocked, and only four characters could be seen.

Qiu Cen also replied to him at this time: "It won't collapse, Lin Jian is fine doing push-ups on the bed."

Li Tian smiled, then frowned.

He continued to look at the paper, feeling strange in his heart.

Qiu Cen looked normal, he didn't seem to be sick, and what he usually learned had nothing to do with the two words that were obviously used in medicine.

How did the word "case" come from?

Maybe he took it to read if he was interested, maybe it was really a course material.

Although Li Tian was curious, he didn't intend to offend, so he didn't look through Qiu Cen's stuff.

But out of obsessive-compulsive disorder, I wanted to reach out to tidy up the storage bag and put the paper in order.

But just as his hand was about to push the paper in, there was a sound behind him.

"Oh, isn't this Li Tian?"

Lin Jian was holding the washbasin, standing at the door with a loud voice.

Li Tian was taken aback by him. For some reason, he suddenly had the feeling that he had done something bad and was caught by someone. He subconsciously raised his hand and pulled out a section of the paper.

Immediately afterwards, a row of large and bold fonts came into view.

"Case Files of Patients with Bipolar Disorder."

There are also parentheses below.

(for reference)

Li Tian stared.

Lin Jian didn't notice anything unusual, and walked in with a basin in his hand, and began to pack his things.

"You guys are quite courageous, and you came in swaggeringly."

"Be sour and you will."

Qiu Cen had already put on his clothes and climbed down the ladder.

He hadn't found a chance to tell Lin Jian that they were together. Anyway, Lin Jian's eyes were shining brightly, and he had already seen it, so he just nodded.

So I didn't explain anything at the moment, and I didn't think there was anything wrong with bringing my boyfriend to the dormitory to show off to my single roommates.

When Li Tian saw him coming down, his body froze, he stuffed the paper back almost in a panic, and his face returned to normal.

"I'm not sour, I don't need to dip the raw fried rice in vinegar today."

"I'm eating Liao Ji today, and there are also steamed buns." Qiu Cen raised his eyebrows, "You bought it from brother Tim'er."

Lin Jian clicked his tongue and bowed to Li Tian in a serious manner, "Thank you brother Tian'er for still thinking about us lonely people."

With difficulty, Li Tian shifted his eyes to him, and for the first time, he smiled dryly at everyone except Qiu Cen, and said "um".

Instead, Lin Jian was shocked when he saw it.

Just when Qiu Cen came to take pancakes and cut off his sight, he realized that he lowered his head and ate his own breakfast.

"Hurry up and eat," Qiu Cen handed him a bag of steamed buns, "There will be too many people in a while, so let's leave early."

What he meant was that the big-eyed fat guy would come back soon, and the five of them would definitely be crowded in the dormitory, and Li Tian would be uncomfortable. If he went to the classroom early, he could find a corner to hide in.

"... "

Li Tian glanced at him, but there was no emotion in his eyes. He took the steamed bun and began to eat slowly.

Only he himself knew how flustered he was.

It seemed that he was suddenly told some secret news, which was related to himself, so he could only keep it in his heart and not let others know.

Suffering, restlessness, and anxiety woven into a fine web in his heart, gradually wrapping his heart, tightening, tightening again...

He suddenly felt oppressed, as if someone had covered his mouth and nose, making him helplessly witness his scars and embarrassment exposed to everyone's eyes, preventing him from hiding or fleeing.

Li Tianshi didn't know the taste, so he just stuffed two buns into his mouth stiffly and couldn't eat any more. Qiu Cen cleaned up the rest.

In the classroom, Qiu Cen noticed Li Tian's preoccupied face since he didn't know when, reached out to hold his hand on his thigh, and asked with concern: "What's wrong?"

"You..." Li Tian looked at him complicatedly, hesitating whether to ask directly, but after thinking for a long time, he didn't know how to speak, "Forget it, it's okay."

how to speak

Why are you looking at bipolar disorder dossiers Did you know that early on How long have you been studying

...are you getting tired because of me?

He really couldn't ask.

He didn't know if he was too sensitive, maybe it would be better to ask directly

do not know.

When Qiu Cen saw him like this, his heart moved and he frowned.

He clasped Li Tian's hand and put his palms together, fingers intertwined.

"Tell me, Li Tian."

As soon as he saw his expression, as if he was trapped by some problem, Qiu Cen unconsciously became nervous and carefully observed his expression.

So he imitated what Chen Kanglin told him, communicated with him carefully, and enlightened him softly.

"..."

Li Tian twitched his eyebrows, moved his eyes up and down, and finally regained his calm.

He picked Qiu Cen's fingertips, "I'm thinking of orange muffins, do you like biscuits or cakes?"

"As long as brother Li Tian does, I like everything." When Qiu Cen heard him say this, he spontaneously understood it as "I'm thinking of you", and felt satisfied for a while, but he just thought it was his own random thinking and didn't care.

Li Tian, ​​on the other hand, was made to laugh by his expression, and for a moment let go of his grudges, put those things aside, in order to make Qiu Cen not feel strange, he deliberately relaxed his expression, raised his eyebrows and said: "You are so obedient "

"No, I'll eat whatever you do, I'm such a good boyfriend..."

"Well, then you are obedient, let's not eat, and save me from doing it."

"Damn," Qiu Cen thumped him with a smile, looked left and right, no one was paying attention, and suddenly leaned over and kissed the corner of his lips, "Then I can only rely on this to keep my vitality."

"..."

Li Tian looked around subconsciously, and when he saw no one saw him, he relaxed, and gave him an annoyed look, "Can the public be more reserved?"

Qiu Cen squinted at him.

"Reservedness is better than you"

"..."

Li Tian raised his forehead, the strange feeling just now had disappeared, and now he just wanted to compare how thick-skinned this person is with a plastic ruler.