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Li Xiaodan is here again.

Since the last time she broke the two of them hugging each other intimately, and Li Tian admitted that they were indeed together, the number of times she appeared in front of Li Tian skyrocketed.

I don't know if it was a sudden whim and I wanted to be a good sister, or I just watched him not to let Qiu Cen be with him.

But judging by her posture, it is probably the latter.

Li Tian was stubborn, no matter how much he believed outsiders said, nothing would change.

Li Xiaodan obviously knew this too.

So he turned his grief and anger into strength, and put on a face like how much money someone owed her, reminding Li Tian of his existence.

Anyway, Li Tian was not interested in her boring and childish tricks, and he didn't bother to take them seriously, so he just let her know what he meant sooner or later, and finally gave up.

It's just a matter of time.

Qiu Cen still nestled in his house as usual, while Li Xiaodan stared straight at the heads of the two of them together, wishing to cut off the contact part with his eyes.

Li Xiaodan's hatred for Qiu Cen now cannot be measured in words.

For example, now, when the doorbell rang, Li Xiaodan pretended not to hear it and continued to sit in the living room and watch TV.

Li Tian was lying in the room and had to get up to open the door for Qiu Cen.

Seeing the scene in the room, Qiu Cen was not surprised, and shrugged his shoulders to Li Xiaodan as a greeting.

Li Xiaodan turned a blind eye to it, and he didn't know if it was because the TV was so good or because he simply hated him so much that he didn't want to talk to him.

Qiu Cen didn't take it seriously, turned to Li Tian and said, "Let's go."

"Ah."

There is another review today, and the two still go together.

But Li Xiaodan didn't know what was going on. He watched Li Tian and Qiu Cen walking towards the entrance, but he couldn't keep his ears closed. He stood up and asked vigilantly, "Where are you going?"

The two paused, Qiu Cen looked back at Li Tian and raised his eyebrows.

Li Xiaodan doesn't know about this yet, let's see what Li Tian says.

Li Tian looked back at her with a blank expression on his face, and his tone couldn't tell the emotion: "In love, do you want to follow?"

Li Xiaodan: "..."

"..."

Qiu Cen saw that she first looked at Li Tian with a hateful expression, and then turned her head to stare at him fiercely, as if he was some kind of enchantress who charmed the king. She felt guilty for some reason, and raised her hand to touch her nose. , looked away.

Li Xiaodan had nothing to say, and didn't know what to do. When he realized it, there was a soft knock on the door, and the person had long since disappeared.

After a while, she slumped her shoulders in frustration, stood alone in the empty room, and smiled wryly.

She herself didn't know what she was insisting on.

I never cared about Li Tian, ​​and suddenly jumped out when Li Tian plunged his head into the mud and told him that this was wrong, you must listen to me.

She doesn't seem qualified to say that.

If this goes on, it may not take long for her to compromise.

Whatever you want, it doesn't matter who you love to be with, it can be a man or a woman.

Just be happy.

She had expected such a day to come.

Although Dr. Li and Li Tian both agreed that Qiu Cen could enter the consulting room to listen, but at the door, Qiu Cen still did not go in.

He also wants to go in.

I saw with my own eyes Li Tian's reactions, emotions, and appeals during treatment.

But he still didn't want to let someone as arrogant as Li Tian expose his weaknesses in front of his eyes.

It's not because he can't stand it, it's because Li Tian can't stand the frustration.

That's all he cares about.

Although Li Tian couldn't see the clues on his face, he definitely resisted in his heart.

It made Qiu Cen extremely happy to ask him to come in together.

This proves that he trusts him in his heart.

This is enough.

So when Dr. Li suddenly pushed the door open and urged him to come in when he was halfway through the treatment, he was totally taken aback.

Seeing Dr. Li's expression, Qiu Cen's heart ached.

He stepped into the room in almost two or three steps, and then, as if he had sensed something, he turned his head slightly, and saw Li Tian was curled up on the sofa, panting and hugging himself, frowning and trembling .

"Li Tian!"

Even though he had seen this scene many times, when he saw it this time, he suddenly found that it was different from before.

——too intense.

When Qiu Cen reacted, he had rushed to the sofa to hug Li Tian, ​​coaxed him to let go, and put his hand directly to his mouth, replacing the bloody lip that he had bitten.

"Li Tian..." Qiu Cen stroked his back up and down, turned his head and stared at Dr. Li, his eyes almost burst into flames: "What's wrong! What happened!"

Li Tian is stubborn and stubborn, and never allows his cowardice to be exposed. Although he is weak and tired after treatment, Qiu Cen knows that he has never had an illness during treatment, and he has to persist until he thinks it is safe. Relax, but today I can't control myself in the consultation room.

"What did you say! What did you ask him!"

When Qiu Cen saw his appearance, his heart was almost torn from pain, and he wished he could bear the pain. At this moment, he almost forgot his demeanor and politeness, and yelled at his elders.

As an elder, Dr. Li rubbed his nose and smiled coyly, as if he felt guilty, and said: "It's just treatment, I didn't expect him to be so emotional, but he kept calling a name at the beginning...Qiu...what, I'm Let you come in and comfort him."

When Qiu Cen heard it, he felt great grief, bowed his head tremblingly and kissed Li Tian's hair, and repeated softly: "I am Li Tian, ​​I am here, don't bear it, bite me, it's okay."

Although Li Tian was not very conscious, he knew that the person beside him was Qiu Cen, so the hand he put in his mouth for him to bite was intact.

He hurt himself, but he didn't want to hurt him.

Seeing that Li Tian was still in a stalemate, Qiu Cen gritted his teeth, and the tears that accumulated in his eyes at some point also slid down, almost annoyance and self-blame flooded his whole body.

He should have come in with him.

Why didn't he come to therapy with him?

"Li Tian, ​​Li Tian, ​​listen to me..." Qiu Cen choked up, "Bite me if you feel uncomfortable, I'll be with you, okay?"

He hugged him tightly, "Didn't I say that as long as you look at me, I will run to your side, did you hear that..."

After saying that, Qiu Cen groaned and felt a sharp pain in the back of his hand.

Li Tian clenched his hand tightly.

Qiu Cen didn't know whether it was the pain in his heart or the pain in his hands. He endured the sobs overflowing from his mouth, let the tears flow all over his face, and his arms around Li Tian tightened again.

Seeing that Li Tian calmed down slowly, Dr. Li explained what happened.

It turned out that he was helping Li Tian locate an extraordinary person or thing to be Li Tian's "medicine" at the beginning.

It is easy to understand that if a person does not have a favorite person or thing, it seems that there is no support, life will lose its meaning, and it will go to psychological "destruction".But if a person has a favorite person, thing, or idea, then it is equivalent to having the backbone to support his survival, he will think that life is full of meaning, and take himself seriously unconsciously, then this person is positive, It will not be controlled by negative emotions.

Dr. Lee helped him realize just that.

He asked Li Tian to find such a person, what would happen if this person did not exist, what would happen if this person appeared beside him.

But the treatment was only halfway through, and as soon as he mentioned that this person did not exist, Li Tian looked weird, thinking of something, and within a few breaths, his eyes were lost, and he became what he is now.

It was Dr. Li who struggled to drag him to the sofa, hoping that he could relax.

And because I heard Li Tian's description of "the friend who always comes together outside the door", I suddenly realized that Qiu Cen outside the door might be the one who made him "not be controlled by negative emotions", so I hurriedly called him Come in and be able to control Li Tian.

But what he didn't expect was that Li Tian was so obedient and dependent on Qiu Cen, but after more than ten minutes, he had just finished explaining his treatment process, and he had already returned to normal.

Under Qiu Cen's repeated confirmation, Li Tian also nodded weakly, indicating that he was fine.

Only then did Qiu Cen obey Dr. Li's words and let him rest alone, and he followed Dr. Li out the door.

Having reached this point, Qiu Cen didn't care about anything anymore, and asked directly: "Is he in good condition now, is today's treatment going well?"

Dr. Li spread his hands, "As you can see, his illness is not serious, but his heart knot is too deep, and his thoughts are heavy."

"Then how should I help him?"

Dr. Li: "Stop with him more..."

"Only this? Is there no other way?" Qiu Cen interrupted him.

In the past two months, he has heard the word "companion" from Chen Kanglin no less than [-] times in the book, and he has almost been inseparable from Li Tian, ​​but every time he sees Li Tian getting sick, he is still helpless, He had had enough of leaving him miserable and lonely.

Why do people suffer from such horrible mental illnesses and physical illnesses.

The Buddha said that good will be rewarded with good, and evil will be rewarded with evil, but Li Tianming is so peaceful and free from the world, but he will also be tortured by pain

If this goes on like this, Li Tian is still in pain, and Qiu Cen will already go crazy.

Dr. Li is worthy of being a highly qualified psychiatrist, and he seemed to know what he was thinking through his expression, so he patted Qiu Cen's trembling shoulders, with firm eyes, and said firmly: "Only this, you are very important."

"...I'm very important." Qiu Cen looked dazed.

"Yes," Dr. Li was silent, as if he was considering his words, "as long as you are still here, there is a possibility that he will get better."

——You are his hope.

This is how Qiu Cen understood Dr. Li's words.

Almost suddenly, he felt a weight on his shoulders, and he couldn't breathe due to the pressure on the ground.

It was like a horrific declaration facing the whole world. For a young man in his 20s, it was too heavy to weigh one's fate on him.

Qiu Cen fell into a dead end.

Yes, he was willing to hold Li Tian in the palm of his hand, and looked after him carefully, without feeling heavy or miserable.

There is nothing more painful than seeing someone you love sink into the abyss.

But when this matter was concretely placed in front of him, it was another feeling.

——Whether this person is good or not depends on whether you are careful and hardworking enough.

You are at stake with another human being's life.

If you don't do well, it's all your fault.

Such thoughts made him want to escape, find a place to calm down, and then come back to Li Tian in an adjusted state to pull him out of the abyss.

But now, he had to calm down quickly, and then pretended to find Li Tian easily, and took him home.

After a long time, Qiu Cen took a deep breath, and when he spoke again, his tone was no longer flustered, "I'm sorry, I'm too excited, let's leave each other's mobile phone numbers, please notify me as soon as possible if there is any situation."

"Okay, that's exactly what I mean. You are an important part of this treatment."

"Don't say that, I also want to thank you for taking the trouble to treat Li Tian, ​​his temper..."

"Don't, I took the money, it's not..."

In the room, Li Tian's hand was still stuck to the door. He had rested and was about to go out, but from the moment he touched the door, he suddenly stopped his movements. He hid behind the door and silently passed through the half-covered He could hear the conversation between the two outside the door clearly through the opening.

He didn't have much strength yet, but at this moment, he didn't know what made him freeze in place.

The "manic depression case file" that Qiu Cen saw by chance in his dormitory was remembered by him after a short period of forgetting.

Originally, he was avoiding the "secret" of Qiu Cen who suddenly discovered it, but now he was remembered again, it was like a heavy blow, hitting him hard.

The blood that had already solidified on his lips split again with the corners of his mouth raised in contempt, and the slight pain made him frown.

Mouth still tastes like rust.

It was Qiu Cen's blood.

……

How painful it must be.

The author has something to say: Cen Cen is still a very young person. It is normal for Cen Cen to feel unacceptable and worried when encountering such a thing where one person's happiness and anger are completely placed on another person.It will be fine later. ps: I really don't know anything about psychotherapy, and I only wrote the content because I think it is reasonable. I hope that the big guys who read the article don't spray it, don't spray it, don't spray it, of course I can't help it...