add to the chaos

—Let's break up.

Li Tian opened his mouth, but couldn't say these three words.

He knew that once he said these three words, what awaited him was endless darkness.

And Qiu Cen, who had been hugging him tightly all the time, seemed to have sensed something suddenly, and suddenly raised his head.

There seemed to be water in his eyes, and there was still light flickering slightly.

"...you are very tired now, don't you feel bad after every treatment?"

Qiu Cen let go of his hand, supported him and dragged him up, with an unclear tone: "You should have a good rest first, I'll come back to you in a few days, okay?"

He was too flustered today, and many things that happened were unexpected, which made him unprepared.

Now is not a good time for two people to talk calmly.

Continuing to consume like this will only make it more difficult for the two to communicate and fall into a deadlock.

He hoped that both of them would calm down and think about what to do next.

He didn't want to hear those three words in his life.

Fortunately, Li Tian didn't keep him, and leaned on the sofa motionless. If he hadn't opened his lips slightly, he would have seemed to be asleep to outsiders.

No matter how restless and nostalgic Qiu Cen was, he had no choice but to let go of him at this moment, tried his best to calm his breathing, and left alone.

It's just that neither of them expected that this separation means that they haven't seen each other for a long time.

These days, Qiu Cen didn't know if Li Tian was also at home, but he did stay at home.

Nothing to do, nothing interesting.

He also didn't think about how to face Li Tian, ​​he was afraid of hearing "forget it", afraid of seeing his disheartened eyes.

He will literally break down.

Although there is a heavy burden on his body, he can also bear it. All the reasons he insists on are that Li Tian can get better, but if Li Tian has given up, what is he insisting on.

These days, he has been thinking about this question.

I don't know if it was to escape or simply not to "calm down".

Is it because my own behavior made a proud person like Li Tian feel that his privacy was violated, so he got angry and pushed him away

Or did Li Tian feel inferior and painful because of this, and didn't want to drag him down with him?

It's just that these questions haven't figured out why, but as the days go by, they gradually deepen in his mind, and the year is approaching, so he also gets busy.

Lao Qiu, who had been busy for a year, finally had a holiday. The family went to buy New Year's goods together and greet relatives who came to visit in the past year.

On the 27th of the twelfth lunar month, sending off a group of relatives, Qiu Cen followed Queen Song to go home. Queen Song seemed in a good mood, and entered the elevator cheerfully. Qiu Cen followed her, staring at the floor buttons in the elevator thoughtfully. .

Queen Song just turned her head and wanted to say something to him with a smile. When she first saw the expression on her precious son, she was also taken aback. Following his gaze, she also landed in the same position.

She said "ah", and suddenly thought of something, "I actually forgot, it's almost Chinese New Year, and I didn't go to Xiaodan's house, why not..."

"You are an elder, you should let her come to see you." Qiu Cen interrupted her, his face returned to normal.

Queen Song gave him a sharp look when she heard the words, "This child is idle anyway, why don't you go upstairs for a walk after dinner at night, aren't you and the son of the Li family very good? I haven't seen you with him recently. Playing, nestling at home every day..."

Queen Song muttered to herself, "It's the Chinese New Year, and Xiaodan must be on vacation too. It just so happens that you can get along with her, maybe..."

"Fairy," Qiu Cen saw that she hadn't let go of the idea, but he had no choice but to say, "We are really not suitable, so please stop matching, I will treat her as my sister."

"Hey," Queen Song was upset, and she still didn't get bored even after saying it many times, "Then why don't you show me a girlfriend yourself."

The elevator door opened, and the two walked out one after the other, Queen Song was still scolding.

"When you were young, your father and I didn't let you fall in love. You thought you just wanted to study and didn't want to fall in love. But you called your parents because you didn't study well. I hope the teacher will call me over and tell me You fell in love early, so I'm so happy. When you get to college, what's more, his son is in love with a girlfriend, and my son is as ascetic as a monk. He doesn't move when he sees that he is about to graduate. Are you in a hurry? Well."

Qiu Cen only felt that these words filled his ears like a magic voice, comparable to Tang Monk singing "onlyyou" in a loop in his ear, and immediately stretched out his voice: "Fairy——"

"Hey, okay, I won't talk anymore, so why don't you go upstairs by yourself at night?"

"I don't—well, well, I'll go sometime."

As soon as Qiu Cen took this time, he spent thirty nights.

He drove the cleaners in the community to take out the garbage downstairs an hour before they went home for the New Year. When he turned around and walked back, he happened to meet Li Tian coming in from the gate of the community.

He obviously saw him too, he paused in his footsteps, as if hesitating for something, and walked over after a while.

"...Happy New Year." Qiu Cen said.

Li Tian seemed a little surprised that he would speak like this, he was taken aback for a moment, then nodded, and said dryly: "Happy New Year."

The two walked back side by side, not knowing whether it was intentional or not, their pace slowed down.

It snowed again this morning, auspicious snow heralds a good year, and next year will be another good year.

At this moment, all the people in the community have been reunited with their families, so now that there is no one around, it seems a bit colder.

Qiu Cen just took out the garbage, and based on the principle of "as long as I run fast enough, the cold wind can't blow me through", he only put on Lao Qiu's cotton waistcoat over the sweater, and pulled cotton slippers under his feet. At a slow speed, it feels like it has been frozen through.

Seeing that he was about to reach the unit gate, he wanted to say something, but he didn't know where to start, so he asked casually, "Where is Li Xiaodan at home?"

"Ok?"

"...Oh, my mother said the day before yesterday that she would go to your house to pay New Year's greetings. I asked her for her. I also wondered why the two of them are like good sisters."

Li Tian: "Always at home, you can come."

Qiu Cen tilted his head to look at him, because the light was too dark, he couldn't see the expression on his face clearly, and the water-like eyes in the dark night couldn't see clearly at this moment.

This time he hesitated longer.

"……Before……"

Do you remember what I said before.

Have you calmed down yet?

Do you want to have a good talk?

"You're home." Li Tian interrupted him suddenly.

At this moment, the elevator stopped on the sixth floor as if in opposition, and the doors slowly opened to both sides.

"..."

Having reached this point, Qiu Cen is not stupid and understands.

Li Tian didn't want to mention what happened that day.

He has been very calm.

Including the unspoken three words, he just blocked them back.

If he had let him continue that day, his tone would have been calm and indifferent.

Qiu Cen's hands beside him were clenched suddenly, almost trembling.

He walked out without saying a word.

After all, Li Tian didn't say it out loud, so there is still a chance, right?

Thinking of this, Qiu Cen felt much better.

He thought at the beginning that this new year must be full of new ideas and surprises.

This is his first year with Li Tian.

If he is still a primary school student, then in the composition "My Most Unforgettable Thing" assigned by the teacher, there must be heavy handwriting about the Chinese New Year.

But looking at it now, he thought to himself, it is indeed "the most memorable", full of "new ideas" and "surprises".

Suddenly feel very tired.

This kind of tiredness is not a physical tiredness, but a tiredness that comes from the heart, brain, and bones.

A few days later, when Qiu Cen thought he was about to be swallowed by the void, he received a WeChat message.

It belongs to Chen Kanglin.

Qiu Cen almost forgot about this person.

Suddenly, as if he had strength, he sat up from the bed, got out of bed and went to wash.

……

How should I put it, seeing Chen Kanglin is like seeing hope.

Chen Kanglin gave him the impression that he was a knowledgeable "adult", which convinced him.

This sense of conviction is a bit like a firm belief in Lao Qiu. Just seeing him makes me feel full of strength.

So he tidied himself up, and when he went out after being bored at home for many days, his whole body was glowing white under the sun. Chen Kanglin was shocked when he saw him.

Qiu Cen smiled indifferently, trying to make himself not look like the hero in a bitter drama, not so weak.

"Happy New Year."

"Happy New Year," Chen Kanglin said gently, looking him up and down for a while, "Are you...shedding a layer of skin?"

Qiu Cen let out an "ah" and understood, "Are you saying I'm in vain? My mother also said that when I was going out, and asked me if I was sick... New Year and new weather."

"..."

Chen Kanglin looked at him suspiciously, obviously not believing it, but thinking of the purpose of coming out today, he stopped asking.

Blinking instead, "Wait a minute, there are still people not here."

"Huh? I thought you were alone."

"It's okay, you know me too, I'm going to buy some snacks... Hey, here we come."

Qiu Cen followed his gaze and turned around, looking behind him.

"Senior! Happy New Year!"

"..."

He watched Zhong Xin coming from across the road, shouting to him as he walked, which attracted curious glances from the pedestrians around.

"...You two brothers and sisters are free, so you can't spend the New Year at home and come to our district."

"No, I went to her house to pay New Year's greetings today, so she took me out here to play, so I thought of you." Chen Kanglin said helplessly.

Zhong Xin had already walked over at this time, and when she heard Chen Kanglin's words, she cast a glance at him, and smiled coquettishly: "You two know each other only through my introduction, you have been meeting secretly, and you don't take me with you. Shall we play together?"

That's right, today he suddenly decided to go out, and it's been so long since no one can't help but suddenly go out in a glamorous suit, which surprised Queen Song, but at the same time, he really only thought that Chen Kanglin just asked him out for a stroll. Streets and alleys that have never been visited.

Also named to go to the newly opened VR experience hall to play.

That's where he and Li Tian went.

The three of them chatted for a while, but they couldn't keep standing at the intersection, so they started strolling along the street.

The air is still filled with the smell of firecrackers and fireworks, and there is still snow on the corners of the road that has not had time to melt. There are few small shops on the street, but all of them are decorated with Spring Festival couplets and are flourishing.

"I don't know if the experience center will be open during the Chinese New Year," Qiu Cen said.

"It's open." Zhong Xin lifted up the collar of the small dress to cover her ears that were red from the wind, "I saw on XX Reviews that it has a [-]% discount for Chinese New Year."

"Oh." Qiu Cenyang raised his voice and squinted at her.

Dare to be premeditated.

"I haven't played any VR games," Chen Kanglin said, "I haven't ridden a roller coaster either, because I would vomit."

Seeing his serious expression, Qiu Cen couldn't help laughing, "I vomit even when I'm sitting, but this should be fine, I've been there once, and it looks like a haunted house. Can you still vomit from being scared?"

"..." Chen Kanglin opened his mouth to say something, but was interrupted by Zhong Xin's exclamation.

"Haunted house!" She pretended to be frightened, "Haunted house, I like it."

"Don't you know? So it's for a discount?"

Qiu Cen Yile, I thought badly that your fat brother was trembling with fright at that time, so don't scare you to tears later.

Just because of the Chinese New Year, when they arrived at the entrance of the experience hall, they found that it was deserted and deserted, with no trace of people.

That's right, whoever comes here during the Chinese New Year will not be happy to find it.

Thinking of this, Qiu Cen smiled.

It seems that if a person makes any mistakes, he can use "big Chinese New Year's", "big festival", "children are not sensible" to cover up mistakes and prevaricate mistakes. People no longer vent their anger based on these simple words.It seems that if you hold on to it, it will appear that this person does not know how to behave.

"What are you so happy about?"