add to the chaos

Even though he thought so, Qiu Cen still didn't know what to do.

He just convinced himself.

However, the things and people in front of him have his own rules and standards. To persuade these difficulties that do not depend on his own will, he still needs to think long-term.

Time passed quickly again, and the weekend arrived in the blink of an eye. The last class ended on Friday afternoon, and Qiu Cen returned home with his bag on his back.

When he got home, there was no one in the house, so he sat down and took a sip of water, and Queen Song came back.

"Huh? Goudaner came back so early today?"

Queen Song was changing shoes while leaning against the wall of the shoe cabinet at the door. She inadvertently looked up and saw Qiu Cen sitting on the sofa drinking water, and looked over in surprise.

"Well, it's okay, I'll be back."

"Well... what do you want to eat? I'll make it."

She had already changed into her slippers and walked to the bedroom, ready to change into her home clothes.

"Mom." Qiu Cen suddenly stopped her.

Queen Song paused, vaguely feeling that he had something to say, but after thinking about it, the only thing that could make him suddenly so formal was...

With a "thump" in her heart, she said dryly, "Wait... wait a minute, let me cook first, okay?"

"..."

Qiu Cen looked into her eyes with an uneasy expression and unresolved worries, and suddenly his heart softened.

"mom."

He gave another low cry.

The bottom of my heart is actually very uncomfortable.

Isn't he using his willfulness and parental love to ask them to compromise.

Relying on nothing but family affection.

But he suddenly thought of the frail figure lying on the hospital bed, and his hesitation faded away.

He couldn't let go of both sides.

He wished he could divide himself into two halves, one half for his parents and one half for that person.

A deep sense of exhaustion nearly overwhelmed him.

Seeing the loneliness on her son's face and the gloom in his eyes, Song Lili's heart ached.

How much she wanted to tell him, whatever you want, you can do whatever you like, it doesn't matter who you like.

This is the love a mother has for her child.

But it was this love that made her unable to let go, tell him to go, and do what you think is worthwhile.

She has experienced countless things in this half of her life, and everything can teach her a truth, but she was caught off guard when it came to "her son likes men", but she also saw similar things in magazine news, Therefore, I know that this road must be full of thorns, and there will be countless malicious ridicules and sarcasms. Even if it does not appear in front of the eyes of outsiders, it will be mentioned as a joke.

As a mother, how could she be willing?

How could he be willing to let his son grow up from a small carrot head to a handsome boy who has now grown into a towering tree, and then helplessly watch him go down a road of no return?

Song Lili was surprisingly sensible.

She couldn't take it.

But she couldn't directly reject her son.

It can only go on like this.

Maybe one day she will compromise, maybe one day Qiu Cen will compromise.

She walked slowly to Qiu Cen's side, bent down and hugged him, let him bury him in her arms, took a deep breath, and said, "I don't know... I really don't know, I don't know how I can get you Pull it back, I don't know how to treat this as a common thing...don't ask mom."

She has never paid attention to this circle, and she doesn't know much about it. She checked it out after her son told her. As a teacher who needs to be rational at all times, she almost has the motivation to study at school. From the piles of materials, she found Think about the meaning between the lines for the content you need.She knows that homosexuality is not a disease, it is no different from a man liking a woman, it is a deep love.

But she still couldn't accept it.

It may be that the inherent traditional thinking constrains her. She can understand that outsiders are gay, but she cannot understand her own son.

Obviously they are all the same person, why does my son like the same sex?

Qiu Cen choked up, almost didn't know what to say, he could only hug Queen Song's waist silently, and put all his weight on it.

It's like when you were bullied when you were a child and went to your parents for comfort.

"Mom..." After a long time, he opened his mouth, his tone cautious: "I want to do it according to my own ideas, but I'm afraid you Lao Qiu will be disappointed, I don't want to let you down... I don't want to let him down either, I I need you, and I need him, it’s all mutual. But there are some things that I have to do by myself, and I have to do that, I’m not begging you to agree to me or even support me, can you… just look at me, in the end if You hit my head and bled, can you still love me..." When did Song Lili see her son beg someone so humblely?

Immediately, the eyes were wet, tears flowed down the pretty cheeks, and soon a lot gathered on the chin, dripping down.

She is relieved now.

Rubbing the top of Qiu Cen's hair distressedly, his tone was extremely gentle: "...Okay, the fairy promises you, even if I can't understand you...The fairy always loves you, no matter what mistakes you make, or what deviant things you want to do They are waiting for you with open arms behind you, and so is Lao Qiu."

In fact, when Qiu Cen said these words, he couldn't help tears and snot all over his face, but as an upright, cool, handsome and domineering man, he pretended not to know. To laugh, his tone was full of gratitude: "Okay, thank you Fairy, and thank you Lao Qiu..."

"Oh..." Queen Song also laughed, remembering something, "Lao Qiu knew about it before, and he didn't say anything all the time. You know that he is a science guy, he thinks too much but can't say anything. I You're over here, think about how to tell him. Make your own decision clear, he has never hit you since you were a child, don't let Lao Qiu worry."

"En." Qiu Cen nodded.

Song Lili bent her mouth helplessly, "Okay, get up, I'm going to cook."

"I'll help you."

"No, go play games and sleep, you. Mom, my cooking skills have improved by more than a star and a half recently, and I will call you to eat later."

Qiu Cen responded, his voice was a little nasal after the mood swing just now, it sounded quite different from usual.

Although still a little depressed, but in the end is happy.

It must have been approved by Queen Song.

Feel motivated again.

It can be regarded as removing an obstacle.

Whatever the future holds, he has made his position known.

Next, maybe go see Lee Tim...

If only he could see him.Qiu Cen lay on the bed, thinking about that person, suddenly felt a little uneasy.

He hasn't seen Li Tian for a long time.

Roughly speaking, it has been more than half a month.

The last time we met him was when he told Hu Dawei to take care of him.

After so long, I don't know if he has been discharged from the hospital...

Qiu Cen looked up at the ceiling.

I don't know what he is doing now, whether he is at home or not.

—Do you still want to see him?

What if he really doesn't like him anymore?

Qiu Cen suddenly thought of this question, only to realize that he had always followed his own ideas, and hadn't considered Li Tian's feelings carefully...

No.

He didn't believe it was just his own self-indulgence.

After all, besides him, it is very difficult for Li Tian to meet someone like him again.

Except for Qiu Cen, no one can match him.

Gee.

This is not me blowing.Qiu Cen thought to himself.

Before dinner, Lao Qiu came back.

Seeing him enter the house, Qiu Cen asked in surprise, "It's so early? Did you miss work?"

"Go," Lao Qiu unbuttoned his clothes and squinted at him, "this is normal off-duty time."

"Your boss has changed gender and didn't let you work overtime?"

"I haven't worked overtime recently. I just finished a project and I'm resting. I'll be on business in a few days."

Qiu Cen: "That's good, I can spend more time with our orphans and widowed mothers."

"You're the one who talks a lot." Lao Qiu gave him a glance, without the strictness and strictness of a father at all, he looked like Qiu Cen's buddy.

This point is worth mentioning. The father and son have always been like this. They are not like father and son. In the eyes of outsiders, they are more like good buddies. And he seldom calls Lao Qiu "Father", and has been following Queen Song "Lao Qiu Lao" Qiu", and Lao Qiu never took it seriously, let alone got angry.

This may be due to the different education methods of each family. Qiu Cen's family has always been in a free-range state, and he talks directly to his family members when they have something to do. Qiu Cen grew up in such an environment, which has a great influence on his character.

So whenever he faced Lao Qiu, Qiu Cen was extremely relaxed.

"Let's take a break and eat." Qiu Cen said.

"Well," Lao Qiu nodded, sat on the sofa, made tea for himself with the kettle on the coffee table, and turned to look at him, "Have some?"

"No, no, no," Qiu Cen hurriedly waved his hands, "I'm afraid I won't be able to sleep at night."

"No. I've been drinking for so long that you can't even hear your mother snore at night."

"...Drink it yourself, I'll take the bowls and chopsticks."

After saying that, Qiu Cen turned and left.

Lao Qiu looked at his back and smiled thoughtfully after a while.

The two days of the weekend passed by in a flash, Qiu Cen didn't go anywhere, and stayed at home with Queen Song until Monday morning when he slowly returned to school.

In the end, he didn't bring the key, and Lin Jian got up to open the dormitory door for him.

When he saw Qiu Cen coming in, he didn't care about him anymore, he hurried back to bed while he was still sleepy, and fell asleep again as soon as the quilt was covered.

"Tsk, what did you do last night?" Qiu Cen shook his head helplessly.

Originally, he didn't intend for anyone to respond to him, but Dayan'er suddenly poked his head out of the bed, with two big dark circles on his bitter and bitter face, and his tone was sad: "Yesterday Fat Brother and Cuihua seemed to have a quarrel. The phone calls in the middle of the night have not stopped."

"quarrel?"

Can Cuihua's sheep-like character still quarrel?

"No, single dogs don't understand things between young couples, but they are very sleepy."

Qiu Cen was overjoyed, and couldn't laugh or cry: "Okay, you can sleep a little longer, the class at ten o'clock."

"You called me in advance, you still have to eat..."

Big Eyes nodded, and nestled back again.

Seeing him like this, Qiu Cen suddenly felt that there was nothing wrong with Big Eye's temper.

Straightforward, simple and unaffected.

As long as there is food, nothing matters.

If only he could be this comfortable.

Qiu Cen lowered his eyes.

The temperature has picked up in the past two days. From the occasional warmth in the wind, it can be seen that winter is over and spring is approaching step by step.

A person like Qiu Cen, who is afraid of the cold, also takes off his sweater and long johns, and occasionally puts on a thin coat and shorts when the sun is full, and he can go outside.

He counted the days, but felt that he could not stay any longer.

He looked at the avatar of the troublesome fox in WeChat, and clicked in for an unknown number of times to see the personal homepage without any content.

As a result, I went in at one o'clock today and found that the content was updated.

It is also the only content.

Does Dora eat cake: Chun. 【picture】

Qiu Cen clicked on the big picture and found that it was a tree looking down from a high angle.

It should have been taken upstairs against the window frame.

The branches are still very abrupt, the dry branches stick straight into the air, and the branches are lifted up. It looks like a lingering old tree that is about to die.

Now many tree species have not started to germinate, and this tree does not know whether it is alive or not. Where does the "spring" come from?

Qiu Cen's eyes darkened, and he turned off his phone for a while.

Pushing Lin Jian who was playing with his mobile phone on the edge of the seat, he glanced at the podium.

"I'll go out and call for me later."

"...Ah? Now?" Lin Jian looked at him in astonishment.

Qiu Cen: "Yes."

After saying that, he stooped up from his seat and went out through the back door.