Chunichi disease

It doesn't snow in winter in the south, and Cheng Huan has never seen a scene where the roofs and streets are covered with snow since he was a child.

But Liu Chunhong said that it had rained before, and in two years it had been so heavy that piles of snow could be seen on the canopy of the opposite building.

Maybe he forgot.He always forgets many things, such as which year it snowed, which day is his birthday, what clothes he wore and what he ate yesterday, he doesn't remember.

He is always indifferent to everything, and when he grows up, he realizes that he has no interest in everything.He is no longer happy to care about the female cat downstairs who gave birth to a few wild cats, and he doesn't care when it started to move away from the old people's club next door, when the people around him changed, when In the beginning, my own home became like this.

When he scratched the skin of his wrist with the knife, he had already seen the blood flow out, so he realized that he was not afraid of pain.

He is afraid to live.

Liu Chunhong sent him to the hospital when he saw it, and then slapped him: "What the hell are you crazy about?"

No one has ever asked him why—this is a very tangled proposition. He dislikes those who condemn him without asking anything, but he is afraid that others will ask him, and he will not know how to answer.

It's too painful, there is no reason, I just don't want to get used to it.

When Cheng Huan showed Chu Ye the scar on the inside of his left wrist, Chu Ye was silent.Just like Cheng Huan didn't understand why Chu Ye liked men, Chu Ye didn't understand why Cheng Huan wanted to die.

There were traces of wearing a watch on Cheng Huan's left wrist, and the circle of watch marks that had been tanned in summer hadn't completely returned to white.To be honest, if the scar hadn't been covered by his sleeve, Chu Ye would never have known about it.

"I rowed it myself when I was in elementary school."

Oh, youth and ignorance love suicide.Back then when I was not mainstream, Q|Q space was full of people who were shouting about dying or self-mutilating the names of their subjects.

"I'm a person, you may think that I'm more...secondary school," Cheng Huan thought of a suitable word, nodded after saying it, "I've been thinking about one thing since I was a child, what do I do with my life."

Chu Ye was a little confused, why did he suddenly jump to a philosophical question.

"Anyway, I didn't think about it. I was tired first. It was meaningless and I had to work hard. I was very annoying, so I just..."

Cheng Huan lowered his head and touched the scar.Chu Ye saw that there was a shallow scar under the scar, and the wound was very fresh.

"you……"

"I didn't say that I have come out of this kind of entanglement. I have studied so many ways to die, and this is the lowest cost."

Cheng Huan smiled, but Chu Ye didn't dare to look at it.According to the routine of the novel, usually the smile at this time must be ugly.

Cheng Huan got the heroine's script!

Chu Ye speaks like a straight man, but he has a straight man's disease when he doesn't have a straight man's life.He didn't have time to think about it and said: "Are you crazy? What's wrong with being alive? Why are you going to die? Is the game not fun or the food is not delicious?"

Cheng Huan knew that what he was talking to him was all bullshit.

The medicine in the infusion tube was flowing into the blood vessel bit by bit, and the hand that stuck the needle was cold.Cheng Huan's mood at the moment was suspended between extreme calm and extreme irritability, quite uncomfortable and restless.

The remaining rationality prevented him from throwing Chu Ye out directly.

It doesn't matter if you are crazy, you can't pull others.

But Cheng Huan still couldn't control it and said back: "You fucking gay, women are so nice, why don't you like men, disgusting."

Chu Ye understood this time, the idiot told him not to stand and talk so that his back hurts.

If it weren't for seeing him looking like he was dying, Chu Ye would have slapped him on the face.

A nurse came in at the door of the ward. She was an old acquaintance. She just came here to see her the day before.Xiao Chen was copying there with a notebook, and chatting with Cheng Huan: "We meet again."

Cheng Huan has no energy to speak now, so if he coped with it, he was considered polite.

"Where did you come with me before? Why did you change people today?"

"...I don't know." Cheng Huan looked impatient, and tilted his head to look out the window to see the scenery. It was raining again, and he was no longer surprised.

Xiao Chen was too lazy to confront him head-on, so he moved to the next room after finishing his work.Chu Ye was still sitting there, knowing that he had said something wrong, he was a little at a loss and peeled an apple he just bought.I cut a piece and wanted to feed it, but it felt weird, so I stuffed it into my mouth and ate it.

What's wrong with this man?

Depression or Mania or Intermittent Psychosis?

Or is this person not really brain-dead?

Cheng Huan just watched Chu Ye feed him the apples he bought for him one by one with such dull eyes, without any fluctuation in his heart, and he didn't want to laugh.

His emotions have always been difficult to control, and he may be able to switch between violent rage and hilarious laughter in seconds-although he may not be really happy.A life lived to die really does not know what else can make him happy.

"Well...do you want to..." The apple was divided into five petals, Chu Ye finished eating four petals, cut off the fifth petal and stuffed it into his mouth while asking politely.

"..." Cheng Huan's temper is inversely proportional to his reaction, he only reacted after staring at him until the apple was about to go into Chu Ye's mouth, and then snatched it, like a hamster, very slowly bit by bit gnawed.

Although the eyes are like ghosts, they are surprisingly cute!

Chu Ye wiped his hands, put on a smiling face, and suddenly stretched out his hands to pinch Cheng Huan's face, forming a weird smile: "Why are you sad, give me a smile!"

"Fuck|Your mother go wash your hands."

Cheng Huan slapped the two sticky paws off his face, Chu Ye saw that he was refreshed, smiled and rubbed the slapped place and went to the bathroom.Cheng Huan frowned and rubbed his face twice, without the apple juice sticking on it, he could smell the fragrance of apples.

Although he doesn't like eating apples very much, his mood has eased a bit.

Cheng Huan took a deep breath, and the moment he exhaled the turbid air, he felt that the sadness on his face should have dissipated a little, right?

He stared at the TV set on the wall opposite the bed all afternoon, the screen was black, there was nothing, he did nothing, he was in a daze, there was nothing in his mind, there was no strange little thing The people talking there were so quiet that they were not used to it.

His brain was a little hard to turn, and his eyes were tired, but he was not sleepy and didn't want to sleep.

Chu Ye called him several times, but Cheng Huan didn't react at all as if he was dead, and occasionally blinked to prove that he was still alive.Chu Ye sighed, but couldn't read the novel, just stared at the medicine bottle above his head, thinking about what's wrong with this idiot.

I am so stupid to be at the same table as a top student, who will copy my homework next semester? !

After several bottles of medicine were finished, Chu Ye went to ask the nurse to pull out the needle, and went to discharge him from the hospital by the way.Yesterday I promised to treat guests, but I called Zhao Guang to pay for the meal.He sent the money again, and after thinking for a long time, he went to the pharmacy in front of the hospital and pushed the wheelchair back.

It's okay, enough blood has been drained today, and more will be done later.Chu Ye didn't care anymore, anyway, he had nothing but a lot of pocket money.

Cheng Huan was still in a daze when he went back, but he stared at the door in a different place.Seeing Chu Ye appearing in the field of vision, he even asked "I'm back".

When Chu Ye suddenly heard him speak, he felt like he had seen a ghost.Now that Cheng Huan is in this state, his image and temperament are excellent.After a long pause, he nodded.

"Well... ah, I just went through the discharge procedures for you, we packed up and we went back." Chu Ye went to get the fruit basket and his medicine, took out the dirty coat and put it on him, and helped him Sitting in a wheelchair.

"Let's go to eat first, and I'll take you to a place after eating."

"what?"

"buying clothes."

Cheng Huan didn't know why he was crazy, but his actions were controlled by Chu Ye now, and he didn't have the strength to argue about anything, he was too tired to panic.

Although Chu Ye didn't know what was wrong with him, he was always in a bad mood, maybe it would be better to go around and get distracted.

Why does this person have so many problems!

There was a fast food restaurant in front of the hospital, and the two simply sat and ate there.Cheng Huan waited there for Chu Ye to bring the dishes, looked around, picked up the paper towels and the tableware for both of them indifferently and began to wipe.

He felt that his state could not affect others.This is not a good disease. If you cheat yourself, you can't cheat others.

Cheng Xuqiang cheered up, took a piece of iron plate tofu and put it in his mouth: "Are you going back for the New Year?"

Chu Ye had a headache when he talked about going back, but he had to face it.Besides, Cheng Huan finally took the initiative to speak, and he couldn't spoil his interest: "I won't return, I finally escaped, why go back? I can hide for a day," he told Cheng Huan not to eat. Picking away pieces of mushrooms so that he would not accidentally eat them, "I won't have a good year if I get caught back. Although I don't have any relatives to leave, I'm sure I'll be dragged to blind dates every day."

"Hehe." Cheng Huan suddenly smiled, then lowered his head to eat the food in the bowl.

Not right, really not right.

This person can't fucking be smart!This is another personality!Cheng Huan, whom Chu Ye met at the beginning, would smile so shyly? ? ?

"Hey, let me tell you, my parents took me on a blind date with a girl just after the holiday."

"Well, and then." Cheng Huan was super obedient.

"They dressed me up like a dog, returned my suit, and what else...Western restaurant! It's the most expensive one in the city, on the side of Dongying Plaza."

Cheng Huan occasionally looked up and listened quietly to him.

Seeing him like this, Chu Ye suddenly had an inexplicable impulse in his heart...

"Ahem, this fucking is clearly humiliating me. Still on a blind date, I'll go fuck it." Chu Ye clenched his fists and squeezed the chopsticks in his hands tighter, "I don't think that girl is interested, I'm Leave the pick and leave."

"Heh," Cheng Huan smiled again, pulled the corner of his mouth and retracted it, "It's good to stick to the principle."

Seeing him smile, Chu Ye was in an inexplicably good mood.Are you King Zhou You? !Talk so much just to laugh for Concubine Bo? !

But although Cheng Huan looked a little nervous, but looking at it this way... really good.

Chu Ye wanted to pat his head, but Cheng Huan was very rare.

Before Cheng Huan, the thorns all over his body could pierce people to death, and he could answer ten sentences if you said one sentence; on the contrary, his mental state is not good, and his hair is smooth, which is a bit cute.

After thinking about it, he moved his hand, pressed it on Cheng Huan's head, and rubbed it twice.

"Get out!" Cheng Huan opened it for him with a chopstick.

Yes, the familiar hatred and strength.At least it proved not to be schizophrenic.

Chu Ye was in a good mood: "Have you finished eating, idiot? After eating, I will take you shopping!"