not lonely

Zhong Qianyi's heart followed Du Mingcan's footsteps, step by step.

Just taking a step forward with his sore body, he was pulled into his arms by Liao Tongxun behind him, hugged him hard, and his head was pressed hard on the man's shoulder, unable to move.

"Xiaoyi, don't go, don't go. If you go, where am I going? If you go, no one cares about me, no one loves me anymore, he...he still has a family, parents and sister who love him, and Friends who have played since I was a child, but I... I only have you..."

It's probably because I haven't cried so heart-wrenchingly for a long time, I haven't cried so heart-piercingly for a long time, as if I have been drained of strength, there is no possibility of breaking free in Liao Tongxun's tight embrace, but my heart is gradually clear up.

Because of Liao Tongxun's unexpected confession, Zhong Qianyi recalled the past between him and Du Mingcan from the beginning to the end in his heart, like a movie, all the plots flashed in his mind one by one.

It has to be said that thanks to Liao Tongxun, Zhong Qianyi finally found out that Du Mingcan had been in his heart for some time.It seems a long time, it seems not long, but the location is very important.

What happened today was beyond his expectation.However, Du Mingcan here is indeed the most innocent one.

If you want to blame, blame yourself for being too slow and indecisive.

"Tong Xun, do you remember? You once praised me, said that I have good eyes, that I give you a very familiar feeling, do you know why?

"Would you like to hear it? There is a story about today's movie, before it started..."

At the moment when the story was finished, Liao Tongxun had lost the ability to shed tears, and sat on the ground in a daze without saying a word.Zhong Qianyi couldn't bear it, sat beside him, rested his head in her arms, and comforted him softly.

"Tong Xun, you don't have nothing. If you want family affection, I will always be the brother who loves you the most. I am willing to give you a warm harbor when you are tired. I can go through fire and water for your needs at any time. I will always be behind you." Silently support you, if you want friendship, I will accompany you for the next eight years, and the next eight years, chatting with you to relieve your worries when you are confused, drinking with you when you are sad, and drinking with you when you are happy Celebrate with you. I will always be yours, you will always have me, but, maybe not the way you want, I will look at you, forever and ever... okay?"

That night, Zhong Qianyi sat with Liao Tongxun in the theater for a long time, but Liao Tongxun never said a word. It was almost midnight before he got up and walked to the door alone.

Zhong Qianyi was afraid that he would have an accident while driving by himself, so he dragged him into his car and took him home. After he was settled down to sleep, Zhong Qianyi forced himself to go to Du Mingcan's house.

Tonight, Zhong Qianyi will speak clearly about those things that have been hidden in my heart and have never had the opportunity to tell Du Mingcan.

The doorbell rang for a long time before the slight sound of walking could be heard from inside.

"It's so late, who is it?"

The door opened with the sound, not the familiar smell of Du Mingcan, not the familiar smile of Du Mingcan, but Zeyang's delicate but slightly impatient expression.He was dressed in simple home clothes and had dyed chestnut hair that fell over his forehead.When the sleepy eyes saw him, the impatient look disappeared immediately.

"Ze...Zeyang...why are you here..."

"Brother Xiaoyi...why are you so late?" Zeyang quickly opened the door, and pulled Zhong Qianyi in, "It's cool in the night, come in quickly... You came to Mingcan, right? Sit down, I'll call Him. Didn’t he say he celebrated your birthday today? But he didn’t know why, so he came back in a state of desperation, and went to sleep in his room.”

"No...no need...it's nothing serious, you can talk about it tomorrow...he's asleep...I'm leaving..."

Seeing Gu Zeyang's familiar appearance, Zhong Qianyi felt that he was an intruder to the two of them, as if he had disturbed a couple of lovers who were already embracing and sleeping in the middle of the night, but obviously, he was the one. The person who fell asleep with him.

"It's nothing serious. You came to him so late? Are you cheating on ghosts? Wait a minute, he's easy to scream, he wakes up when he wakes up, and he hasn't gotten up yet."

After speaking, she ran to Du Mingcan's room, turned on the light, climbed onto his bed, lowered her head and whispered in his ear.

"Canna, wake up, Brother Xiaoyi is here to find you."

Not moving.

"Mingcan, brother Xiaoyi came to see you at night, he must have something to do, you can go to bed later."

Then I saw Du Mingcan hugging Gu Zeyang lying on his bed into his arms, without opening his eyes, he said, "Shut up and go to sleep."

Zhong Qianyi at the door saw this scene, his heart seemed to sink to the bottom of the sea, and the bone-piercing coolness permeated his body.He subconsciously squeezed out a smile and scratched his head apologetically, "No...not good...sorry, yes...I didn't think carefully, and I came to bother you at such a late hour, really...it's nothing wrong ...you... you continue to rest, I'll go first..."

Don't forget to turn off the lights for the two of them.How careful.

But as soon as he escaped from Du Mingcan's house, he couldn't hold on any longer and fell to the ground.The motivation that enslaved me just now to come over to him and explain clearly disappeared in an instant.

What happened this night was like playing against an opponent who was ten or a hundred times stronger than him. When he made a wrong move, he made a wrong move, and then he lost everything.

The intimate "Canna", those habitual movements, those soft whispers.Zhong Qianyi's heart was stabbed violently, dripping with blood.

How much he wished that he didn't know the past of the two of them at all, but the more he wanted to ignore it, the more vivid the plot that came from the two of them.

Isn't that right? Zhong Qianyi, you are an intruder.

But this is also good, this is also good.This is great, the two of them... Mingcan and Zeyang...

Haven't you always wanted to do this?Didn't they keep pushing Du Mingcan towards Gu Zeyang?Didn't he always worry that his future self would make Du Mingcan sad?In this way, all problems are solved, right?

what are you crying for.Zhong Qianyi why are you crying, why, why, why!

He won't pester you anymore, he finally got rid of you, you hurt him badly, he is finally going to be reborn from Nirvana, why are you crying, you should laugh, why don't you laugh, why don't you laugh?

Late autumn, night.The night breeze is cool, and the heart is even colder.The biting coolness penetrated into the body layer by layer from the skin, the cold and numb feeling stimulated every nerve of Zhong Qianyi as if being pricked by needles, it was so painful.so cold.

In the room, with warm lights and a big warm bed, Gu Zeyang looked at Du Mingcan with his eyes closed tightly in front of him, and finally sighed helplessly.He had already let go of his arms, but Du Mingcan's embrace was not warm at all.

"Open your eyes, he's gone."

The person opposite slowly opened his eyes. After a long time, a tear rolled down the corner of his eye, stayed, slid, and disappeared.