not lonely

Since parting with Shen Lu at the dinner that day, Liao Tongxun hastily joined the team.

The new play is an ancient costume, and Liao Tongxun played the leading role in it. While he was busy filming, he had to finish recording the album's songs in a hurry.Liao Tongxun suddenly felt incapable of splitting up, and spent almost all his sleeping time on the plane.

But compared to the pain of not being able to see that person, not being able to sleep without sleep is really nothing.

That day when he was in a daze from burning, he was almost going to rape Zhong Qianyi.But in the end, Zhong Qianyi was defeated by Zhong Qianyi's expression as if he was looking down on death.

That was the person he had loved for too long, and he really didn't want to add any stain to this relationship.

After that, he devoted himself to his work and deliberately didn't think about him, but it was hard to endure in the daytime, but at night, his thoughts would drown him like a tide.

In the sleepless nights of thinking about him, he really couldn't control himself, calling him, even if he just heard him say goodbye, sorry, or just sighed softly and called his name, he felt The next day I was full of energy again, full of strength enough to cope with the exhausting life of the day.

But since the last time they broke up unhappy, he hasn't seen Zhong Qianyi for three full months.He knew that Zhong Qianyi was angry, and maybe he didn't want to see him, so he just looked at him from a distance, and kept him from knowing, and he was satisfied if he could see his appearance.

So he arranged a day off with the crew and rushed back overnight.

The next day, he rushed downstairs to his company early in the morning, found a window seat in the coffee shop opposite, sat down, and waited for Zhong Qianyi with his mobile phone.

Zhong Qianyi is used to coming early, and arrives at the company on time at eight o'clock every day. Sometimes she and Shen Lu go to the cafe to buy a cup of coffee, and sometimes they have breakfast at the fast food restaurant next door.However, it was past nine o'clock today, and there was still no sign of him.

He was anxious to wait, so he went to the front desk fully armed to ask the situation, why Director Zhong hadn't come to work yet.

"Director Zhong? I heard that he is sick. He seems to be in the People's Hospital. Director Shen just asked for leave for him."

Liao Tongxun was taken aback for a moment, then he hailed a car non-stop and rushed to the hospital.

Dr. Zhao looked at Liao Tongxun in front of him, then looked back at Zhong Qianyi, and then patted Liao Tongxun on the shoulder: "You are Xiaoyi's friend, right? Hey, try to persuade him, your body is your own, so you can't be careless !"

Liao Tongxun almost moved to Zhong Qianyi's bedside step by step, staring at him motionlessly, unable to believe what he heard just now.

"Xiaoyi...I...you..." He wanted to call his name, wanted to tell him that he was here because he missed him so much, and wanted to ask him what was wrong with him.

But his mind was blank, he couldn't speak, he couldn't speak.

"Tongxun..." Zhong Qianyi held Liao Tongxun's trembling hands, guessing what Liao Tongxun had heard in his heart, but seeing him trembling all over and unable to speak, he probably heard the whole thing. Completely, "Don't do this, listen to me..."

"Xiaoyi...Brother Xiaoyi...what did he say just now... mean?" Liao Tongxun took several breaths before finishing the sentence intermittently.

Zhong Qianyi couldn't bear it, and was a little annoyed.His younger brother, who he planned to keep a secret from, unexpectedly found out about this in the first place.His previous indifference and alienation towards Liao Tongxun had no effect at all.

"Is what he said... true?" Liao Tongxun asked cautiously, how much he hoped to get a negative answer from Zhong Qianyi, how much he hoped that this was just a nightmare, or it was simply a misunderstanding caused by his hearsay.

"Tong Xun..."

"It's not true, how is it possible...Although you are often sick, but it's just a small problem of cold and fever. How could it be... how could it be..." Liao Tongxun forced himself to smile, but he didn't see it. , How bitter is this laugh.

"Brother Xiaoyi...I know...I know that you hate me and are angry with me. I always pester you. You obviously don't like me, but I'm always by your side. You obviously don't like hearing my voice. I still call you all the time, you obviously, obviously don't want to see me, but I, I come to you three times and four times..."

Liao Tongxun cried while talking, wiped his nose and tears, and forcibly stabilized his emotions.

"I know I was wrong, brother Xiaoyi, I was wrong, I was really wrong, I don't, I won't pester you in the future, I stay far away from you, don't, don't use this kind of excuse to force me away, OK?"

Zhong Qianyi was so sad that she leaned forward and hugged Liao Tongxun, "I'm sorry, Tongxun, brother... I shouldn't answer your phone call, see you in person, brother doesn't blame you, I'm not angry with you, no matter what you do, Brother will forgive you...you...don't say that..."

"Then...then...why did that white coat say you...was he courting death...why did he say that about you..."

"This matter... I will slowly..."

"Tell me! Tell me now why he..."

"Shixun, at this point, I don't want to lie to you, let alone delay you, you are still young, I don't want you to waste time on me..."

Liao Tongxun suddenly understood that Zhong Qianyi didn't answer the phone, ignored him, and deliberately indifferent to him, not because he was angry or disgusted, but because he was afraid that Liao Tongxun would not be able to accept the fact that he was sick and dying, and that he would be sad.

The person he loves is the stupidest fool in the world. He is terminally ill and in danger. What he fears is not suffering from illness or dying, but worrying about the people who love him around him and cannot accept it.

If this is true, then Liao Tongxun really cannot accept it.

He froze in place, repeatedly thinking about the conversation between Zhang Yixing and the doctor just now, and he didn't come back to his senses for a long time.

Zhang Yixing couldn't see him like this, so he got up and patted his shoulder.

"What disease? How to cure it?" Liao Tongxun suddenly pushed Zhong Qianyi's hand away, but he didn't realize that he was already in tears. At this moment, there was only one belief in his mind, that is, absolutely absolutely not letting Zhong Qianyi just like this Leaving him: "What needs to be replaced? Bone marrow or heart? Use mine, use mine..."

The huge blow made him tense and confused.

"Tongxun... calm down...it's not that bad...I...I'll be fine in a short time..." Facing Liao Tongxun, who has no master, Zhong Qianyi can only comfort him first, even if it's a lie, even if it's an extremely lame Comfort, at least, calm down the person who is on the verge of collapse.

"Short time... How long is a short time..." Liao Tongxun looked at him with empty eyes.

"...One year, at least one year, I'll be fine."

His mother left in the eighth month after the low-grade fever persisted.The doctor said at the time that my mother was very strong, and it was really not easy to persist in this situation for such a long time.

Zhong Qianyi knew that his mother was reluctant to part with his father and him.

"Then... what about after that year..." Liao Tongxun calmed down, and asked lightly, "how... how to heal you..."

"Tongxun..." Zhong Qianyi frowned and sighed helplessly, really couldn't bear to disappoint Liao Tongxun.

"What will happen in one year? Tell me, what will happen? Zhong Qianyi?"

"Tong Xun, I know it will take time to accept this...but..."

"Zhong Qianyi, are you going to die?" Liao Tongxun suddenly reached out and grabbed the shoulder of the person in front of him, stood up, and looked at him condescendingly, "Tell me, do you mean that maybe after a year, you will die ?”

After a while of silence, Zhong Qianyi still couldn't bear to say the cruel result, so he had to repeat his name again.

"Tong Xun...don't do this..."

The implication is that everyone understands it.

After hearing the answer, Liao Tongxun fell to the ground as if exhausted, panting heavily.

To this day, those boasted Haikou, those promises made to Zhong Qianyi, those goals set for themselves, the persistence to try everything to snatch Zhong Qianyi away from Du Mingcan, and watching Zhong Qianyi The fear of dying with another person collapsed in an instant, and what was left was endless ridicule of himself.

He couldn't accept the reality that Zhong Qianyi might leave him again, and left him completely without leaving any trace in such a decisive and irreparable way. He was about to suffocate.

How could he allow it.

"Let's go," Liao Tongxun got up suddenly and pulled Zhong Qianyi, "Let's go to the doctor, and I'll take you for an examination. Now that medicine is so advanced, I don't believe it can't be cured."

"Tongxun, calm down," Zhong Qianyi grabbed the violent Liao Tongxun, "Don't do this, Liao Tongxun!"

"Then what do you want from me? Zhong Qianyi? Just watch you wait to die?" Liao Tongxun broke away from Zhong Qianyi's hands, "Zhong Qianyi, don't be so cruel, you can't treat me like this."

Liao Tongxun finally couldn't hold back the turbulent tears. He hugged Zhong Qianyi, choking speechlessly.

It's punishment, it must be.I shouldn't pester you, I shouldn't force you, I shouldn't insist on embarrassing you even though I know you don't love me.But please don't choose this way to get rid of me, don't punish me with this result.I made a mistake, whether it is a mountain of knives, a sea of ​​fire, a forest of guns, or rain of bullets, give me the pain, give me the torture, give me the death, give me all the suffering, okay?Don't hurt him, don't torture him, he's not wrong, he didn't hurt anyone, he was just innocently loved by me, entangled by me, the culprit is me, it's me, all the disasters, give me, okay?

good or not?

The love that sprouted in midsummer at the age of 17 took eight years of rooting, breaking the ground, branching, spreading leaves, and finally bloomed bright red flowers. How could you pick them casually, and they fell into mud without sniffing the fragrance? Grind into dust, from now on there is no concern.

In the end, Liao Tongxun couldn't hold back, so Zhong Qianyi went to the doctor with him.

Taking advantage of Zhong Qianyi's inspection time, Liao Tongxun called Chen. He only said that he had something to do at home and needed to take a long vacation for a while. He didn't talk much about Zhong Qianyi's condition.But the TV series over there is currently being filmed, and one day's delay will cost an extra day's money. It's impossible for the crew to waste such a long time for him, so this vacation is not so easy to ask.

"What reason do you have to ask for leave? The filming is already halfway through, so how will the cost be paid for a temporary replacement?" After persuading Liao Tongxun for a long time, Chen was somewhat annoyed, "You don't give me a valid reason, I can't grant you leave!"

Liao Tongxun ignored it and hung up the phone.

Just when Zhong Qianyi's examination results came out, he supported Zhong Qianyi with trembling hands and sat at Dr. Zhao's desk, waiting for the verdict.

The result was not beyond Zhong Qianyi's expectation.This terrible disease, after more than 20 years of dormancy, finally had a face-to-face with him.

"As far as Xiaoyi's current situation is concerned, the condition is likely to deteriorate further. The low-grade fever persists, indicating that there is still inflammation in the body. We suggest that it is best to be hospitalized as soon as possible, because a series of complications will occur in the later stages of the disease. It can even cause people to fall into a coma, which can be life-threatening in severe cases. Therefore, it is relatively safe in the hospital."

Liao Tongxun didn't say anything after hearing this, and wanted to help Zhong Qianyi with the admission procedures.Zhong Qianyi also agreed, but stubbornly delayed the admission for a while.

"Stop sticking to me. You skipped work from the crew, right? Isn't actor Liao known as the most professional? You can't hold back the crew. Hurry up and go back to filming."

"Don't drive me away..." Liao Tongxun pulled Zhong Qianyi's sleeve, "I have to stay and take care of you..."

"Look, my fever is gone. I can run and jump. I'm fine. You can talk about it after you finish the work at hand?" Then, he pushed Liao Tongxun out of the door. Hospitalized, the company has to hand over the work anyway, besides, my condition is not that bad, so I don’t need to be hospitalized so early,”

Seeing that Liao Tongxun was not moved, he wrinkled his face and continued with an ouch, "Ancestor, it's okay, be obedient, go back quickly. After a while, your brother Shen will come to pick me up and leave the hospital. You said that you both like me, and then Fighting for me, wouldn't it be better for me... Hahahaha..."

Liao Tongxun felt a little better when he heard that he could make jokes, and he couldn't resist him. He had no choice but to follow his promise and go back to work. He looked back and walked at every step. The corridor of more than ten meters insisted on walking for more than ten minutes. generally.

In fact, there was another reason why Zhong Qianyi refused to be hospitalized. Liao Tongxun could guess that he didn't speak.

Zhong Qianyi was just wondering how to tell Du Mingcan.

This reality is too bloody. They are actors in this bloody drama, but they don't know if they can perform the happy ending that the audience loves to watch.But no matter what, Du Mingcan has the right to know the direction of the script, instead of passively accepting the miserable role assigned to him.

Zhong Qianyi thought about hiding it from him, but in the end she still planned to tell him.If the "long days to come" of the two of them eventually turned into "the days to come are not many", he hoped that when he left, he would be accompanied by his lover.