not lonely

The city that has been absent for many days has brought countless thoughts to Du Mingcan.Originally, this business trip gave Du Mingcan two days to visit the local scenic spots, but he was eager to return home. On the night after finishing work, after attending the farewell banquet prepared by the other party's company, he made a final reservation without stopping. The plane flew back.

He only slept for three hours on the plane, but because of his longing, he didn't feel sleepy at all.

After getting off the plane, he rushed home immediately, and then bought porridge for Zhong Qianyi's breakfast in the restaurant downstairs.

But when he opened the door, he found that Zhong Qianyi was not at home.The house is deserted.So he put down his luggage and called Zhong Qianyi.

At that time, Zhong Qianyi had already been in the hospital for two days. Because of a sudden high fever, he was brought in by Liao Tongxun who flew back from other places overnight because he couldn't get through to his phone.The fever has not subsided for two days, sometimes high and sometimes low.Liao Tongxun stayed by his side day and night for two days, seeing that he was in a daze with a fever, as anxious as an ant on a hot pan.

When she returned home from the bar that night, Zhong Qianyi felt excruciating pain in her limbs.He poured himself a glass of water and drank it whole, then lay down on the bed and passed out.

In his sleep, there were Shen Lu crying in distress, and that long and lingering kiss.Zhong Qianyi didn't know what was wrong with him, if he was really dying of illness, he just felt that his whole body hurt, and his heart hurt even more.It hurts him to see Shen Lu crying, and it hurts even more to see Shen Lu kissing Song Haichuan. He seems to have no other senses, only this feeling is tormenting him.

When Liao Tongxun came to look for Zhong Qianyi the next morning, he saw him curled up on the bed, his cheeks were flushed, his whole body was hot, and he was even muttering something in a low voice.No matter how much Liao Tongxun called, he couldn't wake him up. Knowing that something was wrong, he rushed him to the hospital.

But Du Mingcan, who couldn't find Zhong Qianyi, was sitting on the sofa at home in a daze.Feeling lost for being empty-handed.

Thinking of what Zhong Qianyi had told him about the audit on WeChat before, Du Mingcan guessed that he was probably busy at the company all night.So I hurried downstairs to the company.

He really couldn't wait to see him.

It was already working time when we arrived at the company, and only after we went to the finance department did we find out that Zhong Qianyi had already handed over the work and gone through the resignation procedures, Du Mingcan gradually became uneasy.Zhong Qianyi's phone number still didn't work, and Du Mingcan ran into Shen Lu head-on when he was sitting on pins and needles and didn't know what to do.

He lowered his eyebrows and narrowed his eyes, walking in a hurry, as if someone owed him money.

Shen Lu was taken aback when he saw him, and then walked away without any expression.Not a word.

Although the relationship between the two has been in an awkward situation because of Zhong Qianyi, but the friendship between the two people who met and said hello in the company before still exists.Why did Shen Lu's attitude take a turn for the worse when he was away during this period of time?

"Shen Lu," Du Mingcan hurriedly stopped him regardless of his attitude, "Do you know where Xiaoyi is? I haven't been able to call him. I can't find him even when I go home. Also, he Why did you resign all of a sudden? You didn't tell me so suddenly."

"Du Mingcan, don't you know?" Shen Lu turned around and sneered, "I didn't expect you, Du Mingcan, who is so arrogant and arrogant, to be so concerned about gains and losses when falling in love with Zhong Qianyi? Aren't you always ready to hide your beauty in the golden house?" Has Zhong Qianyi surrounded him so that no one can see him? Why bother to come to me again and pretend he doesn't know?"

"Shen Lu, what do you mean?"

"What do you mean? Your Zhong Qianyi said that he wants to resign and go home to let you take care of him. He doesn't want to see me in the future and he is afraid that you will be angry. Do you understand?" Shen Lu suddenly grabbed Du Mingcan's collar Pushing him to the corner, "Du Mingcan, I surrendered. You won this battle. I fucking lost completely. Are you satisfied?"

"Did he really tell you that? The exact words?"

Shen Lu put down Du Mingcan, "If it's not for work reasons, let's not meet each other. I don't want to think of him every time I see you."

Then he will never leave a trace of leeway.Just thinking about it, Shen Lu felt extremely sad.

Du Mingcan couldn't recover from Shen Lu's words just now, but he knew that those words must not be Zhong Qianyi's original intention.Something must have happened to Zhong Qianyi to hurt Shen Lu's heart like this.He could only take out his phone again and dial the number he knew so well.

The phone rang for a long time, so long that Du Mingcan had already lost the phone and took it from his ear, only to hear a familiar voice from inside. Du Mingcan put the phone back to his ear in surprise, and Zhong Qianyi was a little tired but Still a warm tone.

"Hey, Mingcan."

"Where are you, Zhong Qianyi? I'll go find you."

Du Mingcan held Zhong Qianyi's Lao Gao's hand, which was swollen from the IV drip, and suppressed the tears from overflowing his eyes.

It's only been a month, and his lover has become like this. Before he left, he was joking with him in high spirits, but now he is so weak that he can't even walk by himself.

"Does it hurt?"

He wanted to ask what was wrong with him, why he made himself like this, why he said those things to Shen Lu, he had so many inexplicable things he wanted to ask him.He had too many words choked in his throat.However, what he said was only this question, two short words.

Just like on the day of Zhong Qianyi's car accident, he was so distressed that he didn't know what to say, but he just burst out these two words in a bad way.

Zhong Qianyi smiled and shook her head, "It's just a fever, why do you have such an expression."

Before coming here, Liao Tongxun had already told him about Zhong Qianyi's situation, and he even met his attending physician.The sudden high fever was not a good sign, and his condition was worse than before.

"I'm worried about you. You said that you are not smart at first, so don't be stupid anymore."

"I'll stay at home if I'm so stupid. Let you support me and make you poor." Zhong Qianyi squeezed her nose, showing a funny expression on purpose.Seeing that Du Mingcan was successfully amused, he also frowned.

Regarding the others, the two of them seemed to have a tacit understanding and didn't mention a word.

I don't know if he was really hungry after sleeping for two days, or the porridge bought by Liao Tongxun was too delicious. Zhong Qianyi drank two bowls in one go, and also ate a big bowl of wonton noodles, before finally burping comfortably .

Thanks to the power of these foods, Zhong Qianyi's fever subsided a bit, his complexion looked better, and he gained strength.Anyway, I can move freely.

Du Mingcan took her to the hospital downstairs to bask in the sun, Zhong Qianyi was so happy that she almost jumped up.It seems that a bird out of the cage can fly to the sky with its wings.

As soon as this mood improved, Zhong Qianyi clamored to be discharged from the hospital.Begging for nothing with Liao Tongxun failed, so he went to find Du Mingcan to have fun.Liao Tongxun blew his beard and stared, complaining that he forgot the pain when the scar healed.Life and death do not agree.

"Zhong Qianyi, just do it. If I didn't find out early that day, you would have been burned to death." Liao Tongxun thought of his body temperature that could boil an egg and broke into a cold sweat. At night, do you think that you are lightly ill? Do you know how dangerous it is if you have a fever... Do you know that you are a sick person... "

Du Mingcan's heart sank when he heard this, and his complexion suddenly turned ashen.

"There was a special situation that day, and I promise it won't happen in the future." Zhong Qianyi saw that Du Mingcan's expression was not good, and quickly stopped Liao Tongxun's chatter, "And the doctor said that I have recovered very well recently, and my physical condition is very good , the most suitable place to go to the place where the birds are singing and the flowers are fragrant. Don't stop me"

Liao Tongxun and Du Mingcan scolded Zhong Qianyi in their hearts.Fuck it's in exceptionally good shape.

In the end, his dream of rushing out of the hospital was shattered, and he could only barely let himself go in the small garden of the hospital.

The price for Zhong Qianyi to compromise and stay in the hospital is that the two of them cannot stay in the hospital all day long.The few days when Liao Tongxun was able to fly back were the time squeezed out of the itinerary.He told Chen about Zhong Qianyi's situation in general. Although Chen was in a dilemma, he agreed reasonably.But Liao Tongxun is currently on the rise, and sometimes he can't even sleep when the announcement is full.He felt really sorry for taking so long for him.As for Du Mingcan, it's the peak season of changing seasons right now, and order planning is on the agenda. Zhong Qianyi knows how busy she is.It's not a solution for the two big men to stay here all day long.So under Zhong Qianyi's coercion and lure to death, the two obediently went back to work.

When Du Mingcan returned to the company, he was just in time for the executive meeting. He had originally asked the company for a month's leave, but in Shen Lu's opinion, it must be to travel around the world with Zhong Qianyi.But I didn't expect to come back to work after more than a week. Could it be that the two of them had a good time?

Shen Lu understood that he hadn't seen Zhong Qianyi for a long time and missed him a little.

He clearly told himself that he couldn't do it, but he also knew that he couldn't help himself.

So he sent Du Mingcan an msn, "Have a nice trip? Director Du."

Du Mingcan looked at the dialog box that popped up, smiled wryly, and replied briefly. "It's okay, thank you for your concern."

Du Mingcan knew that Zhong Qianyi said those words to prevent Shen Lu from worrying.He was thinking that if he hadn't happened to meet him, would Zhong Qianyi not have told him at all, as if he was hiding something from Shen Lu.

He is surprisingly cruel to those who love him.

"Mingcan, let's go out for a cup of coffee together?"

"it is good."

The two stirred the coffee in front of them with a spoon, their movements were surprisingly consistent, and they were silent, as if they were waiting for the other to speak first.

"It's unexpected that someone like Zhong Qianyi, who regards work as his life, would leave for that reason."

Du Mingcan smiled noncommittally, "Do you believe what he said?"

"I don't believe it, I don't believe a single word, but is it useful if I don't believe it? Didn't he leave anyway?" Shen Lu smiled forcefully, "He didn't answer the phone calls, and even brought Song Haichuan over. I don’t want to believe it, but the facts are forcing me to believe it.”

"Are you with Song Haichuan?" Du Mingcan took a sip of his coffee and deliberately changed the subject.

Shen Lu nodded. "This way you feel more at ease, right. As he wishes."

"No matter what, Shen Lu." Du Mingcan drank the coffee in the quilt in one gulp, stood up and patted Shen Lu on the shoulder, "Zhong Qianyi hopes that you will be well."

After Du Mingcan walked a long way, Shen Lu lowered his head and drank the coffee in one gulp. The bitterness made him cough violently.

Okay, who can tell me what I should do to be really good.

Du Mingcan sneaked away from work for a while and ran to see Zhong Qianyi, who was holding a laptop on the bed and typing something.Seeing Du Mingcan coming, he closed the book, with shining eyes,

"Why did you come at this hour today? Did you skip work?"

Du Mingcan was suddenly a little sad, a little distressed, and a little impatient to see him.

"I'm not busy today, I'll come and see if you're good or not."

Zhong Qianyi smiled and pointed to the IV bottle beside him, "The fourth bottle will be finished soon. Look at my efficiency. Is it necessary for Director Du to skip work to check the post in person?"

Du Mingcan walked to Zhong Qianyi's side with a smile, and put his hand on his head to test his temperature, "Not bad, today's temperature is quite normal."

"Yeah, I think I'm out of the hospital now..."

"Don't mention these two words again..."

"All right..."

The two words of being discharged from the hospital that Zhong Qianyi thought about did not come true, but Du Mingcan brought him delicious food to satisfy his appetite.Then, by the way, talk about the big and small things in the company, and make complaints about superficial meetings.It made Zhong Qianyi laugh out loud.

Du Mingcan avoided Shen Lu intentionally or unintentionally, but Zhong Qianyi knew it well and didn't ask.

In fact, he really wanted to ask Zhong Qianyi, if one day he really had to leave and couldn't see Shen Lu, would he regret it.

But he didn't dare to ask, and he didn't dare to think.He is like an ostrich with his head in the sand, escaping from a reality he dares not face.

"Ming Can."

"Ok?"

"I didn't tell Shen Lu about my illness." Zhong Qianyi reached out and grabbed Mingcan's hand, rubbing it gently in the palm of his hand.

"I know, I never mentioned it to him."

"Mingcan, I don't tell him, I just think that if he knows, it will only increase his worry and not help, so I..."

"I understand Xiaoyi, you don't need to explain to me," Mingcan grabbed his hand with his backhand, "If Shen Lu finds out, he will be sad. If he is sad, you will be sad too."

"Ming Can..."

"Xiao Yi, don't worry about my misunderstanding. For me now, there is nothing more important than you. I don't care who they like you. As long as I can be with you now, I am content.

"Actually, I'm quite fortunate. You didn't hide it from him because you didn't want Shen Lu to be sad, but you didn't hide it from me. So the person who can be by your side at this moment is me, not him. If you don't want to be sad because you are afraid of me Tell me, then I... I don't even have this advantage..."

"Fool Du Mingcan..."

Zhong Qianyi hugged him suddenly, and after a long time, she let go, and then kissed him lightly on the corner of his mouth.

"I didn't tell Shen Lu because I knew that I couldn't respond to his feelings at all. My heart is full of you now."

"Mingcan, I admit that I used to have an obsession with Shen Lu that I couldn't let go of, but this feeling, after you appeared, slowly disappeared. Both of us are too passive in our relationship. I didn't know that we were actually in love for such a long period of time in the past. When I knew it, I realized that the person in my heart had changed unconsciously. And the past time is gone forever. The past cannot be recovered.

"Memories are beautiful, but the people in front of us are even better.

"Mingcan, I didn't tell him, not only because I was afraid that he would be sad, but because I was afraid of causing more trouble to each other. I just want to be quiet and finish the journey with the person I love. Let He, too, can continue with his future life without distractions.

"And the one I love is you."

Du Mingcan held back tears for a long time, and finally shed them.

He didn't shed tears when he knew about Zhong Qianyi's condition, and he didn't shed tears when he saw Zhong Qianyi's abnormally haggard appearance after having a fever and injections, but in Zhong Qianyi's constant words, tears flowed down his face.

His heart hurts as if being pulled by someone, and he feels sorry for the vulnerable person who is tortured by the disease in front of him.Those sentences that came out of his mouth seemed to condense all the moisture in Du Mingcan's body in his eye sockets.His eye sockets were so overwhelmed that they blew out.

The sunlight outside the window was just right, bright and warm the whole room, the two held hands tightly, and the couple's rings were shining brightly under the sunlight.Du Mingcan looked at Zhong Qianyi like this, and the pain he had endured for many days finally rushed out of his body, turning into small moans.

The person I love the most is holding my hand and telling me that he loves me the same.This is probably the happiest thing in the world.

But why should I cry?I am clearly dying of happiness, why do I cry?

I'm just too afraid that the happy days will come to an abrupt end one day.I was afraid that the hot air balloon called "Happiness" that was flying with me would suddenly burst in mid-air and smash me to pieces.

Zhong Qianyi, without the happiness you gave, Du Mingcan would be crushed to pieces.