Rebirth stay away from Lao Tzu

Last night, Ning also turned off his phone very early. This morning, he woke up and received several messages from Qi Xuanlou, and received a call from him before he could reply.

Ning Ye was in a bad mood, so he hung up after a few perfunctory words.

It just so happened that Qixuanlou was very busy today, so he called Ning Ye during the lunch break and asked if he had eaten, what he had eaten, etc., but he didn't say a few words.

In the evening he called Ning Ye again.

For some reason, Qi Xuanlou always felt that today's Ning was also a little strange to reject people thousands of miles away.

He doesn't like the feeling of being out of control.

Ning also looked at the flashing names on the phone, Qi, Xuan, Lou.

Adding up the two lives, it will be 25 years in a blink of an eye, no matter how stubborn I am, how duplicity I say, I still only like him after going around.

But if he likes him, there will be no home where he can cry unrestrainedly in the future.

The days when I was too greedy to steal it are probably coming to an end.

Ning also answered the phone: "Hello."

"Have you gone home?" Qi Xuanlou's voice was brisk.

Ning also hummed, and added: "I'm with my parents. How about you?"

"I just finished eating and I'm going back." Qi Xuanlou chuckled, "Are you coming back? Do you want me to pick you up?"

"No, I've taken a shower and I'm going to bed." Ning Ye opened the balcony door with his mobile phone. The balcony on his side was not wrapped up. .”

Qi Xuanlou snorted and acted coquettishly: "I'll pick you up and come back to stay tonight. It feels like I haven't seen you for a long time. I miss you."

"I'm already lying down." Ning Ye raised the corners of his mouth facing the dark night sky, but his smile didn't reach his eyes, "Forget about it today, I'll just go to sleep after hanging up the phone."

"You lied to me again, didn't you?" Qi Xuanlou's voice came, smiling, "I saw you standing on your balcony, it's not cold, you, go back and get dressed and go downstairs."

Ning also stretched his neck and looked out of the gate condescendingly.There are street lights outside the door, but no cars can be seen.He reckoned that Qi Xuanlou had heard the wind: "Then I'll go back, goodbye."

"I beg you, ancestor, come out and go back with me." Qi Xuanlou lost his morals again, "I'm so boring living alone, I don't even have anyone to talk to, and the door is deserted and lonely."

Ning Ye: "..."

"I'm really downstairs at your house. You put on your clothes and come out, and I'll wait for you at the gate of your house. The temperature in the car has been adjusted, the song is also your favorite, the cap of the mineral water is unscrewed, and the seat angles are all right. You are usually used to it, just wait for your arrival. Hurry up."

Ning also lost to him: "Then wait for me to put on some clothes. Hang up first."

After hanging up the phone, Ning also returned to the bedroom and threw the phone on the bed, a little discouraged.

Just now he was thinking about abandoning Qixuan Tower and maintaining family harmony, but he disrupted his plan with a single phone call.

Ning also resigned herself to changing clothes and preparing to go out.

When I went downstairs, I met Sui Ruan and Ning Zhengchao sitting watching TV and chatting. Ning also said hello: "Dad, Mom, I'm going out for a while, and I won't be back tonight. Go to bed early, don't wait for me."

"Hey, what are you going out for when it's almost nine o'clock?" Sui Ruan asked, "What's the big deal? Xiaoman's?"

Ning also shook his head: "No. I don't drive by myself either, my friend will pick me up."

"Stop drinking!" Sui Ruan glared at him disapprovingly.

Ning Ye said while changing his shoes, "Got it. Just sit down for a while."

Sui Ruan tilted her head and asked, "Who's coming to pick you up? Qi... Qi why is that here?"

Ning also paused, nodded: "Yeah."

Sui Ruan turned her head to watch TV, muttering: "I don't worry about going out with him. But you two should be careful when driving. When you have time, ask him to come to your house for a meal. I always heard that you have a good relationship. Mom hasn't officially met yet."

"I have a lot of friends, can you meet each of them?" Ning also subconsciously refused, "He is just a high school classmate, relatively speaking, the relationship is not bad, not particularly good."

Sui Ruan snapped: "I'm not willing to let you down. I'm not so rare."

Ning also opened the door and went out. How can I reflect on this damn thing while walking on the road, it seems not right?

He is in his 20s, not in his teens, to make a good friend you have to meet his mother formally?As for?

Once out of the gate, Ning saw Qi Xuanlou's car parked across the road.He couldn't see it from the balcony just now, so he probably stopped here in this short period of time.The heater in the car is turned on very well, neither hot nor cold, very comfortable.

"Is the service okay?" Qi Xuanlou joked with him when he saw him going upstairs, "If you are not satisfied, just tell me and correct it next time."

Ning was also amused by him, and smiled perfunctorily: "Why did you ask me to come out in the middle of the night?"

"It's nothing. Let's go." Qi Xuanlou's voice sounded particularly full, as if he had endless energy, "Go home."

Ning Ye lazily leaned on the back of the chair, squinted his eyes and turned on the air conditioner, thinking, no, that's not home.

The place you just left is home.

Thinking of this, my heart ached and convulsed as if being kneaded together.

Qi Xuanlou walked half way from High, and finally found that Ning Ye didn't seem to have any interest in playing around with him.While waiting for the red light, he looked down at Ning Ye's face and asked him, "What's wrong with you? You're in a bad mood."

Ning also nodded.

"What happened?" Qi Xuanlou asked, "Come and talk, maybe I can provide you with a solution."

Ning also shook his head: "I'll talk about it later, I'm too lazy to talk now."

Qi Xuanlou took a deep look at him, wanted to speak, but held back.

Everyone needs a time to be completely alone and organize themselves. It's not that we don't share or communicate, it's just not in time.

Just be patient.

The two of them went directly from Ning Ye's house to his own apartment, and had no spare time activities.Ning Ye really wants to sleep in his heart. Sleeping is the only period of time when he can express himself freely without thinking or controlling. Ning Ye doesn't want to think about things now, he just wants to sleep.

Qi Xuanlou poured him a glass of red wine.

"Your complexion is not good." Qi Xuanlou said, "If you need help, just tell me directly. You don't have to be afraid to owe me."

Ning also took the wine glass, turned it around, and drank it all in one gulp.

"Go to bed early." Qi Xuanlou picked up the empty cup and touched Ning Ye's hand, "Are you still taking a bath? Why don't you take a bath? Your hands are so cold, do you have a cold?"

"I just came out wearing thin clothes." Ning also withdrew his hand, "Okay, thank you, go to bed early. I'm sleepy too."

Qi Xuanlou said good night to him and went out. After a while, he brought a small stall in and put it on Ning's lap: "When your legs are warm, they will be warm. Go to sleep, good night."

Ning also pulled the quilt up to her neck, stuffed it tightly, and sank into the soft mattress, with a familiar fresh aroma in her nose.

He thought for a while, then got up again and found a disposable heating eye mask from the bedside cabinet - when Qi Xuanlou prepared it for him last time, he thought it was really useful - disassembled it and put it on.

Soon there was heat in the eyes, and Ning also fell into a deep sleep in a daze.

Qi Xuanlou came to see him before going to bed, saw that he was already asleep, thought about it, and went out to make a phone call.After asking around, no one knew what happened to Ning Ye. Everyone said it was fine, nothing unexpected, even Ji Shaoheng and Wen Shanshan were normal.

That's because of home.

But I didn't hear that his parents had any diseases.If he was sick, it would be impossible for Ning to still live here with him now.Then...Qi Xuanlou thought, if something happened to Ning Ye's family that made him remain silent like this, nine out of ten it was because Ning Ye's parents were aware of his unusual relationship with him.

Is he making a decision at this moment?

From yesterday to today, if there is any alienation, is it because you want to protect your family and leave yourself?

Qi Xuanlou looked back at Ning Ye's bedroom, through the half-closed door, Ning Ye fell asleep peacefully.

Thinking of the harmony and warmth of Ning Ye's family, Qi Xuanlou was shaken for a moment.

If Ning's parents asked Ning to choose between himself and his parents, would he still be so stubborn in asking Ning to choose himself?Even if he could give up his parents and be with himself, but...will he be happy?

Do you have the ability to bring him happiness?

On this issue, Qi Xuanlou was not confident for the first time.He found that even if he could bring Ning Ye more happiness, the fact that he separated Ning Ye from his family was enough to bring great harm to Ning Ye.

Qi Xuanlou regained his composure, and quickly changed his mind.

If you can't choose one of the two, then... both.

A few days later, Xue Xiaoman called Ning Ye early in the morning to complain, his voice was clear and energetic, and he felt that he could spend another 50 years: "Why are you so uninteresting! Can't you just give me the medical report? Why? Give it to my brother! My brother looked at it and said that I had an ulcer on my stomach, and I had to be hospitalized for treatment, and I was lying in a big trough, so it’s impossible!"

"Doesn't it hurt if you have an ulcer? You should be treated in the hospital. Tolerating it for a while is not as good as eating every day and making your stomach hurt." Ning Ye knew that her parents and her brother chose to hide it, so she endured it. Shishuo spoke in the usual tone she used to talk to her, "I just happened to meet your brother, so I'll let him take it back for you."

Xiao Man pretended to cry: "You revealed my privacy, and I suffered a loss. You have to make it up to me."

"Here are two bags for you." Ning Ye said, "Christmas is coming soon, is there a limited edition?"

Xiaoman screamed in surprise: "Ah! Sixth brother, you are so reliable! During the hospitalization, I lived by looking at pictures! Buy whichever one you like!"

"When you're better, I'll buy you ten." Ning Ye pursed his lips hard, took his phone away to take a breath, he was afraid that his nasal sound would be suspected by her, "you should cooperate with the treatment , live in and settle down, and I'll see you go."

"Ah, Brother Six, you are really a caring girl friend." Xue Xiaoman snorted and laughed, "My brother would mock me every time he saw me buying a bag, and he didn't understand me at all. Wait until I get out of the hospital , I will accompany you to eat delicious food! I am not afraid of being fat!"

The lighter and more yearning her voice was, the more uncomfortable Ning Ye felt.He opened his mouth and gasped silently: "Okay, it's done. Your Brother Sui Song has signed a new endorsement, which is a cosmetic line of skin care products. His family has a Christmas suit and a limited edition lipstick. I'll get you a copy."

"Okay!" Xiaoman agreed with a happy smile, and then asked, "Did you speak for Sui and Song Dynasties? Then can I have two copies, and give Xiaoyu one."

Ning also nodded: "Yes. I want three copies, and my sister also has it."

"However, the only thing our sister of the God of Learning loves is learning, and learning makes her happy." Xiao Man muttered, "Then it's settled. Hang up."

"Hurry up and get well." Ning Ye paused, "I'll see you in two days."

"Okay! For nothing!"

After hanging up the phone, Ning also rubbed his face.

Someone behind him suddenly said: "Is Xue Xiaoman hospitalized?"

Ning Ye looked back and saw that it was Qixuanlou who had gone and returned: "Didn't you go to work?"

"I left something behind, and I came back to get it." Qi Xuanlou didn't even change his shoes, stood at the door of Ning Ye's bedroom, and asked again, "What's wrong with Xue Xiaoman?"

"Oh, she has an ulcer on her stomach." Ning also came to her senses, "Going for examination and treatment."

Qi Xuanlou nodded to show that he understood: "I'm going first, I'll call you later."

Ning also held the phone and waved to him.

As soon as Qi Xuanlou went out, he started calling Xue Donghan.Ever since Xue Donghan was the host on Xue Donghan’s birthday and Ning also took Qixuanlou there once, Qixuanlou has maintained a very close relationship with Xue Donghan. Xue Donghan knows that he has a good relationship with Ning, and he is very reserved In order to save face, everyone comes and goes, and there is also cooperation in business, which can be regarded as a win-win situation.

But Qi Xuanlou didn't want to play around with him anymore, and asked straight to the point: "Mr. Xue, tell me the truth, what's wrong with Xiaoman?"

Xue Donghan was already in a bad mood, he and his parents were the only ones who knew about Xiaoman's illness, and Ning Ye was the only one who knew about Xiaoman's condition. I wondered where Qixuanlou got the news.He sneered and asked back, "What does it have to do with you?"

"It has nothing to do with me, and I'm not the kind of person who inquires about privacy and loves to spread it around." Qi Xuanlou didn't mind Xue Donghan's rudeness, "I just think Ning Ye is in a bad mood, and I want to know why he is in such a bad mood. I just heard When he called Xiaoman and told her to treat her properly, I thought about it, and it was probably because of this. Xiaoman...is it really an ordinary ulcer?"

Xue Donghan paused: "No. Please take care of Ning Ye for a while. I don't have time to thank him recently. Let him not worry too much, he will be fine."

Then he hung up.

Although he didn't know what kind of illness it was, Qi Xuanlou knew about Ning Ye's physical examination with Xue Xiaoman for a long time.Presumably... not much better.

Qi Xuanlou let out a long breath, looked up at the sky, it was gloomy, probably the first snow of the year was about to fall.

Xue Xiaoman lived in the hospital for almost a whole winter.

Ning also visited her several times.One of them was with Qixuanlou, and he gave Xiaoman a peace talisman in front of Qixuanlou.

Qi Xuanlou was a little surprised when he saw that Ning also took out the peace talisman, but he was just surprised and didn't say anything.

Xue Xiaoman stayed in the hospital for a long time, during which time he had an operation.Although everyone told her that it was just a gastric ulcer, she was not stupid. She knew in her heart that there must be some other serious disease, the worst would be cancer, but although she was a little uncomfortable eating before, it was not obvious. Even if it is cancer, it should be early.

In the early stage of gastric cancer, surgical resection was performed, and the chance of cure should be quite high.At worst, it can last for a few years.

She said that to Ning Ye nonchalantly.

Ning also comforted her: "Don't think too much, just take good care of it. Think about so many lipsticks, perfumes, bags, clothes and shoes outside, you still have to hurry up and wear them again, otherwise this year's new models will be out of season. You Say it doesn't make sense."

Xue Xiaoman nodded seriously.

They chatted for a while, and Qi Xuanlou reminded Ning Ye that he still had something to do and it was time to leave.Ning also stood up and said goodbye to Xiaoman: "Just send me a message if you want anything."

Xue Xiaoman laughed bitterly: "I don't want anything now. I used to think about eating and drinking all day long, but now I feel anxious when I think about eating. Next time you come, bring me a bottle of sparkling wine."

Ning didn't quite understand the logic, but he still nodded, stroked Xue Xiaoman's hair and followed Qixuanlou out.

As soon as he turned the corner, he leaned against the wall.

Qi Xuanlou's sharp eyes and hands quickly mixed him up: "What's wrong?"

Ning Ye supported his knees with his hands, lowered his head, and his shoulders were drooping, breathing heavily.The smell of disinfectant was everywhere in the hospital. He took several deep breaths before maintaining this posture and said, "I really don't want to come here."

Qi Xuanlou put a hand on his shoulder and patted him.

Ning also sniffed.

Xue Xiaoman's condition was much worse than she expected—the doctor couldn't predict the situation before the operation, and after opening the cavity, it was found that resection was impossible, so she sewed it up again.

At that time, the doctor described it like this, the inside of the abdomen was like water splashed on the ground, it was all there, and there was no way to cut it.Ordinary doctors would not talk like this, but because of the special relationship, the doctor pondered for a while: "Our previous examination results showed that her physical condition does not allow chemotherapy, and chemotherapy may directly lead to paralysis or a vegetative state. If you do not choose chemotherapy if……"

The doctor paused, and looked at Xue Xiaoman's mother with some compassion.

Xue Donghan interrupted: "I'll go to the office later and tell you in detail."

Xue Xiaoman's mother supported Xue Donghan, her back was straight, her voice trembling: "Say it straight."

"I personally estimate that there are still three to five months." After the doctor finished speaking, he left with a sigh.

Xue Xiaoman's mother passed out right then.

These Xiaomans didn't know, what they told Xue Xiaoman was that one-third of her stomach was removed during the operation, which didn't affect the overall function of the stomach, and she could be discharged from the hospital when she recovered.

They were still hesitating whether to tell Xue Xiaoman the truth and let her choose whether to receive chemotherapy or not.

There is only about a 5.00% chance that it works, and a 90.00% chance that five is a failure.

Ning didn't dare to think about it.

Qi Xuanlou accompanied Ning to go home together.

Ning Ye didn't go to the hospital too many times. In fact, he was very resistant to going to the hospital from the bottom of his heart, and every time he came back from the hospital, he would remain silent for a long time.

From Qi Xuanlou's standpoint, he couldn't quite understand why Ning Ye felt so sad and full of despair about Xue Xiaoman's illness.

Ning also didn't want to explain to him.He just felt powerless, against the status quo, against fate.

Facing Xue Xiaoman who was getting thinner and suffering more and more, he deeply felt the cruel and irresistible hand of fate.

The thing I wanted to change the most after rebirth, none of them changed successfully.

Whether it's Xue Xiaoman or Qi Xuanlou.

This reality makes Ning also depressed.

"Don't be discouraged." Qi Xuanlou said, "I heard from Xue Donghan that they want to go abroad to seek a more advanced treatment plan, and there may be a chance. It's not time to give up yet."

"Do you know when to leave?"

"It's the New Year. Probably. In a few days it will be the New Year."

Ning also nodded.

Qi Xuanlou said again: "Are you going home for Chinese New Year this year?"

"What about you?"

Qi Xuanlou shook his head: "I won't return."

"You are so stiff with your family, do your parents treat you like Ji Shaoheng's parents?"

Qi Xuanlou pondered for a moment: "It's okay."

"Oh." Ning also paused for a while, then said, "My parents don't know."

Qi Xuanlou reacted immediately and pricked up his ears sensitively.

Ning also looked out the car window, his eyes were a little empty, and said: "If my dad finds out, according to his temper, he will probably cut off relations with me. I don't want them to know."

Qi Xuanlou opened his mouth to speak, but dared not, for fear of spoiling the atmosphere, Ning refused to speak any more.

Sure enough, Ning also went on to say: "My parents are very good to me, not the kind that treat me well because I am useful or because I am very promising, they think I am very face-saving, but, no matter what I am Like that, they all treat me unconditionally. Life is too short, and I can't bear to let down their friendship."

"What about me?" Qi Xuanlou parked the car on the side of the road without turning his head to look at Ning Ye.

Ning also remained silent.

"You want to tell me that because Xue Xiaoman is about to die, you understand the value and value of life, and you want to spend more time with meaningful people, is that right?" Qi Xuanlou said.

Ning also turned to look at him: "It's not all like this."

Qi Xuanlou also turned his head to look at him, his eyes seemed cold and painful: "Then what do you mean?"

Ning also reached out and took Qi Xuanlou's hand.

Qi Xuanlou lowered his eyes and looked at the palms of the two of them.These are two very similar hands, with well-proportioned joints and slender fingers, holding them together seems like a pair made in heaven.

"Although I've always refused to admit it, it's not like you don't know my feelings." Ning Ye whispered, "If I really don't like you, how could I tolerate you for so many years..."

Qi Xuanlou held Ning Ye's hand tightly, and pulled him to his side. The disappointment just now was swallowed up by the sudden great ecstasy: "You...you..."

He didn't even know what to say.

Ning also pushed him away a little, and then said: "Listen to me. But I won't make my parents sad because of you. If my parents find out one day and ask me to leave you, I will leave you. Yes You are so unfair, can you also?"