Confessions of soul and flesh

Wu Shan's life experience revealed, and the first kiss of two people

From that day on, the two of them talked on the phone every night, long and short but never interrupted, like a tacit secret.But Wu Shan never told Gu Weinan that his courier car was parked downstairs at his house, and he could show up at any time, if Gu Weinan needed it.

The night in September was very comfortable. He sat in the evening breeze and watched the stars, Gu Weinan's soft voice wafted by his ears, and there was an intermittent melody in the background.First we talked about music, and later we talked about everything, movies, family, knowledge and weather. Wu Shan thought it was not bad. The world he saw through Gu Weinan was much more interesting than he thought.

"I have a customer who buys things like a thief. Instead of taking photos in the store, he transfers money on WeChat and sends the disk to his friend's house."

"It's like guerrilla warfare."

"Isn't that right? It's said that my daughter-in-law is too strict. She deleted my WeChat a few days ago, and then added it secretly, saying that it's my daughter-in-law checking her phone. Tomorrow, I'll cry when I listen to his voice. You Have you ever encountered such a strange guest?"

"Suddenly I can't think of it, but I was in the previous company, and the police came to my door when I delivered the package. Guess what?"

"What's the matter? Don't scare me..."

"I didn't see the specifics. I only heard about it when I made a record. The box contained a human hand."

"Ahhhhh, stop talking!!!"

Wu Shan would occasionally tell him about the horror movies he had seen. Gu Weinan’s voice of curiosity and fear was also very interesting. You could even imagine him curled up on the bed with a quilt covering his head. As for why he was keen to tell him these things, maybe it was Waiting for the person opposite to say "come with me".

Wu Shan took advantage of the [-]th National Day to ask for leave. My aunt and uncle wanted to go abroad to visit my cousin who was studying abroad and asked him to help with housekeeping. My uncles also had other things to do, so the job of accompanying my mother naturally fell into Wu Shan's hands.

He sat on the speeding train, the sky was clear outside the window, and the silver CD player in his backpack sang music into the earphones. He was accompanied by Schubert Piano Sonata No. 20 in B flat major, also known as D960.He remembered that Gu Weinan told him that this was Schubert's last piano sonata, and it was also the pinnacle of his piano music.

After listening for a long time, Wu Shan gradually felt that he could glimpse the sadness and melancholy of that great soul from these melodies.He took off an earphone and hung it on the sleeping mother's ear,

"Mom, do you think it sounds good?"

"..."

"It was also given to me by the person I like."

"..."

"I think it's very nice. The composer is Schubert."

"..."

The afternoon sun came in from the window and crawled on her mother's cheeks. Something crystal clear shone on her face. Wu Shan stood up abruptly, with trembling fingers approaching her closed eyes, a tear dripped from the wrinkles at the corners of her eyes quietly fell.

Mother, this is, did you hear me?

Wu Shan rushed out of the ward to find the nurse, and almost knocked over the IV bottle at the door in a hurry.Later, it was confirmed by the nurse on duty and the attending doctor that the patient's tears may be a sign of awakening, but the possibility of unconscious physiological phenomena cannot be ruled out. Continue to observe the rehabilitation. If you can still blink or move your fingers, the chance of waking up will be high. bigger.

When he returned to his aunt's house at night, Wu Shan still felt like he was dreaming, his excited heart beat continuously, and his heart was still rolling with what his aunt had said to him on the phone in the afternoon.The phone buzzed and vibrated. Gu Weinan called. He picked up the phone and pressed the call button after he regained his composure.

"Hello? Miss me?"

"think."

"Are you okay? Why are you so depressed, talk to your brother."

"I listened to music to my mother today, and she shed tears."

Gu Weinan was rattling, as if the phone fell to the ground without holding it.

"Ah?! Really? Does that mean that there is a possibility of waking up?!"

"Maybe, thanks to you."

"What, of course your mother is reluctant to have such a good son like you."

"...Winan"

This is the first time Wu Shan called him that. It wasn't brother or you, but he was called by his name directly.

"I just found out today that my dad is a piano teacher."

"No wonder……"

Wu Shan felt his eyes sour, and he told Gu Weinan everything his aunt told him on the phone in the afternoon. The person on the other end of the phone was very quiet, patiently listening to the story of two strangers who had never met before.

Back then, Wu Shan’s mother eloped with a piano teacher despite the opposition of the whole family. She thought she could live a sweet and happy life through her own efforts. Unfortunately, after she became pregnant with Wu Shan, her husband was diagnosed with cancer, and the child passed away within two years of being born. Li Li's mother took him back to her natal home. From then on, as if she had lost her soul, she refused everything related to music until the day when their factory had an accident.

"I think your mother should have always loved him."

"Do you want to love each other even when it's so painful?"

Gu Weinan lay on his back on the bed, he didn't know how to answer, he was silent for a long time before opening his mouth,

"Life can make us miserable too...There is so much suffering in the world, that's why there is music."

"Is that right?"

"The gods create in pain, but those works can soothe the pain of others."

"Thank you, then I'll go and chat with Schubert, it's getting late, good night."

"Enjoy and good night."

The moon outside the window is still there, bright and flawless. Some people say that when you miss someone, you can look up at the night sky. That person must be looking up at the same moon as you.There may have been millions of people in the world who suffered from insomnia that night, but Wu Shan and Gu Weinan were the only ones among the millions who missed each other.

On the day when he returned from his hometown, Gu Weinan's cell phone could not be connected, and there was no response to his WeChat Wangwang message. Fearing that something would happen to him, Wu Shan went straight to Gu Weinan's house after he came out of the train station.

dong dong dong.

The door actually opened.Just as he was about to ask him what was going on, Wu Shan was dragged into the room, before he even had time to change his shoes, the anti-theft door slammed shut, Gu Weinan threw himself into his arms without saying a word, his hands tightly strangled his waist, his body There was a little smell of red wine, like ripe and fermented fruit, which made Wu Shan a little drunk. He held Gu Weinan in one hand, and carefully rubbed his soft hair with the other hand. The head was stuck in his arms, sending out a kind of Similar to the whimpering of a baby animal.

"What's the matter, tell me."

Gu Weinan wiped his tears on Wu Shan's clothes, looked up at him, his eyes were swollen, and his whole face was as red as a peach forgotten on a branch in late autumn.Wu Shan looked distressed, and stretched out his hand to wipe away tears, Gu Weinan suddenly squeezed his hand and kissed him.

Wu Shan felt that he should close his eyes. In the usual sense, people seem to close their eyes when they kiss, but this is not a kiss in the usual sense. He is more urgent, domineering, and decisive, with a little desperate and desperate.Pressing the soft lips hesitantly, the tentative biting made the mouth open, and the dexterous tongue took advantage of the opening, stirring the slightly drunk nectar, and slipped into Wu Shan's mouth.Boys who are just in love can't stand such teasing, emotionally feel the madness from each other, and imitate while pandering, their fiery tongues are entangled, and abundant body fluids are exchanged with each other. They are like travelers in the desert, lost for several days, Finally found an oasis in the other party's mouth.

Gu Weinan stuffed Wu Shan's hand into his clothes, and guided him to touch his body, then moaned and raised his neck, sending the fragile and sensitive position to Wu Shan's mouth.Wu Shan was leaning against the cold door panel behind him, and in his arms was Gu Weinan, who was half paralyzed on him. The man was as soft as water, hot and exuding a fatal temptation. It wasn't until he pressed his erection with his hands that he realized that they were now do what.

Panting to tear people away from him, Wu Shan pressed his shoulders to separate the distance, his lustful eyes were still so clean, Gu Weinan stretched out his tongue and licked his lower lip until it shone brightly,

"Today... you can do anything to me."

Wu Shan still didn't move, he seemed a little angry,

"Why has to be this way?"

"I feel bad, please help me."

"I can help you, but I don't want you to regret it."

Gu Weinan has never been so wronged in his life, not when he was broken in love, nor when he came out of the closet, but for some reason, Wu Shan pressed him and told him not to regret it, but he was wronged beyond the limit, he suddenly lost his strength, paralyzed Sitting on the ground, it looked like he was about to curl himself up again.Wu Shan hugged him, put him on the chair and sat down, kneeling in front of Gu Weinan himself, looking up like a good dog.

"Of course I want...to do happy things with you. In fact, I think about it every day. When I call at night, I'm downstairs. How can I not want to?"

"……Fool……"

"I just, don't want to do this, because maybe something happened and it was used as a tool to divert attention."

"……I don't……"

Gu Weinan was a little guilty, but he didn't want to admit it. He lowered his head and pursed his lips, but his heart was filled with sweetness because of Wu Shan's confession.

"Life is painful because you told me, but if you need other companionship besides music, I hope to be by your side forever."

"Then you... take me out to get some air."

"Okay, wash your face, let's go out."

The cold water made Gu Weinan sober up a lot, and it was only then that Wu Shan noticed the newspapers scattered all over the hallway, with the news that "the famous composer Xiao Songyi got married today" was printed on it, and the bride was a rookie violinist.

The taxi stopped at the intersection of a small alley. Wu Shan pulled Gu Weinan out of the car and walked into the alley. The high and low tile-roofed houses exuded the smell of childhood dew. Stopping in front of the store, there is a low-key sign hanging at the door: tattoos.

TBC