Years

(four)

Tang Ye felt irritated, such a person, haunted around him lingeringly, unable to grasp, unable to let go, he needed an answer.

Stepping on the closing time, Tang Ye slowly wandered in the small street outside the gate of the community.I wandered to the place where the leaflets were collected that day, and someone was pulling the shutter door, but the sound stopped abruptly, leaving only the echo in my ears against the sound of the blind cane.

Tang Ye stopped, and there was no sound from the other side.

After a long stalemate, Tang Ye turned around and walked towards the road.

"Tang Ye!" He heard a low cry.It is the sound of the monsoon.Blood swelled to the top of his skull, and his heart was pounding.

He turned around and walked in the direction of the sound, one step, two steps, but the other side became quiet again.The determined steps gradually became hesitant, and the expectations in my heart were wiped out in the rising anger.

Tang Ye stopped again, he felt ridiculous.What kind of thoughts does he have in order to still have hope for this person?This person abandoned himself mercilessly three years ago, and now he is back, but he just comes back to watch a blind man's jokes, to see him flustered, confused, and confused.

Tang Ye stood alone on the windy street at night, unable to touch anyone with his body, unable to touch the ground with his heart. The depression and confusion of the past few days, and the thoughts of the past days, finally turned into irresolvable resentment.

"This store you opened?" Tang Ye's voice was indifferent.

"Yes."

"Why?" He moved forward quietly.

"...I'm afraid that the takeaway you eat is not to your taste."

Tang Ye snorted coldly, feeling that Ji Feng was unreasonable: "Are you still thinking about me?"

There was another silence. Tang Ye suppressed the anger in his heart and waited patiently. "Tang Ye, I hope you are well."

It turned out that all the expectations were just wishful thinking.

"You said you want to break up with me, there is no room for it, you don't give me a reason, okay, I admit it. I can live alone. But what the hell do you mean now, you ran out to tease me, Run away after teasing, exciting? Bullying a blind man, are you interested?" Tang Ye looked in the direction of the voice, frowning.He really wanted to get rid of the darkness in front of him and take a good look at what kind of bastard this person he once loved so much was.He felt himself trembling, was it sad?Is it a grievance?No, he just hates.As much as he loves Ji Feng, he hates him so much that he wants to grind his teeth to pieces.

"Listen to me, I really didn't mean to tease you, I..."

"Listen to you, sir!" Tang Ye was extremely angry, he felt Ji Feng's approaching breath, without thinking, he raised his hand and just shoved him.

Something scratched across the plastic, and there was a dull sound. It seemed to be metal, but I couldn't tell why.In the middle of it, Tang Ye heard Ji Feng's suppressed moan.The sudden change suddenly extinguished the anger in his heart, and he withdrew his hand blankly. Tang Ye asked tentatively, "Monsoon?"

Ji Feng didn't answer, his heavy breathing could be heard in the rustling voice.Tang Ye was a little dazed, and stood there without moving.

"I'm sorry." After a while, Tang Ye heard Ji Feng's slumped response—but it was still coming from below.

"What's wrong with you? I didn't do it on purpose!" Tang Ye was a little panicked. He threw away his blind stick, knelt on the ground and began to grope.If it wasn't for the fact that I was still thinking about it, where did all the hatred come from?

"It's not your fault, it's me. Tang Ye, listen to me..."

The long-lost warm skin touched Tang Ye's arm, and Tang Ye calmed down a little, feeling that everything he encountered tonight finally became real.

However, Ji Feng's next words made him fall into a trance again.

"Tang Ye, I don't have hands or feet anymore." Just a few words seemed to exhaust all the strength in Ji Feng's body.

"What... what?" Tang Ye's mind buzzed. He thought hard for a long time, but he was not sure if he understood the meaning of this sentence.

"I can't get up..."

Tang Ye was almost suffocated by the strong loneliness in his tone, and he suddenly understood why Ji Feng stood far away and refused to go forward.He imagined that Ji Feng fell to the ground, struggling but unable to support his body, his facial features and movements were blurred, but the feeling of despair was bone-piercingly clear, beating his heart bluntly one after another.He leaned forward eagerly, wanting to understand what kind of situation Ji Feng was, but he touched something cold, rough, but soft, and with a jolt, the thing he touched disappeared.

"Please don't..."

Tang Ye understood a little, calmed his breathing, and pretended to be calm: "I'll help you up, and tell me what to do."

He carefully wrapped his arms around Ji Feng's back, Ji Feng was thinner, and his vertebrae hurt so badly; his arm wrapped around his neck, but strangely lost his touch in the middle, and suddenly disappeared into the air, as if he was about to say something halfway through. And stop.Standing up slowly, the long-lost breath fluttered in his ears, warm and intoxicating.Tang Ye settled down, and carefully lifted the weight that was falling on his body. He didn't gently remove his hand until the pull on the back of his neck was relaxed, and used his feeling to protect Ji Feng's waist.

The people around him took a small step outside and whispered, "Thank you."

The two stood not far away, and the atmosphere became awkward for a moment.Amidst the shock, the hatred that was as vague as a wisp of smoke took shape little by little, and quietly climbed up from the void, wrapped in an indelible sorrow.Is this the reason you left, because I am blind, I don't even have the right to choose, I don't even have the right to know.

"How are you? Do you want me to take you back?" Tang Ye asked, but there was a trace of alienation in his words.

The person next to him moved, but he didn't seem to get the desired effect, but he still said: "It's okay, I have crutches in the shop, I can do it myself."

Tang Ye's heart ached when he heard the word "crutch". "Let me get it for you." He said lightly.

"You first... two steps behind you, one step to the right." Tang Ye knew that Ji Feng was talking about his blind stick, so he went over to pick it up silently.Blind for many years, countless embarrassments and difficulties, falling in love, breaking up again, facing the reunited but unfamiliar old friend, he felt so pathetic for the first time.