Years

(Fives)

Carefully carrying the pot, the just right amount of fine noodles was dehydrated and fell limply into the colander.Ji Feng stared at Tang Ye calmly, just like every time he appeared in the shop.

He originally thought that it would be good to just guard Tang Ye from a distance like this.When Tang Ye stopped him that night, he felt joy and longing from the bottom of his heart.The moment he put his arms around Tang Ye's shoulders, he almost forgot the burning pain in his right leg, and the incompleteness that made him feel inferior to the dust. He leaned against his warm chest, greedily immersed in the illusion of the past.However, cowardice eventually ate away at the fantasy born of his despair, and he still chose to draw a line with Tang Ye cruelly.On the other side of the boundary, Tang Ye stood silently. On his face half-hidden by sunglasses, the loss and sadness that no one had wiped away were quickly coated with determination and indifference.

He thought that Tang Ye would never appear again.Unexpectedly, a few days later, Tang Ye appeared in the store as if nothing had happened.It wasn't the peak meal time at that time, and Xiao Wang in the shop graciously led Tang Ye to help him order food. Ji Feng huddled at the workbench, keeping his eyes on him; After eating quietly, he left quietly.As if a tacit understanding had been formed, Tang Ye showed up at the shop every now and then, just to eat noodles; Ji Feng also did his best, as if his task was to please the diners with delicious food.The two occasionally spoke, neither salty nor bland, neither painful nor itchy, as if the world was over and their hearts were as light as smoke.Ji Feng thought, this is probably the best ending.

"Boss," the young voice called back Ji Feng's sight.The boy thoughtfully packed up the bowls and chopsticks and handed them over, "I put the money in."

"Hey...no need!" Ji Feng stopped the boy from putting down the money, "I'm counting on this meal, happy new year." He turned his head to look at the girl, then turned back to wink at the boy: "I wish you happiness ,come on!"

"Thank you then!" A slight smile appeared on the boy's dignified face, "We will work hard."

Enviously watching the young couple cuddling together and going out, Ji Feng moved the hot noodle with soup onto the counter and slowly turned out of the kitchen.Hearing the sound, Tang Ye stood up to serve the noodles, but Ji Feng stopped him: "Don't move." He carefully picked up the noodle bowl, twisted his waist, and put the bowl on the edge of the table: "It's still hot."

Tang Ye took off his sunglasses, and the corners of his eyes were raised against the half-drooped eyelids, showing a lingering smile: "You're quite generous."

"It's not easy, I just want to give it a little thought." The air valve sounded lightly, and Ji Feng was afraid that the hard prosthetic limbs would touch Tang Ye, so he immediately removed them and threw them aside.He looked at his stumped arm, and suddenly felt that they looked up again.

"Do you think they will break up?" Tang Ye had already heard the clue from the sticky conversation between the two.

"Young people, who can say for sure. But life is so long, and if we are together or not, we will always have to live." Tang Ye is a little different today.Ji Feng stared at Tang Ye, deliberated every word, and his body stiffened unconsciously.He couldn't figure out what Tang Ye was thinking, was he just chatting casually, or did he have other meanings?

"Together or not, whose choice is it?"

The room fell silent in an instant, the refrigerator's refrigerator was running harshly, and Ji Feng looked at the lonely noodle bowl on the table in a blink of an eye, as if he wanted to stare at something from the circling heat.It was his choice and his fault to run away again and again.

"Tang Ye, I am sorry for you. You also know my current physical condition. I have really tried my best to make up for you."

"Compensation? How selfish are you to think that you can use this method to compensate me?" Tang Ye tried to calm his voice, and said word by word, "If you want to disappear, disappear completely. , but you still want to come back, and you still want to linger, and you still want me to be unable to touch and grasp, Ji Feng, to this day, I don't know whether you are a fantasy in my mind or a real person. I really What’s more, I’ve had enough of your torture, Monsoon, I want you to give me an explanation today.”

Tang Ye hated Monsoon.He hates his self-assertion, his concealment and betrayal.He wanted to completely destroy everything between him and Jifeng in his memory, but he kept thinking of the sourness in Jifeng's words, and his hesitation when he was stuck in the same place; The dull sound of crutches was getting closer and closer, crushing him and crushing him. Thousands of emotions rushed and collided in his chest, he couldn't see clearly, and couldn't find a way out.

He hates Monsoon.I hate him for rejecting me thousands of miles away, hate him for enduring those unnamed difficulties and hardships alone, and don't want to let myself share them with him.He hated him so much that his heart ached.

"Tang Ye, I'm really, sorry." Ji Feng understood Tang Ye's anger. He dreamed of Tang Ye, standing in the cold night, standing on the bustling street, without support, without direction, and calling out in a daze; He also dreamed that he was standing so close to Tang Ye, so close that every inch of helplessness and tension on his face could be reflected in his pupils, but he couldn't make a sound, couldn't stretch out his hand, and could only see They passed each other like Tang Ye, as if they were in a parallel world. "I'm so selfish, but I don't know what else I can do...I can't hold your hand, I can't do anything..." Despair entangled like a ghost, tearing at Ji Feng's mind desperately, He wanted to bury his face in his palms, but he could only stare at his pale and shriveled limbs, and murmured weakly.

"Why do you have to do something for me? Shouldn't two people be together when they are together? Or do you think I am such a waste? You must serve and protect me, and I can't do anything myself? "

"No! I..." Ji Feng saw that Tang Ye's expression suddenly darkened, his aggressive figure suddenly became weak, and the words blurted out, but he didn't know how to refute; he unconsciously took a step forward, waited for so long, and hid himself After so long, he really wanted to rub into the man's heaving chest and smooth his downcast eyes.

"Maybe I really can't do anything... Ji Feng, I always thought I hated you, but I realized that I just hated myself. I want to know how you are, how you are doing, but If you don't tell me, I don't know anything... I thought you didn't want to get close to me, it was enough for me to come and listen to your voice every day, but Ji Feng, I'm so worried about you, I miss you so much... don't hide anymore I love Ji Feng, I want to hug you..." Those intentional or unintentional disguises finally couldn't restrain the turbulent emotions that were forcibly concealed, Tang Ye murmured to express his thoughts, and couldn't help touching towards Ji Feng's direction.

Ji Feng subconsciously wanted to escape, but seeing Tang Ye's groping hands almost poking into the steaming noodle bowl on the table, he stretched out his hand even more subconsciously, and the soft stump of his left arm happened to be caught by Tang Ye's palm. hold.Feeling the warmth of the warm palm on the lightly callused stump, Ji Feng shuddered all the way to his heart with a burst of numbness, and resisted not pulling his arm away.

Tang Ye instantly guessed the source of the strange touch in his palm, and his fingers trembled slightly.He loosened his strength, gently took his arm, and carefully covered it with the other hand.On the protruding and upright bone, he felt the scars undulating like ravines, and the new muscle as soft as a heart. The more he touched it, the more his heart trembled. "Does it hurt?" Tang Ye asked softly.

"It doesn't hurt..."

The people around him stood stiffly, and Tang Ye's hand moved upward carefully, passing through the forearm, the upper arm, and the shoulder blade, and finally landed hesitantly on the slightly thinner half of the upper arm on the right.Ji Feng closed his eyes resignedly, he felt that his ugliness, which he was ashamed of, was seen through, and his self-esteem was stripped away inch by inch.

"Why don't you let me know, why don't you let me stay with you, Ji Feng, I feel so distressed." Although he has gone through all kinds of guesses and imaginations, the real touch still defeats Tang Ye's cognition. Ji Feng's experience is probably worse than his It's a thousand times worse than I imagined.Tang Ye's heart twitched fiercely, tears fell unconsciously, and he suddenly embraced Ji Feng in his arms.

Sinking into the warm and powerful chest for a moment, the pain and sorrow, exhaustion and hesitation of the past few years, and all the strength that supported Ji Feng in the past few years were exhausted in a flash.Tang Ye came back, Tang Ye forgave him, and Tang Ye accepted him.Ji Feng didn't care anymore, he put his limited residual arm around Tang Ye's back, and cried loudly.