I'm not from the same world as you

He was alone in the living room, his quilt and pillow were no longer on the sofa, and he was carried into the bedroom by Xu Cen in the morning.

During the day, Xu Cen told him without any grievances to let him go to the bedroom to sleep, but Xu Cen probably doesn't think so anymore.

Perhaps, Xu Cen didn't even want to see him.

He didn't want to disturb Xu Cen either, but he also had to sleep at night, so he needed a quilt and pillow, so he had to go into the house no matter how much he didn't want to face Xu Cen.

Duan He came outside the bedroom anxiously, the door of the bedroom was closed, and the light from the bedroom told Duan He that Xu Cen was still awake.

Duan He raised his hand and lowered it, wanted to knock on the door but gave up, repeated more than a dozen times, but he didn't knock on the door.

The night in October was already a bit cold. After hesitating for a long time, Duan He even wondered what would happen if he slept on the sofa without a quilt for a night.

Just about to turn around and go back to the living room, Xu Cen's voice came from the bedroom, "Come in."

Duan He opened his eyes wide, how did Xu Cen know that he was outside the door? !When did he know about it? !But then I thought about it again, I have always walked loudly, and it is normal to have footsteps, maybe Xu Cen knew it when I walked over.

But how did Xu Cen know that it was his footsteps?Now that I know why he stood outside the door for more than ten minutes before making a sound?

Duan He doesn't know, and doesn't want to know, these are not important, the important thing is that Xu Cen let him in now.

Duan He put his hand on the doorknob hesitantly, his heart beating faster, he didn't know how to face Xu Cen, and he didn't know what Xu Cen thought of him now.

He is a little scared.

Duan He made up his mind to open the door, and Xu Cen sat at the desk reading a book, leaving Duan He a back view.

Duan He breathed a sigh of relief, maybe he could be more comfortable without seeing Xu Cen's face and Xu Cen's expression.

There was still his quilt and pillow on the bed, right next to Xu Cen. This arrangement gave him the illusion that the two of them were sleeping together in the same bed, and he was even a little unexpectedly happy.

But this superficial happiness disappeared in an instant, and the reality in front of him was a reality that he dared not face.

Duan He walked over lightly. He didn't want to disturb Xu Cen, so he planned to take the quilt and leave.

"Just sleep here, your back is still not healed." Xu Cen's calm voice came over, Duan He's hand holding the quilt stopped in the air, Xu Cen knew he was here to get the quilt?

Duan He turned his head to look at Xu Cen, Xu Cen didn't move, he was still reading with his back to him, Xu Cen still cared about him when something like this happened, Duan He felt a little warm in his heart, but also a little Feel ashamed.

Duan He lowered his head, "I'd better go to the living room, don't worry about what happened today, just...just treat it as my prank."

After finishing speaking, Duan He took the quilt and pillow and was ready to leave. He didn't want to cause any trouble to Xu Cen. Whether his feelings were for Xu Cen or for his parents, they should be hidden deep in his heart and could not be seen.

Duan He turned around and was about to leave, Xu Cen closed the book, came over and grabbed his arm, the moment Xu Cen's hand touched him, he waved Xu Cen's hand away in shock, he was afraid that he would do it again Something that made him regret it.

Xu Cen was stunned for a moment, but immediately regained his expression, "Just sleep in the bedroom, I... don't mind."

Duan He looked at Xu Cen, surprised by Xu Cen's words, do you mind?don't mind what?Do you not mind his impulsive behavior, or his undeserved feelings, or just don't mind being in the same room and sleeping in the same bed with him?

"No need." Duan He was a little sad.

When he was about to leave again, Xu Cen reached out to grab his arm, but stopped before touching it, "I told you, I don't mind, we are still friends."

Duan He was full of thoughts, Xu Cen said they were still friends, shouldn't he be happy, Xu Cen didn't alienate and hate him because of what happened at night, but why is he still not satisfied?What exactly does he want?He's a little too greedy isn't he?Duan He couldn't help questioning himself.

Duan He didn't speak anymore, he didn't know what to say, he didn't know how to face Xu Cen, and he didn't have the face to sleep in the same room with Xu Cen.

Duan He still wanted to leave, Xu Cen grabbed Duan He's arm this time, "What do you want me to say?! How much do you want me to say?! We don't even have to be friends!"

Xu Cen was a little anxious, and went back to the bedroom. He had been thinking about the problem between him and Duan He all night.

He didn't understand what Duan He was thinking, and he didn't want to understand what Duan He was thinking. He didn't know if Duan He knew his sexual orientation, and he didn't know if Duan He had noticed that he was more than a friend to Duan He. rely.

He only knew that he couldn't destroy Duan He, he couldn't let Duan He take a wrong step on the road of life, no matter what happened to Duan He because of him, he felt that he would be doomed forever.

Facing Duan He, he wanted to hide the throbbing deeply. He couldn't stay away from Duan He, and he couldn't let go of everything to get close to Duan He. The best result he could think of was to continue to be with Duan He. Be friends, be the most ordinary friends.

When Duan He came over, he heard Duan He's footsteps from a long distance. He had been with Duan He for so long, and he knew everything about Duan He by heart. How could he not be able to distinguish Duan He's footsteps.

For as long as Duan He stood outside his door, he was uneasy in the house for a long time. When he heard Duan He's footsteps, he pretended to take a book and read it, just to prevent Duan He from discovering his emotions. .

Duan He ignored him all night, and came in to get the quilt to sleep in the living room, without saying a word.

The more Duan He remained silent, the more uneasy he became. Could it be that he and Duan He couldn't even be friends in the end?Could it be that in the end he still wants to let go of the only warmth in his life?

He asked Duan He to stay. He lowered his posture and begged Duan He to continue to be friends with him, but Duan He still didn't say a word.

Xu Cen's somewhat exasperated tone made Duan He feel distressed, see, he still caused trouble for Xu Cen.

Duan He turned to look at Xu Cen, although he still didn't dare to look Xu Cen in the eyes, and smiled bitterly at Xu Cen, "We are still friends."

Duan He's words made Xu Cen heave a sigh of relief, he grabbed Duan He's sleeve, his expression and tone were begging, "Then stay."

Duan He looked at Xu Cen, when did Xu Cen talk to him in such a low profile?Xu Cen was not so humble when he was most embarrassed. What did he do?What made Xu Cen have such an uncomfortable expression on his face?

Xu Cen was still tugging at his sleeve. He violently waved Xu Cen's hand away just now. Now Xu Cen is only cautiously grabbing his sleeve. Why did he make Xu Cen so humble?He is a fart!

"Okay, I'll stay." Duan He said distressedly.

Xu Cen let go of his sleeves, as if all his strength had been drained, he fell down on the bed.

Duan He put the quilt back on the bed, he stood by the bed, Xu Cen sat at the end of the bed, neither of them spoke, the night was terribly quiet.

Duan He took a deep breath, turned around and walked out the door. When he passed by Xu Cen, Xu Cen kept staring at him. He explained to Xu Cen, "The light in the living room is still on. I'm going to turn off the light."

Xu Cen's expression was obviously relaxed, Duan He went out and sat down in the living room, Duan He breathed a sigh of relief, the atmosphere in the bedroom just now made him suffocate, he thought, Xu Cen should feel the same way.

He didn't want to make Xu Cen feel too sad, so he found a reason to come out. Without his space, Xu Cen might feel better.

The door of the bedroom was open, so you couldn't see what was going on inside, you could only see the light shining on the floor.

Duan He stayed in the living room for a long time, watching the hands of the clock on the wall in the living room move little by little. The time passed by every minute and every second. The light in the bedroom was always on.

The hour hand has already pointed to the number one, it is already one o'clock in the morning, and the night outside is getting quieter.

Duan He got up from the sofa, he was already very tired, his eyelids were fighting, and the light in the bedroom was still on.

Duan He walked over quietly step by step. The bedroom door was open and the light was on, but Xu Cen was already sleeping on his side on the bed.

Duan He is not in the mood to find out why Xu Cen turned on the light when he was asleep. He walked over slowly. Xu Cen seemed to be fast asleep, lying quietly on his side on the edge of the bed. Accidentally fell off the bed.

Xu Cen is still avoiding him, right? !Duan He smiled bitterly, gently lifted his quilt, and then slowly fell asleep, lying flat on the bed.

Just like Xu Cen, he also leaned against the edge of the bed as much as possible. The two slept on the same bed, but there was a thousand miles between them.Duan He raised his hand to turn off the light, and the room became dark in an instant. His eyes were not used to it, and he couldn't see anything.

After getting used to it, Duan He slowly turned his head, and he could see the back of Xu Cen's head from a distance of two people. At this time, he unexpectedly felt that the back of Xu Cen's head was also very cute.

Moonlight came in from the window, Duan He looked at Xu Cen, not knowing what mood he was in.

He was so tired that he could barely open his eyes, but he didn't feel sleepy at all, he couldn't even close his eyes.

Just looking at him like this, Xu Cen, who had been turning his back to him, suddenly moved when he saw that his eyes were watery, and that he thought time had stopped.

Xu Cen turned around, facing him this time.

Duan He was afraid to move because of Xu Cen's movement, and he was afraid of disturbing Xu Cen even if he blinked.

Ten minutes passed, Xu Cen didn't move any more, Duan He just relaxed, he kept staring at the ceiling, Xu Cen was facing him, giving him the illusion that Xu Cen was looking at him all the time.

His heartbeat was a little abnormal.

I don't know how long I kept this posture, but Duan He still couldn't take it anymore, he turned around in Xu Cen's direction.

Duan He faced Xu Cen, and by the moonlight, Duan He could clearly see Xu Cen's outline, as well as Xu Cen's eyes, nose, and...mouth.

He recalled the night when he was in the toilet with Xu Cen. Xu Cen blushed and looked at him in disbelief. At that time, he actually wanted to throw Xu Cen down without stopping.

Now Duan He is a little lucky, fortunately he didn't do that, if he really did, he and Xu Cen might be completely over.

After Xu Cen fell asleep, he was very quiet, and he was very well-behaved. The more Duan He watched it, the more he liked it, but the more he watched it, the more sad he became. All he was worried about.

Duan He boldly stretched out his hand and touched Xu Cen's lips lightly, and quickly withdrew his hand just after touching Xu Cen's lips. Xu Cen's lips were still so soft, and his dry lips also had a different touch, with some warm.

Duan He couldn't help but wonder if he was the first person to touch Xu Cen's lips?Thinking of this possibility, Duan He could still find a trace of joy in his helpless and sad mood.

Duan He touched his lips with the hand just now. He has lived for 19 years and has never even held a girl's hand, let alone his mouth. This is the first time he has touched someone else's lips. Kissing is such a feeling.

Looking at Xu Cen's peaceful face, Duan He's drowsiness gradually came, he gradually closed his eyes and fell asleep, Xu Cen was beside him, he felt extra at ease.

Duan He's steady breathing sound gradually came from his ears, Xu Cen slowly opened his eyes, in fact he hadn't slept all this time, Duan He said to go out and turn off the lights, but he went there for an hour or two.

He has been sitting by the bed waiting for Duan He to come in, but the light in the living room has been on, and Xu Cen has not heard anything about Duan He.

His heart sank little by little, he didn't know what Duan He meant, why did he find an excuse to go out?Why did he promise to go back on his word without saying a word?

Xu Cen went to bed when he was tired. Even though he was lying on the bed, he couldn't fall asleep. He opened the door and kept the light on for Duan He, just so that Duan He could remember that he promised him to go back to the bedroom to sleep.

It was early in the morning, Duan He's footsteps came from outside, he quickly closed his eyes, Duan He entered and closed the door, Duan He went to bed and turned off the lights, he could feel it, even Duan He touched his lips lightly, he also knew it.

Duan He's cautious and cherishing actions made him feel sour. Duan He is still the gentle and warm Duan He.

Duan He was already fast asleep, and Xu Cen stretched out his hand to gently touch Duan He's face. If Duan He didn't have such a big burden, if Duan He didn't shoulder the expectations of his parents, if Duan He could be alone, he would Can't you be a little more daring?

To catch the warmth and happiness in front of you?

However, there are so many ifs in this world, he has no choice, he will always be alone.

Xu Cen withdrew his hand silently, he should be content, why didn't Duan promise him that they are still friends, why are they still not satisfied?He shouldn't.

Xu Cen closed his eyes in frustration, now that Duan He is by his side, what more could he ask for?