Forgive me for a long time

When he got home, Min Shaoqi lay down on the sofa and didn't want to do anything, he didn't even take off his coat, just stared blankly at the ceiling.

He has been trying his best to restrain his emotions, but it seems that some seeds that have been planted are breaking and sprouting uncontrollably...

In the evening, Gu Ao came back suddenly.As soon as he entered the door, he saw Min Shaoqi lying on the sofa wearing a coat.

When Min Shaoqi heard the movement, he also turned his head to look over.He was a little surprised when Gu Ao came back, but he felt that he was very tired, so he didn't sit up, even though he should be sitting up at this time.

Gu Ao looked at him and asked, "Going out?"

"En." Min Shaoqi responded, and then asked, "Why are you back?"

"Come back and get a file." Gu Ao said, went into his study, and quickly took out a file bag.Looking at Min Shaoqi who was still lying there, he asked, "Do you feel unwell?"

"No..." Min Shaoqi's voice was very soft, "I'm just a little tired."

Gu Ao didn't care, and said, "Then take a shower and go to bed early."

"Yeah." Min Shaoqi turned to look at Gu Ao, and after a while, asked, "Do you have any plans for the next year?"

"What?" Gu Ao raised his eyebrows. In his impression, after the two met again, Min Shaoqi would hardly ask him these things.

"It's nothing, just ask. If you go out, can I also take a vacation?" Min Shaoqi said.In fact, he didn't even know what he was talking about, but he was very eager to know if Gu Ao Nian was going to go abroad.

"What? Are you addicted to holidays?" Gu Ao smiled a little.

"No, it's just...By the way, do you have any annual leave to take?" Min Shaoqi made up a reason.

"There are so many demands." Gu Ao chuckled, and said, "I don't have any annual leave, but I'm going to my grandfather's place on the ninth day of the lunar new year. I'll go there for about two weeks. Then you can continue to take the holiday."

Min Shaoqi couldn't hold back, and asked, "Are you with Miss Lin?"

Gu Ao was stunned for a moment, and asked, "How do you know?"

"It's random guessing." Min Shaoqi said.When he couldn't help asking, he was indeed a little flustered, but because he felt very tired, his tone felt very casual, like a casual question rather than a question.Now, Gu Ao has already given him the answer to this question, but instead of feeling more tired, he accepted it calmly.

Gu Ao looked at him and saw that he seemed to be a little tired and nothing unusual, so he didn't ask any more questions and said, "I'm leaving, call me if you have anything to do."

"Okay." Min Shaoqi replied.

When Gu Ao changed his shoes and was about to open the door, Min Shaoqi suddenly called his name.

Gu Ao turned to look at Min Shaoqi who was still lying there.

Min Shaoqi asked, "Will you...will get married?"

Gu Ao couldn't see Min Shaoqi's expression, and he didn't know why Min Shaoqi asked this suddenly, but after being silent for a while, he still replied: "Yes."

Of course he will get married, he does not reject marriage, nor is he a non-marriage advocate, so there is no reason not to get married, even if he is looking for someone of the same sex.

"Oh..." Min Shaoqi replied lightly.

Seeing that he was not going to ask any more questions, Gu Ao opened the door and left.

Looking at the ceiling, Min Shaoqi felt like a hole had opened in his heart, cold and helpless.According to Gu Ao, Lin Pei may not have lied to him, at least it is true that they will leave together after the next year, and it is also true that Gu Ao has the idea of ​​getting married.

Sometimes, when a person's negativity takes over, all he can receive is more negativity.Min Shaoqi is in this state now, under the nourishment of the black hole that absorbs negative emotions, the newly sprouted seed seems to have begun to grow and spread...a big tree with dead branches.

After dark, Min Shaoqi went to take a shower, and then went to Gu Ao's bedroom again.

Seeing that the newly opened bottle of perfume was less than half used up, Min Shaoqi didn't use it any more, and lay down directly on the bed.In fact, his pajamas still smelled of perfume, but it was too weak for him, so weak that it was sometimes ignored.

The curtains were not closed, Min Shaoqi looked out the window, thinking about the past between him and Gu Ao, everything seemed like it happened yesterday, he remembered it so clearly, he even remembered Gu Ao's expression at that time, but these were very far away.

He remembered Gu Ao's smile when he wrote "I love you" on the first page of his newly bought diary.

I remember that he fell asleep on Gu Ao's lap, and after waking up from Gu Ao's numbness, Gu Ao reluctantly asked him for a deep kiss as compensation.

I also remember that when he accidentally spilled water on the painting that Gu Ao bought, the corner of Gu Ao's mouth twitched but he couldn't bear to blame him...

Everything is proof of their love.But now, Gu Ao doesn't love him anymore, these memories can't evoke any happiness, and his life seems to lose its meaning.

His mother is gone, and Gu Ao won't want him anymore... He really has nothing left.

Warm tears rolled down the corners of his eyes, but Min Shaoqi didn't feel it at all.

He wanted to give Gu Ao something as a souvenir.Maybe in the future, when Gu Ao sees that thing, he will think of himself, which is also a kind of happiness for him...

After another sleepless night, Min Shaoqi didn't feel sleepy, but became more sober.

The next day, after barely sleeping for a few hours, Min Shaoqi drank a glass of milk, went out with his own money, and went to the high-end shopping mall run by the Yu family, wanting to buy a gift for Gu Ao.

With his current economic conditions, he can't afford to buy too expensive things, but he knows that there is a small brand with a store here, and Gu Ao likes the things in this store very much, the cheapest ones in this store The goods should still be within the range he can afford, so he wants to go there to buy a gift for Gu Ao.

He took the escalator up to the second floor, and when he was about to go up to the third floor, Min Shaoqi turned his head, and the scene in front of him froze him.

Next to the escalator on the second floor is a very famous wedding ring customization shop. The decoration in the shop is clean and bright.At this time, Gu Ao and Lin Pei were standing in front of the counter. The clerk took out the ring from the counter and put it on Lin Pei's hand. Lin Pei smiled and raised his hand for Gu Ao to see.It looks like a couple in love, choosing the right wedding ring for them.

Being too far away, Min Shaoqi couldn't see what kind of ring Lin Pei was wearing, but Lin Pei's smile dazzled him.And his heart felt like being stabbed hard, the pain made him unable to breathe.

He wanted to squat down to make himself feel better, but he was afraid of being seen by Gu Ao, which would make him hurt even more. Finally, with the last bit of reason, he firmly grasped the handrail of the escalator and stepped on the escalator.Fortunately, he was lucky, he didn't step on the crack and let himself fall, and the escalator took him up to the third floor, away from the wedding ring custom shop decorated as holy as a wedding dress.

Min Shaoqi moved forward mechanically, but his legs seemed to be filled with lead, and every step he took was so difficult.He didn't even know how he walked into that niche brand store, and he barely recovered until the clerk greeted him.

"What do you want to buy, sir?" the clerk asked gently and enthusiastically.

"Just take a look." Min Shaoqi could clearly hear the hoarseness of his voice.

"Okay." The clerk didn't ask much, just followed behind him, walking unhurriedly.

Min Shaoqi walked around this shop, and kept retracing the scene when he saw Gu Ao and Lin Pei in the wedding ring shop just now, his eyes gradually blurred.

He took a deep breath and wiped his eyes vigorously.When his vision became clearer, he saw an apple car hanging in the display case in front of him.The apple is red, and the matching tassels are pink and white. It is not the most beautiful in the store, but the meaning is very good.

The clerk smiled and said, "Do you like this car mount, sir?"

Min Shaoqi nodded.

The clerk introduced: "This is the new version of the Spring Festival in our store. Now this is the only one left. It is made of crystal and looks very beautiful in the sun. The main reason is that it has a good meaning, so many customers like it very much."

Min Shaoqi sniffed, looked at the price, and said, "That's all, wrap it up for me."

"Okay." The clerk carefully took out the car hanger and took it to the counter for packing.

Min Shaoqi didn't look at anything else either, this car was within his economic range, and he couldn't afford the others either.Gu Ao likes cars, every car has beautiful car hangers, but most of them are made of jade, I hope Gu Ao will also like this crystal one...

After paying the bill, Min Shaoqi walked out of the store carrying his things.

This time he didn't take the escalator he came from, but chose to go to the other side to take the straight ladder.He was afraid of seeing Gu Ao and Lin Pei again, he was afraid that he would collapse on the spot, he was afraid that he would not be able to leave a good impression on Gu Ao in the end, and he was also afraid of hearing Gu Ao personally tell him that he was going to get married...

He is so cowardly, because of love, so he is even more afraid of being hurt.And now he is riddled with wounds, and if another injury occurs, he feels that he will go crazy...

When he got home, Min Shaoqi put the things in his room.The moment the box collided with the table, he suddenly burst into tears, completely uncontrollable...

He was really tired and in pain... He couldn't find any outlet to vent, so he could only use this embarrassing and ugly way...

When he returned to Gu Ao's side again, he knew that he couldn't do without Gu Ao.After his mother left, it seemed that the only thing left in his life was Gu Ao's belief.He also doesn't want to live a life of being manipulated and interfered by Min Jingchuan, he has lived like that for so many years, it is enough...

At this moment, he feels that his life has been completely dyed into gray. His obsession, belief, relatives, and love are gone... His life can also come to an end...

I don't know how long it took, he was tired from crying, and couldn't cry any more. He didn't have the strength to get up and go to bed, so he simply lay down on the floor, closed his eyes, and slowly fell asleep.

When he woke up, it was already dark.The stiff body made him very uncomfortable, but he didn't care about it, it didn't matter to him anymore.

After taking a shower, Min Shaoqi turned on the desk lamp, took out the paper and pen from the drawer, and started writing slowly.

He didn't write fast, and it seemed that every sentence was carefully thought out.

After finishing writing, Min Shaoqi folded the paper and put it under the gift.There was a smile on the corner of his mouth, like a self-deprecating, but also like a relief...