Forgive me for a long time

Gu Ao's words made Gu Ao feel a little uneasy all the time, he sent the milk to Gu Han's room, Gu Ao checked the time, turned and went back to his room, changed his clothes, took the car keys and went out.

——Even if he thinks too much, a trip can make him feel more at ease.The big deal is to sleep well on the plane tomorrow.

Opening the door of the house, all the lights in the house were turned off, and it was very quiet. It seemed that Min Shaoqi had already fallen asleep.

Gu Ao opened his bedroom door, Min Shaoqi didn't sleep with him.Gu Ao went to Min Shaoqi's room again, Min Shaoqi's bed was made neatly, and there was no sign of Min Shaoqi.But a strange smell made Gu Ao realize something was wrong, and his brows frowned.

Turning his head, he found that the light in the bathroom of Min Shaoqi's room was on, but there was no sound of water or any movement.

A bad premonition arose leisurely, Gu Ao walked over quickly, and pushed the door open. The scene in front of him made Gu Ao's pupils shrink instantly, and there was a moment of stupefaction and innocence—at that moment, it seemed that And then something fell apart...

At this time, Min Shaoqi was lying in the bathtub, the water in the bathtub was already stained red with blood, and Min Shaoqi's face became even paler, as if it was a little transparent...

Gu Ao rushed over and immediately carried Min Shaoqi out of the bathtub.

At this time, the wound on Min Shaoqi's wrist was still bleeding, his body was cold, and there was no reaction.

Gu Ao pulled the towel from the shelf, pressed it on Min Shaoqi's wrist, then patted Min Shaoqi's face, and called him: "Shaoqi?"

Min Shaoqi closed his eyes tightly, as if he would leave him at any moment.

Gu Ao called out again: "Qiqi?"

Min Shaoqi still didn't respond.

Gu Ao didn't dare to delay for a moment, took a big bath towel, wrapped Min Shaoqi up, took off his coat and wrapped it around him, then picked up Min Shaoqi and rushed out of the house.

Gu Ao's mind is in a mess now, but his remaining rationality tells him that he must send Min Shaoqi to the hospital safely.

Putting Min Shaoqi in the back seat, Gu Ao started the car and called Gu Han.

As soon as Gu Han lay down, he saw that the call was from Gu Ao, so he quickly answered it - he knew that Gu Ao had gone out, but he didn't know where he went.But calling at this time must be something.

"What's wrong?" Gu Han raised the phone and asked.

"Brother... Qiqi... cut his wrist." Gu Ao's voice was very hoarse, and it seemed that it was difficult to finish the sentence.

"What?!" Gu Han suddenly sat up straight, but considering that now is not the time to ask more questions, he hurriedly said: "Hurry up and send him to the hospital now, try to compress the wound. Try to stop the bleeding."

"Well, I'm already in the hospital. You can help me arrange a doctor." Gu Ao said.He didn't want to find a doctor for Min Shaoqi casually. In this case, he had to find the best doctor.

"Okay, I'll contact you right away. Please calm down and drive safely." Gu Han reminded him.Since Gu Ao called and asked him to arrange a doctor, it means that Min Shaoqi still has vital signs at least.So what he needs to tell Gu Ao most now is to pay attention to safety when driving, and not to worry about anything happening again.

"I know. Hang up first." After Gu Ao finished speaking, he hung up the phone first, and then stepped on the accelerator, the car rushed out of the community and drove to the hospital.

When the car arrived at the hospital, the people arranged by Gu Han were already waiting.

As soon as Gu Ao's car stopped, the hospital bed was pushed over.Gu Ao carried Min Shaoqi down, put him on the bed, and then pushed the bed into the hospital with the doctors and nurses.

After a preliminary examination, Min Shaoqi was pushed into the operating room again. The doctor said that he had lost too much blood and his condition was not very good, but he would definitely do his best to treat him.

Gu Ao looked at the closed door of the operating room, and sat silently on the chair outside.

Gu Ao was the only one outside the operating room, and the quiet environment and not-so-bright light magnified his sense of powerlessness infinitely.

He thought repeatedly, what would happen if he didn't go back tonight?

There is no doubt that Min Shaoqi will definitely die, and it must be ugly to be soaked in the water all the time.What about him?What would happen to Min Shaoqi if he died?He didn't know either, when he saw Min Shaoqi lying in the bathtub full of blood, he felt that only the bright red was left in his world.And if he hadn't returned home, he would have learned of Min Shaoqi's death a few days later, and he thought, his world would have turned completely black...

He didn't know why Min Shaoqi committed suicide, but his intuition had something to do with him.

From the day they fell in love, maybe they have become the relationship between trees and vines. The entanglement on the soil can be forcibly torn off, but the entanglement of the root system under the soil cannot be cut off and is unreasonable-like fate Generally bound to each other.

Not long after, Gu Han also rushed over.After seeing Gu Ao sitting with his head down outside the operating room, he slowed down and walked over to sit next to Gu Ao.

Gu Ao turned his head to see Gu Han, and called out in a low voice: "Brother."

Gu Han patted him on the shoulder and said, "Dr. Xu didn't call me, so it means that the problem is not serious, so don't worry too much."

Gu Ao nodded, there was nothing else he could do except wait, wait.

"Brother, you can go back and rest, as long as I'm here." Gu Ao said.Gu Han was already quite tired when he got home today, he was worried about Min Shaoqi just now, and he forgot to tell Gu Han not to come.

"It's okay, I'll go to the lounge to sleep later, and I have an early shift tomorrow, so I don't have to make another trip." Gu Han said.With him here, it is easier to communicate with him about anything, and he can feel more at ease.

Gu Ao didn't try to persuade Gu Han to go back, his mind was full of Min Shaoqi now, and he didn't have the energy to think about anything else.

Gu Han got up and went to the coffee machine in the corner to buy two cups of coffee, then handed one of them to Gu Ao, and said, "I was negligent, I should have discovered something wrong with Shaoqi earlier." If it wasn't for the hospital call today , if he stayed with Min Shaoqi for a while, he might be able to find out the problem directly.

Gu Ao shook his head, "I live with him every day, and I didn't notice any changes in him. It's my responsibility." He really didn't expect Min Shaoqi to go on this road at all. He admitted that when he met Min Shaoqi again, he felt sorry for him Min Shaoqi paid a lot less attention, because they are no longer lovers, so he felt that there was no need to pay so much attention. Help is the help, and it is better to keep the proper distance for the rest.

In fact, to be honest, he doesn't know how to get along with Min Shaoqi after the reunion. Too far away or too close is not appropriate, and he has always had a layer of estrangement from Min Shaoqi, so he can only stay in a place that he feels is not far or close. within the controllable range.

Gu Han sat next to Hui Ao, and said: "During dinner today, I told Shao Qi that I hope you have a chance to have a good talk. Gu Ao, it's been so long, and you haven't really faced it. I know you You have your own ideas, but there are some things, even if knowing the reason does not help the matter itself, you still need to understand it clearly. Many times, those things can only be considered as the past after knowing everything.”

"Hmm..." Gu Ao responded softly.He suddenly felt that he didn't know enough about Min Shaoqi, and he was only aware of many things later.Putting aside some things that Min Shaoqi did right or not, at least for now, he also has many things that he didn't do well.

More than an hour later, the doctor came out of the operating room. When he saw Gu Han, Dr. Xu smiled and said, "Don't worry, there is no major problem, but there will definitely be a scar. Although he was given a blood transfusion, the diet You still need to eat more blood-enriching food. Aftercare is very important.”

"Well, I'm sorry to trouble you, Dr. Xu." Gu Han smiled.

"You're welcome." Dr. Xu suppressed his smile a bit, looked at Gu Han, then at Gu Ao, and said, "But I still have to say something. Suicide is not a trivial matter. If it's a sudden impulse, think about it when you wake up." If it passes, it will be fine. If there are other reasons, you should pay more attention. This matter still needs to be communicated with the family members. With the participation of the family members, the patient can recover as soon as possible."

"I understand. When he wakes up, I will arrange for him to see the psychology department." Gu Han said.In fact, this is what he is most worried about—Min Shaoqi is probably suffering from depression.

"Well, then I won't be too wordy, go through the hospitalization procedures, and come to me if you need anything." Dr. Xu said.

"Okay, thank you for your hard work." Gu Han smiled.

Gu Ao didn't understand what "other reasons" Dr. Xu said, but he didn't rush to ask.Min Shaoqi is fine now, and he can feel a little relieved.

After Dr. Xu left, Gu Han said to Gu Ao: "I'm going to go through the hospitalization procedures for Shao Qi, you can wait here for him to come out."

"Okay." Gu Ao nodded and continued to wait outside the operating room.

After a while, several nurses pushed Min Shaoqi out.

"Who are the family members?" one of the nurses asked.

"I am." Gu Ao stepped forward and looked at Min Shaoqi who was lying on the bed.

Min Shaoqi hadn't woken up yet, and his face was still pale. If the doctor hadn't said that there was no major problem, it would be really hard for him to feel relieved.

"Let's go to the ward together." After the nurse finished speaking, she pushed Min Shaoqi towards the elevator with the others, and Gu Ao quickly followed.

What Gu Han arranged for Min Shaoqi was a single room. Although there was no escort bed, there was a sofa for sleeping.

After arriving at the ward, Gu Ao walked over, carefully carried Min Shaoqi from the medical bed to the hospital bed, and carefully covered him with a quilt.

The medical bed was pushed away, and the nurse in charge of the ward came in, said some precautions, then hung water for Min Shaoqi, connected various monitoring instruments, and went out first.

Sitting on the edge of the bed and looking at the sleeping Min Shaoqi, Gu Ao suddenly felt lucky to find something lost - he has never been afraid of anything since he grew up.But this time, he was really scared, afraid that Min Shaoqi would really be gone... Maybe everyone has their own weakness, he didn't realize it before, but today he discovered that Min Shaoqi might be his weakness.

Not long after, Gu Han also came over, and brought the coat that Gu Ao wrapped around Min Shaoqi and the pants that Min Shaoqi was wearing.

After looking at Min Shaoqi, he stretched out his hand to test his body temperature, and then checked the values ​​on the monitor. They were all within a relatively normal range, and Gu Han was really relieved.Then he said to Gu Ao: "Don't worry too much. Shaoqi won't wake up for a while, you go back first, change your clothes, and then bring some clothes for Shaoqi to change and wash. His clothes are all wet , for the convenience of the operation, the shirt was cut open, so I just threw it away."

There was also a lot of bloody water and blood stains on Gu Han's clothes. Although it was hard to see because of the dark color, he could still feel that the color was wrong after drying.

After thinking about it for a while, Min Shaoqi really couldn't wear the hospital gown all the time, so he said, "Okay, I'll be back soon."

"Don't worry, I'll stay with him here. I'll call you if there's anything to do," Gu Han said.

Gu Ao nodded, looked at Min Shaoqi again, took the car keys, and left the hospital.

When he got home, Gu Ao turned on the light to brighten up the room, so he wouldn't feel too depressed.

He went to Min Shaoqi's room first, the bathroom light was still on, Gu Ao walked in, drained the blood in the bathtub, and the blade submerged in the water revealed its appearance.Gu Ao picked up the blade, threw it into the trash can, and then simply flushed the bathtub—he would replace this bathtub, not because he disliked anything, but he didn't want Min Shaoqi to see him constantly recalling what happened today.

He also threw away the empty perfume bottle. The strong smell of perfume here can already prove how much Min Shaoqi sprayed.

After turning off the light in the bathroom, Gu Ao opened Min Shaoqi's closet, took some of Min Shaoqi's clothes, and then went to his room, ready to find a carry-on luggage bag to put things in.

Turning on the light in the master bedroom, Gu Ao noticed the paper bag on the table at a glance.When he came back before, he didn't turn on the light. He only glanced at the absence of Min Shaoqi on the bed, and left without noticing the paper bag.

Walking over, Gu Ao saw a folded note under the paper bag, and a third of the note was exposed from the edge of the paper bag, obviously it was put down together with the paper bag.

Pulling out the note and opening it, Gu Ao saw two words written on the first line - suicide note.

This is Min Shaoqi's notes.

Gu Ao took a deep breath, read the content of the suicide note——

Gu Ao:

Sorry, I'm leaving.

Thank you for taking care of me during this time, I know you are very tired, and I... also live very hard.

I know something is wrong with me during this time, nothing can make me happy, even if I stay with you, I still feel depressed, even if I can stay with you, it should be the luckiest thing for me thing.

I'm really sorry for the thing that betrayed you.But I have no choice, I want to save my mother, this is my only choice.

After we separated from you, I didn't get a good night's sleep, but thinking of my mother's recovery, I think it should be worth it.

Unexpectedly, my mother still failed to recover in the end.

Every day I think about why I am alive. My mother is gone, and you are gone. My life seems to have lost all meaning.But my mother let me live well when she was dying, so I lived.But do you know how I survived?I deceive myself and tell myself that you still love me, maybe I can wait for a chance to meet you, you will be willing to listen to my explanation, maybe we still have a future...

And now, I really can't hold on.

You took me in and let me live here, I cherish it very much.

But I heard that you're getting married... I'm afraid you'll tell me that you're going to live here with Ms. Lin soon, and ask me to leave.

I don't want to leave here, and I don't even want you to drive me away.But this is your home, why should I stay here?

So I was thinking, if I die, can I stay here forever?After all, I became a soul at that time. If you can't see me, you won't feel that I disturb you, and I can stay here as I like.Even if you don't live here in the future, if you come back occasionally, I can still see you occasionally, can't you?

Would you be scared to see a bathtub full of blood?Sorry, I didn't mean to scare you.Please don't hate me.

I have a lot to say to you, but I don't know where to start, and maybe you don't want to hear it.So... so be it.

I am leaving.besides--

I love you.

Qi legacy.

Gu Ao raised his head, trying to pour back the tears in his eyes.

This suicide note made him not only sad, but more distressed.

He really didn't know Min Shaoqi's mood during this time, but he could feel that every word Min Shaoqi wrote was true.

However, he did not want to marry Lin Pei, why did Min Shaoqi write about this?

Gu Ao didn't quite understand, probably he could only wait for Min Shaoqi to wake up before asking.

Regardless of other people's mentions, Min Shaoqi has come to this point, he really has to bear the main responsibility.

After that incident happened, he went abroad. He didn't investigate at all, and he didn't want to hear anything about Min Shaoqi.Because at that time, he felt that everything had already happened, and the result was already in front of him, so saying anything was superfluous.Later, he learned that Min Shaoqi was the illegitimate son of the Min family, and he forbade others to mention this matter to him again.

But he didn't know at all that there was also the reason of Min Shaoqi's mother.

Now it seems that he did not do enough in many things, even if he had his own ideas and reasons, he still hurt Min Shaoqi after all.

It is meaningless to say regret now, he must start to face up to the problems he avoided, and solve the knot with Min Shaoqi, and then plan his future with Min Shaoqi.

After this incident, he realized that it wasn't that Min Shaoqi couldn't leave him, but that he couldn't leave Min Shaoqi.

The author has something to say:

Gu Ao: Qiqi, kiss!

Min Shaoqi: I'm still in a coma...

Gu Ao: It's okay, I will kiss you, and you will get better!

Min Shaoqi: Is that so...