Don't be afraid, I will wait for you

Hello everyone, my name is Bai Luoxuan.I fell in love with someone who was taller and stronger than me.In his eyes, I was like a piece of paper. I once asked him why.He said that I was too thin to be afraid of the wind, and I would fly away.By the way, his name is Gu Yan.

I met him for the first time in the autumn seven years ago, and he saved me.He could obviously pretend he didn't see me at all, but he didn't.It's a pity that he left after staying for a few days. I didn't go to see him off. Would he be very angry? I believe he will come back again, but he didn't.I have been waiting for seven years.I don't know how I got here, I just thought about him, giggled, and fell asleep thinking of his name, but I woke up every morning, and finally opened my eyes until dawn.If you really can't sleep, sprinkle tiny needles in every corner, and look for them every morning when you wake up, until you find them all, and repeat this.Otherwise, you will work crazily until your hands are bleeding and you can't do it.

I still remember that time when he was cooking, he didn't even know that the fish had to be gutted.He's so stupid, I thought.On the playground, he said he wanted me to be his wife, but I didn't agree.It's not because I don't like him, on the contrary, I disagree because I like him too much.I don't want him to suffer the same harm as me and be spurned by others.After all, some people say things that really hurt.

That time on the rooftop, we even slept there for one night.I can't believe it, but I admit it was the best sleep I've ever had.He is stupid, and he is always frizzy when doing things.He can't even do little things well, and he often does not help, but I just like the way he is clumsy and finally knows the truth and half understands and doesn't understand.He makes people feel very safe, and I feel that I am not afraid of anything when I am with him.People can't be perfect, but I think he is the most perfect person in my mind.

When I heard that he was going to get married, my heart seemed to be clenched tightly, and I couldn't breathe because of the pain.After that, I went to another place without saying goodbye, and I wanted to forget him.But no, I miss him more and more.I couldn't sleep all night thinking about it, and finally I had to use sleeping pills to fall asleep.I have never eaten spicy food, but for him I started to try spicy food. Every time I ate spicy food, I either burst into tears or went to the hospital with stomach pain.The doctor told me that I had stomach cancer, I didn't have too many thoughts and feelings, it was normal.The only thought was to see him soon, and just like that, I returned to the place that made me sad.I opened a candy store, but I didn't have a name.Many people asked me why I couldn't afford a name, and my answer was "he has another owner, who hasn't appeared yet." Seeing more and more people buying candy from me, I am also very happy.Looking at the smiles on their faces I thought of him.

In fact, when I was traveling with him, I felt that my time was running out.I actually had the urge to not want myself to die.I want to spend more time with him, see him more, and hear him call my name. I am afraid that I will never have another chance.

Before I died, he cried, very sad.I looked at him with a smile. I once said: "If someone sheds tears for me, then I will accompany him until he grows old." But I can't seem to realize it now. Will Gu Yan blame me?What would he be like without me?Will he miss me without me?I think he should.How I want to tell him, I love him!

If there is an afterlife, I would like to love you again.Gu Yan, I love you!

The author has something to say:

Woooooo QAQ is over, this is the only novel I finished for the first time.I am so reluctant, no matter whether it is popular or not, I have put a lot of effort into it.From the name of the protagonist to the plot, I have worked hard to come up with it.I don't write novels to be famous or to earn royalties, I just write novels because I like it.When I first wrote it, I wanted to finish it quickly, but now I feel very reluctant to finish it.Miss the days of rushing to draft? (That's why Le) I feel sorry for Gu Yan and Bai Luoxuan, and envy their relationship, but they are under a lot of pressure.It is estimated that when it comes to homosexuality, most people are disgusted and disgusted.A few people are not (rotten girls? You understand) Although their ending is not very good, but they are also together (although they are together after death) If someone likes each other like Gu Yan and Bai Luoxuan, then cherish each other Bundle.Here in Nanxun, I hope to see you next time.Don't miss me too much QAQ (ghosts will miss you!) Let's go, bye.