I'm really going to die this time

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When they first met Bai Qi'an, they were both only 16 years old.He was also a young and frivolous boy then.I like to play basketball and football, and also like to run crazily and sweat on the field.

Bai Qi'an didn't belong to their school at first, and he only transferred after they started school for a month.

As soon as I came, I was assigned to share the same class with him.

Bai Qi'an looks very good-looking, as good-looking as a little girl, so he is very popular with everyone.He also likes him very much, because besides being good-looking, Bai Qi'an is also a good player.

Bai Qi'an is very lively, full of energy, and especially righteous.So, soon he joined his and Ajiu's two-person team and became an iron triangle with them.They eat, drink, and live together, skip class together, arrive late together, and talk about pretty girls together.Their relationship is very strong, and they are like relatives to each other.

So in the third year of high school, when Bai's father and mother passed away, Bai Qi'an was in pain, and he was also in pain.He picks up Bai Qi'an to school every morning, and sends him back at night.Always pay attention to his mood.But even so, Bai Qi'an was overwhelmed by the sudden death of his parents, the burden of the company on him, his young sister who needed to take care of him, and the burden of studying in the third year of high school.So Bai Qi'an failed the college entrance examination.

He comforted him by telling him to wait for him at S University and to find him next year.He said yes.

Later he met Xue Rufan in college...

After being admitted to S University, Bai Qi'an went to school while dealing with the company's busy affairs.He is very busy and they don't have much time to see each other.

Perhaps it was because of his premature contact with society that he felt that Bai Qi'an was no longer what he knew before.He will speak bureaucratically, flirtatiously flatter people, and he can also say words of appreciation against his will. He feels that this kind of him is very strange, even if Bai Qi'an will try his best to cover up when facing him.But he could tell that he was no longer the original Bai Qi'an.

Gradually he moved away from Bai Qi'an, and they gradually became strangers.Perhaps knowing his deliberate estrangement, after coming to him a few times, Bai Qi'an never came to him again.Even if they met occasionally on campus, they just nodded to each other.

He always thought that they would only be strangers like this until there was no relationship anymore...

But something big happened in his junior year.

Someone uploaded a photo of him and Xue Rufan embracing each other intimately on the campus network, causing an uproar.Although Xue Rufan only had a back view in the photo, it was enough to make them suspect him.The society at that time was not like the later society, people were not so open and could not accept homosexuality.

Later, the teaching director approached him and asked him if that person was really Xue Rufan.He didn't dare to admit it, because if he did, Xue Rufan would be finished. His student status and scholarship would all be lost, and he would be expelled from the school.Then Xue Rufan's life will be ruined.His family is powerful and powerful enough to protect him, but his parents will definitely not protect Xue Rufan.

He couldn't let Xue Rufan destroy it, so he couldn't say it.

Then he walked out of the office and met Bai Qi'an in the corridor.

"I can help you." He looked at him, "but I have a request."

"What request?" he asked.

Bai Qi'an told him his request.

He agreed.

Later, Bai Qi'an helped him deal with the disturbance.

From that day on, he and Bai Qi'an were together...

Bai Qi'an became the back hugging him in the photo, and became the homosexual that everyone hates, while Xue Rufan lived his entire college life peacefully...

They signed a contract to be together for 5 years. The contractual relationship ends after 5 years.

He agreed.

So during college, he and Bai Qi'an were always together, accompanied by the strange eyes and malicious words of his classmates...

He knew that Bai Qi'an was bullied by the campus, he also knew that Bai Qi'an was kicked out of the dormitory by his roommates and luggage in the middle of the night, and he knew that many people laughed and talked about Bai Qi'an behind his back.I don't know how many times the words maliciously slandering Bai Qi'an on the blackboard in the classroom have reached his ears, but he doesn't care...

In his heart, Bai Qi'an should bear all this.

According to the agreement, they lived together for a long time after graduation, getting along day and night.

Due to his close life, he is almost clear about Bai Qi'an's habits.

Bai Qi'an likes to go to the backyard to see the scenery on rainy days, likes to sleep with the lights on, and also likes to lie barefoot on the sofa and watch TV; he likes all fluffy things, and his eyes will shine when he sees a small pet .He has a white shirt with light patterns that he often wears, and he also has a little husky named Tubu.

His every behavior, every movement, even a small expression on his face, he knows what it means.Like, dislike, angry, sad, he knows it all.He always picks what he least likes and cannot accept to do.Deliberately demolished the pavilion in the backyard and gave away his Tubu.He always does childish things to irritate Bai Qi'an, but Bai Qi'an has never treated him badly.

Bai Qi'an is very caring, he has to tell him several times every day to remind him to eat.It is precisely because of this that after Bai Qi'an left, he also got into this habit.He would always remind Xue Rufan to let him eat well.

He always thought that the reason why he knew Bai Qi'an so well was because they lived too close to each other and lived together every day.He never thought about why he paid so much attention to Bai Qi'an?Not only his preferences, but even his micro expressions?He didn't think about it, and he didn't have that awareness.

He doesn't understand that if a person understands and pays so much attention to another person's behavior, then he must care about that person.

He is stupid.

But Qi An has always been very smart.So he must have known.That's why he asked him one day: "Chu Xun, do you fall in love with me a little bit?" His attitude was very cautious, with anticipation in his eyes.

He didn't understand, so he laughed at him.

To ridicule him for being sentimental.

It was precisely because his words and deeds completely deviated from his heart that Bai Qi'an fell into confusion.He doesn't know whether he is right or wrong.That's why at the end of that letter he said, "I don't know anything about you."

In the past, he didn't understand what he meant when he said these things, but now that he was lying on the hospital bed and thinking about it, he really understood.

In fact, Bai Qi'an had already seen through his heart, but he himself hadn't figured out himself.

Ren Jiu said: "A humble person who loves is always worrying about gains and losses."

Bai Qi'an is such a person.

And those who love too late are always too late to regret.

He is such a person.

How great would it be if falling in love could be like two people in the vast crowd who can be in love with each other with just one glance?Don't have so many wasted, so many misses.

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