i have a crush on you

Chapter 14: If, Time

Moonlight, lamp, figure.

Miss you, know you, miss you.

"Finally I'm willing to come back." Hu Hao patted me on the shoulder, even though his appearance hasn't changed because of time, his hard work in the business circle for so many years has made him more calm.

"I will come back as soon as I have time." I smiled, "It's because you are so forgetful."

"You are so heartless! I never pushed back the affairs of the company as soon as you came back. Money can't be measured against you." He said with a smile, "Why do I think you are a little thinner again? Do you know When I look at you from a distance, it's like looking at a telegraph pole."

"I'm a little fatter." I rolled my eyes, "I was either filming or working out in France, and now my body is full of muscles."

"Hey. Show me, why don't I believe it!" He pulled off my white T, pretending to be surprised, "Oh my god, you still call yourself fucking muscular?"

"What!" I took a look at myself, although I was thin but still had 6-pack abs, "You're just jealous, you probably have a beer belly, right?"

"I always want to maintain the image of a handsome man." He smiled, "Have you not eaten Chinese food for a long time? Hot pot? Sichuan food, Hunan food...?"

"Well...anything is fine." I said, "He Shu...why didn't you come?"

"I didn't get in touch with him. I sent him several WeChat messages, but none of them responded to me." Hu Hao said, "Or I'll go to his house to block others?"

"Forget it, he might be busy." I smiled wryly, "Let's go, eat."

"Okay, but what exactly do you want to eat?"

"To be honest, I want to eat pig's trotters."

"Damn." He smiled, "Just eat this stuff."

In the end, the two of us lay dead bodies at my house, and ordered pork trotters, braised pork, Wuchang fish, boiled chicken...

"It's not tasty." Hu Hao picked up the piece of braised pork and threw it into the bowl again.

"I think it's delicious. You have eaten too much for a long time on social occasions, and your mouth is full of food."

"You haven't eaten Chinese food for a long time, and now you'd be happy to eat instant noodles." Hu Hao said, "You won't even go out to eat."

"Hey, I'm homesick."

"Cut, you're just lazy." Hu Hao took out his phone and looked through it, "Why hasn't the milk tea I ordered arrived yet?"

"almost."

"Hey, why hasn't this guy He Shu replied to my message, shouldn't he!?"

"How is he now?" I asked.

After I returned to France, I rarely contacted He Shu.Only occasionally during the New Year and holidays do they greet each other, but the content of the greetings is plain and unfamiliar.

He always chooses to text and uses his first number.

2013. 12, 25

--Merry Christmas

2014. 1, 1

--Happy New Year

2014. 1, 31

--Happy New Year

2014. 2, 14

——Happy Lantern Festival

2014. 4, 5

——Don’t worry, I went to see them for you

2014. 6, 1

--happy Birthday

And every time I reply, there are only two words: thank you.

"This guy has become very weird." Hu Hao said, "Do you know that he is not at work?"

"What?" I was surprised, "When did it happen?"

"Only the first three months." Hu Hao said, "This guy resigned and said he was going to travel. After playing for more than a month, he didn't go to work and stayed in the house he rented every day. I found I passed him a few times, and his room was a mess, with clumps of waste paper all over the floor."

"What is he doing?"

"Who knows! I'm going to pick up the waste paper and he told me to leave. I asked him what's the matter, but he didn't answer. I said let's eat with him, and he's not hungry." Hu Hao sighed, "He's going to She's as thin as you. But actually, I have a guess, maybe it's something on his mother's side."

"Well, what do you say?"

"He told me once before that his mother is married, so he probably feels uncomfortable. Doesn't that man have a son there? I don't think He Shu gets along well with him."

"Have you seen that man?" I asked.

"I've seen it before." He said, "That man had a fight with He Shu. He Shu came to me and said he wanted me to find two people to beat up that man. I wonder who could make him hate him so much. , I went to have a look. That person is not a good guy at first glance, his eyes are sharp and scary, like... a beast."

Yes, it is a beast. That man makes people feel dangerous everywhere.

"Then do you know the reason?"

"What else could be the reason, isn't it some parents' short-sighted shit." Hu Hao said, "He Shu is not easy to blame."

"Well..." I was silent.I don't know when things about him will come from other people's mouths.

"Damn, I finally got back to Lao Tzu's message." Hu Hao said.

I hurried over to take a look, and He Shu sent it - where are you coming from?

Hu Hao sent a voice over, cursing and talking, telling the story of how the two of us got to my house.

Half an hour later, He Shu came.The first time I saw him, my heart broke.

Skinny, maybe it was used to describe him.The complexion is dark yellow, the hair looks like it has been combed deliberately, and the lips are pale. I can't see the person in front of me as the same person as He Shu when he was 17 years old.

He's sick, that's my hunch.

"Long time no see." He smiled, revealing two dimples.

"Long time no see. Why are you so thin?"

Hu Hao: "He doesn't eat every day."

He Shu: "Don't listen to his nonsense, you're just tired."

"Did you eat? Can I get you something else?"

He Shu: "I have eaten, thank you."

"Well...then you drink water." I handed him the water glass.We were too raw before.

Hu Hao couldn't stand it anymore, and exposed us with one word, "Why are you two so embarrassed? Can you talk properly."

"Cut." I couldn't help smiling.He Shu saw me smile and smiled, but what followed was his continuous coughing. I was so scared that I quickly handed over the cup. He took a sip, and then rushed into the toilet as if he was about to vomit.

I looked at his figure with some fear, how did he walk, limping?

I supported him to sit on the sofa, Hu Hao touched He Shu's head and murmured: "This guy has a fever."

I hurriedly took out antipyretics from the front cabinet and gave He Shu a dose, and then made porridge for him in the kitchen.

This guy, the last two times I saw him, he had a fever, what happened to his body! ?

After tossing until midnight, Hu Hao went back, He Shu slept on my bed, and I sat on the chair next to him and watched him.

He Shu is worthy of being He Shu, even if he is so haggard, he is still charming.A tall nose, pouty lips...

I stroked his forehead, and couldn't help but think of some of the past: in the last few months in France, my grades improved very fast, and the biggest contributor to all this was the three letters from He Shu.Those three letters can be said to be my sustenance in France. Without them, I would not be able to go on.Relying on those three letters, I shot many classic works.The teacher said: "I saw a shadow of a person in your work."

I smile, exactly.

His eyelashes were flickering slightly, and his frowning eyebrows refused to be relieved. I scraped from the brow to the end of the brow, and after a few times, the brow finally got a little relief.I couldn't help but took out my phone and took a random photo, thinking: How can I tell that I'm almost 30 years old.

When I was about to leave, I suddenly heard a vibration. I quickly took his mobile phone on the bedside and slipped out, closing the door lightly.

When he was about to answer the phone, the other party had already hung up.What then popped up was a back view.

I recognized it at a glance, this is me when I was wandering in the Blue Moon Valley.

That day, we were actually only one step away from Jade Dragon Snow Mountain.

He Shu already had a strong altitude sickness in Blue Moon Valley. Before that, both of us agreed that altitude sickness was nothing to fear, so we only bought two bottles of oxygen cylinders.Unexpectedly, as soon as the car drove to Yulong Snow Mountain, He Shu began to feel a strong sense of rejection.

We were already a little unable to walk in the Blue Moon Valley, and he was dizzy and looked like he was about to fall down at any time.But he insisted on leaving, breathing oxygen all the time while walking with difficulty.His face was flushed, and he looked very uncomfortable.

But he held my arm and kept reminding me, "Don't look at me, look at the lake—it's really blue."

"Let's go." This is what I said when I was queuing for the ropeway.

"No." He said firmly.

"You can't take it, we're almost out of oxygen tanks."

"You can buy it," he said, "I want to go to the top of the snow mountain with you."

"I've seen it," I said. "Let's go."

"We haven't gone to the peak of 4680 meters yet."

"Go on your own." I pushed away the crowd and ran out. I always thought he would follow soon, but I didn't expect him to come slowly after a long time.

"I almost went in, but when I think about it without you, it doesn't seem to make any sense."

"We'll come later." That was the only thing I could say.

The caller was called Liu Zijian, whom I had never heard of before, but I didn't want to look at his phone casually, so I threw it aside.

I slept on the sofa all night, and it was He Shu who woke me up in the end.

"I'm so sorry to let you sleep on the sofa," he said.

"No, I just fell asleep watching TV." It's true, the TV is still on.

"Well—thank you for taking care of me yesterday—then I'll go back first."

"Wait." I stopped him, "Let's talk."

He smiled, "OK."

"Well - I heard you didn't go to work?"

"Yes, I think it's a bit overwhelming for programmers."

"Then are you going to...?"

"Let's talk about it, I may go back to work later, but I don't want to." He said, "I'm 30 years old before I know it, and I always feel that life is too ordinary."

"No, your life is wonderful."

"You are wonderful." He smiled, "You are so good now."

"Then would you like to do it with me?"

"Huh?" He was taken aback.

"That is, like in 2010, there are only the two of us in the studio. You promised me that I would support me if I ran out of money, but now I say this."

He laughed, "None of us needs to be supported by the other. There is no one between us who must support the other. But thank you, Jiang Tang."

I really can't answer this.It's not my homosexuality that bothers me now, it's my friendship with him.

Walking, walking, why did you disappear.

"But I'll still help out in your studio," he said with a smile.

"Yeah." I nodded, "Actually, I still want to ask you a question."

"What do you say?"

"What happened to your leg?"

"Ha, I hit a car and it hurts a bit."

"It's okay." I got up to get the medicine.

"It's okay, I've already applied the medicine." He stopped me with a smile.

"Is it all right?"

"fine."

Later I left him to have breakfast together. I cooked a pot of porridge and fried two eggs.

"Are you going back to France?" he asked.

"I won't come back." I took a bite of the egg, a little salty, "I won't run around anymore, it's best to walk around in F City."

"When I didn't leave, I always felt that the moon in foreign countries was rounder than that in China." He said with a smile, "But you have become a lot more handsome after leaving the country, why didn't you find a foreign girlfriend."

"I can't be more handsome," I laughed, "and no one likes me."

He laughed even louder, "You are really different from before. You are not so humble."

"After all, I'm 30 years old." I smiled wryly, "It's you, why aren't you married yet? Didn't your family force you? Look at Hu Hao, there will be a banquet next month."

"I'm not going to get married."

"What?" I almost yelled, "Why?"

"Marriage is not beautiful at all." He said in a cynical tone, "Isn't it good to be chic and unrestrained for a lifetime?"

"Tch, you still want to play. After a few years, everyone around you will get married and have children. You also want to get married and have children."

"What about you? When will you get married?"

"I haven't written my horoscope yet..."

"I said, can I ask you one thing?" he said.

"Huh...?" His tone was very strange, "What's the matter, I still have to use the word request."

"Can you get married after 34," he said.

"Why?"

"Is it okay?"

"Why?"

"Just say yes or no."

"Okay." I smiled, "Then can you tell me why now?"

"Because I want to relive the best four years with you."