i have a crush on you

Chapter 3: Maybe Like You

The idea of ​​"like He Shu" came about in the early morning of one day, and I found that I had a morning B.I had a dream, this dream was that I was lying on the bed with He Shu, he hugged my back, and patted my neck with his hot breath.Although he didn't say a word, this silence made the whole atmosphere even hotter.

In the morning, I sat on the bed and recalled this scene, and I felt very hot in my body.

But I told myself in my heart that this is just a man's instinctive physiological reaction, and it's really normal for us to have this kind of thing happen when we are in adolescence.

But there is a voice deep in my heart that occasionally hits me, "You like He Shu."

After all, it is impossible for me to get hard thinking about Hu Hao.

At that time, I couldn't accept the word homosexuality at all. I could bear people jokingly calling me gay, but psychologically I couldn't convince myself at all. Two men kissing and having sex would be too disgusting. Bar.

I pressed the little voice in my heart back to the bottom of the abyss.This is just a physiological reaction, and there is no other explanation.

He Shu and I became the closest friends, so my former friends gradually alienated me. I didn't like this feeling very much, so I forced Hu Hao to form a gang of three.

Hu Hao was very reluctant to play with us at first, he always told me secretly that he and He Shu couldn't play together.But I just refused to let him go, and Hu Hao gradually changed his view of He Shu.

I still remember one time when Hu Hao came to ask me specifically, "Why does He Shu talk so much?"

I laughed from ear to ear, "This is his real face."

The three of us became hard buddies.For us, friendship is so pure, once we become buddies, it is a feeling that will never be erased for a lifetime.

I think my appearance is not bad, and the two of them are also handsome guys, and the three of us are the top two in the whole year, so when we go out, there will always be little girls staring at us.

Of course, most of the talk is not about me.

Hu Hao seemed to enjoy it quite a bit. He always showed off in front of us after receiving love letters, and his girlfriends also talked about one after another.

However, He Shu is the most popular among us, but he has confiscated a few love letters, and those girls can see that he doesn't take this kind of thing-because he always throws the red plastic bag at the door of the class without even looking at it. In the trash can, so these girls always choose to confess in person, as his right and left protector, I am often in an embarrassing situation.

I also like to tease him, and I would ask from time to time, who can each of these beauties like?

Now I understand that the so-called joke is just to ask the question in my heart.I have been testing him, and my secret love has quietly sprouted.

He always looked disdainful and always asked me, "Do you like it?"

"I like it!" It was a joke anyway.

He Shu said "cut", turned his head and left.

At that time, I always chased after him, held him by the neck, and walked together as if nothing happened.

I walked to the station with He Shu every day, but there was a night when he was studying at night, and he suddenly said that he would not go with me today, and I asked him what was wrong, but he refused to say anything.

I had no choice but to go alone.It just so happened that the bus I was going to take didn’t arrive that day. I stood at the station for 10 minutes. When I was about to take a taxi, I saw He Shu, and standing next to him was his rumored girlfriend—— — Wei Xing.

I suddenly realized that He Shu had a girlfriend before that, and had fought for his girlfriend.The relationship between him and Wei Xing seems to be a little unclear. I haven't heard Wei Xing mentioned during the time I've been in contact with him.So I don't know if Wei Xing is his girlfriend now.

I felt extremely irritable watching them together, but I automatically ignored this depression and took it for granted that it was because of the cold weather.

But I couldn't restrain my mouth from asking, and I started to probe again the next day.

I will first lead the topic to the aspect of love, and then ask casually: "Which one do you think is the prettiest in your age?"

"Hmm... Yi Qingxin." He said.

"Who is that?"

"It turns out that the monitor of our class," he said, "was the one who spoke under the national flag last week."

I try my best to recall Yi Qingxin's appearance. She looks very ordinary, not beautiful but very temperamental. She is tall and looks like a royal lady.

"So you like this kind of thing." I said with a smile, "Why don't you chase after it."

"Fuck you. I don't like her, I just think she's pretty and I appreciate it." He changed the subject and asked me, "Then who do you like?"

"Shen Qiao." I didn't even think about it, "I heard that she has a pretty good personality."

"I don't know." He Shu said, "Which class is it?"

"Class 7." I said, "Haven't you heard this sentence? Wei Xing is the purest, Shen Qiao is the cutest, and Ma Wanwan is the sexiest."

"No." He laughed loudly, "Ma Wanwan is the sexiest? Oh my god, you make me laugh."

"You know?" I was a little annoyed.

"A junior high school student. When I was in junior high school, Wei Xing and I were at the same table. She has a good relationship with Ma Wanwan, so I met her by chance. She is so funny, she actually said that she is sexy, and I am dying of coke. "

I didn't listen to anything, only Wei Xing's name kept spinning in my mind, and I smiled perfunctorily to meet his smile.

"Are you familiar with Wei Xing?"

"Well, we've known each other since childhood." He Shu said, "Why, do you like someone else?"

"Damn it, isn't she your girlfriend?"

"My girlfriend?" He shook his head in surprise, "It turns out that I live with her, and we just know each other better."

A big stone fell repeatedly in my heart.

"Did you hear something?" he asked me.

"You were jealous and fought because of Wei Xing."

"Oh." He just nodded but didn't make any further explanations. It's hard for me to ask him. After many years, I still don't know what happened.At that time, I felt that he and Wei Xing had an ambiguous relationship, but he refused to admit it, and I was also very depressed.

"What does Shen Qiao look like?" He Shu asked.

To be honest, my memory of Shen Qiao is really vague. I have never talked to her, but occasionally when I walked to Class 7, the people next to me would always push and tell me: "Look, that's Shen Qiao. Joe."

Shen Qiao is not tall, I always feel very tired standing with Zai and watching her.At this time, someone's words suddenly popped up again: "It's so cute, it completely arouses my desire to protect!"

It is undeniable that Shen Qiao is very cute. She is not the kind of skinny girl. She has flesh where she should have meat, and there is absolutely no fat where she should be thin. I think this is probably one of the reasons why everyone likes her. .

While recalling, I said: "Big eyes, small nose, small mouth—about this high, um—the face is fleshy, the hair has bangs—"

"You are too abstract, half of the girls are like this."

"It's not the same." I said hastily, "Hey, I can't tell!"

"Then don't talk about it, I'm not interested in—"

We fell into silence, and he suddenly leaned into my ear and said, "Happy New Year."

This is just like the scene in my dream, I swallow hard to hide my uneasiness, "New...Happy New Year."

Today is January 1st, and I didn't even realize it.

My life with him was uneventful and very ordinary.Our progress is only limited to the relationship between classmates.

My liking for him was only buried deep in my heart, and I never visited him or wanted him to take root.

But when I am still sleepless, a thought flashes through me, maybe I like you.

Today, when I think back to the 17 years I liked him, it has always been very flat. I didn’t say that I loved him to death, nor did I say how much I wanted to get him. I have always been calm, so calm that I sometimes doubt myself. Love him or not.

But I have to say, I still love him, his appearance makes my heart beat faster, and his sexy behavior makes me have a physical reaction.His presence would disrupt my ordinary life, and my every heartbeat carries his charm.

Others say that secret love is bitter, but I think it is very sweet.

Well...it's actually a bit bitter, he doesn't know, you dare not say it...it's really bitter...