i have a crush on you

Chapter 4: Jiang Tang's Exploration

I can't remember many stories with He Shu.Forgive me, it's been so long that it's really blurry.

But I still remember the feeling at that time.

I was testing He Shu all the time, trying to get out his relationship status and his thoughts on me from his mouth, sometimes I wished I could be a roundworm in his stomach.It can be seen that my possessive desire for him is not as weak as I said above.

The person who keeps saying that I love him but I don't have much intention to be with him, either doesn't love enough, or knows in his heart that although this person can't be with himself, he won't be with others either.

I am very paranoid and sensitive, I have never said that I like anyone since I was a child.When everyone started talking about their love history and emotional views, I was still a blank slate. In order not to be different, I also selected a girl I "like" from the public's aesthetics.

It's a pity that this "like" is too meaningless, I won't think of this girl, and I have no interest in her gossip...

But He Shu always likes to tell me some things about Shen Qiao.He seems to really think that I like Shen Qiao, and he tells me his "exclusive secret" with a smile every day.

I don't know what I was thinking, every time he said something, I pretended to be very interested, and deliberately made a big fuss about Shen Qiao's hobbies that he said.

"At noon, you can accompany me to buy a music box." I smiled silly, "and give it to her in the afternoon."

"Okay." He happily agreed.

Damn... I almost died of depression at the time... But I'm just a showman, laughing with him, from the beginning to the end I didn't know what I was laughing at...

At noon, I didn't even eat a meal, so I went to the mall to buy it.At that time, I didn't want to buy it at all, so I only brought 50 yuan, but the cheapest music box cost [-] yuan. I took the opportunity to say, "I didn't bring so much money, forget it."

But He Shu's reaction was even more excited than mine. He immediately took out two red cards of Grandpa Mao from his purse, pointed to a medium-sized music box and said, "I want this!"

I was taken aback, how expensive is such a big music box, he took the 50 yuan from my hand and handed it to the salesman, "Don't look for it!"

The salesperson smiled and nodded: "Okay sir, do you need to hug me?"

"Bag, make it more beautiful."

I stood there stupidly, angry and depressed in my heart, and I began to question whether I should not show this attitude on purpose.

He Shu seems to have misunderstood me more and more...

He came over with the music box in his hand, and naturally put his hands on my shoulders, I shook my shoulders in a fit of frustration, and shook his hand away.

He frowned and left.

After a while, He Shu came up. He pinched half of my face and asked, "What's wrong with you? Did you spend too much money? Don't ask you to return it to me. It's my love fund for you."

"Heh." I lowered my head and laughed helplessly, and slapped his hand away, "Can you stop pinching me all the time? I'm not a woman."

He seemed to be a little stunned, and quickly put down the arm on my shoulder, "I'm sorry. I will pay attention to it in the future."

He Shu's serious apology made me feel that I was being unreasonable, so I nudged him lightly again, "Just kidding."

He Shu smiled wryly and did not speak.

It was extremely awkward on the road, and I kept looking at him from the corner of my eye, but he always had a look of lack of interest.This is the first time I have tasted heartache. I feel like I have hurt He Shu. I take his kindness to me for granted. I am too presumptuous.

I didn't say until I got to the station, "Later put a coin for me, I'm out of money."

"Okay." He Shu nodded.

The scene once again fell into silence.

I got into the car first, and He Shu paid the money later.But I saw that he fumbled for a long time at the coin acceptor but couldn't find a dollar.

Suddenly he looked at me and winked, and I immediately understood that we were penniless now.

"Master, I don't have any money with me." He Shu scratched his head.

It was the first time I saw him so embarrassed. Although I was also quite anxious, I couldn't help but find it a little funny.

"Go down if you don't have money!" The driver master roared angrily, and then all the dazed people in the car looked at He Shu.He Shu's face was obviously a little dark, I couldn't stand it, so I walked over and stood in front of him-fortunately, I am as tall as him...

"Master, let's get off at the next stop." That's all I can say.

As soon as the next stop arrived, before the driver could catch me, we ran away in one go...

We stood at the station for a long time and obviously didn't realize it. I suddenly felt a little funny and couldn't help laughing. He couldn't help "giggling" when he saw me laughing so happily.Then we both laughed like crazy at the station like idiots.

We didn't care what passers-by thought of us, I sat on the ground laughing and slapped my thighs wildly.He also smiled and squatted on the ground holding his belly.

Youth is really beautiful. After that, I seem to have laughed so unscrupulously only a few times. Until now, I even smile very seldom when I wear a suit and leather shoes every day.

When I was going crazy, he suddenly grabbed my hand, his crooked eyes glistened with tears, the upward curve of his mouth perfectly showed his handsome face, the dimple seemed to be filled with candied fruit It seems that it is sweet to people's hearts.The sun shone on his body, making the worn and dull school uniform extra shiny.Even though the wind was blowing loudly, I felt extremely warm at that moment.

Many years later, the image of the boy squatting in the sun and smiling at me in his school uniform is still imprinted in my mind. For me, that is the best time in my youth.

"It doesn't hurt when you shoot yourself!?"

he told me.

In the end, the two of us walked back, the distance was a bit long but we were very excited, and the embarrassment between us was perfectly eliminated, as the saying goes.We played small fights without really trying to hurt each other.

"How much is this music box?" I asked.

"I don't want you to pay it back."

"I know, but I still want to know how much money you spent for nothing."

"248"

I was about to yell at me, 2 yuan and I can just go back by car!

We looked at each other and laughed like fools again.

When I walked to the school, I was already in the first class in the afternoon. I wanted to sneak in, but I was caught by the head teacher.

She was looking at the window, but she turned her head and looked over as soon as my front foot stepped on the ground.I hurriedly gestured to He Shu, but he walked up without fear and even said hello.

"Hello, Teacher Bai."

good head...

"You two come with me!" Bai Chen frowned, and stepped on the high heels very hard, I thought it was over with him.

"Teacher Bai, I'm sorry." He Shu said first, "I have led Jiang Tang to the ground."

Don't look at him as a high-cold scholar, he has too many thoughts!

"Teacher Bai, I was also at fault." I quickly apologized.After staying with him for a long time, people also become cunning.

I know that Bai Chen is a soft-hearted person. She never makes things difficult for her students. Even if the students make mistakes, she will teach them carefully. Even though I don’t like what she says sometimes, it is undeniable that she is still a very good teacher.

"Oh, that's fine, stop bowing too." She raised our shoulders, "Why did you go? What are you holding?"

"I went shopping. Mom didn't have time to do it, so I bought it for her. I accidentally made it late." He Shu said, "I won't do it next time."

"Okay, okay." Bai Chen heard that there must be something hidden in it, so he couldn't say anything more, "In the future, you can't skip class at will. If you have an accident, the school can't afford it."

"Understood, thank you teacher."

"Okay, let's go in."

In the end, we had nothing to do, and walked in through the front door openly. I still remember the expression of the physics teacher looking at us, with surprise and disappointment in capital letters.

We were often ridiculed by the physics teacher in a class, but I enjoyed it both.

"Return the music box." I said suddenly when I was urinating in the toilet.

"Huh?" He Shu turned to look at me in surprise, "You don't have to worry about money, it's fine."

"What music box?" Hu Hao leaned over.

"It's not about the money."

We walked out together.

He Shu: "Why is that? Are you embarrassed to send it away? I can help you, or ask Wei Xing to give it to her."

Hu Hao: "It's tricky, what big things did you do without telling me? Say, where are you going at noon!?"

"No, neither, I just don't want to send it away."

He Shu: "What's wrong with you? What happened?"

Hu Hao: "Jiang Tang, who do you want to give the music box to? - Who is He Shu?"

"Nothing happened, just—embarrassment..."

Hu Hao: "Fuck, who the hell is it!"

"Let's return it after school."

He Shu: "Are you still reluctant to part with the money? I told you not to worry. If you are afraid of embarrassment, I will send it for you."

"No!" I was a little impatient, but I didn't know what to say. I pushed away the two people surrounding me and ran back to the classroom.

"What happened—?"

Afterwards, the matter fell through.I don't know whether He Shu returned the music box, gave it to Shen Qiao instead of me, or threw it away.

Still a mystery to this day.

He Shu and I have experienced too many farts, many of which were fruitless, I am a casual person, and I don’t want to add to the troubles, so many things just put on hold, sink, and disappear...

Ever since I met He Shu, all my bad habits have come out.I always guess and try, but once the results I get don't meet my wishes, I will be so sad that I lose my temper and show my face.

I really hate this about me, and I'm also very afraid that one day He Shu will find out that I am such a person, and he will not want to associate with me anymore.

I was too cautious, and I was too confused and ignorant.

At that time, I always thought that what I wanted to maintain was a pure friendship. In fact, what I wanted to maintain from the beginning to the end was my goodwill in his heart, and what I wanted to maintain was my bottomless secret love.

Love really makes people stupid, and thinking about it now, I was so stupid and cute.