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Chapter 31 Goldfish and what if

This day was also Ah Jing's rest day, but she couldn't stay with Arlene all the time. Instead, after receiving a call, she dressed up and put on her makeup carefully. After telling Arlene, she packed her bag and went out.

The person who called was Wu Kai, who was Ah Jing's old junior high school classmate mentioned earlier, and now also Ah Jing's boss.Ah Jing made an appointment with him at a cafe near her community.

Ah Jing looked at Wu Kai's face exposed in front of him under the sunlight refracted through the glass wall of the cafe. He has a square face, but the facial features are perfectly matched. When he smiles, there are two big dimples and charming smile cracks. She Feeling in my heart, a man can also be as beautiful as a flower.Wu Kai came to confess today, and Ah Jing was thinking about how to reject him.

"Remember when I asked you to help me raise goldfish?"

"Remember. You said you liked goldfish, so you brought them into the classroom, but you couldn't remember to feed them, so you asked me to. You put the goldfish bowl on the windowsill in the room, and I happened to be sitting By the window."

"Then I fed your goldfish to death. Not only did you not blame me, but you actually got new goldfish and continued to ask me to help feed them, so the subsequent goldfish also died."

"Because I don't know how to feed goldfish, I feed them too much food every time. But you never reminded me."

"I liked you back then. But I was weak at the time and worried about being rejected. Although high school was separated from you, I never forgot you. The days of high school were boring and boring, but I would think that if I become stronger, Find you again and take good care of you. This kind of future is what I want. So in the end, no one expected that I would be the dark horse in the college entrance examination in the third grade of high school. In fact, only I know how I did it Only by paying more than others can we gain more.”

"I am now sure that I want to chase you, and I must catch you."

"But I already have someone I like. I plan to spend my whole life only with her."

"Is he better than me?"

"She has nothing."

"Why then?"

"Because she has nothing, once she realizes what is precious, she will cherish it better than others. That is a talent given to her by her previous difficult experience. That is very important to me."

"If I confessed to you earlier, would it be possible for us? Or if I confessed to you in the third year of junior high school, I had nothing at that time, would it be your choice for you at that time ?”

Ah Jing didn't answer him immediately, and she didn't want to continue answering questions like what if. She sighed, and then said something else.

"Summer has come, the weather is hot, the sun is scorching, you should hide yourself in a cool room for a while, and don't come out, instead of running under the sun, waiting to see the spring flowers bloom, because the spring is gone. You can go and wait for the next season that includes a new spring."

"You make yourself feel like a thick book by saying this, which makes me a little daunting. Although I am really unwilling, since you have made a choice, I should also make mine. I choose to respect you .”

"Thank you."

"Can I give you a hug?"

"can."

Ah Jing then stood up and walked towards Wu Kai's arms, letting him hold her firmly for a while.

Arlene stood not too far nor very close to Ah Jing and Wu Kai, did not hear their conversation, but saw everything.

She immediately turned and left.Walked back to Ah Jing's residence.

She went back to Ah Jing's house, entered the room where she slept with Ah Jing every night in the past few days, lay down on the bed, closed her eyes, and wanted to fall asleep as soon as possible.

But she didn't feel sleepy at all.After Ah Jing confessed to her, she was happy every day and night.I was so happy that I almost forgot that Ah Jing picked it up by chance.Moreover, she lived in Ah Jing's house, and all the food she used was Ah Jing's. Ah Jing also said that the school had already negotiated, and she just waited for the final transfer of the household registration.It's summer now, and school starts in fall.She feels that her life is really like a dream now.In the small county town of my hometown, everyone else graduated from high school happily, but I was the only one who was gloomy.Because what others are about to welcome is light, but oneself is darkness.In the village where my father lives, after school, basically all I have to do is find someone to marry.Why didn't I ever think of finding someone with a good family to marry?But not reconciled.Don't want to just follow the crowd all the time.She also wants to love and be loved, and she wants to prove that life is worth cherishing, even if she has nothing.

She thought of her father again, and thought of his ugliness, and she felt that she was also ugly at the moment.Being insecure in the face of having nothing is ugly.

She saw Ah Jing walking into someone else's arms, and she wanted to grab her, but she didn't have the courage and firmness because she never got it.On the one hand, she desperately longed for a powerful relationship, but on the other hand, she secretly despised that she didn't deserve her.Just like how my fate treated me before, if it wasn't because I wasn't worth it, would fate have thrown all of me into such a weak and powerless family?

For half a month by Ah Jing's side, Ah Jing's own light and heat seemed to fill that dark corner with warmth and emotion, but when she pulled away for a moment, she made herself more aware of how dark she was. and deep.Because she doesn't shine by herself, she depends on others, which is a kind of incompleteness.This incomplete self is incapable of loving and incapable of receiving love.

"Because she didn't give me the ability to believe in the first place."