fall in love with fake straight man

The call was made by the Empress Dowager of Cao Hai's family. Although Luo Fei had promised to keep today's matter a secret, Cao Hai was still a little timid when answering the phone. It wasn't that he didn't believe Luo Fei, but that he and Luo Fei In comparison, Cao Rong is obviously much less reliable.

"Hey, mother, what are you doing? I miss you so much!"

Cao Hai’s mother was taken aback by what Cao Hai said. Usually, this sentence was said by the person who dialed the number. Cao Hai’s grabbing the line made her not know what to say, and she stopped for a while before speaking: "I want to I, you, go home and live, you child won’t listen to what you say, you will know how to be wild when you grow up, and you have to go out and live by yourself, if you are not married, you don’t want to be a mother..."

Cao Haihan, although he has diverted the topic from Cao Rong’s blind date, unfortunately he doesn’t like this topic very much now: “Mom, I stay at home all day, isn’t it disturbing the world between you and my dad? I’m walking now What's the matter with you, Doubao for a walk? Is there something wrong?"

Because of answering the phone, Cao Hai slowed down, but Doubao was still rushing forward vigorously, and Cao Hai, who was brought by the huge force from the dog chain, stumbled and his pace was a little unsteady.For convenience, Cao Hai sat directly on the side of the road, and even put the leash of the bean bag under his buttocks so that it would not run around.Doubao wanted to walk, but couldn't move, so he pressed his big head to Cao Hai's chest in a hurry.

"When it comes to letting you go home and live, you are not happy, you child, it's fine. I just finished calling your aunt here, and she mentioned to me about Cao Rong's blind date, so I thought about chatting with you .”

"What are you talking about? How about I go back to talk about it this weekend..." Cao Hai already knew what his mother wanted to say, but he didn't want to talk about that unsolvable topic at all.

Cao Hai's mother's voice also lowered: "You know procrastination. You have been graduating for several years now, and you don't want to find a good partner. You see, Cao Rong is on a blind date, and she may get married next year. You Being an older brother can make your younger sister come ahead? You don’t think it’s embarrassing.”

Cao Hai closed his eyes and listened quietly to his mother's nagging. Since Cao Hai was 20 years old, this has been a topic that he and his mother will never change. This continued for five years, and until recently, this topic has been appearing more and more frequently.

Cao Hai's head was in a mess, and he didn't know if it was because the movie in the afternoon touched him so deeply that he wanted to drop everything to pursue the "destined person", or because the spring in his heart had finally reached its limit Starting to rebound, he took a deep breath: "Mom, I think, I'm not going to get married."

Cao Hai's mother obviously didn't notice the abnormality of her son: "What stupid things are you talking about, child, how can you not get married when you reach the age..."

Cao Hai interrupted his mother: "Mom, I'm gay, I'm sorry."

There was a busy tone on the phone, I don't know if it was disconnected, or Cao Hai's mother hung up the phone.Cao Hai gripped the phone tightly and buried his head between his legs. He suddenly regretted telling everything. He felt so depressed, just like when a death row prisoner was sentenced, the judge took a short errand and did not read the verdict. , the kind of life with a heart hanging and unable to fall back.

Doubao, who was wandering back and forth, found that the owner didn't seem to want to stand up and continue walking. Finally, he couldn't wait any longer, so he threw himself on Cao Hai, and then ran for fun by himself.

The sudden attack of Doubao temporarily took Cao Hai away from the suppressed panic and remorse. He just stood up and wanted to catch up with Doubao when the phone rang again. It was Cao Hai's mother.

Cao Hai picked up the phone, and there were faint footsteps coming from the other end of the phone.

"Son, I'm going downstairs now, just myself, what did you just say?" Mom's voice was a little empty.

"Mom, the bean bag ran away. I'll chase the bean bag first, and I'll talk about it later." I don't know if my mother heard Cao Hai's words just now, but Cao Hai didn't want to repeat it now, he suddenly seemed to lose hearing the "judgment" I just wanted to find an excuse to run away for the time being—Doubao was having fun in front of me, and in the blink of an eye, I ran out for more than ten meters, and if I didn't catch up, I might lose it.

"What time is it, you still have the mind to control the dog! Tell me what you said just now!"

Cao Hai's mother's voice was almost a roar, Cao Hai knew that he had no way to avoid it, and his mother heard what he said very clearly.

Cao Hai didn't know what to say, so he choked out three words: "I'm sorry..."

On the phone, Cao Hai’s mother seemed to be crying: “I don’t need you to say sorry, you are my son, what are you saying sorry for? You go home now, immediately, immediately! I’ll go to your place now!”

The phone was hung up again, and Cao Hai felt a dull pain in his chest, as if an invisible big hand was slowly squeezing it.

Cao Hai didn't listen to his mother, he didn't want to go home and face his mother who was coming.The bean buns had disappeared without a trace. Cao Hai was alone on the road looking for the shadow of the bean buns aimlessly. He ran when he had strength, walked for a while when he had no strength, and ran a few more steps when he recovered...

The lack of oxygen hit his brain, and Cao Hai felt dizzy and dazzled, but this seemed to be good, at least it made him forget the pain in his heart.

The street lamps on the side of the street are lit one by one, from far to near, and from near to far, until there is no end in sight.Cao Hai didn't find the bean buns. He didn't know if it was because of the lost dog or something else. Cao Hai squatted on the ground and cried hard.He felt that the crying at this time was completely different from that when he watched a movie in the afternoon. This time it was useless to relieve the squeeze in his heart. The feeling of powerlessness and helplessness was still there, and it seemed that he could not even stand up. I have no strength.

There was a rush of people on the side of the road, but there was a few meters of space around Cao Hai, and no one stepped on it.

In this small space, Cao Hai vented his emotions to his heart's content, he was a little confused, shouldn't he tell his mother impulsively just now?Maybe, I should just find a woman, pretend to be a gentle and considerate husband, and then raise my eyebrows and respect each other like a guest, and spend the rest of my life?

But is such a life really good?Is it really right?Perhaps there is no real right and wrong in this world, right and wrong are just the definition of human beings, and it is an axiom that the minority obeys the majority - it is an absolute mistake to deprive others of their lives, but it is absolute justice to shoot the death row prisoner. Is it the truth that most people recognize but contradict?

Follow the majority, give up your "obsession" and "bias", and let yourself stand on the side of "justice", will you still have the happiness you want?But what about the other way around?Throw a hedgehog into a box full of iron balls, even if the hedgehog is unwilling to change, won't it be injured?Catch a tiger from the jungle to the zoo, even if it has food and drink, can it be happiness?

Cao Hai cried loudly, hoping that tears would take away the confusion.

Cao Hai's mother had already arrived at Cao Hai's house. She rushed over from her own house as soon as she received the call, but her son did not come back.She didn't call her son again because she didn't know what to say.

Or she hasn't figured out how to say it, so that her son can change his mind, change his past, repent, and start a new life.She is just an ordinary mother, a woman with little education, who loves to watch the 20 o'clock file most, and can burst into tears watching Yiping jump into the river [-] times.She only knows that homosexuality is wrong and has no good results; she only knows that homosexuality will cause AIDS in the future; she only knows that she doesn't want her son to die just like that...

Cao Hai didn't come back, and Cao's mother started to clean up the house with tears in her eyes, picked up the dirty clothes and threw them into the washing machine, and then started cooking and cooking.It wasn't until it was completely dark that Cao Hai still didn't come back, and Cao's mother, who was a little nervous, started to worry, and quickly called her son.

Cao Hai went home.

Seeing his mother staring blankly at the TV, Cao Hai felt a little sad in his heart. This was not the result he wanted to see. His red, swollen and dry eye sockets became moist again: "Mom..."

"Didn't find the bean bun? Don't worry if you don't find it. Let's eat first, and Mom will help you find it after dinner." Cao Ma saw that Cao Hai came back alone, without leading the dog.Looking at her son's swollen eyes from crying, Mother Cao felt distressed. She intentionally avoided the topic on the phone, comforted Cao Hai, and wanted to persuade him to eat something first to ease his emotions.

The smile on her face was a bit far-fetched, and she ran into the kitchen as if fleeing.

At the dining table, Cao Hai mother and son were eating dinner in silence.

Dinner is very simple, scrambled eggs with tomatoes, fried pork with garlic sprouts, and a bowl of egg drop soup.The fried meat seems to have no salt, but the scrambled eggs are too salty. Since my mother watched the lectures of some experts, the daily salt intake must not exceed 6 grams. An average of 1 gram per dish is considered good.With Cao Hai's tricky tongue, he has already commented on these failures in the past.But now he just stuffed the food into his mouth numbly, imagining how his mother was cooking absent-mindedly just now, he wanted to say something a few times, but seeing Cao Mama's lonely and sad expression, he held back the words .

Before eating half of the meal, Cao Ma's tears fell, one after another, forming a string.

Cao's mother didn't wipe her tears, she looked at Cao Hai with mixed eyes that couldn't be said to be hopeful or desperate: "Son, mom will accompany you to the hospital tomorrow."

The chopsticks in Cao Hai's hand stopped, slowly closed his eyes, and took a deep breath: "Mom, homosexuality is not a disease."

Cao's mother became emotional again: "Why is it not a disease! How can it be a disease to like men! Let's go to the hospital tomorrow to see! If the doctor says there is no cure, you can make me give up!"

Looking at the excited Cao Ma, what else can Cao Hai say?

"Mom, it's Monday tomorrow, and you still have to go to work. I'll take you home in a while. I'll go to the hospital by myself tomorrow. Later, I'll ask the psychiatrist to write a certificate to explain that homosexuality is not a disease. Do you think it's okay?"

Cao's mother's voice became louder: "My son is almost gone, what work do I have to do! I'll come to find you tomorrow morning!"

Cao Hai couldn't understand why being gay meant that his mother had no sons. Even if he said he had nothing, it would mean that he had no grandchildren. Could it be that homosexuality is not a human being in the eyes of his mother?Or are homosexuals not even worthy of being a son to their mother?

Cao Hai moved his mouth, but didn't speak. Now he has no strength to argue.

After dinner, he sent his mother home in silence all the way. After sending his mother downstairs, Cao Hai returned alone.

Cao Hai knew that as long as his mother returned home, his father would know about it immediately.

My mother has a weak personality, can't handle things, and can't hide her words, but my father is a serious machismo with a very violent temper.Cao Hai went out to live alone to avoid his father who had serious patriarchal thoughts.

This night, Cao Hai didn't want to see his father, not because he was afraid of being beaten, but because he didn't want to argue with him.There may be quarrels every day in the days to come, so he wants to stay one last quiet night.

Half an hour later, the phone rang, this time it was Father Cao, Cao Hai turned off the phone without thinking.

Cao's father and Cao's mother are both in their early 50s and have not yet reached the legal retirement age. Both of them are ordinary state-owned enterprise workers.Affected by the historical era, their education levels are not high, but at that time when there was still a big pot of rice to eat, they didn't have to apply for jobs by themselves, so the wages in this city were not too low.

However, thanks to Cao Hai's deceased grandfather, he was very far-sighted and built many bungalows by himself decades ago.It was easy to build a house in those days, and it was not difficult to get a house photo. The Cao family had a thick stack of house books.Later, when Fuze was affected by the country's reform and opening up, when the shantytowns were remodeled and relocated, according to the old man's will, the two sons divided ten properties equally.

After the rapid development of the city, housing prices have also risen rapidly. Of the five properties allocated to Cao Hai's family, two of them are self-occupied, and the remaining three properties are rented out. The rental income has far exceeded his parents' income. salary.It's just that the old people in that era always thought that staying at home and not going to work was nothing serious, so they were still working all the time.

As for Cao Hai and Cao Rong, they were waiting for Cao Rong's father to randomly arrange a non-tiring public position.Cao Rong's father is a legendary beast. It is not too difficult to find a way to arrange it, but the old man is not satisfied with the positions he has seen in the past two years.The biggest requirement of Cao Rong's father's preferred unit is: work leisurely, don't have the opportunity to touch money, don't have any rights, and don't give the two children the opportunity to make mistakes.I have a house and money at home. In this city of tens of thousands of yuan per square meter, five properties have more liquidity than some small businesses. I don’t need to use those jobs that have the opportunity to make mistakes to give my children a mentality test.

In the eyes of Cao Rong's father, it is a blessing that the child is safe and sound. Therefore, both Cao Hai and Cao Rong have graduated successively, and they are not in a hurry to find a job, and they are still "squatting at home" in glory.

There is no need to worry about work, and there is no need to worry about money. Cao's father and Cao mother naturally put all their attention on Cao Hai's marriage.What happened tonight was undoubtedly a violent earthquake for the Cao Hai family.

The author has something to say:

Yesterday, I accidentally saw the backs of two men holding hands. Looking at their clothes, I guess both of them are over 50... If they are over 50 and hold hands, that is definitely true love!

I chased forward excitedly for a long time, pretending to turn around and call my fat man, took a look, and then found that it was a 40-year-old uncle leading a teenage child! ! !Why do you wear such old clothes for your children! ! ! !The beauty in my heart is shattered...