Can you bend it?forget it

Qin Xiang and Huo Haoze went downstairs together and wandered around the campus.

"Hey, your school is much more comfortable than ours. Even the air is free, unrestrained and comfortable. It's not like a prison in ours."

Qin Xiang put his hands in his pockets and blew the night wind: "What do you want to say to me?"

"You haven't responded to my messages recently."

"There's nothing to say, I don't know what to reply."

"I asked you and you didn't come out, Zhan Xinchen took you too seriously, so I had no choice but to come to block you."

Qin Xiang stopped and tilted his head to look at him: "Stop me?"

"Yeah, it's hard to meet you. Zhan Xinchen even got you out on the weekend, and I can't get a date with you."

"Why are you dating me?"

"Can't you see?"

"what?"

Huo Haoze sighed softly: "I'm chasing you!"

"..."

Huo Haoze: "Don't make that expression of disbelief, I've been seeing you for a long time, I've liked you since the first time you climbed our wall."

Is he joking?First time climbing a wall?Never seen him.

"That day I hid under the wall to escape morning exercises, and then I saw you jumping from the crooked neck tree to the top of the wall, the movement was very handsome, like a little cheetah, and then I found that you came almost every day, and sometimes I watched you for a long time below You didn't realize it, but now you know that you were peeking at Zhan Xinchen." At the end Huo Haoze was a little sour.

Did Qin Xiang never know that his alertness was so poor?There was a person who watched him from below for a long time and didn't even notice?If it is really beautiful, it will make you dizzy.

"I thought it would take a long time to slowly bend you, but I didn't expect that I guessed wrong. To be honest, I am very happy. This made me overcome the biggest difficulty. It doesn't matter even if I know you like Zhan Xinchen, because he is so It is impossible for this kind of person to be with you, so I will make a number first."

At this moment, Qin Xiang didn't know whether to cry or laugh, and was still ranked. Is his love so elusive?Even Huo Haoze felt that it was impossible to succeed...

"Qin Xiang, I have enough patience to wait for you to give up on him, but I'm not some kind of lover, I won't give my heart to you like a fool before you forget him," Huo Haoze suddenly reached out and nodded at him Temptation flashed in the peach blossom eyes: "When you forget about him, I will love you well, but not yet, so you don't have to worry about it, but... I won't go far, wait And you……"

After Huo Haoze left, Qin Xiang felt as if he was still in a dream, and suddenly such a strange person came to tell him that he was interested in him, but he would not love him now, until he forgot about Zhan Xinchen Come to love him again, still ranked?

Alas, an old man who once threw a snake at himself, where did he get his confidence?

During the summer vacation, Qin Xiang was not persuaded by Huo Haoze to go to the beach, because Zhan Xinchen said that he would take him to go rafting on a bamboo raft.This is the first time the two are planning to travel. Qin Xiang was so excited that he didn't sleep for several days. He packed the suitcase over and over again at home, and waited anxiously for the day to go out with the air ticket. There are still three days, tsk tsk, it's really long ah--

As soon as Zhan Xinchen came back from outside, he saw his father sitting in the living room with a gloomy face. Zhuang Xinlei was also accompanying him. When he came in, his father went into the study irritably.

"What happened to my dad?"

"Oh, something happened to the old Fan's downstairs. In the past few days, many people have come to check on you, Uncle Fan. Your father is also worrying about it."

"Uncle Fan? What happened?"

Zhuang Xinlei sighed heavily: "You know the Yuyang of Uncle Fan's house, you have met him a few times, he... he and the son of his father's driver's house are on good terms, alas, what do you mean by this, let's be good together The judge has so many girls waiting for him to choose, and he actually fell in love with a man, tell me, isn't it scary!"

Zhan Xinchen suppressed the shock in his heart: "Is this related to the investigation of Uncle Fan?"

"This matter was fanned by you

Uncle found out, and you know his temper. Like your father, he is a group of people who retired from the army, and they all have very upright personalities. What he did in Yuyang was a little extreme, and he exposed his personality. Not to mention the driver's job for the rest of his life, he also ruined his son, was expelled from the university, and was beaten until he was lying unconscious in the hospital. Alas, to be honest, you, Uncle Fan, did not do it properly. , but the parents were also very angry. "

"What about Yuyang?"

"He's at home, and he hasn't gone to work recently. His father was sued by the driver. I went to see him in the morning. He takes care of his mother at home."

Zhan Xinchen went back to the house and sat in a daze for a while, feeling inexplicably irritable, the heat outside the window had dissipated, and the cool moonlight was bright and pure.

He casually took a pack of his father's cigarettes and went out to the roof. There was a roof on the roof, and Zhan Xinchen had never been there before, but he suddenly wanted to think about something tonight. It was quiet and remote enough that no one would disturb him.

When he opened the door and went up, he thought someone was going to commit suicide, but after a closer look, he realized that it was Yuyang sitting on the edge of the roof smoking a cigarette.

There are many high-rise buildings around, and there is a deep loneliness in the darkness from the back.

If it was before, Zhan Xinchen might have turned around and left, but today he hesitated and walked over.

He doesn't have a deep friendship with Yuyang, he just had dinner with his parents a few times, he is five years older than himself, so they can still chat with each other.

In his impression, Yuyang has always been a very calm and introverted man, so when he just learned about this incident, he was greatly shocked.

Yuyang turned around and saw that he didn't react too much, and continued to sit and watch the distant lights and smoke.

"Can we chat?"

"sit."

Zhan Xinchen sat next to him: "Can you tell me about you and him?"

"With Ji Ran? Well, we've actually been together since college."

"You know your father..."

Yuyang smiled wryly: "At that time, I was about to leave in college, and he was crying badly. I couldn't help it. I thought that after I became independent after work, I could protect him with my own ability, but I didn't expect... just want to be together. , it’s so difficult. The world is so big, but I can’t find a place where I can spend my whole life with him..."

"Our father will be harder to accept than other families."

"Yes, it's because I knew this that I kept hiding it, but I still can't hide it..."

After hesitating for a long time, Zhan Xinchen asked the possibility he had thought about: "What if we don't follow their request anymore? Don't hang out in this circle, and take him to live in another environment."

"Hehe, do you think it's possible? We've stood taller than others, but we still can't control our own lives. In the gay world, if we want to live the life we ​​want, we have to stand at the top, and no one can control you. Otherwise, you will end up like me, just because your lover is the same gender as you, anyone can trample you to death."

"The only thing I regret now is that my father and Ji Ran's father are involved. It's obviously just about the two of us, but so many people have jumped out and would rather die together than destroy this relationship. This makes them feel a great shame. Relationship."

Yuyang wiped the tears from the corners of his eyes: "He hasn't woken up yet, I go to see him every day, but he has been falling asleep like that... They are all sacrificing and falling for this matter, and I am the only one left to bear it." Such pain... Zhan Xinchen, if it were you, what would you do?"

Zhan Xinchen faced the night wind and thought for a long time: "I might not start. If there is really no way to change it, and the final result is like this, I would rather he cry for a while at the beginning and then gradually forget, than he would suffer in the end." As long as he suffers as much as possible, he can live in peace forever."

Yuyang chuckled: "That's because you haven't met the person who made you lose control. When you meet him, you will know that all forbearance will collapse in front of him. If he cries, you won't be able to leave your footsteps at all." ..."

Zhan Xinchen looked at the boundless darkness in the distance in confusion, only feeling a glimmer of light

I can't even see it, it seems that the future will always be this black, without seeing the sun...

Zhan Xinchen sat with him all night, went back to his room and locked himself in the room for another day. Yuyang's words echoed in his mind thousands of times. Ji Ran who was expelled from school, Ji Ran who was lying in the hospital, Uncle Fan who is still under investigation by the Commission for Discipline Inspection, father Ji who has no support for the rest of his life, and Yuyang who has unlovely eyes... All this has played out countless times in his mind, there is no hope in sight, only endless harm... …

On the morning of the departure, Zhan Xinchen took out the packed luggage again, and hung them up one by one.

He took out his mobile phone and dialed Qin Xiang who was still waiting for him at the airport.

"For travel, I can't go."

"What's the matter? Not going?"

"Well, not going."

"Why? Are you busy?"

"No……"

"Are you kidding me? Come to the airport quickly."

"Qin Xiang..."

"Ok?"

"We... don't wait for me, I won't go."

"?"

"Huo Haoze is actually a good choice..."

"..." Qin Xiang held the microphone and gradually lost his smile: "That's not what you said a few days ago."

"If you want someone to talk to, it's him."

"……Can you say that again."

Zhan Xinchen opened his mouth, but found that he couldn't say it a second time.

"Did something happen to you?"

"No," Zhan Xinchen closed his eyes: "Nothing happened, it's just that I suddenly don't want to be so selfish anymore. I should let you understand earlier, don't waste time and affection on me."

Qin Xiang held his breath and asked for a long time: "...you want me to find Huo Haoze?"

"Ah."

"You want me to no longer have hope in you?"

"Ah."

"No matter what I do you won't change your mind"

"Um,"

"Okay!" Qin Xiang pulled up the suitcase and went out: "You wait at home!"

"Qin Xiang!" Zhan Xinchen's hand holding the phone began to tremble: "Last time you said that you wanted me to include you in my future plan, I've thought about it for the past few days... I thought clearly and definitely, I want to say— —I’m sorry, I can’t have you in my future plans, sorry!”

Qin Xiang stopped in his tracks, the airport radio and the noise of people coming and going around him suddenly disappeared. A sharp tinnitus vibrated and reverberated in the eardrum for a long time, causing the temples to swell and ache.

Chaotic breathing intertwined in the quiet microphone, the air was so quiet that Zhan Xinchen could clearly hear the announcement from the airport over there, and the sound of people pulling suitcases.

Time seems to have passed a century so long...

Qin Xiang gritted his teeth, and said slowly: "Huo Haoze, right? Very good, I also think he is very good, don't worry, I won't bother you if I have him, wish me a pleasant journey, goodbye!"

The voice from the phone disappeared, leaving only the cold mechanical echo...

It was obviously the most correct choice, why did the whole world wither after I finished speaking, and the gorgeous light that illuminated my sky was finally blocked by myself, and there was no longer any hope for the long road ahead...