I'm fine during the day

Today is the third day we have lost our way in Dashishan.Twilight shrouded the mountain again, and my heart was as heavy as this dark night.

Fortunately, Yu Xia was by my side to comfort me from time to time.Yu Xia and I are best brothers, my character is slightly pessimistic and cowardly, while Yu Xia is calm when things happen.If it wasn't for him, I'm afraid I would really collapse.

A few days ago, the school held a grand graduation ceremony, and the students who were facing a breakup seemed very disappointed.Yu Xia and I are not sad at all, we are planning the future with great interest, intending to stay in this city for a long time.

I heard that Fangyuan Company will be recruiting in a week. We plan to apply for the job together. If God favors us, we can stay in the same company.

I proposed to Yu Xia to climb a mountain before recruiting, and he readily agreed.Two days ago, we came to Dashi Mountain, where travel friends like to travel at night.Usually, Yu Xia and I like to climb mountains, and we also have the experience of staying overnight, but this time, we got lost.

Originally, we were supposed to take the path that travel friends often take, but I found another sloping path, so I decided to take that one.Yu Xia was a little worried, but seeing that I was full of confidence, she still accompanied me on the road.Along the way, I laughed at him as a coward, but he just smiled and didn't refute.

The more we go, the more we feel that something is wrong. When we want to return to the original way, we can no longer find the way we came from.We didn't sleep the first night, and spent the whole night wandering on the dark mountain.The next day, we still hadn't found our way back.My mood became more and more anxious, while Yu Xia became calmer.

We didn't bring much food with us, and on this day, we ate very little.At night, we take turns to be on duty, one of us sleeps, and the other pays attention to the light illuminated by nocturnal visitors.Once again we were disappointed.

Today during the day, we have only a little water left, and the last dry biscuit.The pancake that we usually look down on is so precious now, we are not willing to eat it, and we only ate a small tooth.

In the afternoon, I felt dizzy, and now, I feel like my head is going to explode.Yu Xia and I struggled to set up the tent, I don't know if it's because I'm too hungry or the mountain wind is getting stronger, I just feel cold all over my body.

"During the day," Yu Xia asked me, "are you too hungry, why don't you eat some more pancakes?"

"I'm not hungry." I said weakly.

We've pitched our tent.Yu Xia said: "Take a break, I'll get a moisture-proof mat." He got into the tent.I held on to the tent, my feet were soft, and I thought I couldn't hold on any longer.

Yu Xia poked her head out: "It's fine."

I got into the tent and sat down on the mat.

"What's wrong with you?" Yu Xia looked at me through the faint light of the flashlight, "Are you sick? During the day, I can see that your face is not right."

"I have a terrible headache," I said.

Yu Xia reached out and touched my head: "You have a fever."

I think so.Maybe I can't make it through tonight.My heart is in a mess, my life has just begun, but now, is it really about to end?

Yu Xia stood up, and I blurted out: "Don't go."

Yu Xia turned around and smiled at me: "I'll get you some antipyretics. Take some, and you'll be fine tomorrow."

He took the medicine, poured a little water, and squatted beside me to watch me drink the medicine.I only took a small sip, just enough to drink the medicine.

"Drink more, drink more water if you have a fever."

I shook my head.

"Go to sleep, you'll be fine after a short sleep. I'll go outside and have a look." Yu Xia turned off the light, and the whole world turned black.

"Don't go." I said.He stopped.I said, "Stay with me for a while."

In the dark, Yu Xia sat down beside me.

"Yu Xia," I said, "I'm scared."

"It's okay," Yu Xia said with a smile, "Once you take the medicine, you can take it again tomorrow morning at most, and you'll be completely healed." Yu Xia clearly knew what I was afraid of, but he was just changing the topic.

"You said, do we never get out again?" I still expressed my inner fear.

"Ha, no." Yu Xia smiled, "I have a premonition all day today, and I will definitely meet a donkey friend tonight, so don't worry."

"No." I was a little sad.

"I do have a hunch. Trust me, okay?"

"But I'm really scared."

My head rested weakly on his shoulder, he hesitated for a moment, then hugged me.In the dark, we can hear each other's breathing.

"Don't be afraid, during the day." Yu Xia said softly but firmly, "With me here, don't be afraid of anything."

"Okay, I'm not afraid." I said, tiredness flooded in like a tide, and I closed my eyes.

I am dreaming.In the dream, I came home.I had a fever, and my mother sat by my bed, touched my forehead with her hand, and looked at me tenderly.

I tried hard to open my eyes, but couldn't.Mom looked at me for a while, then stood up and walked away. I said, "Don't go." I woke up all of a sudden.

I'm lying in my sleeping bag.Did I fall asleep in Yu Xia's arms last night?And how Yu Xia moved the heavy me into the sleeping bag, I don't know all of this.

Hearing my words, Yu Xia turned on the flashlight, and his slender figure appeared in the dim light.He turned to look at me: "Are you awake?"

"What are you doing?" I asked him.

"I'll go out and have a look." He said, "I touched your head just now, and it's not so hot anymore." It turned out that he was touching my forehead in my sleep just now to see if I still had a fever.

"But my head still hurts." This sentence is obviously a grievance, because my head is indeed much better than before going to bed.

"It should be fine to take the medicine again in the morning." He came over and sat beside me, facing me.He patted me lightly through the sleeping bag and comforted me softly, "During the day, be strong."

"what time is it now?"

"It's three or four o'clock, you can sleep for a while. Huh?" He put the flashlight by his feet, put his hands around his mouth, and blew air with his mouth to keep warm.

There was no sign of sleeping in his sleeping bag, and it seemed he had been outside keeping watch.His premonition did not come true, and there were no friends who climbed the mountain.

Although he has a smile on his face, I know how forced his smile is.Although my head didn't hurt so much, my heart was in despair, as if I had fallen into a boundless abyss.

"If we really can't make it through, will you regret it?" I asked him.

"We'll get through this." He looked at me and said, "Trust me, okay? You go to sleep, I'm right here."

"But, if we really...really die..."

"Don't say such things, during the day, we will be fine."

I said desperately, "I mean if, would you regret it?"

He shook his head.

I blamed myself: "I shouldn't have dragged you up the mountain."

"I don't regret it." Yu Xia stared at me for a while, then said, "Even if we really can't make it through and die with my best brother, I won't regret it."

But, how regretful I am, why did I ask La Yuxia to climb the mountain?Not only did I kill myself, but I also killed my best friend, best brother.This time we climbed the mountain, we did not tell other friends and family members. If we died, they may not know until a long time later.

"If we are going to die now, don't you feel sorry?"

"Being able to die with you, I don't think I have any regrets. It's just... I don't have the opportunity to be filial to my parents, and I feel sorry for them." Yu Xia said.

"Yeah. My parents might cry."

We stopped talking.

There are mixed feelings in my heart, and I don't know what it feels like.

"I think I must die before you." I broke the silence.

"Stupid, if we die, we will die together." Yu Xia interrupted me.

"I have a hunch that I will die first." I said stubbornly.

"Let's die together." Yu Xia looked down at her toes, "If you die, I can't live alone, right?"

My heart skipped a beat.Maybe, I know what he thinks.Only, he never said it.

I thought for a while and asked him, "I want to know, if I were to die now, what would be the last words you would say to me?"

Yu Xia was silent for a while.I looked at him, but he just lowered his head and didn't look at me.I also looked elsewhere.I wondered if I shouldn't have asked him that, but I wondered what he would say.

"daytime."

"kindness?"

I looked at him, and he was looking at me tenderly.Our eyes met, and there was an ocean in his eyes, and I thought I heard my own heartbeat.

His eyes were watery, and then he said, "I love you."

Yes, this is the answer I want.I said softly, "Me too."

He smiled, his smile was a ray of sunshine in the dim light, and he said, "Say it."

I said, "I love you."

Our breath is clearly audible.He leaned over and I closed my eyes.At this moment, my stomach growled untimely.

This sound broke the ambiguity just now.I opened my eyes and smiled at him: "I'm hungry."

He stood up and brought over half of the remaining pancakes.I tore off a small tooth and said, "You can eat some too."

"I'm not hungry." He picked up the flashlight and stood up. "I'll go out and have a look."

"You can sleep for a while too." I advised him.

"Okay. Then don't get up, anyway, there is no one to wait for at the moment. Let's all sleep for a while."

Yu Xia turned off the flashlight.He opened the sleeping bag and got in.As soon as he closed his eyes, he fell asleep.I know, he's too sleepy.

The sky has become slightly brighter.I didn't feel sleepy anymore, looking at him in his sleep, I fell into deep thought.

Yu Xia and I were classmates in high school. At that time, my parents were only busy with work and left me in the city where my grandfather lived.Being away from home, I feel very alone.Fortunately, I got to know Yu Xia not long after school started.Yu Xia is not a local either, his parents are doing business here, so they brought him here to go to school.

We became very good friends.We studied together, we went on field trips together, and it was good as if we were the same person.On weekends, he took me to their rented house.His parents are very good and treat me like their own son.

In the second half of the third year of high school, my grandfather passed away, and I was hit hard.Mom and Dad wanted to take me home, but I refused.There are still a few months to take the exam, and they didn't force me, they just sent me a lot of money.But that's not what I want.

In those days, Yu Xia was always by my side, and he even asked his parents to enlighten me.Their care helped me get out of that difficult graduation season.Yu Xia's academic performance is a bit better than mine. Originally, he could have been admitted to a better university, but because of our good relationship, he chose to apply for the same university as me.In college, we are still very good friends.

Once, he said to me with a heavy heart: "I think I may be different from others."

I said: "You are so good, of course it is different."

He shook his head, then said shyly, "I don't think I like the girls around me very much."

"What do you mean?" I asked him.

"I don't know either." He mumbled.I understand, my heart is jumping for joy.I was very afraid that one day, a girl would snatch him away, but now, I don't have such worries.I very much hope that we can maintain this kind of friendship, without the disturbance of outsiders, and there will never be a day when we are separated.

But I still said, "Maybe one day, when you meet a nice girl, you won't say things like that."

He smiled and stopped talking.He didn't tell the truth, and I won't tell the truth again.We never brought up that topic again.But tonight, he told me plainly, I love you.During the day, I love you.I thought of his gentle eyes, and I was intoxicated again.Me too, I said softly again.

I think we may not survive today.On the last day of life, with his company and his gentle "I love you", this life is enough.

Probably due to the effect of the medicine, I fell asleep again in a daze.This time in the dream, it was him.His head came closer to me and I closed my eyes.His lips kissed mine.

Sweet Dream was awakened by his surprise sound.I don't know when he woke up, he called me outside the tent, "Come during the day."

I hurriedly crawled out of the sleeping bag, my heart was beating wildly.I went out and there was no one around.I looked at him suspiciously.He said, "Did you hear anything?"

I listened attentively, and there was the sound of singing folk songs.Usually, the nearby mountain people don't go to this mountain when they go out, but there are also some old mountain people who occasionally choose to walk through the big stone mountain.

"Help. We're lost, is there anyone?" Yu Xia shouted loudly.I also joined the shout.

Finally, a voice from a mountain dweller came from far away: "Where are you?"

My heart is about to jump out of my body. At this moment, I feel that my whole body is full of strength. Yu Xia and I said loudly together: "We are here, we are lost." The voice was transmitted along the valley, and our shouts were everywhere Voice.

"Stay where you are, I'll go find you." The mountain man's voice came again.

"We're saved." I was ecstatic.

"Yes, we are saved." Yu Xia's eyes sparkled.

We looked at each other, and Yu Xia gave me a big hug.